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Last Updated: 12/2/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 23
Sign: Pisces

City: Hyde Park
State: Massachusetts
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/20/2005

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Wednesday, January 07, 2009 

Current mood:  blank
Category: Music

"My Letter"

This is my letter to you

We started following a certain description.
We started simple and fair once again
Before there wasn't any need for an answer
Things were much different then

But now you question who I am.
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide.
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're alright. It's been rough for me
thinking all night. About the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more you might've
Let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern it seems an
issue. All day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn

Engulf myself into a permanent mystery.
No one day just as the next.
not for me
It's so confusing when I look at my history.
I just can't handle that yet.
No

But now you question who I am.
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide.
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're alright. It's been rough for me
thinking all night. About the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more you might've
Let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern it seems an
issue. All day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn


One more friendship ends.
And then for awhile.
I can breathe again

But now you question who I am.
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide.
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're alright. It's been rough for me
thinking all night. About the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more you might've
Let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern it seems an
issue. All day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn

-FLAW

Tuesday, June 24, 2008 

Current mood:  sad
Category: Music

If you only knew
I'm hanging by a thread
The web I spin for you
If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
I swear I've lived and learned

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that wen't wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
You help me live and learn

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, believe in is you
I still believe in you
Oh, if you only knew

-By : Brent Smith

Thursday, May 22, 2008 

Current mood:  forgotten
Category: Music


"Some Day"

Someday, when I'm older
And they never know my name
Somehow, if I'm honest
I can never feel ashamed
Maybe I was wrong to
Hold you up so high
Now I know I've lost you
To the feelings I kept inside

I don't know if it felt like
I wanted you here, the way that I wanted you last time
We're not on the same page, you don't even know me
Cause you never took the time

Someday, when it's over
And you never show your face
I hope you'll remember
How I tried to make you a place
And so now, I move on
To keep my piece of mind
In someway, I've failed you
But I just ran out of time

I don't know if it felt like
I wanted you here, the way that I wanted you last time
We're not on the same page, you don't even know me
Cause you never took the time

I'm not sure that you hear me
I'm not sure that you look at me the same
I will always be attached to you
But I'm never gonna feel the same

I don't know if it felt like
I wanted you here, the way that I wanted you last time
We're not on the same page, you don't even know me
Cause you never took the time
No, you never took the time

Someday, when I'm older...

-Brent Smith

Sunday, February 03, 2008 

Current mood:  tired
Category: Music

I know I'm not there to hold you
Look up see the sky that I do
You make me the happiest of men
I am the happiest of men

And if god takes me before you
I just want you to know I love you
And you made me the strongest of all men
I'll remain the happiest of men

The happiest, the happiest, the happiest of men

You made me the happiest of men
I'll remain the happiest of men

I miss you
Baby close your eyes
Let's meet
In our dreams tonight

Monday, January 14, 2008 

Category: Music

Unholy Confessions

"I'll try," she said as he walked away.
"Try not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested but secure.

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confined in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."

Nothing will last in this life,
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near.

-M. Shadows

Wednesday, January 02, 2008 

What a skeletal wreck of man this is
Translucent flesh and feeble bones
The kind of temple where the whores and villains try to tempt the holistic tones
Running rampant with free thought to free form, in the free in the clear
And the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a laundrymat to sift and focus
On the bigger...better...now...

We all have a little sin that needs venting
Virtues for the rending and laws and systems and stems that riff from the branches of office
Do you know what your post entails?
Do you serve a purpose? or purposely serve?

Wind down inside adivistic galore
The value of a summer spent and a winter earned

For the rest of us there is always sunday
The day of the week that reeks of rest but all we do is catch our breaths
So we can wade naked into the bloody pool
And place our hand on the big black book
To watch the knives zig zag between our aching fingers

A vacation is a countdown
T-minus your life and counting
Time to drag your tongue across the sugarcube and hope you get a taste

What the fuck is all this for?
What the hells going on?
Shut up!

I could go on and on, but lets move on...shall we?

Say, youre me and Im you and they all watch the things we do
And like a smack of spite they threw me down the stairs
Havent felt like this in years
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse
Let me go and plundge me into the dead spot again

Thats where you go when theres no one else around
Its just you, and there was never anyone to begin with, now was there?

Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards with there thumb on the pulse and a finger on the trigger

Classified my ass, thats a fucking secret and you know it
Government is another way to say...better...than...you...

Its like ice but no pick, a murder charge that wont stick
Its like a whole other world where you can smell the food but you cant touch the silverware...what luck
Fascism you can vote for...isnt that sweet

And were all gonna die some day, cause thats the american way
And Ive drunk to much and said to little
When your gaffer taped in the middle, say a prayer, say a phrase, get yourself together and...

See whats happening

Shut up
Fuck you, fuck you

Im sorry I could go on and on
But its time to move on...so...

Remember..
Youre a wreck
An accident, forget the freak youre just nature
Keep the gun oiled and the temple clean, shit snort and blaspheme
Let the heads cool and the engine run
Because in then end everything we do...
Is just everything weve done

"Omega" - Corey Taylor

Monday, January 01, 2007 

Current mood:  pissed off
Well we have all pretty much came to the end of our wits with him. But noone else ever sees this part of him except us, at the wrong times. She says 21 years of this, and it might be over. But everyone makes mistakes, and dwells on them by drinking. Yes it has gone too far, but he is still my father. I am not the scum bag he is, and will never be. But my mom and sisters are taking the brunt of this, and I seem to have tried my best to help this. But he seems unhelpable. I will never turn my back on him like his dad did to him, so I hope he will not do the same. If they do not want to help so be it, but I will do my darndest. Shit hits the fan when they both under this evil influence. But things can only be figured out when they both can think reasonably. I still love him and always will, but the question is will I be able to love him from a far? We will see....My name is Johnny, this is my story and I am sticking to it. Happy fucking New Year my goddamn ass...
Friday, March 10, 2006 

Current mood:  tired
Category: Web, HTML, Tech

UP AND RUNING ON ANGELFIRE SINCE FRESHMAN YEAR IN HIGH SCHOOL HERE THE LINK:

http://www.angelfire.com/rock3/torqueywrench/

Friday, March 10, 2006 

Current mood:  jubilant
Category: Music
YES I SEEN THEM AT THE PALADIUM BACK IN JAN....SEEING THEM AGAIN IN APRIL AT HAMPTON BEACH!!!!