Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem
and he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dog
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an 'a' and a gold star
and his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to all his aunts
that was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo
and he let them sing on the bus
and his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair
and his mother and father kissed alot
and the little girl around the corner sent him a valentine signed with a row of x's and he had to ask his father what the x's meant
and his father always tucked him in bed at night
and was always there to do it


Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem
and he called it "autumn" because that was the name of the season
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an 'a' and asked him to write more clearly
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of the new paint
and the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars
and left them in the pews
and sometimes they would burn holes
that was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames
and the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
and the kids told him why his mother and father kissed alot
and his father never tucked him in bed at night
and his father got mad when he cried for him to do it


Once on a piece of paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem
and he called it "Innocence: a question" because that was the question about his girl
and that's what it was all about
and his professor gave him an 'a' and a strange steady look
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed it to her
that was the year Father Tracy died
and he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went
and he caught his sister making out on the back porch
and his mother and father never kissed or even talked
and the girl around the corner wore too much makeup
that made him cough when he kissed her but he did anyway because that was the thing to do
and at 3am he tucked himself into bed - his father snoring loudly


that's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem
and he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
because that's what it was all about
and he gave himself an 'a' and a slash on each damned wrist
and he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
and no. i don't approve of suicide. it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. but this poem is amazing. and i love it.

it was time for me to get my feelings out. listed below is a way that i feel about someone. can you guess which is you? i bet a few of you are oblivious.
1. insanely in love with you. i don't care what anyone else thinks. you're my perfection.
2. you walked out on me; did something girls always say they won't and chose a guy over friendship. yet somehow.. i still want to be a part of your life. i love you.
3. you've used me, abused me, taken all i had to offer and stomped on it after setting it on fire. everytime i'm happy, you try to make it sad. and when it didn't work this time; i think i made you angry. and that was ultimate happiness for me.
4. you've lied to me since we were little kids. we always promised one thing to each other and you're not gonna do it and it really irks me to no end. especially that you haven't even told me yet.
5. you're so far away from me! but you still manage to make me smile every day. march is our month; i'd travel across the country to visit you.
6. you've betrayed my trust so many times. you've made people hate me who weren't worthy of feeling like that. you tried to flatter yourself out of insecurities, and when it didn't work; you made me feel horrible about myself. i hate that about you.
7. you're always there for me when i need to vent to someone. you listen; and you give advice without pushing my limits. i can show all emotions to you and know that you won't kill me for the wild mood swings. i love you bestie.
8. cupcakes suck. muffins win.
stfu.