i sit in this empty room full of furniture. and appliances. and i see nothing but a place to sit and to do absolutely nothing. but think and think about absolutely nothing and everything that ever happened to me in my life or even so something that could happen that may not ever happen. and i take another sip as i sit in this darkness and i escape reality. i would run but i want to give you a chance to catch up and to tell me everything'll be ok. but if i don't see you behind me in a few minutes i'll conclude you don't care and that i'm better off away far away from you and your ways. i feel bad. i feel good. i feel confused. i feel amused. i feel alot of feelings i never felt before. and you wonder why my breath has gotten so loud. when i can't believe what's happening with us today. and one thing leads to another and another thing should not have happened. or should have it? if it feels good then why deny ourselves. if it feels bad then why go through it? i just want to live one drink after another. we'll meet up and shake up a storm. or if you want we can just stay in and lie side by side listening to something new that we'll have to remember on. i miss talking to you on the phone when you were far away. but now that you're so close it's like it never happened. and now we don't talk at all. i don't want it to fade. but if it fades then i'll let it go this time. i just want you to promise to me you'll look at me like you used to. when i meant the world to you. i'm still that guy although i know i'm not the same way.

i'm living life as a drug. i just want to be happy. doesn't everybody. so lets all be friends and smile at the things we might find cute and adorable. you can be the reason i'm so high all the time now. so lets.