Coming home on leave Dec13-27. Lets party!

Gonna be home in TX jun29-jul12!!! Lets fucking party!!!!!!! Hit me up!

So I recently got the news that I get to go to the big sandbox and have been letting friends and family know. Most everyone I speak to is worried and/or asking me how I feel and if this is what I want. Its really hard to explain without a moment to consider your words. I  am where I am by choice and when that choice was made, I expected one day to get to do something like this. Im not saying Im a blind fool that joined just looking for my chance to go. Ever since I was a kid  the most influential people in my life sacrificed something.....usually alot or served at one time or another and I absolutely idolized them for doing such  things. I cant begin to explain how valuable I think compassion for others is. When someone needs help but doesnt even have to ask for the care thats given, thats truely worth reward or some kind of repay but .......................thats a story for another camp fire so let me get back on track. I dont have any dreams of  being a hero or gaining any admiration, Ive just always wanted to follow in their footsteps simply because I admire and value someone who gives back.  Someone asked me if this is what I want and the first thing that came to mind is its not that I want to but I feel a need and duty to do my part. I dont even agree with our situation over there but that doesnt change the fact that we have men and women over there and who am I to say they should stay and let me hang out. I dont even have kids and I cant stand seeing the videos of Mothers and Fathers coming home to crying kids and newborns they couldnt be there for because they were doing their part. The only hard part for me is leaving those I care about behind and causing stress for them. Telling my mom was horrible and if I could get away without her knowing it  would be nice because she gets soo scared. Of course I wouldnt do that so I had to tell her. I wish there was a way to convince everyone not to worry but I cant seem to find a way. Well, anyways, I figured Id get on here and elaborate on how I feel about these things since I cant really explain when everyone asks.

Finally made E5. For those who dont know, thats petty officer 2nd class and Ive been waiting on it for 2 1/2 yrs. Now i have 16yrs left to make chief (E7-2 more ranks up)which is what Id like to atleast make before I retire.