Check out this band, Suicide City.  They have ex band members from Biohazard & Kittie.  They're awesome.

If anyone has some free time, please do me a favor & go to this site:
http://www.ourstage.com/

You have to register, then go here: http://www.ourstage.com/judge4?channel=191-mtv-vma-best-breakout-chicago%C2%A0

Make sure it says MTV VMA Best Breakout Chicago.  It'll show four songs at a time, & you have to listen to 15 seconds of each one & then rank them in order from best to worst.  When you finally see the song "Choke" by Kazy, put it as the best out of the four.  I would really really appreciate it, & check out Kazy's myspace for some awesome music:
http://www.myspace.com/kazymusic

Thanks so much.

I haven't posted a blog in a while, so here's a new one.

Today is Aaron's birthday.  He's 24 (an old grandpa).  Tonight we're going to his parents' house for dinner (homemade lasagna, mmm).  My birthday is on Friday (& my sister's, in case you haven't realized we're twins yet).  We'll be 19.  I'm hopefully going to bingo sometime this week.  Last year I went for my birthday & won like $50.  It was great.  Hopefully I'll win some money this time, too. 

Aaron got his eyebrow pierced the other day, & I got my lip repierced yesterday (back to three lip piercings).  The loops are huge, but they're okay for now.  Thanks so much to Matt for piercing it for me. 

And that's all I have to say right now.

So today I found out the truth about something that I've pretty much known all along.  And yeah, I will admit, it does hurt a little to know that someone I thought I could trust would carry on a lie for that long, but I've already realized what a fucking scumbag he is, so it just makes me feel better that he finally grew the fucking balls to admit to it.

So, apparently, within a few months I've gotten so ugly & horrible, even though he cried when I left him.  Sounds like jealousy to me.  If anything, I look better than I did.  I lost 11 pounds, & I really haven't changed much look-wise besides that.

Some people are just pathetic.  Can't stand the fact that no one wants a fucking stupid pussy, so they try to badmouth everyone else.

And yeah, I know the nosy fucker is gonna read this, so if you are, get the fuck over yourself, sweetie.  I've never been happier since I got smart & left your sorry ass.

Fuck you.

How fucking stupid is that?  Poco...  Lazy fuckers.  It's POWELL COUNTY.  Ugh.

I get so tired of people sometimes.  I don't even know who to fucking trust anymore without getting stabbed in the back.

All most people know how to do is run their fucking mouths, & I've had enough of it.  If you have anything to say to me, about me, or ANYTHING that has to do with me, you need to have the balls to say it to me.  People who I thought were my friends just keep fucking running their mouths about me, & then have the nerve to accuse me of lying about it, when I've got the fucking proof.  So, no more forgiving.  You fuck me over, you're out of my life.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately...  Especially tonight, since Aaron had to work & I didn't.

I realize that I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, especially these past few years.  I've done a lot of stupid shit, & I've hurt a lot of people who didn't deserve it.  I feel like shit for it, trust me.

Looking back, I don't know what the hell my problem was.  I guess it was part of growing up, having anger problems, & dealing with all the medicine I have to take.  I can't believe I still have friends after the shit I did.

To anyone I started shit with for no reason, I'm sorry.  It's time for me to grow up & admit that I was wrong.  I was pretty much looking for a fight with anyone, & that was really stupid of me.

I obviously need to work on controlling my temper, because I have a serious problem with flying off the handle when I get the least little bit mad.  Trust me, I've had enough punishment for that to honestly regret it.

To everyone who still puts up with me, you don't know how much you guys mean to me.  I love you all.

By the way, I can't promise I won't start acting stupid again.  I am who I am.

Thank God it wasn't too bad.

Me & Aaron were driving to Winchester today, to go to work, & we wrecked.  We were only going 55 because the roads were icy, but we hit a spot of ice.  Aaron tried to straighten the car out, but it got traction or something, & spun around sideways the other way, & we drove straight into a guard rail.  It took about three hours for a cop to get to us, because apparently everybody & their brother was wrecking today.  I was freaking out cause people kept hitting the same spot of ice & swerving.  We almost got hit like 5 or 6 times.  One woman in a truck spun completely around in front of us, she barely missed us.  So, of course I couldn't work today.  If you're going to be on the road today, be careful.

I feel like I'm just stuck right now.  I don't feel like my life is going anywhere important.  Surprisingly I still had a job after missing so much for being sick, so I came back to work the day before yesterday.  I felt fine right until I got up to the register.  I finished with my first customer & got really sick all of a sudden.  I had to pretty much run to the bathroom to throw up.  On the way I had to tell a CSM to take over my register, cause I had a line of people.  Afterwards, I came back to the register, only to repeat the fucking process like two more times.  While I'm in the bathroom puking my fucking guts out, people kept asking me if I was okay.  One woman said "God bless you, honey".  Then another woman (a customer service worker), said I needed to go to the doctor or the emergency room, & walked me to the bench so I could sit down.  My csm came over to check on me, & told me to sit down for a few minutes. 

I went back to the register, & after it happened again, I had to call Kelly over & tell her that there was no way I could finish work.  She called a manager to talk to me (you have to let them know you're leaving), but I had to run back to the fucking bathroom to throw up.  When I came out, another CSM said she'd talk to the manager for me, so I could go on home.  A customer in the bathroom asked what my name was, so I'm guessing she told the csms that I was really sick.  So, I left.  Hopefully I still have a job, but I'm really not sure how many points I've used up.

I'm going back in tomorrow, & if I'm out of points, oh well.  I'll just have to sit & wait until Aaron gets off.  I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.  My health has just fucking deteriorated. 

So, I had the day off today, since I go to the dentist later.  I went to Comp. Care for court ordered anger management, & they fucking tell me their program wouldn't cover the requirements, so they gave me a number to a place in Lexington.  I called them, & they said they're a walk-in place, to come in & if they had an opening they'd see me, if not, I'd have to leave.  I told them there was no fucking way, since I live like an hour away, so they tell me to see if there's a private anger management class around here. 

So, I call the circuit clerk, they gave me a number to someone in Winchester.  I called him, & he said he did anger management that would meet the requirements, but it would be $150.  I work at fucking wal-mart!!!  I don't exactly have that kind of money to throw around.  But, it's court ordered, so it's either pay or go to jail.  I meet him on Wednesday at an inn in Winchester (sounds a little shady, if you ask me), but oh, well.  This is a fucking mess.

...is kicking my ass.  I never thought being a cashier would be this exhausting, but my God.  And I've seen enough turkeys this week to last my whole fucking life.  I'll be so glad when people stop buying them.