To the people I care for most, and interest is mutual, I want to thank you. Though most help by just standing around, and others providing me with wisdom, you all make me feel a little warm inside, no matter my attempt of making myself feel like crap. Though I might not openly express my gratitude to you individually, I still try to show it with small acts of kindness, like gifts. Even if my gifts are stupid and whatever, just know they aren't just random and I mean them with compassion (exactly what I can't say to someone face to face). Though time will pass, and ripples in our friendship are sure to come, know that I will still care in the end. From what I know, each of you have an influence on me to acheive perfection so I can recompense whatever I can for the fact that you all waste your valuable time on me, which is what attracts me to some. I never expect anything from any of you, but I like to be of service to you all with whatever I can provide. Basically, you guys mean alot to me. And now, I'm happy.

Most of you aggravate me. You simple minded fucks have to stop thinking that getting a relationship is best thing that can happen to you!! Fuck! A lot of successful people have gone lonely lives. If anything, trying to get a relationship is your biggest downfall. That is why you are sad all the time. You look, establish a faulty relationship, feel as though it is people messing with you, and you turn all sad. When in turn, it is your own fault. Its your fault for wanting a relationship. Just stay single, WAY much easier!...

I have a feeling that people keep getting miserable because of me. And really, I have no idea of how to stop it. Why is it that no one ever tells me the truth about this type of stuff? Afraid to say it in my face?!.... I don't care what the reason is. If anyone has a problem with me, please tell me. I never aim to be angry when someone is telling me the truth. If anything, I get happy. Happy to know that someone finally tells me, so I can attempt to alter whatever it is I need to. To stop being such a pest. Really... I just can't get it off of me that I feel like such burden. I feel like I've just been made to destroy lives all over, like I can't stop. I just don't know how....