Sitting outside,

watching the world pass me by,

I think of you.

When I'm all alone,

with no one to hold,

I think of you.

I'm scared to say,

that one day,

I know you won't be here.

Until then,

I'll hope and pray,

you will always be there,

for me.

So sick and tired of living
And so afraid to die
I’ve lived so many lives
And still I wonder why
The way the world perceives me
Is not the way I am
The one half thinks I’m crazy
The other thinks I’m mad

I spent a long long time alone in my room
I need your help to get me out of this gloom

Can you hear them
All the voices in my head
They freak me out
Can you hear them
They won’t be happy ’till I’m dead
They freak me out

Ten thousand million nightmares
Temptation by the score
I used to get so high
And still I wanted more
You think my time is wasted
In search of who I am
I tried to so hard to kill
The boy inside the man

I spent a thousand years one night in my room
I’ve lived so many lives and that is my doom

Can you hear them
All the voices in my head
They freak me out
Can you hear them
They won’t be happy ’till I’m dead
They freak me out

Can you hear them
All the voices in my head
They freak me out
Can you hear them
They won’t be happy ’till I’m dead
They freak me out

I never thought I’d smile again
Always thought I’d be here on my own
Sometimes when I’m down
You come and save me again
And again
And again
And again

I’ll never understand it
It makes no sense at all
Just look at what I’ve done
It’s time to count the score

I’ve spent a long long time alone in my room
I need your help to get me out of this gloom

Can you hear them
All the voices in my head
They freak me out
Can you hear them
They won’t be happy ’till I’m dead
They freak me out

Can you hear them
All the voices in my head
They freak me out
Can you hear them
They won’t be happy ’till I’m dead
They freak me out

dude...holy crap me and ethan were talkin on the phone earlier and he made me realize how weird life is...

i mean i really started thinkin about it...why r we us?

this thing called earth why is it here? i mean really r we just figments of someone elses dreams?

why am i, I?

why couldnt i be born as someone else?

we are just blood and bones and fat and meat...nothing truely special...think about it...space...its never ending right?

y is that?

what if everything we know and have learned and lived through not real?

what is real?

think about it...

this thing life...is there life after life?

is there reincarnation?

if so then who am i really?

am i really an old guy that lived 1000 years ago?

what if you're your own ancestors!...gross

but still think about it...

NEVER AGAIN

Never again will I wait to tell my story,

Never again will I ever have to worry,

Never again will I be afraid to say what on my mind, to change the world, and take a step out of time.

Never again will I be pushed around,

Never again will I fall to the ground,

Never again will I pick on someone less fortunate because it makes me feel better.

Never again will I cry myself to sleep,

Never again will I tell the secrets I should keep,

Never again will I stand in a crowd and be too scared to stand out.

No.....Never again.

i want to jump in a hole...just crawl in and die

to me it feels like no one cares if i say good bye

im tired of waiting for someone who does

im tired of putting up with all the shit that i do

im tired of saying ill do it and then never quite do

no one gets what im going through not even the ones i usually turn to

some people say its a perminant solution

to temporary issues...how do they know?

they dont even get what im going through

in the end i dont care because im going to do what i want to do

if they would have listened or cared at all then maybe i would have too

but they didnt and i dont

so i guess im saying that im through

i thought you loved me,

cause thats what you said,

but you said it in fear,

that you might never see me again if i found out the truth.

why do you always have to be right?

ill give you a hint you never are,

i let you feel like your something special,

but you're just here for the night.

ill be allright, ill be okay

just give me the gun and get out of my way.

im tired of waiting and all of the lies,

its not just you,

its all of the guys.

people stare and wonder how it might be,

no one really wants to know, thats why they walk away when times get tough.

FINE! just leave

i dont care,

this will be the last time that i cry,

and the last time i say

Good-Bye