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elizabeth stanley



Last Updated: 9/12/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Engaged
Age: 52
Sign: Taurus

City: Cape Town for the Winter,
State: London and South East
Country: UK
Signup Date: 11/14/2005

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Monday, August 07, 2006 

Current mood:Mmmmmm
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amidst the mulchy breeze, birds whistle and cars hum. (this is a world of endless cell phones now. i wished last night i would have the nerve to chuck mine in the woods.) i sit in the shade watching grandmothers entertain their grandkids. the children's explorations come alive all around me-touching textures, screeching sounds, running rampant. they test out their abilities, and yet they are only able to see what is right in front of them.

climbing
sprinting
yelling!

adults circle around their world protecting. there is an endless itinerary and a concept of safety there.

i wonder where the blue eyed shirly temple haired girl in the sailor dress will be in twenty years. don't lose your wonder and awe precious child.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006 

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today begins and ends.  it's a day with no time.  the sun sets, so i assume the day has journeyed its usual course.  i am almost to my twenty-fourth birthday.  a boy i know just wished me a good year of it for the first time.  i am running out of canvases.  shall i move to the walls and forget about the returned deposit?  i think i'm heading into my usual painting pause.  this is where i begin to read and write.  who knows how long it will be this time. 

"you start out loving something, and you twist it and mar it, find a way to make money at it, and all of a sudden years pass and you've forgotten what you started out loving." 

i missed that quote the other time i happened to stumble across the movie, hope floats.  i realized, at that moment that that is the perfectly summarized reason that i hate thomas kinkade. 

 

Currently reading:
To Kill a Mockingbird
By Harper Lee
Release date: 11 October, 1988
Sunday, February 26, 2006 

Current mood:  artistic

so with acrylic paint dried on my fingers, soft lighting, (thank you ikea) the sound of the fiddle, and the taste of stove-top popped popcorn, (just the right amount of sodium) i relish in solitude and accomplishment after i finished yet another painting tonight. i am currently enjoying the colour gray.  i'm trying to use more open space.

i ate chinese tonight, curled up in a booth, nose in a book.  occationally i looked up at the fellow-chinese food-eaters.  this town seems so dead until i see some of the occupants' faces up close.  then i realize how alive it is.  things can be as busy and exciting as i make them.  is there really a univeral standard for being entertained?  it's all in our heads, because i can be entertained by watching a little girl blow bubbles in her chocolate milk or make the same noise endlessly much to her parents' dismay. 

i've decided that i don't mind it when counting crows and chopin play back to back on shuffle.  today i daydrempt again about being on a dragon's back and soaring off to an unchartered land.  (sly, mischievous look) what we found no one will ever know. . .

it rained profusely today.  perfect for staying inside, making up new words and worlds.  it's nice to have a space all to myself. 

 

Currently reading:
A Wind in the Door (Time Quartet)
By Madeleine L'Engle
Release date: 15 March, 1974
Thursday, December 15, 2005 

Current mood:  content
Category: Writing and Poetry

one of my favourite short stories of all times is The Beast in the Jungle by henry james.

i believe the quotation below sums up the story perfectly.  james has a distinct way of depicting the complexity of human nature.  this particular fear and mystery james describes below is very close to my heart.

    "Well, it was very simple.  You said you had had from your earliest time, as the deepest thing within you, the sense of being kept for something rare and strange, possibly prodigious and terrible, that was sooner or later to happen to you, that you had in your bones the foreboding and the conviction of, and that would perhaps overwhelm you."

    "Do you call that very simple?"  John Marcher asked.

    She thought a moment.  "It was perhaps because I seemed, as you spoke, to understand it."

    "You do understand it?" he eagerly asked.

    "Again she kept her kind eyes on him.  "You still have the belief?"

    "Oh!"  he exclaimed helplessly.  There was too much to say.

    "Whatever it's to be, she clearly made out, "it hasn't yet come."

    He shook his head in complete surrender now.  "It hasn't yet come.  Only, you know, it isn't anyting I'm to do, to achieve in the world to be distinguished or admired for.  I'm not such an ass as that.  it would be much better, no doubt, if I were."

    "It's to be something you're merely to suffer?

    "Well, say to wait for--to have to meet, to face, to see suddenly break out in my life; possibly destroying all further consciousness, possibly annihilating me; possibly, on the other hand, only altering everythig, striking at the root of all my world and leaving me to the consequences, however they shape themselves."

    She took this in, but the light in her eyes continued for him not to be that of mockery.  "Isn't what you describe perhaps but the expectation---or at any rate the sense of danger, familiar to so many people--of falling in love?"

 

Currently listening:
Takk...
By Sigur Rós
Release date: 13 September, 2005