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Bethany Dawson


Last Updated: 11/22/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 19
Sign: Libra

City: Birmingham
State: Midlands
Country: UK
Signup Date: 11/21/2005

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Tuesday, March 24, 2009 
it still tickles me how fickle people are.
i flit around, i never stick with one person 24/7 and at my old sixth form/school this was even more so the case. so it's funny when you step back from everything & see what's a gwarn nowadays. i. know. everything.
usually what's a gwarn is that people seem to change in an instant. loyalties change & that's cool. but it still pisses me off a ton, when people said something & then do the complete opposite a year later.

i was thrown out of hillcrest over a year ago now, and sometimes i wonder what i would be like if i'd of kept my head down. i'd be studied media, english & drama (no doubt) and i do think i'd be terribly unhappy. it's weird, that life can take a sudden path. a path, that at the time, you think will ruin you: but can improve your life ten fold.

not only coming to halesowen, but taking a btec. a btec in a subject that i love, that i have passion for. it's what i want to do, however hard it may seem. but say, 13 months ago. i would never, ever of dreamed i'd be at halesowen. i never dreamed i'd be studying acting; though i wanted to go to drama school. some people have told me it was kind of inevitable; that i would've, somehow, ended up in acting one day. but i'm not so sure. i don't have enough confidence to change my surroundings, my friends that easily. i needed a push, and being told to fuck off (with manners) was what i needed.

and not just with education, in the space of 3 months last year i had 3 failed relationships. i kept hitting the month stage & then it'd all fall apart, i seriously thought i was fucked. and i kinda was. and then i met sam, well that's a lie, i've known sam for a couple/three years. but, we started talking and i fell in love with him. and i've never looked back, and i truly believe he's my one. i love him so much, and i never thought i'd be loved back. but i am. and it's the most amazing feeling in the world.

so the past 12 months have been a rollercoaster.
and sometimes, i hated myself & i hated where i was.
but now, i truly love it.
i love myself, i love my boyfriend, i love my course, i love my life.
and sure, sometimes i fuck up.
but after the last 12 months, everything is fixable. :)


11:33 PM 
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Saturday, March 14, 2009 

Current mood:  jedi
FUCK OFF WITH COMIC RELIEF.
you're not going to emotionally blackmail me to give you moneys. if you think you will, yr sadly wrong.
i couldn't give two fucks.

however, i do care about the domestic violence / mental health BRITISH organisations; i find them worthy causes!

i got a nice big black eye today from acting, i was pretending to be fitting and missed my arm. so i faceplanted the floor basically. :)
ow. ow. ow. :)
i look right 'ard though bruv.

respec'


Currently listening:
Arcs Across the City
By Johnny Foreigner
Release date: 2007-11-26
1:21 AM 
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Thursday, March 12, 2009 

Category: Blogging

hello, :)
as promised here is my rant for today.

1. something i watched last night.
yes, something i watched last night is a good title because i couldn't think of any less offensive titles. last night i watched a tv show called "deborah; 13 - servant of god" and i swear to god, i've never seen something that made me feel so angry. see, the thing is, i am not anti-christian & when i hear people bitching about christians, i get kinda offended because.. you can't insult beliefs, they're personal. if you believe something, you don't need proof. for example; you believe your boy/girl friend when they say they love you; you don't need doctrine of proof, so how can you question someones belief on religion? but, i have divulged.
basically there was this family, of very strong christians and this program (bbc3 all the way) was about one of the girls. she was 13, wasn't allowed to watch tv/read magazines/go to school/go out. the only people she socialised with were her 10 siblings & her parents.
apparantely, school has too much peer pressure, and this against the bible? what a load of fucking bollocks, i'm sorry but in the bible i'm sure it does not say "school is full of wastemanz telling people they have to do this, do not send yr kid; make them study at home." no no no no. infact, i'm sure in the bible jesus gave TEACHINGS. what is that if not a school environment?
but this was not what pissed me off, this girl debbie lived by her ten commandments and thought anyone who didn't deserved to go to hell. she was asked by one person whilst she was out witnessing, if they deserved to go to the same hell as peadophiles & murderers because she had told a lie. debbie answered yes.
what kind of parent brings up their child to breed such hate amongst people? i like religion when it has been developed by people, the people who say all you need is the belief in a god, to ensure you're place in eternity. not fucking, OH EM GEE LIAR; GO SIT WITH SADDAM.
it's fucking rediculous, how can you expect a child to grow up well-balanced if everyone they look at (minus their family) is going to hell? i can't agree with that shit, i can't even agree with a belief in that bollocks. how tainted must you be to think that everyone except yourself is inpure.
the girl had never even been in a shop before. shopping (and i'm not just talking like omgz i luff shoppin+*+) is a basic lifeskill. she isn't going to be wearing the same clothes til she's 50, and i doubt her parents are going to WANT to be buying her clothes when she's 50; so why ban her from shopping?
ah it just got my goat it really did. :)


and now i'm just really fucking sad because well, yeah.
but (U).
man.
growl.
DFUIEGBDJV .
:)


1:33 AM 
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009 

Category: Blogging
i'm going to blog tomorrow & rant & get a bit angry.
i'm saying this now because i know i'll forget otherwise.
all the world's wrath be released tomorrow ;)


yeahh boii.


Currently watching:
Gavin And Stacey : Complete BBC Series 1 [2007] [DVD]
Release date: 2007-10-29
3:22 AM 
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Saturday, March 07, 2009 

Current mood:  ashamed
Category: Web, HTML, Tech
i cannot be fucked to edit this video, it was due last week but it's all so complicated.

someone do it for me :)

julies party tomorrow, yeahhh boiii.


Currently listening:
Season of Poison
By Shiny Toy Guns
Release date: 2008-12-01
1:33 AM 
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Friday, March 06, 2009 

Current mood:  calm
Category: Blogging
oh maannn, this blog makes me ocd. fuck all these funny shaped fonts & shit, why are there no nice ones.

oh, well done bethany, 2 lines in and you've already divulged from the point of this blog.

hi i'm bethany, and i've decided to start blogging on myspace. (: i don't know why, i thought it'd be pretty cool. soz'ard if it's not.

i am completely in love; i just thought i'd mention that because i have butterflies right now just thinking about sam :)

so, this week has been pretty odd to be fair. monday, college, obviously. everything was going really well in our group, we had like a proper laugh & got loads of stuff thought up and had a plan for the next day & everything. and then we performed on tuesday, and it went to shit.

i'm not sure why it went to shit, music failed us, but i guess you can't rely on technology? or i'm sure at least that's what aimee would say. i dunno, i love my group & i love the stimuli, but it's not working right now. i have some epic ideas, but i hate to feel as though i'm taking over all the time. growl; i don't want people to hate me.

BUT, people are hating in the group anyway ahaha. obv, i'm not going to go into details because then, i'm sure, they'll all be up in my face like whateverzzzzz. and i'll have to knock the bitches out, and i can't get thrown out of another college; that'd just be silly.  BUT ahahah, naming no names was like "OH NAT IS PISSING ME OFF," mel told nat and then nat was all "NAT WANTS TO DANCE NOW" and decided to shake her arse all over the room, which i think made the whole other group (minus emily, mel, chris & kyle) hate us. ahahah, oh fucking well :)

pitspitspits as simmi would say. i love simmi.

er, me & simmi are going to see johnnyforeigner at the end of the month, that's exciting for all isn't it :) me & simmi will be shouting PIT PIT PIT. yes we will.

i miss sam :'( alot, i don't like having to wait til april :( but my boy breaks the LAW on trains and henceforth must be punished, i think a good smackaround would have sufficed, but no :( £45 or some shit :( silly sammybear.

oh shiny toy guns new album (i'm fully aware it was released last year) is bloody good :)

and that, for now, is all :)

PIT.




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