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Brig Feltus, The Butterfly Queen



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January 21, 2011 - Friday 11:00 PM




listen to this interview to find out more about the woman behind the music:

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January 21, 2011 - Friday 7:24 PM


This is a stream of me being interviewed recently:
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Hi There!!!!
My name is Brig Feltus. Thank you so much for joining my friends list. It is an honor to have you! I hope that this will be the beginning of a long and worthwhile connection for us all!

I am a singer/songwriter out of Los Angeles, CA. I have had this profile on Myspace for almost 3 years. In that time I have used it to promote my musical journey, and as a bonus, I have made many new friends around the world. I hope that you will be one of my new friends so that when I come touring near you, we will meet!!!
As you may have seen already, I have a very extensive friends list. You know as without me telling you, that it is humanly impossible for me to reasonably reach out and touch every single person on my friends list. It is very close to 30,000 people!!! So I do my best to go thru my list and say hello to folk from time to time. Those who respond or who reach out to me first, will hear from me more often. Those who do not respond when I write them, will be left respectfully alone except for the occasional hello and flyer with whatever news I've got to spread. So if you're the type who wants to reach out and touch your myspace friends, I'm down for that, but for obvious reasons, it's only gonna happen if you help me out by reaching out and saying hello! I have a

BRAND NEW BLOG PAGE

Don't miss all the new stuff I'm posting there... articles on lifestyle, entertainment, cooking, etc...
Meanwhile, there is my music here. I have recently released my debut album, Love and Light Volume One. I'm so excited about this! It has been a long time coming. And my journey to this place is something like a fairytale with miracles and mysteries, and all sorts of suspense! Now that the album is finished I need for those who enjoy my music to buy the album, tell a friend, and attend my shows!!! Most of my friends/fans are the kind who are a little less tolerant for what's on the radio. But the biggest problem is that the music industry doesn't hear you.

Be a musical activist and work the consumer machine for what it's worth. The music industry is one of those industries where its consumers take no conscious responsibility for what they are fed through the airwaves. Very much like supporting fast food chains, we support mainstream radio's playing of the same 20 some-odd songs that they are getting paid to play by the major labels who own them. They play those 20 songs over and over all day long. with no regard for whether they are good music, with no regard for whether the artist is truly talented, with no regard for the affect the content has on society as a whole. It's crazy. But it's genius. You see, the radio stations don't rely on you directly. They just need you to turn on the radio. There's only so many stations to choose from. You'll have no choice, they think, but to listen to them. So they take money and perks from major labels, and they get paid from their advertising dollars, while we sit back and get our "free music" like government cheese. Did you know that in other countries, things are a little different from this? Did you know that the radio stations in some countries will play all sorts of music? For example they might play Beethoven then Mos Def back to back? And you are not likely to hear the same song 50 times in one day? Did you know that? This is why many American Artists go to other countries first to distribute and promote their music because the industry is driven by different standards. That's not to say that the crap doesn't spread world wide too. It's just that the good stuff also gets through and is allowed to be successful. I'll have to do a full blog about this. But for now I want to put the idea in your head that you have to support what you believe in. Not just in music, but all parts of your life. Or be subjected to the will and agenda of some unknown person who doesn't give a crap about you.
There are just a couple of things I want to let you know.
I have a monthly newsletter that I send out via email. You can sign up for that email by going to my main profile page here on myspace and filling out the reverbnation mailing list form that's posted all over.
I have two profiles here:
My main profile which is the one you're on now. There are five songs on this profile from my debut album.
My second profile which has five more songs from my debut album. Be sure to stop by there and send me an add request. Usually you will not receive correspondance from me on that profile, so for those of you that want to be left alone, but want to stay connected, that is the one to be on.
Visit my website!!!
I have an official website where you can view photos, check out the love and light fan portal, read news and check my show calendar.

On the website you'll also find my Brigwear Boutique where you can purchase really cool stuff like t-shirts, messenger bags, and more with the beautiful graphics designed for me by Andreas Adamec.

If you like the graphics in my promotional materials, then you'll love my line of merchandise too! The proceeds help to cover expenses that I incur in the attempt to further my music career. (Did you know that artists pay someone to get them written up in magazines and such? Yup. Thousands of dollars...)
I've got two Myspace profiles!!
My main profile here, which is where all of the activity is. I have five songs from the album on this one. Stop by and rate and comment the songs!
My secondary profile which has five more songs from the album and almost no correspondance goes out of that one. Make sure to add that one and visit there too!!!
In closing, thank you for your time in reading this. I hope that you will visit often and say hello!
You can also follow me here!

As always, I wish you Love and Light!!!!
brigfeltus


December 20, 2009 - Sunday 10:52 AM
November 22, 2009 - Sunday 7:30 AM
Please check out my new blogspace online!!!  www.brigfeltus.blogspot.com check it out!!!
July 15, 2009 - Wednesday 6:17 AM

May 7, 2009 - Thursday 6:44 AM
The Queen Butterfly and the Austrian are getting married on July 25th.
Come on through on the 28th to congratulate the newly married couple before they take flight for some fun in the Yucatan!
Meet their bevvy of friends and family visiting from all over the world!
Be delighted as Brig Feltus re-unites with her band Chrysalis Child, and takes the stage once again for the first time after more than a year sabbatical to perform her uniquely sensual rock n' soul!!!!
Entrance is FREE!!!
A $5 donation to pay her musicians' fees will get you a full length autographed copy of her award winning debut album Love and Light Volume One featuring hit songs, Head Over Heels, Crazy, High, and Take Me There and more.
Quality Collective's intimate casual atmosphere and fantastic lineups always impress!


Host:    
Quality Collective's Transmissions
Type:    
Music/Arts - Performance
Network:    
Global
Date:    
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Time:    
10:00pm - 11:00pm
Location:    
The Grand Star
Street:    
943 N. Broadway
City/Town:    
Los Angeles, CA
March 25, 2009 - Wednesday 10:17 PM
Here's a Hello and a wish for you to be having a fantastic week! 
I'm updating/upgrading all of my internet portals these days. 
Stay aware...
You can now follow me on twitter at www.twitter.com/brigfeltus  if you're nosey about what i'm doing throughout my days. 
I'm also getting back into blogging, so stay connected in here, by subscribing to this blog.
Sending you love and light...
b


March 25, 2009 - Wednesday 5:00 PM



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It's time for me to heat it up a bit, and invite you to join forces with me as I move into the next phase of my journey! Fill out the mini-form! Only takes two seconds! xoxo Brig

March 19, 2009 - Thursday 6:23 PM
On this day, 12 years ago, I gave birth to Maxim, my only child.  I'm celebrating today, my appreciation for him, and at the same time, my 12th anniversary as a mother. 
It has been nothing but joy.  Nothing but laughs.  I don't remember any of the tears this day.  It's true.  I don't know why I was blessed with such a fantastic kid, but there he is... my son...
No big fanfare, money's tight.  But I'll cook his favorite stuff for dinner tonight, and on Sunday some of his school friends will come over to hang out for a few hours of video games, pizza and cake. 
Oh!  And for those in the know, until midnight tonight the song I wrote about his birth, Chrysalis Child, will be downloadable for free!!! 





March 18, 2009 - Wednesday 3:45 PM

Hello, my loves!

Last week I joined twitter.  It's been such a thrill!  I know that a lot of people using it are narcissistic and self-absorbed, however there are others using it in most honorable ways.  Encouraging others throughout the day, learning from modern day wisemen, sharing the ups and downs of living, connecting directly with each other instead of en masse.   This morning I awoke to find the author Paolo Coelho on twitter. 
Mr. Coelho wrote the book The Alchemist.  If you don't know, you oughta ask somebody.  Better yet, go get it and read it.  It's the book Will Smith was talking about in my last blog posting. 
I wasn't even looking for Mr. Coelho.  Isn't that strange?  God provides... So I ventured onto Mr. Coelho's blog and came across this article that touched me.Your afterthoughts are welcome!  Hope to see you on Twitter as well!!!




The dead man who wore pajamas - Part 1



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Paulo Coelho
I remember reading a piece of news on the Internet that a man was found dead in Tokyo on 10 June 2004, dressed in his pajamas.
So what? I imagine that most people who die wearing their pajamas
either a) died in their sleep, which is a blessing, or b) were in the
company of their relatives or on a hospital bed – death did not come
quickly, so they all had time to grow used to “the undesirable one,” as
Brazilian poet Manuel Bandeira called it.
The news goes on: when he died, he was in his room. So, the hospital
hypothesis is out and we are left with just the possibility that he
died in his sleep, without suffering any, without even realizing that
he would not see the light of day.
But there is still another possibility: assault followed by death.
Those who have visited Tokyo know that the gigantic city is at the
same time one of the safest places in the world. I remember once
stopping to eat with my editors before taking a trip to the interior of
Japan – all our suitcases were in sight on the rear seat of the car.
Immediately I said that it was very dangerous, someone was sure to come
along, see all those bags and make off with our clothes, documents and
so on. My editor just smiled and told me not to worry – he knew of no
such incident in all his long years of life (in fact, nothing happened
to our suitcases, although I kept tense all through dinner).
But to return to our dead man in pajamas: there was no sign of
struggle, violence or anything of the sort. In an interview, a
Metropolitan Police officer stated that it was almost certainly a case
of a sudden heart attack. So the hypothesis of homicide was also
eliminated.
The body had been found by workers of a construction company on the
second floor of a building in a housing complex that was about to be
torn down. Everything led to the idea that the dead man in the pajamas,
unable to find anywhere to live in one of the most densely and
expensive cities in the world, had simply decided to settle where he
did not have to pay any rent.
And now for the tragic part of the story: our dead man was only a
skeleton dressed in pajamas. At his side was an open newspaper dated 20
February 1984; a calendar on the table nearby gave the same date.
In other words, he had been there for twenty years.
And nobody had noticed his absence.

March 17, 2009 - Tuesday 10:53 PM

March 13, 2009 - Friday 3:10 AM
Hope you all had a great week.  I've posted a great blog about saving money and still living a good life.  You should check it out and participate in the invitation to post some ideas of your own.
This weekend I invite you to participate in my "Tell-a-Friend-Weekend"!  All I ask is for each of you reading this to do the following:
1.  Please go to the profile of one of your friends and click "forward to friend".  Add my name in the "To" line and I'll be sent a message telling me to check out your friend. 
2.  Go to my profile and to the reverse.  Click "forward to friend" and add the same friend's name in the "To" line so as to send your friend an introduction to me.

To show my appreciation, if I get at least 50 referrals by Sunday at noon, I will allow two songs from my album to be downloaded for free for 24 hours.   All referrals must happen from midnight tonight through noon on Sunday STANDARD PACIFIC TIME. 

There it is!  Thanks in advance!!!


March 12, 2009 - Thursday 3:59 PM







These are times wrought with the tension that money's too tight to mention (old school reference... young'uns google it.)  Now's a good time for brushing up on ways to save money, and find ways to still enjoy life at the same time.  I want to hear about how you manage to entertain yourselves, how you manage to eat well, and all your favorite ways to save money on all kinds of different things that we homosapiens consume.  Please add your "Two Cents Worth" after reading!
Here's my short list.  I hope somebody out there finds something useful in it!



1.  Online banking and making purchases with my atm card

Now you may wonder what that has to do with saving money.  I'll tell you!  (lol) First of all, time, we all know, is money.  It used to take me a couple of hours every month to balance my bank accounts, going through receipts, double checking transactions, writing checks, remembering to drop the bill payments in the mail... Not only was it taking up time I'd have rather spent doing other things, but it was also costing gas, stamps, paper, and the avoidable late fees, overdrafts, and over the limit charges I would incur because of procrastinating staying on top of all of that.  I used to have laundry baskets full of procrastinated mail pertaining to my personal affairs.   (lol... yeah... i'm that chaotic... shut up... i know i'm not the only one...)
But I found a great relief for the madness.  No more!
I have been banking online for several years now and besides the fact that I've saved about $4 a month on stamps, it takes me about 3 minutes to pay all of my bills.  Yes, 3 minutes!  My credit card accounts all show up on one online report on my bank's website and I pay all of my monthly bills at one time in 3 minutes!
I do it from my bank's website, and it takes about 10 clicks. My account stays balanced and I've saved hundreds of dollars on those pesky fees I was encurring for being the chaot that I am.  

 My bank also has a plan where everytime I make a purchase with my atm card, it rounds off the amount to the next nearest dollar and deposits the difference in my savings account.  without me even thinking about it!  In other words, if I buy somthing for $3.76 my bank with round it up to $4 and transfer the $.24 into my savings account account. If I'd paid cash, the change would have ended up under the seat of my car or distributed around my house, or some other way lost in the abyss.  If it stayed on my checking account, I would no doubt eventually spend it.  This way I save money every single time I use the card.  I'm not good at saving.  This happens without me even thinking about it.  I don't have to "do" it myself.  I don't even miss it, because it's just simply not on my checking account any more to spend.   It seems kinda silly, if you think small, but I've saved hundreds of dollars over the last year this way.  Enough to pay for going to movies or a pair of shoes I wanted, and more! I paid for a flight to New York last year with money I saved this way.  Yeah, I eventually spent this money.  But I would have nickel and dimed it away needlessly and I don't even miss whatever those nickel and dimes would have been spent on. 
2.  Buying fresh foods at farmer's markets and International Grocers


Not only is it wise for nutritional reasons to buy locally grown produce direct from the growers, it's also cheaper.  Any way you can remove the middle man from how you spend your money the better.  I won't go into a big long preaching about why you want to buy local.  Let's just say this much about the benefits:  supporting your local economy, you can know what's going into your fresh foods (pesticides, hormones, and now frankenfoods: cloning), fresh from the farm foods that taste better and haven't been put through being shipped hundreds, sometimes thousands of miles, which brings us to the ecological benefits... 

You've all passed by those little ethnic "bodega" type grocery stores that exist all over.  I am a hobby gourmet so I have been going to these stores for years to find rare spices and ingredients for the international foods I enjoy cooking.  But I would by-pass the fresh foods because... well... I'm not even sure why... there was this subconscious fear of the small spaces and whether or not anything sold fresh in them was actually fresh at all!  But since then, I've become enlightened.


 First of all, I was shopping for my family's Christmas meal (I planned to cook Moroccan food), in this little arabic international grocery store and was floored to pass by an enormous barrel of sweet lemons that were selling for something like 68 cents a pound.   Regular lemons in the normal grocery store I frequent cost 99cents each!  For ONE!  And they're those thick skinned fruits with the extra sour, and less juicy insides.  These were similar to thin-skinned, extra juicy Meyer lemons which you pay a pretty penny premium for in Whole Foods or gourmet chain stores.  I looked at them closely.  I put one to my nose and inhaled.  It smelled like lemonade.  I couldn't help but let out a little "mmmmm...".  I asked the produce man why they were so cheap and where they'd come from.  He said his brother has a small orchard and he gets them direct from him.   They use non chemical pest defenses, and the lemons are left on the tree till they are full of juice. YUM!  He told me that most of his produce came from farmers he knows personally. 


In the middle eastern cultures what you put in your body is still a very spiritual consideration.  They don't have it down to perfection... but they're a lot closer than we are in the western world where we've become so concerned with how to make more money that mass production became more important than quality. 
In my family we don't have it down to a science either.  We're not vegans, and but I am conscious about what we eat because I know too much.  But it's a myth that this practice has to cost more money.  Don't rely on Whole Foods.  I repeat DO NOT RELY ON WHOLE FOODS.  This chain has made its success by taking advantage of our naiive years when most of the population had no clue all of the perversities in our mainstream food industry... when those who were in the know were few.  Now most grocery stores have organic sections and yet even there you might be getting janked. 


We drink lemonade and organic iced tea instead of sodas in my house.   I buy those lemons and juice them and freeze the juice.  (we have a foodsaver sealer machine... another money saver... you can buy bulk, vaccuum seal and freeze twice as long as the packaging foods come in)  I buy organically grown teas from an online tea merchant... in bulk... I brew some up every few days and keep it cold in the fridge, unsweetened, (if it's a fruit blend tea), or sweetened with the least amount of honey it takes to knock the edge off the bitterness.  I buy honey from the ethnic grocers and farmers markets too.  Buying locally farmed honey not only supports the local bee population, but ingesting locally grown honey is believed to help to ease pollen allergies as there are small traces of pollen in the honey.   This means you are likely to be less sensitive to the varieties of pollen in the area where your honey came from. 
Besides all of this, these ethnic grocers usually have small delis where they sell fresh made items like hummus, breads and pitas baked on the premises (or locally by a small baker), marinated olives, and all sorts of goodies that we KNOW we love to buy at places like Trader Joes.  Try your local ethnic grocers.  They are cheaper and you'll be supporting your local economy and small family owned businesses.

I could go on and on in this section.  lol... I'll save some for another blog.  I'll do one soon about meals on a budget.  Cooking is one of my favorite subjects, so that will be a fun one!

3.  Stay Home 

Do you get ants in your pants?  Do you find yourself going out and spending money just because you're bored or have cabin fever?  Do you spend money when you're lonely? 

Here's a simple solution.  Once a week.  Just try it.  Once a week when you get the urge to go out and spend money, simply stay home.  Reward yourself with a pay-per-view movie.  Invite some friends over or go and visit a friend.  Think of someone you can do a favor for.  Sometimes this feel-good act will over rule any urges to self-indulge.
You spent your hard earned money on that computer.  There's all kinds of online venues for movie downloads, music, videos, tv show archives, games, puzzles, blogs, news commentary, and more. 
Read a book.  When is the last time you did that?  We could all benefit from reading a book.   Get them from your local library or borrow one from a friend.  I have a library full of books I've read during lean times when I opted to stay home and read an interesting book.  
Play board games!  Invite your friends over or just play with your family... Or get to know your neighbors!  We played the new version of monopoly for 6 hours one afternoon/evening and had a blast!  Didn't feel like we missed anything!  We just popped up some popcorn, made some turkey burgers, and had a monopoly tournament, just the three of us!  Dirty jokes, and all!
If you hate being at home, I'd say it might be time to consider stewing in it long enough to save some of that frivolously spent money and revamp  your home life...  paint the walls, buy a new poster and frame it for your wall, add some living plants to your environment, open the windows everyday for at least and hour.   You'd be surprise how much less likely you'll be to have that itch to escape if you improve your home life.  This is an outward twist on a well known inner philosophy that you'll always be running away but you'll never escape until you get rid of the problem.   If it's really really bad, it might be time to seriously consider where you've been placing your priorities.  Is this just a place to lay your head or is it a home.  If it is not a home, then maybe you really should consider letting go of some of the other things you spend money on for a while or adjust your priorities and compromise in other areas so that you can upgrade in some way to a better place.  That's not going to apply to all of us, of course, but I would bet money on it being a large number of us, because I've been there, and I know a LOT of people who live like this.  They hate their home life so they spend a lot of time and money getting away from it.  If they'd put a little of that money into making a better home life for themselves, the investment would pay for itself because the urge to go out and spend to pacify the dissatisfaction would be reduced.


This principle works on your inner home as well.  You would not believe how much less money you will spend if you are happy inside of yourself.  (yet another blog to be written...)
If it's a person at home that you're trying to get away from.... welll..... :0)  you don't need me to tell you, one way or another that needs to be improved upon.

Whether it be the environment or the company, if you are unhappy at home, you have some serious issues to consider in regards to not only your money, but also your emotional well being.
If you absolutely MUST get out, try something old school.  Pack a meal and go sit on a park bench and eat it.  If you live near natural evirons such as a forest or hills with views, take a walk, find a lookout point and eat your lunch or dinner there.  Invite a friend!!! 
It's not about isolation, it's about just simply making better use of what you've already got.  If your escaping is social, then maybe you should talk it over with your friends because more likely than not, they're feeling the money crunch too, and would be more than willing to do some rotating at home visits, or alternative ways of hanging out that doesn't cost money. 
Check your local events calendars online to find free or all-inclusive low-cost activities such as fairs and festivals that you can enjoy.
Get out into the sun and find some flowers to admire.  Take a walk on the beach or by the lake.
Drinking and Cavorting:  Now, maybe I'm just getting old, but right now, when the dough is hard to come by, I am not too keen on going out to a bar or club, spending $10 on parking, $10 to get in, and then $6-$10 for one drink.  For WHAT?  I like to tell my son "This is a sucka-free house!" 


What kind of hypocrite would I be?  lol... All for the sake of standing around in a bar with a bunch of strangers.  If I'm there to support a band, that's another thing.  But just for the sake of hanging out?  Eh.  It takes a lot these days to get this rock n' roll chic to hang out at a bar.  Sorry to all my dj friends... it's just not a wise way to spend my money when money is tight.
No.  Again, how about hanging out and having drinks with friends in the comfort and privacy of home.  Liquor store prices on alcohol happen to be phenomenally cheaper than buying drinks at a bar!  Hellooooo!  We've all got iPods now.  We don't really have to go find that perfect dj.  We can be our own.    I hook my iPod up to my stereo and.... What?  Instant Party!!!
Matter of fact you could make it a rotating tradition that once a month you and your friends trade off, and have a lil' exclusive house party like back in the day when we hadn't lost our sense of reality!  
Disclaimer:  I only invite people I know VERY well, and I only allow them to bring people who know how to act.  

This doesn't have to cost a bunch of money.  Everyone can pitch in.  You can either have folks put money equally in a pot, and one person prepare or you can simply just do potluck. 
This can be a lot more fun that a bar where you can't hear yourself think, let alone hear each other talk.
I'd rather spend that money from barhopping on a dinner at my favorite Japanese restaurant where I know I'll walk away feeling like the experience was worth it.

4.  Thrift shops, Alleys, and Flea Markets 


Appropos for improving your home environment!
It's ironic how in the early adults years most people will go out and buy things because they are useful and inexpensive but low in quality because their money is limited, and then when they become more financially affluent, they go out and spend a fortune on new stuff at higher prices with quality standards that are often very deceptive. 
They don't make things like they used to.  That goes for many things. 
Okay, most electronic gadgets you kinda have to go with the new.  But many other things you can find if you really want to. 

I learned this from my auntie Anita who was a degreed professional and lived in an affluent neighborhood in L.A.  One of the more sought after zip codes, actually, for those in the know.  But regardless of her income she was always about quality when it came to what she purchased.


 Even in her college years when all her income went to pay for her own schooling,  she would never go to Ikea (or even the more expensive stores, for that matter) and buy a table that would be falling apart or out of style  in 4 years, without first checking out the local flea markets, thrift shops, and yes!   the alleyways of so-called "upperclass" neighborhhoods around L.A.   It's amazing what she made of her home.  It looked like the home of a millionaire.  It looked like old money.  She would find the most beautiful perfectly built pieces of furniture in these places that were being thrown out (because that's what some people do when they don't know what to do with their money).  Sometimes she would have to re-upholster but she had tens of thousands of dollars worth of vintage designer furniture that she MAYBE spend a couple thousand in total collecting.  She did the same with dishes, silver, crystal, china....  She was an interior decorator's dream.  You can live like Martha Stewart without spending all of your money on buying things that only look like the real thing. 

I started a few years ago by buying a 80 piece set of vintage mexican Tonala dishes that are hand painted, and signed by the artist.  In an antique or collector's store they would have cost close to $500 and I paid $35 for the entire set!


I have over the years bought quite a few really beautiful pieces of furniture that are useful in my everyday life, like a gorgeous rustic glass-doored cabinet I use for storing liquor... I paid $50 for it.  I made the rule that it has to be useful and are strikingly beautiful at the same time...and now, most of the furniture in my home is vintage stuff I bought or inherited from her home. 

Vintage home furnishings come in all different styles.  From modernistic to country, from european influences, to far eastern.  You will find all kinds of beauties for your home if you take the time to actually look.
If you aren't sure what's quality and what's not, check out some magazines or books to see what artisan work looks like. 
One thing I encourage everyone to do in general... wait... that'll be my last one on the list... heh-heh...
5.  Be and Educated Consumer 

There is no excuse for a perfectly intelligent person to continually find themselves squandering their blessings.  Money is not everything.  But it is a component to living that can help you to live your life the way you want to live it.  Let's be real about this point. 

I'm not suggesting you should be obsessive over such things.  But you will find that the more you know about the things you buy, the less you'll waste on things that were not worth what you paid.  A cycle of squandering can not only cripple you financially but it will chip away at your self esteem and put a tinge of distaste in you subconscious mind that will color every moment of your waking hours.


At very least you will find information that will aid you in avoiding misuse or mis-care of your purchases.  This goes for everything from how to store fresh tomatoes (if they are uncut don't put these in the fridge! they go bad faster) to how to oil a wood cutting board so it lasts longer, to how to make sure you're not paying too much for your cell phone bill.    You can learn about buying quality and where to find it at prices that are often lower than not buying quality...and in the bigger picture, what we all know through common sense is that quality is almost always a better bargain!


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This is an interactive blog.  That's right!  You don't get to sit back
and just absorb what I've written this time around.  You have to
participate, because fact of the matter is, I don't have all the
answers!  


So share some of the ways that you save money and improve your life at the same time.  I'm dying to know!!!!!  So add your "Two Cents"!!!







March 6, 2009 - Friday 7:12 PM
In complete control, pretending control,
with dignified authority, we are charlatans.
Or maybe just a goat's-hair brush in a painter's hand.
We have no idea what we are.
-Rumi




Wow... twice in one week... Part One was really difficult for me to expel from my person.  You don't even know... yet, here I am once again, as promised... practicing exposure in a way that was once normal for me and is now unfamiliar.

What's interesting is how the same day I posted Part One, I got two propositions of a collaborative nature with people I respect and admire both personally and musically.  Proposals that would require me to use my talent once again.  My first reflex was to flinch... a dis-ease spread over me.  Dis-ease....Disease.... interesting etymology, yes?  One of these propositions was so abrupt and unexpected it was sort of like when you're out at a bar and a total stranger walks up to you and asks you if you wanna "bump uglies"... without so much as even a hello.
After almost a year of isolation, no writing, certainly no recording, and only a handful of stage performances, I felt suddenly as if I'd been thrown into the pool before I'd gotten my bathing suit on good... Does that make any sense? 
lol... well, I'm not one to shy away from uncomfortable situations, so I gave myself permission to feel the shock then moved on to being flattered by the proposal and then took it a step further and allowed myself to consider accepting.  How long did I consider it?  About 2 seconds.  lol!
I will have some brand new goodies for you before the summer is over.  That seems to be the case, at least.  We'll see how things go.
Meanwhile, I've still got a lot of the Love and Light cd stock left.  Buy them and give them as gifts if you have yours already.  Or if you still don't have it, well, what are you waiting for????  The sale of these cds matters.  Even though money isn't everything, it pays the bills.  You know?  Recording costs money...

Speaking of summer....
I promised in Part One of this sequence, that I'd tell you a bit about the wedding plans Andreas, Maxim, and I have.   Our wedding date is July 25th of this year and we'll be married on my father's five acre property in Southern California Wine Country.    The planning so far has been a bit intense, as is my typical style... A limited budget, and an unlimited imagination.   That is a challenging combination.  But add a bit of determined resourcefulness and we've got a recipe for something very special.   We designed all of our wedding stationery, invitations, and "wedsite" ourselves using the theme of Altered Art as our inspiration.  Here's a sample of what the front of our invitation looks like:


We used text excerpts from Bible scripture 1 Corinthians 13 and from The Book of Love by Jalal al-Din Muhammad Rumi.    There is a great deal of photo collage work using photos of us as children.  (Yes, that is us, if you're wondering...)  As you can see, we've added subtle personal touches.  Andreas' sweater in this collage has a pic of a monkey riding a vespa and his little conductor sign has been turned into a mod target.  (only his vespa buddies will truly get that immediately...) And of course, there's my wings...  Cute image, don't you think?
Our ceremony will be non-traditional, and will take place in my father's gardens.  Friends and family are coming from all over the world, which is pretty darn exciting.  One of our underlying themes will be promoting eco-conscious alternatives.  The other is Mexico, because we are going to the Yucatan for our 'sugarmoon'.    We got farmer's market style 'Al Carbon' catering for a fraction of what a regular caterer costs.  We'll be using handmade crepe roses instead of cut flowers for most of the floral arrangements.  I and my friends have been making them now for about 3 weeks.  We'll use these really cool looking biodegradable, compostable disposable dinnerware made from sustainable materials (fallen palm leaves... no trees killed), using eco-friendly manufacturing methods.  They're more expensive than paper plates, but waaaaay less expensive than renting china. 
And they look really nice!



Our wedding colors are also pretty creative.  Antique Peach, Chocolate Truffle Brown, Latte/Taupe, and Champagne.  My dress is not white.  You'll see pics of it after the wedding.  I promise.  For now... tradition does not allow me to reveal...
We are writing our own vows.  Max will be writing vows as well, and will be a part of that portion of the ceremony. 
Andreas and I are planning a surprise for our "first dance".  Perhaps there will be video....I know, some of you might think this stuff is boring... and maybe it
is.  But it's what I've been up to my neck in for the last month.
Okay, so that's pretty much it for now on that subject.  I will share more at another time.  Meanwhile, let me leave you with something from Rumi's Book of Love:

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark though, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.





February 24, 2009 - Tuesday 4:23 PM




Hello my loves... my sista-buttaflies and brotha-sages. 
You have no idea how much I've missed you... each and every spirit's magic, blessing my every day...

I am emerging from my isolated place where I was stripped down to my bare nakedness and rearranged.  
Without looking back, and only for the purpose of your understanding, last year was a year full of painful challenges for me.   A business betrayal that cost me thousands of dollars that I couldn't afford to lose (or so I thought) and which brought my whirlwind of progress (musically)to a virtual screeching halt... Two separate bouts of physical afflictions that incapacitated me completely... 4 weeks of excruciatingly painful time spent clearing out the sold home of my deceased aunt who was the central hub of our family, and whose home was the source for about 80% of my life's most treasured memories...  Another betrayal by someone I should never have expected even the smallest amount of decency from in the first place...  I had to put on the Warrior Queen and fight, which my environment has taught me to despise instead of love.  This tormented me greatly.   Isn't it interesting how complex the Psyche is?  Why can't I love my Warrior Queen self???  Is it so dishonorable to be a soldier?  Is there no longer honor in fighting the "good fight"???
With each incidence I felt myself go deeper into the darkness and away from the light of the sun (and moon, and stars....)
I feel right now like I am digging my way out of the ground, shaking off the dirt, starting to see that light again. 
Maybe I needed to go there... to get away from the plethora of stimuli (or anti-stimuli as it were...) and cleanse myself.  Ironic isn't it, that to cleanse I went into the dark soil places that we all try so hard to escape?
At any rate, here I am.  If you've been trying to read this blog before now, you'd have noticed it sat here inaccessible for days because I couldn't even get past my own title. 
This is not the first time I've gone within.  It has, however, been a long time since I've gone this deep within, and for this length of time. 
I had a lot to mourn, and a lot to purge.  Even now, I am acutely aware of the leftover remnants of that troublesome stuff.  My emergence is not going to be a simple arrival.  Matter of fact, I don't really think we should even call it a "comeback" at all. 
Butterflies don't leave and come back.  They transform and emerge a newly morphed version of self.   That is what I am struggling my way towards, my friends.   Metamorphosed emergence into flight. 
For months I have purposefully avoided long gazes into my own reflection because I wanted to avoid seeing myself covered in my cocoon.   I have claustrophobic tendencies and obsessions with linear time passage that would have sent me into a panic and my time transforming would have been further drawn out.  
I am just beginning to be able to look at myself again.  I look into my own eyes and remember my own words shared here with you about having faith in the Unseen and suddenly realize I should also have warned about the deceptive nature of the Seen.  Sometimes the deception is the only purpose it serves.  My eyes look tired.  My body looks unloved .  My pockets are bare... (monetarily) My hands seem to lack purpose, and my feet ache when I walk... as if I'd walked a thousand miles and they are protesting even taking one more step.   It's all illusion... It's all deception.  I must not stare too long...
My immediate challenge will be to take the step anyway.  That step is the most important one.  Not the one million steps I must take after that one. (it's probably an illusion that it's one million... might only be 2 in a room full of mirrors)
 That step.... It will get me past the forest of deceptions that threaten to thwart my forward movement.
Let's see... where am I now?  I'm sitting here on the hard stone that is my faith indestructible.  Sometimes I may misplace it, but it's always right where I left it.  I'm sitting here... I've massaged the arches of my feet, then put on my walking shoes, and now I'm tying up my shoelaces (both literally and metaphorically speaking)... and I'm reacquainting myself with my own stride... with a few slight improvements. 
From these words on, I will practice not looking back but I'll also practice not looking too far ahead because the road ahead is not clearly visible and my imagination is elaborate and vividly full of biased lies.   I will practice concentrating on this day... no... on this moment.  Now this one, but that one's over now, and here comes another...and that sounds complicated but it's oh so simple if I practice letting it be.  I will not dwell on what has been in the last year, nor call it any further by name and I reclaim the power I have given those things by de-naming them from this day forward just like in the Harry Potter stories, you know?  lol...
Your eyes are the last to witness my final acknowledgement. 

This is not a comeback.  This is an emergence.  This is a resumption of my journey after a long detour down a dark street with no name.  This is the continuance of my forward motion.  This is my new day.  This is me saying "Hello, how you been?" and waiting for your friendly reply!  This is my fresh revival. 
I know somebody out there has been here before and knows what I'm talking about.  After that nameless thing which shall no longer be a part of my dwelling, to reclaim my power and move on is a necessary thing.
I must find, then, something to hold on to.
Great things are happening NOW.  I am blessed NOW.  I won't focus on what I hope for somewhere out of site down the road. (even when my faith allows me to believe it is there...) I will practice being joyous for the great things happening now.  I am blessed with an incredibly beautiful child who's such a miracle of love and intelligence and warmth of spirit.  This one thing is enough to overwhelm me with gratefulness.  I am blessed with the love of a good man who, in his imperfection, loves me as close to perfectly as I can imagine love could humanly be had.   Speaking of love, I am surrounded with the love of many, because to many my love is given and the ability to give it and receive it is a great blessing in and of itself.  I am thankful that I have the strength to get up, put on these shoes and get moving.  I am thankful for having all the external supplements that give me motivation to pick up my foot and move.  I am happy to have a roof over my head.  I am happy for the level of spiritual enlightenment that comes to me in this moment and the peace that comes over me because of it.   I am thankful for your good wishes, prayers, and affectionate words that constantly infuse me with a little caffeine jolt of energy.  I am thankful for the gift of music that I am allowed to bring to this world.  I have sight and enjoy the bright sun coming through my window right now, and warming my bare shoulders. 
Are you still with me?
I feel myself beginning to ramble, so I'll bring this to an end... for now.  But please know that I am fine.   Walk with me if you like.  I'll be writing here again, and encouraging you to share your own stories and of course, to spread the word about my music. 
But most importantly I wish you love and positivity and a big squishy hello hug!

Part two will catch you up on Andreas' and my wedding plans.  (The fun stuff!)