So I was just browsing through the free section for my local Craigslist. What can I say - I'm a sucker for free Christmas decorations :) ...actually, addict may be more like it.

Anyway, I kept noticing "Turkey Dinner" written on many posts. For some reason, a case of the blond struck me hard and I thought it meant like a little ceramic set up decor thing..like a Christmas nativity set?? lol I know it was stupid - no need to point it out.

However, after about the 12th one, I realized..."Surely nobody owns that many fake turkeys..." so I checked the post out. These people (all 20 that I counted so far) are taking their own time and money (and gas to deliver) and buying extra Thanksgiving Day type foods (turkey, stuffing, pies, veggies, etc). Some are even doing 2 or 3.

The generosity of some people amazes me, at times. It's hard to believe that I go from one section of the site where someone is asking $35 for a used, plastic toy tractor (wtf??? greedy???) to almost 2 dozen people willing to help OTHERS who have no means of having a Thanksgiving dinner. Most of these givers made sur to note "We are not rich by any means, we simply want to help." It almost makes me want to cry.

But then I notice that some are having to make a statement about "Please don't lie about your situation to get free food. This is for someone who actually NEEDS it." I find it quite saddening that a statement like that even has to be made.

There are people out there who really do need this food - even if not for T-Day, just in general! - and others are going to try to swoop in and get it by lying, just to save $20. Really??? That's messed up.

Another good gesture...tainted by the greediness of others - and during the Holidays at that!!


Regardless, I'd like to say to those who are doing something like this (even if you just now read this and think it's a good idea! lol) - bravo. We need more of you in this world. If I had the money, I would be doing it as well.

To those of you who do disgusting things like lie and say that you are so broke just to save a few bucks and take advantage of these good hearted folks - screw off. We need LESS of you.


Happy Turkey Week, errrrybody!! :)

Random thoughts from 25-35 year olds

- I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

-More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can
think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell
my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves
me.

-Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you
realize you're wrong.

-I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to
have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and
sticks when they've invented the lighter?

-Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're
going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to
be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the
direction from which you came, you have to first do something like
check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to
yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're
crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

-That's enough, Nickelback.

-I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

-Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know"
feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose
not to be friends with?

-Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't
work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically
fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all
know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards
or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.

-There is a great need for sarcasm font.

-Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and
suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first
saw it.

-I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually
becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting
90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's
laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little
bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the
only one who really, really gets it.

-How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

-I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than
take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

- I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear
your computer history if you die.

-The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to
finish a text.

- A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the
spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

- LOL has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".

- I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

- Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron
test is absolutely petrifying.

- Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart",
all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

- How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod
and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?

- I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up
to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

- Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in'
examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete
idiot. Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and
said "Yes that's G as in...(10 second lapse)........ummm.....Goonies"

-What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

- While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and
i nstinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.

- MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I
know how to get out of my neighborhood.

- Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the
person died.

- I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the
shower first and THEN turn on the water.

-Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty,
and you can wear them forever.


-I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

- Bad decisions make good stories

-Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their
profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got
the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if
I do!

- Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

-If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring
would probably just be completely invisible.

-Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go
around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly
nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be
a problem....

-You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work
when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything
productive for the rest of the day.

-Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't
want to have to restart my collection.

-There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are
going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

-I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me
if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I
swear I did not make any changes to.

- "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

-I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people
watching TV. There's so much pressure. 'I love this show, but will
they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren't
watching this. It's only a matter of time before they all get up and
leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'

-I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello?
Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and
goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone
and run away?

- I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not
seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

-When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she
hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light
internet stalking.

-I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle,
then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

-Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising
speed for pedophiles...

- As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers,
but no matter what the mode of transportation,.. I always hate cyclists.

-Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still
not know what time it is.

-It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

-I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to
answer when they call.

-Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn't know what do to with it.

-Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car
keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the
Donkey - but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze
button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time
every time...

-My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day "Dad what would
happen if you ran over a ninja?" How the hell do I respond to that?

-It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and
the link takes me to a video instead of text.

-I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they
drive behind obeys the speed limit.

-I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

-I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or
Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a blog with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to your blog, paste these instructions in the body of the blog, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people...)

1. I just tried to rub my eye, and now it hurts really bad...idk wtf I did.

2. I'm ultra motivated and excited about going back to school, but scared of failing

3. You should buy my photo prints! :) www.redbubble.com/people/kerryjovita

4. I should probably be taking a shower and going to bed, instead of doing this.

5. I suffer from a lot of things, but most would never know unless I told 'em.

6. I always "What if...?" the hell out of everything.

7. I just scratched my head. And eyebrow. How the ffffk does an eyebrow itch??

8. I have five (count 'em, FIVE) bruises on my arms and legs.

9. Referring to #8...I have no idea where ANY of them came from.

10. I watch Nick at Nite EVERY night before bed. No matter what.

11. My first week of school starts tomorrow...I already completed all my assignments for the week.

12. I pee probably 30 times a day, even if I'm dehydrated. But nothing is wrong with me. Maybe small bladder?

13. I need glasses to read. But according to the optometrist as of yesterday, I have 20/20 vision. Hmmmm.

14. I want a dog. But I'm allergic. I think I'm gonna get one anyway. Eventually.

15. Birds scare the pissss outta me. I have no idea why.

16. I think humorous and protective are the two sexiest thing a person can be.

17. I can't have serious conversations for more than 15 minutes, because my thoughts start racing and I can't coherently say what I'm thinking.

18. I took my lip ring out :-/ My lips are chapped because I was used to playing with it, and am now biting my lip instead of the ring...

19. I can't wait to be an elementary school teacher. It's gonna rock.

20. I miss a lot of things about home (Virginia), but I wouldn't wanna live there ever again.

21. As crazy as it sounds, especially compared to 7 or 8 months ago, I want to live in Maine. Forever.

22. I want to punch a lot of people in the face. Hard. But probably never will. I'm too nice.

23. I have a beauty mark on the top of my butt :)

24. Tattoos and piercings are flippin hot.

25. I think I might go to bed now. I have a long day tomorrow.


I've tagged:
- Atkina S
- Ashley BH
- Dawn E
- Mara R
- Christina
- Kimberly S
- Laura F
- Ina Ina
- Jessica G
- Sheonna
- Mariana
- Donna
- Hubs

and that's all. Cuz I'm limited on friends :)

I took a Facebook quiz (yeah cuz I'm lame and have nothing better to do...or I'm just procrastinating cleaning...).

The quiz was "What book of the Bible are you?" I got the result "Numbers". Never read it, but the statement about it was quite true to me...


"You're good with things that can be counted and sorted, a great classifier. Detail is your forte. You may give others the impression that you're staid, but a close friend will learn that you have some shocking quirks that may approach the level of fetishes. It's OK to set high standards for yourself--that's why you accomplish so much--just make sure you give yourself grace when necessary, too. "

So, David will be 4 in a few weeks. It's ridiculous how fast the time has gone by. Four years ago, I was miserable with life. I couldn't wait for my son to be born, but he was two weeks late ...in August....in Virginia. I was physically miserable, as well as, hated most of everything I had going on in my life.

In just a few short years...life has completely flipped around. If someone had told me five years ago that I'd be married, have two children, and be living in Maine (and actually like it! lol)...I'da slapped em and said "You're crazy." And yet....here I am. My children are amazing and are my world. My husband has his issues, but he is my rock and I don't know where I'd be without him. Maine is not as bad as when I first got here. Frickin 15 degree weather in APRIL and 7 feet of snow. That shiiit was ridiculous. But now that I know it really doesn't last forever (haha, guess I had to see it with my own eyes)....it's not half bad. Matter of fact, Hubs and I are talking about maybe staying here for quite a while - depending on a lot of things of course.  I'm so excited to be starting school in a few weeks too. For those of you who don't know (which is most of you. ha), I will be working on my Bachelor's in Elementary Education. I want to be a 2nd or 3rd grade teacher.


Anyway...I'm rambling now. My point is that it truly is amazing at how much your life can change just by saying, "That's not me anymore." I wanted to be a better mother - I became one. I wanted to be a better wife - I became one. I wanted to go back to school and make myself better, just in general - I'm doing it. There are many people in my life that have been my motivation for a lot of it - Hubs, the kids, my parents, Trici, Jodie, Kaelin, Cathi, Jan... They probably don't know it, but they have all made their impact in different ways.


For the longest time when things would get shitty, I just kept telling myself "It won't be like this forever". And for most things, that is true and it almost always helped me feel better and pull through - for a little while, anyway. But it's occurred to me that with some things, they WILL be like that forever unless  I do something to make sure they aren't. So...that's what I'm doing.


My son will be FOUR. Which means he starts school next year. Life is about to get a lot more crazy and hectic. And if it had all happened four years earlier .... I think I would have given up and runaway. But now...I'm ready. I got this shit.

So I just got done watching the video for JT and Ciara's song "Love Sex Magic."  I don't like that song as it is, but I was reading mixed reviews about the video so I thought "what could it hurt to waste 3 minutes of my life?" lol

The video was freakin raunchy. Like, ridiculously. One of the things I had read about it was that Jessica Biel was very upset with her boyfriend (Justin) for the moves and such in the video - he was basically simulating sexual acts with another woman. At first, I was thinking that she shouldn't be too upset - it's Hollywood. She's dating another actor, it's part of his job. If she doesn't want that in her relationship she shouldn't be with someone like that. (I'm not saying it's OK what he did, but she shouldn't be surprised by it, considering their jobs and such)

However, after watching it...I gotta say, famous or not - that is inappropriate to be doing such things with someone that is not your significant other. I would be highly upset as well...job or not. Acting or not.

Furthermore, there were a ton of comments about the video and like I said, all mixed. Some hated it, some loved it. Some didn't care. But I noticed for all the ones that bashed Ciara and the video (she was being skanky, the video was overly explicit, etc etc), there was always another one to follow it saying "Ya'll just jealous...ya'll just wanna be like Ciara. She fine. You know it. Quit hatin."  First of all, if you're going to make a point that you believe is intelligent - at least TRY to sound intelligent when you type it.  Secondly, it MAY be true that SOME who are "hatin" are just jealous. But maybe some people just have different (i.e. better) taste than that.


I've just noticed this more and more over the last couple years that anytime a person disagrees with another person, they are automatically labelled as "jealous".

Jealousy is defined as "A feeling of discontent and resentment aroused by and in conjunction with desire for the possessions or qualities of another."  Now, if someone expresses disliking for something, then why on Earth would they be jealous, or WANT whatever that thing is?

Basically, it just really irritates me when people make comments about "man, you just jealous. you really just wanna be/do/have such-n-such." Stop and think for a minute - I'M NOT JEALOUS. I JUST DONT LIKE IT/YOU/THAT!! Get over yourself.

And for those that use this phrase to stick up for celebrities - you don't really know that person. So just...shut up.

I've been following the Chris Brown and Rihanna issue since it started, basically. It seems that the only way I can get information on it, most of the time, is by going to celeb gossip sites and reading the articles - which also have reader comments at the end of each. A majority of these comments are in SUPPORT of Chris Brown. Saying things like, "she deserved it for snooping and being jealous." Reading things of this nature angers me to a point that I often have to close my web browser and walk away from the computer so I don't break something. Is this REALLY how young girls today think? Is this really what they are being taught - that it's OKAY for a many to hit a woman? Some of the comments from one of the sites::
 

"Good luck Chris Brown! It isn't your fault Rihanna, got on your last nerve and now you look like the bad guy. I think she is guilty as hell, otherwise she would have pressed charges. If she doesn't care, than I don't either. Rihanna chose to not speak up for abused women. She is a terrible role model and doesn't deserve to be famous. Breezy is 100 times more talented" 
 

"i would be right in that picture like CHEEEEESEEEEEE . its gonna blow over and he'll be right on dem charts again so all haters can keep talkin about him but nothings gonna change and the picture proves it. if he did hit her well tell her to move on hes not a good boyfriend but a hell of a artist and hes not gonna lose anything" - in reference to a picture Chris Brown posed for with the Women's Basketball team of University of Mary Washington, in the middle of their "Domestic Violence and Abuse Awareness Campaign"


"YES THIS COULD BE YOU EXSPECIALLY IF YOU PUT YOUR HANDS ON A MAN AND PUSH HIM TO THAT LIMIT ITS ONLY SO MUCH A MAN COULD TAKE JUST LIKE WITH A FEMALE OUR TOLERANCE LEVELS ARE VERY DIFFERENT FEMALES CAN HANDLE AND TAKE WAY MORE THAN A MALE THATS WHY I SAY DONT DISH OUT WHAT YOU CANT TAKE BEING DONE BACK TO YOU"


"he should have beat her half to deft"


"rhianna u are a dumb %@!*# who gave chris herpes you deserved to have ur ass beat! hoe....."


"if that ho gave me herpes i woulda beat her ass too but biting? wtf was c. breezy's ghey ass thinkin he shoulda tied her std infected ass up to the back of the car and drug her crusty coochie all over the place until she was da.mn near dead and then beat the living %@!*# outta her"


First of all, women are a weaker sex. We are not, and never will be, completely equal to men. As far as literacy and book smarts...sure. We can be just as smart as we want. As far as making money - sure....we can make all we want, doing what we want. Tolerating pain and stress has proven (through scientific studies) to be easier for women than for men. But physically and emotionally, women are weaker.
Women are also naturally dependent upon men. I, personally, believe men are physically capable of so much more than women. I don't think women belong on the frontlines in a war, and I don't believe women can handle certain other jobs that most men can. Therefore, we are not equal and should not be treated as such.


That being said, men should be protecting of women...not exerting their physical strength over them to control or otherwise abuse them.  To say that it is Rihanna's fault for hitting Chris first...that means she is at fault for hitting him. It does NOT mean she is deserving of the way he reacted. Being at fault and deserving something are two completely different things.


As for the second quote, "tell her to move on"....really? REALLY? She gets beaten and we are supposed to expect her to "man up" and move on with life? Would you expect a rape victim to just move on with their life? Being abused in the way she was is just as violent, wrong and life-threatening as any other form of abuse.


The rest of the comments are proving of the fact that children/young adults today are ignorant and uneducated. It is sickening to think that so many young people - particularly females - are accepting of abuse. Even more disappointing is that they are basing their responses are things such as "Chris Brown is soooo fine", or "Chris Brown has always been so nice, and I like his music. He's innocent."


Abusers come in all shapes, sizes, colors, etc....it doesn't matter if they are physically attractive like Chris Brown seems to be, or if they are uglier than a cow's ass. It doesn't matter if they are tall, short, thin, fat, black, white, purple or green. An abuser is an abuser. Defending someone on the basis of them being attractive is moronic, witless, shallow...and if nothing else, stupid.


Some details (from police notes) of what happened between Chris Brown and Rihanna:

She picked up his cell phone and read a text message he had received from a previous girlfriend. A verbal argument was started. CB reached across Rihanna and attempted to open her door so that she would leave the vehicle. When he could not get her door open, he proceeded to slam her head against the passenger window, causing a circular contusion. She turned to face him, and he punched her. He looked at her and stated, "I'm going to beat the shit out of you when we get home. You wait and see." She picked up her cell phone and faked a phone call to friend, stating "I'm on my way home. Make sure the police are there when I arrive.". CB looked at her and stated, "You just did the stupidest thing ever. Now I'm really going to kill you." He resumed punching her. She bent over at the waist in attempt to protect her head and face from the barrage of punches. He snatched her cell phone and threw it, and put her in a head lock with his right arm. He held her head to the side and bit her ear. When he let go of her head, she took his keys from the vehicle's ignition and sat on them. He then choked her until she began to lose conciousness. She attempted to gouge his eyes, but he bit her finger. She pushed away from him, bringing her knees to her chest and pushing him away with her legs. He continued punching her while she screamed for help. He exited the vehicle and walked away.  



And this should just be swept under the rug? She should just "move on"? Others are saying that the 4 years and 8 months he is facing, if convicted, is too long.
Chris Brown entered a plea of "not guilty" in court yesterday. His lawyer is pushing that he was acting in self defense. Chris Brown is 6 feet 2 inches tall.  Rihanna is only 5 feet 8 inches. Tell me how a "man" of his stature had to react  the way he did against a woman who is half a foot shorter than him and clearly weighs less?

 
My biggest issue, however, is the amount of people who are stating the Rihanna deserved the beating she received.


The stupidity of the average American (particularly teenagers) is devastating. There is not enough emphasis placed on the education of abuse. Everyone is so concerned with the fact that bangs are back in style, and nobody wears peasant tops anymore...etc, etc. But 7 out of 10 teens today can not correctly identify types and signs of abuse.
 


And that is sickening.

Fantastic thing I just made for dinner. No idea what to call it but David suggested "Yummy Something" lol. So this is my recipe for Yummy Something.
 
 
Ground beef - sauteed with EVOO.
Add in 1/2 a yellow onion, and a whole chopped green bell pepper.
Toss in a can of tomato paste, with an equal amount of water.
 
Stir all that together until the tom. paste dissolves.
 
Add garlic (I used granulated b/c I hate chopping sticky garlic), salt, pepper, soy sauce and a little brown sugar.
 
You can put it over corn chips, bread, pasta...whatever.
 
I know it sounds a little weird but OOOOHHHH MYYYYY..it is amazingly good. Try it :)
 
Oh, and it's cheap as hell. :)

This song makes me think of many people that are/were in my life. Obviously, some parts apply to certain people and not others...but the chorus to each and every one.

First of all, my daddy and Mama Dukes. For pushing me, being proud of me, making sure I knew they loved me, and for letting me fall when I needed to - because sometimes it IS necessary to learn things in life the hard way.

Secondly, my husband. He has loved me, hurt me, made me happy, made me angry, sacrificed for me, forgiven me, betrayed me, taken from me, and given to me. I think it's necessary to go through all of these things in life as well.

Next is my children. Just because they are them. They are so wonderfully weird, amazingly smart and outrageously beautiful. I never imagined I could ever love anyone as much as I love my children. They taught me what love really is.

I also think of a lot of my friends, both past and present. Those who stabbed me in the back so much that I finally learned to not be a doormat. Those that never let me down and taught me how to trust (and how not to). Those that never left my side, even when I was ridiculously crazy - and they understood (namely, Ashley and Kimberly. They deal with the same mental problems I do, and made it so I never felt alone). And the one who pushed me to believe I CAN do what I want in life - and succeed (Trici ).

Lastly, but certainly not least, are the ex that screwed me over so bad and the ex that raped me when I was 15 years old. Both caused me so much tremendous pain, but in different ways. One completely ripped my heart out, cut it up, spit on it,  and stepped all over it, laughing all the while. The other scarred me so much that it has taken years and literally dozens of hours of therapy to even BEGIN to learn to trust, love, and be happy. But, had they not done these things, I would still be the same shitty person I was before. And not the woman I am today.
 







                   




--Christina Aguilera - Fighter--
After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I want to thank you
Because you made me that much stronger

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhh, ohh-yeah ah uhhhuh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in dnial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Where..​ is the perso..​n you gave your heart..​ to for the first..​ time?..​
COULDN'T TELL YA



Are you waiti..​ng for somet..​hing..?​
NOON


What were you doing..​ at ten last nite?..​
SLEEPING


Did you have a dream..​ last night..​?​
YUP


If you could..​ have somet..​hing.. right..​ now, what would..​ it be?
YOUR MOM.



Have your paren..​ts ever smoke..​d pot?
COULDN'T TELL YA



Want someo..​ne back in your life?..​
IT'S PROBABLE.


Are you good at givin..​g direc..​tion..s​?​
YES. NOT GOOD AT FOLLOWING THEM.



Last time you cried..​ reall..​y reall..​y hard?..​
IT'S BEEN A WHILE


Have you ever bough..​t a condo..​m?​
I HAVE


Have you ever slept..​ in a bed with the same sex?
DUH



Have you ever cheat..​ed on a bf/..​gf?​
I HAVE



Are you keepi..​ng a big secre..​t right..​ now?
THAT'S NOT YOUR BUSINESS


Do you think..​ it is bad to have sex at your age?
THAT'S A PERSONAL CHOICE


Do you find yours..​elf sayin..​g mean thing..​s to peopl..​e over the inter..​net that you would..​n'..​t say in real life?..​
NOPE



Do you lie about..​ your age?
I DO NOT




What did you last cry over?..​
STRESS


Who is the last perso..​n to text you?
PATRICIA


What is your ring tone?..​
I HAVE NO IDEA. MY PHONE FUCKED UP AND RESET, AND I HAVEN'T SET ANYTHING BACK YET.


What is your opini..​on on being..​ frien..​ds with benef..​its?..​
PERSONAL CHOICE. NOT MY PROBLEM.



Have you ever been frien..​ds with benef..​its with someo..​ne?​
YUP


What if your # 2 told you they were pregn..​ant/..​got someo..​ne pregn..​ant?..​
I'D SAY 'MAMA THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE' LOL

Has a frien..​d'..​s ex ever flirt..​ed with you?
OF COURSEMEN SUCK


Who is the last perso..​n that asked..​ you for your numbe..​r?​
UHHHH. THE DUDE ON THE PHONE FOR THE CUSTOMER SERVICE THING I CALLED

Do you think..​ the last perso..​n you kisse..​d cares..​ for you?
OF COURSE


Are you start..​ing to reali..​ze anyth..​ing?..​
EVERYDAY
PEOPLE SUCK. IN GENERAL. THEY ARE BAD.
I HAVE BEEN FORTUNATE TO MEET A HANDFUL OF THE FANTASTIC ONES THO.


What is your curre..​nt mood?..​
EXHAUSTED

Would..​ you ever get a tatto..​o?​
GIMME ABOUT A WEEK AND I'LL HAVE PIX :)

Do you think..​ you will be in a relat..​ions..h​ip 3 month..​s from now?
IT'S LIKELY

Who did you last get into a big argum..​ent with?..​
CHRIS

Hones..​tly,..​ do you hate the last girl you were talki..​ng to in perso..​n?​
THAT WOULD BE MY DAUGHTER. SO NO.


Did anyon..​e ever see you kiss the last perso..​n you kisse..​d?​
DUH


What are you doing..​ tomor..​row?..​
NOTHING. IT'S MY DAY OFF.




Are you weari..​ng somet..​hing.. you borro..​wed from someo..​ne?​
NOPE




What time did you go to sleep..​ last night..​?​
ABOUT 830 LOL IT WAS A LONG DAY AND I HAD TO GET UP EARLY THIS AM


What are you liste..​ning.. to?
BARNYARD


Is there..​ someo..​ne who you can spend..​ every..​ minut..​e with and be happy..​?​
YEP


What color..​ shirt..​ are you weari..​ng?​
GRAY


What did you do yeste..rday?
THERAPIST APPT. PICKED CHRIS UP FROM WORK. DINNER. BED.


Was your last kiss sober..​ or drunk..​?​
SOBER


What'..​s somet..​hing.. that upset..​ you today..​?​
CHRIS BITCHING.



Your curre..​nt relat..​ions..h​ip statu..​s?​
MARRIED


Do you get along..​ with girls..​?
A HANDFUL


Is there..​ anyon..​e you trust..​ who you shoul..​dn'..​t?​
YEP


Where..​ is your numbe..​r two on your top right..​ now?
PROBABLY AT HOME. OR SOMETHING. I DON'T KNOW. SHE'S 900 MILES AWAY.


When was the last time you hugge..​d someo..​ne?​
A LIL WHILE AGO


Is someo..​ne on your mind?..​
ALWAYS

Promise to be honest?
I'VE GOT NOTHING TO HIDE

What was the last thing you drank?
COFFEE

What color are your eyes?
BLUE AND GREEN

What would your name be with the first three letters of your first name?
KER

When is your birthday?
JUNE 14TH

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
YA NEVER KNOW

Did you have a good day?
IT'S 8 IN THE MORNING. IT HASN'T BEEN A DAY YET. YESTERDAY SUCKED THO.

How many children do you want?
I'M HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE, THANKS

What are your plans for the weekend?
IF I GET MY MONEY FRIDAY, ME AND TRICI ARE GOING SHOPPING WITH THE KIDDOS

If you could move right now would you?
DUH. IF YA HADN'T HEARD, I HATE MAINE.
BUT I'D HAVE TO PACK UP PAT AND TRICI AND THEIR KIDS AND BRING EM WITH US :)

Are you happy with the way things are going right now?
NO

Do you like being in pictures?
SOMETIMES

What do you currently hear right now?
THE BABY PRODIGY MOVIE WITH MOZART MUSIC THAT THE KIDS ARE WATCHING

Where will you be in an hour?
LAYIN ON THE COUCH, WAITIN FOR LAUNDRY TO FINISH SO I CAN GET A SHOWER

Is your heart broken right now?
NO

Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
IF I WANTED TO.

How old are your siblings?
24, ALMOST 21 AND ALMOST 21.

Is your myspace profile private?
NOPE. IT'S PUBLIC FOR 18 AND UP

Do you believe in love?
OKAY

Have you ever done anything outrageously dumb?
YES. ALWAYS. MAKES LIFE FUN.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
PROBABLY

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
YES

Are you someone who worries too often?
EVERYDAY. IT'S CALLED ANXIETY. SUCKS.

Would you ever donate blood?
OKAY

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
OF COURSE

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL NO

What are you doing right now?
LAUNDRY

Do you drink water?
ERRRRYDAY

What was the last thing you cried about?
STRESS

Do you want to see somebody right now?
MY FAMILY. I MISS THEM TERRIBLY.

Do you listen to songs when you're down?
YUUUP

Something you do when you are mad or upset?
HOLLER. LOL "WHY ARE YOU HOLLERIN!??"

Is this the best year of your life?
NOT YET.

Would you parachute off a plane?
PROBABLY.

Do you get mad easily?
I DO

Do you think you are an argumentative person?
WITH CERTAIN PEOPLE

Are your ears gauged?
EW. NO.

How did you feel when you woke up today?
SLEEPY. SICK. RUNNY NOSE. COUGHING. BLAHHHH.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
OF COURSE. I MISS THEM TERRIBLY TOO. BUT LIFE MOVES ON, I SUPPOSE.

What's in your pockets?
I HAVE NO POCKETS.

Who was the last person you hugged?
BROOKELYNN

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I HAVE HAD TO TAKE CHRIS TO WORK AT 6 EVERYDAY FOR A WHILE NOW...I AM SLEEPIN IN TOMORROW. WELL...SLEEPIN TIL THE KIDS GET UP ANYWAY. LOL

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
OF COURSE

What kind of pants are you wearing?
SWEATS

Is there someone you will never forget?
THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE CHANGED MY LIFE THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET.

"There she go talkin' her mess
All around town makin' me stress
I need to get this off my chest
And if her friend want some then she'll be next
It really ain't that complicated
Y'all walking round looking all frustrated
Want some Tex come on let's make it
Ya acting real hard but I know ya fakin'

Know you really don't wanna step to dis
Really don't know why you talkin' shit
You 'bout to catch one right in the lip
It's about to be a what? Girlfight!"
 
I'm not naming names. I'm not going into detail.
But lemme just make somethin' REAL clear...
 
NOBODY - and I mean NOBODY - speaks to my husband that way, except me. Hell, even I  don't speak to him like that.
 
I'm not tryin to create more drama. I'm not tryin to start a fight. My only point is that if you don't know the situation, are not involved, and ESPECIALLY when you don't even KNOW all the people who are involved...don't run your mouth. Don't try to step in acting all hard. Cuz number one - ain't nobody scared of you. Second of all - I'm crazy. Not funny crazy. I mean psycho crazy.
I'm not making threats, I'm just making a point.
It pisses me off enough when people try to get into shit that aint even their business - because it's a FAMILY thing. But to start runnin your mouth after you've butted your way in. Seriously uncool.
I've said my piece. And I hope I am understood.

"Photograph"
Nickelback
 
Look at this photograph,
everytime I do it makes me laugh.
How did our eyes get so red,
and what the hell is on *Jesse's* head.
And this is where I grew up,
I think the present owner fixed it up.
I never knew we ever went without,
the second floor was high for sneaking out.
And this is where I went to school,
most of the time had better things to do.
Criminal record says I broke in twice,
I must have done it half a dozen times.
I wonder if its too late,
should I go back and try to graduate.
Life's better now than it was back then,
if I was them I wouldn't let me in!
Oh oh oh... Oh God I!

(Chorus)
Every memory of lookin' out the back door,
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Every memory of walkin' out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.

We used to listen to the radio,
and sing along to every song we'd know.
We said someday we'd find out how it feels,
to sing to more than just the steering wheel.
Kim's the first girl I kissed,
I was so nervous that I nearly missed.
She's had a couple of kids since then,
I haven't seen her since god knows when!
Oh oh oh... Oh God I!

(Chorus)
Every memory of lookin' out the back door,
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Every memory of walkin' out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.

(Bridge)
I miss that town,
I can't believe it,
So hard to stay,
So hard to leave it.

If I could relive those days,
I know the one thing that would never change.

(Chorus)
Every memory of lookin' out the back door,
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Every memory of walkin' out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.

Look at this photograph,
everytime I do it makes me laugh.
Everytime I do it makes me...

 
*Refer to "Drink Hot Chocolate. Talk Shit." album. lol Best memories ever.*

From my counselor::
 

-- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s --
Not "Found in Old St. Paul's Church"! -- see below

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.