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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 39
Sign: Cancer

City: Los Angeles
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/25/2005

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Wednesday, November 04, 2009 

Current mood:  catalyzed
Category: News and Politics
Friends,

For a lot of us, yesterday's off-year elections were a mixed bag. The GOP scored a trifecta in Virginia. A key upstate New York seat went to a Democrat. There was a small victory for LGBT marriage in Washington state, and a fairly large disappointment in Maine, where for the first time voters had the opportunity to strike down an assault on LGBT marriage and instead voted by a narrow margin to take away LGBT people's rights.

We have not yet seen comprehensive exit polling from Maine. There will be briefings from various LGBT organizations about why we lost, the psychology behind it, and how we must re-frame things next time. But it's reasonable to assume that as in California's Prop 8 disappointment last year, churchgoers voted disproportionately in favor of Question 1 (which removes the marriage rights of LGBT people.)

To an extent, I take this in stride. I have become a veteran of these contests, and can see that we have a lot of work ahead of us, as a minister friend of 30 years reminds me, changing hearts and minds. 

Yesterday's results sit less easily with another friend of mine, Jamin Keene of Washington, D.C. After some soul-searching, he wrote me the following letter this morning. I asked if I might post it here, because he articulates his frustration so well and I feel his perspective is a valuable one. 

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I'm really really angry. I'm more upset over Maine than California for some reason. I'm angry that it was even brought to a referendum. I'm angry that no gay person has proposed repealing marriage laws, period (as a shock value thing, and also to actually be fair as marriage is nothing more than a civil business contract between two parties [legally]). I'm angry that NOM and LDS and the Catholic Church is out there claiming to do God's work to save traditional marriage, and they can't see the parallels of this with miscegenation laws, and denying blacks basic civil rights, women equal pay and the right to vote.

The funny thing is that people who were against those things in the past said they were doing God's work as well. And they also said that those fights were the most important fights to preserve tradition to date. No one sees the cycle. 

I want to tell them that Jesus said that true religion was to care for widows and orphans. Being God's hands and feet isn't done this way. Giving all you have to God to support each other is what the early church in Acts did. I want to tell them that they're forgetting their great commission - going to teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and Holy Ghost. No amount of legislation will change someone's behavior into something you like. If you feel that homosexuality is a sin, then like any other sin, only Jesus can change your heart to change your behavior. Why not let Him do that? Why are they trying to enact laws to stop thingst that won't be stopped. Gays will still have sex the way they do. They will still live together. They will still adopt. They'll still get married in civil unions. They will get smarter about wills, but nothing can be done about hospital visits. Gays aren't going away, and no amount of laws will make them do so. If Jesus were here physically I think when asked what he thought about this whole thing (as they are smiling at him, showing Him what they're doing to stop the gays), he's probably say "And how does this help gays get to know me personally?"

It paints Jesus as an intolerant, stubborn jerk instead of the loving truth that he is. He doesn't need to be buttered up and made appealing. He's Truth and that stands alone on its own. But what they're doing is not being true to who he is. 

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Jamin wrote back and agreed to my posting this. He asked that I close with the following scripture:

Romans 2:17-24 

 Now you, if you call yourself a Jew; if you rely on the law and brag about your relationship to God; if you know his will and approve of what is superior because you are instructed by the law; if you are convinced that you are a guide for the blind, a light for those who are in the dark, an instructor of the foolish, a teacher of infants, because you have in the law the embodiment of knowledge and truth—you, then, who teach others, do you not teach yourself? You who preach against stealing, do you steal? You who say that people should not commit adultery, do you commit adultery? You who abhor idols, do you rob temples? You who brag about the law, do you dishonor God by breaking the law? As it is written: "God's name is blasphemed among the Gentiles because of you."



Monday, October 26, 2009 

Current mood:  annoyed

The latest anti gay marriage ad is aimed at citizens in D.C. It uses the same half-truths and distortions that the National Organization for Marriage (NOM) used to get gay marriage invalidated in California via Prop 8 and the current Maine Question 1.


Did NOM use the same bully fundraising tactics and freewheeling accounting practices that have brought these supposed people of God under the scrutiny of the CA Attorney General and a variety of nonpartisan watchdog groups? Probably.


Here’s my reaction to what the commercial has to say:


00:15 "Legalizing gay marriage has consequences for kids." 

(Yes, they will be taught about reality -- men can marry men. As they are taught the world is actually round and disease is spread by bacteria and viruses, not demons, as had been previously taught.)


00:30 "The rights of people who think marriage is a man and a woman will no longer matter."

(Indefensible and utterly false. Nobody loses any rights, other than the "right" to see their views imposed on everyone else.)


00:41 "These politicians can't balance the budget or fix the economy, but they've got time to force gay marriage on us? Not if I can help it!"

(Apparently they also have time to fight crime, provide our elders with Medicare, pave the roads and distribute flu vaccines. Nefarious! Maybe you  -- lady talking in commercial -- can get them to abandon these agendas as well and get back to their two important jobs: fixing the economy and keeping gay people from getting married.)

Friday, October 23, 2009 

Current mood:  accomplished
Guys,

My novel IF THE RAINS DON'T CLEANSE continues to connect with readers. I got word this week from a MySpace friend that teachers at the University of Florida have added RAINS to the fall reading list for some of their contemporary literature courses. Awesome!

Have you read it yet? If not, visit amazon.com and get a copy. If you've already read it, PLEASE write a review on amazon.
 
Thanks so much!!






Wednesday, September 30, 2009 

Current mood:  pensive
Category: Religion and Philosophy
I am in the process of doing interviews about my current novel IF THE RAINS DON'T CLEANSE, chronicling my parents' real-life misadventures as schoolteacher missionaries in Belgian Congo in the 1950s. A lot of the interview questions are easy to deal with, some of them downright fawning. 

Then there are the tougher exchanges. These often become my favorites, as they help me either solidify or revise my position. This morning, I was writing essay answers for an upcoming piece in an east coast gay magazine, and decided to excerpt a few of the thornier questions and responses in a blog entry. I'm only including a portion, as I want to leave the bulk of the conversation to the writer and his magazine to publish.

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From its beginnings in the 19th Century to the present time, Christian missionary activities in the Third World have been frequently criticized as a form of cultural imperialism distinguished by an arrogant presumption of superiority of both culture and religious beliefs. Can you and do you want to defend your parent’s careers against such charges?

From the 19th Century, Christian missionary activities have also been credited with saving or enriching countless human lives through health care, education, agricultural development projects and the like. So which is it? As with many examples in life, the truth probably rests somewhere in the middle. You are certainly free to condemn or applaud. I choose to do neither.

In any case, I feel my parents’ desire to aid their fellow man by becoming missionary schoolteachers, and their years of service in Congo, was noble and needs no defense. 

You have established the Ben Patrick Johnson Foundation to promote a rapprochement between the LGBT community and communities of Christian faith. Other than for the obvious reasons of political support for issues such as same-sex marriage, why do you think this is important? Why should gays care about a religion that has violently condemned us for centuries?

The reasons I established the Ben Patrick Johnson Foundation are broader than just that, as evidenced by our mission statement and the programs we support.

However, you’re correct that I’m actively looking at the tensions which exist between the LGBTers and communities of faith in America. I'm guessing by the tone of your question that you’re skeptical of an effort to bridge them. In order to move forward an agenda of increased acceptance, we must address both the LGBT collective's resentments and biases as well as those from within the Christian community. 

One distinction you're missing is the difference between Christianity--a religion--and the Christian church, an aggregate of organizations set up, presumably, to practice Christianity. You may also wish to keep in mind that the lives and beliefs of individuals in a congregation exist separate from the hierarchical structure of the religion to which those congregants offer ascent. 

Furthermore, the religious structure is profoundly affected by the actions and beliefs of its followers, even in seemingly rigid, intractable constructs like the Roman Catholic Church. 

Over the millennia we’ve seen the teachings of Christ mangled and misinterpreted, used to divide and subjugate people rather than unite them. Biblical scholar Karen Armstrong recently suggested that, “this is because of human ego, human greed. We have a talent as a species for messing up wonderful things.”

She’s right. But the damage we've done is not irreversible. When gays and lesbians approach people of faith one-by-one, or congregation by congregation, we can open hearts and minds, and eventually make whole denominations more compassionate and accepting. Put another way:

By extending ourselves, we can help Christians become better Christians, help Jews become better Jews.

I’ll go as far as to suggest that the two seemingly-opposing communities actually need each other: to be Christ-like, Christians must embrace all people without regard to concerns like their orientation. To genuinely advance beyond the fringes, the LGBT movement must learn to integrate not just politically (where it could be argued we’re doing a great job) but into the other large societal structures. We may look at the church, in all its permutations, as a final frontier we must conquer.

Why should gays care? If you are unmoved by the appeal of compassion, look at it from a place of simple pragmatism: At a time when as much as 90% of Americans describe themselves as people of faith, turning away from Christianity because of pride or past injustices seems unwise as a tactic. Certainly there are loud voices from the Christian right condemning us even today. But if you’re willing to listen in and amongst, there are more and more moderate, accepting messages and gestures breaking through. This will help us not just with marriage equality, but with a host of other issues.

When I talk about this phenomenon with progressive ministers, priests, rabbis and monks, I find a general consensus—we must work to bridge the gaps if we want to move forward.

You are a major financial supporter of The Institute For Welcoming Resources. Tell us about the Institute’s work and what you hope to accomplish by supporting it. 

One main way people come to hold more accepting views of gays and lesbians is by recognizing them in their own family, circle of friends and co-workers. This is why our movement emphasizes the importance of coming out and living authentically in our daily lives. We have National Coming Out Day, straight/gay student alliances and the like.

Similarly, the way to effect change in an institution like the Christian Church (though it’s certainly no monolith and ought not be approached as such) is by integrating and remaining visible, even when we encounter resistance. When you plant a seed in the heart of just one person in a congregation, you have set something in motion that may affect a great many people.

IWR develops multimedia materials and outreach programs to help spur congregations to be more welcoming to all, most notably to LGBT people. The goal is ambitious, but we already see incremental progress.

Why bother? Because just as we are their brothers and sisters, Christians are likewise our family. We all want to love and be loved. And by perpetuating animosity, we ultimately all lose. It’s sad to say, but many Christians--and people within the gay community--would rather feel smugly ‘right’ than extend ourselves in a way that is temporarily uncomfortable. 

It’s understandably hard for gays to find a tender place within themselves for people who they see shouting anti-gay rhetoric from a bullhorn at a Pride event or talking on television about the need to take away gay marriage rights. But we must move beyond that. 

You don’t open someone’s heart by shouting at them. You open their heart by showing them a glimpse of your own.

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(I'll take this down and post the full interview once it's been edited and released by the publication.)

Monday, September 21, 2009 

Current mood:  cantankerous
Category: News and Politics

[Note: Because of the nature of this discussion and the ghastly amount of misinformation that has been spread on it, I've chosen to cite sources in this essay as I would in an academic thesis or Wikipedia entry. My hope is to avoid being pedantic while still sidestepping any back-and-forth about the facts in question. On each point, I have either gone straight to original source (i.e. transcript or recording of Rush Limbaugh's radio show) or chosen as mainstream a factual source I could find.]


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The much-anticipated Senate health care bill was made public this week. On the morning it was released, I downloaded the .pdf file from the government website, printed it out, made a big pot of coffee, and went though the bill section by section taking notes.

I can't claim to have read every word of the bill. But I feel okay about that, because in the past few days, it's become clear that I put more time and attention into studying the bill than many members of Congress and the parade of conservative talk show hosts who have savaged the health care reform effort since its latest revival last year.

Turns out both sides of the aisle in Congress are rather dissatisfied with the Baucus bill, named for its author, Senator Max Baucus (D-MT). Liberals complain the bill is diluted, doesn't go far enough with reforms, and panders unnecessarily to private insurers and pharmaceutical firms. [1] Some even suggest it may do more harm than good. Meanwhile, many on the right remain as implacable as ever, steadfastly refusing to support anything that even remotely smacks of reform.

It's the GOP and its pundits' and media mouthpieces' maneuvering which at present seems particularly troublesome:

Before reading the bill or knowing its contents, rising GOP star Representative Michele Bachmann (R-MN) called on fellow Republicans to "make a covenant, to slit our wrists, be blood brothers on this thing. This will not pass. We will do whatever it takes to make sure this doesn’t pass.” [2] This coming from a woman frequently mentioned as a 2012 GOP Presidential contender. [3]

Before reading the bill or knowing its contents, pundits like Glenn Beck and Rush Limbaugh trash-talked and denounced both this bill and the Obama administration's reform efforts in general. They label the undertakings socialist, communist, fascist, and totalitarian. Last month on his radio show, Beck went as far as to claim, "This guy's a Marxist!" [4]

On health care and subjects such as his recent address to America's schoolchildren, Fox News' commentators have compared President Obama to the genocidal Pol Pot, North Korea's Kim Jung Il, and Mussolini. [5] Beck insists that Obama's political initiatives are shaped by a "deep seated hatred for white people or the white culture ... this guy is, I believe, a racist." [6]

Before his own committee's bill was finalized and made public, Sen. Charles Grassley (R-IA), a member of the 'Gang of Six' charged with formulating the reform legislation, told a riled-up crowd they had "every right to fear" seniors might be put to death under the plan. [7] Taken to task for his terror mongering, Grassley did a quick retreat on CBS' August 23rd Face the Nation broadcast and admitted that the "death panels", and notions of seniors being exterminated, were pure fiction. Grassley went on to try to pin the inflammatory rhetoric on President Obama [8], though this effort collapsed almost immediately under the weight of its own absurdity.

Before reading the bill or knowing its contents -- and AFTER Grassley's mea culpa -- Former Alaska Gov. Sarah Palin wrote an op/ed piece in the Washington Post reiterating the false claim that, under the bill, death panels would make end-of-life decisions for seniors. [9]

Before reading the bill or knowing its contents, good ol' boy Joe Wilson (R-SC) shouted "You Lied!" at the President during his health care address to Congress. Now that the Baucus bill has been released, it turns out Wilson's charge was completely wrong. He apologized to Mr. Obama only after being strong-armed by cooler heads in GOP leadership [10], but has yet to publicly acknowledge that his accusation itself turned out to be baseless. In fact, Wilson stands by his false claim even as the ice around his feet cracks. He also attempts to diminish his outburst by suggesting it was spontaneous and emotional. Perhaps Mr. Wilson forgot that he tweeted his intentions to supporters the day prior, and that his tweet is now part of public record. [11]

Both sides -- Dem and GOP -- claim about 80% agreement on the provisions necessary for health care reform. [12] One of the big sticking points has been the public option. I personally am a strong supporter of public option, establishing what would amount to Medicare for all. But Baucus left it out of this bill.

One might expect the GOP to jump up and down and cry "We Won!"

Instead, there are sour faces and anther round of distortions from leading GOP voices. (To keep things civil, let's use the word "distortions" here, instead of something potentially more accurate yet inflammatory.)

Standing in contrast to the low level of rhetorical sophistication of many of her GOP colleagues is the handiwork of Senator Olympia Snow (R-ME), another of the health care 'Gang of Six'. Over the weekend, she proposed an amendment to the Baucus bill that would contain a triggered public option. For a moment, it seemed like a jaw-dropping breakthrough. Then came the details -- the place where the devil lives -- which revealed that Snow's trigger switch would stay fixed in the 'off position'. Her amendment would require that 95% of us be unable to afford health care before a public plan would launch. [13] This gives her bragging rights as a reformer while the puppet-masters at big insurance can smile knowing there will never be any real impact.

More on that in a moment. First, let's take a look at a few of the main GOP grouses, recent and present: end-of-life counseling and "death panels", coverage for non-citizens, coverage of abortions, and the assertion that our health care system is okay as-is.

I read the Baucus bill. There are NO death panels. At all. In any form. There you go, Senator Grassley. Sorry, Mrs. Palin.

I read the Baucus bill. Non-citizens  -- "illegal immigrants" -- are NOT covered. They're specifically excluded both at the Federal level and in proposed state co-op/insurance exchanges. In fact, there are several paragraphs in the bill explaining how identity and US citizenship would be verified for qualification. On that point, the bill is unambiguous. [14] Sorry, Representative Wilson.

I read the Baucus bill. Abortions are NOT covered by the federal funding except in cases of rape, incest, or a threat to the mother's life. The government won't dictate to private insurers whether or not they may cover abortions in future, just as they don't currently. [15] Sorry, Mr. Beck, Mr. Limbaugh, and esteemed colleagues.

So why -- now that the Baucus bill is public record -- are a parade of GOP legislators and pundits still repeating absurd claims about how immigrants will get a free ride and how Mr. Obama wants free late-term abortions for all? One reason is that the GOP has discovered an unfortunate reality about humans and media: if you repeat a lie often enough and with enough conviction, it will gain traction. Especially if you can appeal to people's fear and ignorance.

The GOP is not working to save the hides of the great American unwashed. They are, instead, actively preying upon our ignorance, working with groups like the dubious cprights.org, run by a self-described "health care entrepreneur" [16] who have fashioned a series of deceptive TV spots designed to confuse us and blur the issue.

Look at the angry, terrified people standing up in the health care town halls [17], grabbing the microphone to ferociously defend Grandma's right not to be killed just because she's old and 'not useful to society.' The way these constituents have been lied to and had the Bejesus scared out of them is shameful.

I personally know a handful of GOP legislators and pundits, and am friends with plenty of regular folks who happen to vote Republican. They (you?) are my family, neighbors, and co-workers. Not a one of them (you) is a monster. You/they decent people, and apart from ideology are indistinguishable from left-leaning friends and colleagues.

So again I ask -- why, GOP, perpetrate this massive mind-screw?

The number-one reason I can think of? Because money talks and bulls**t walks. Big pharma and big insurance have a near stranglehold on the conversation, as they have each time in the past century we as a nation have tried for health care reform and their coffers have been threatened. Oh, how I wish I had the figures handy to illustrate this! (It makes me want to gather a roomful of interns and set them to the task of tallying.) Meanwhile, I would LOVE it if CNN or another of the major news organizations would add a line to their lower-third captions when they show a legislator from either party speaking on the subject of health care. Imagine if, while a given lawmaker talks, the TV screen told us how much in campaign contributions they'd taken from the mega-firms who might be hurt by sweeping health care reform. If we exposed the money trail, one of the principal sources of bias would be laid plain and become almost impossible to ignore.

To review:  Big pharma and big insurers pay big money to block health care reforms that might be a blow to corporate profits. Our lawmakers take that money, tuck it away to make sure they are re-elected, and largely do as the insurance companies ask. With one breath, or legislators assure us they are acting in OUR best interest, and with the next, many use fear tactics to keep America near last place among developed nations as far as how we take care of our ailing and aged. (According to the World Health Organization, the United States ranks just behind Costa Rica and only slightly ahead of rather miserable care available in Cuba.) [18]

In this blog, I have pointed to hypocrisy in the GOP because I find them particularly guilty in the fracas. But the problem is huge and exists on both sides of the aisle. Until we hold ALL of our legislators accountable, we will not make real progress. An obscene number of Americans will die or suffer unnecessarily. This is a tragedy for which we will all bear responsibility.

And that's not some scare tactic. That's just reality.



Ben Patrick Johnson
Los Angeles, CA


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1. "Five Things Dems Don't Like About the Baucus Bill" - Time Magazine -  Sept 17, 2009

2. "Bachmann: Slit our wrists, be blood brothers to beat health care reform" - The Wall Street Journal - August 31, 2009

3."Michele Bachmann a Republican for 2012? Washington Whispers" - US News and World Report - September 10, 2009

4.The Glenn Beck Radio Program - Premiere Radio Networks - August 31, 2009

5.  The Rush Limbaugh Radio Show - EIB Radio Network - August 29, 2009

6. "Fox's Glenn Beck says he believes Obama is racist" - Newsday - July 29, 2009

7. "Face the Nation" - CBS News - August 23, 2009

8. ibid.

9. "Sarah Palin blasts health care reform" - The Washington Post - September 9, 2009

10. "Joe Wilson says outburst to Obama speech 'spontaneous'" – CNN - September 10, 2009

11. ibid.

12. "Obama to challenge GOP on Healthcare Costs" - US News and World Report - September 8, 2009

13. "Proposing a public health option as a safety net" - New York Times - September 20, 2009

14. "America's Healthy Future Act of 2009" page 21 - US Senate document - September 22, 2009

15. ibid., page 23

16 . "Rick Scott Biography" - cprights.org - September 20, 2009

17. "Health Care Town Halls Turn Violent in Tampa and St. Louis" - Fox News - August 7, 2009

18. "The World Health Organization's ranking of the world's health systems" - World Health Organization - June 21, 2000

Monday, August 31, 2009 

Current mood:  artistic
Category: Writing and Poetry
Gang,

At some point, I'm going to post some of the mail my mom and I have been getting from elderly former missionaries who were actually living in Belgian Congo at the same time as the action in my novel IF THE RAINS DON'T CLEANSE. 

Many of my characters in the book are based on these real-life people. Most I have never met. I put made-up words in their mouths, emotions in their hearts, thoughts in their heads and wrote it in my novel. One has to go out on a bit of a limb to do this! Of course I couldn't get everything right, but I'm amazed at how good my instincts have turned out to be.

For instance, an email came yesterday from Dr. Gene Johnson, one of the doctors attending to my mother (the basis for my character EVA) when she was in the African bush in a small village, rapidly bleeding to death internally from an ectopic pregnancy. 

In one scene in the book, I have doctors and my father carrying Eva through the pouring rain on an improvised stretcher, racing toward medical care. For some reason, it occurred to me to have the characters start laughing -- from mental stress and the presumable hopelessness of their endeavor.

Gene writes:

Your description of laughing while carrying your mother was accurate! John is a good 6 inches shorter than the rest of us, and the akwardness resulting from that was what got us  to laughing so much we almost had to set the stretcher down in the middle of the path.  

This tells me my research paid off. Just as an actor preparing to play a role immerses himself in the character's practical business and often finds motivation that way, it seems that immersing myself in a world fifty years in the past and half a globe away has helped me tell a story with emotional as well as factual authenticity. 

I'll admit that sometimes I'm a lazy writer. I make stuff up, not intelligently, but just to fill in gaps. And as a novelist, frankly my work ethic sucks. But I'm learning that when I really invest myself, burn that midnight oil, turn off the phone and internet and really LIVE AND BREATHE my subject matter ... magic happens.

I need to do this more!

BPJ

p.s. - Meanwhile, please check out IF THE RAINS DON'T CLEANSE. Buy the book. It's highly unlikely I'll make money off this, but if we sell enough, I *will* be allowed to write another book. And nothing would make me happier.

Monday, August 17, 2009 

Current mood:  cantankerous
Category: News and Politics

Guys,


The following essay was written by Michael Mooney, a colleague of mine in social activism. Mooney is best known for his work in HIV/AIDS and nutrition. He's got a brilliant, sometimes recalcitrant perspective on a whole variety of issues. 


Here's his take on the public option, written just prior to our getting word that Obama may drop his push for the public inclusion and focus on the private options.


I love what Michael has to say:


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Yeah – the ....US.... government can’t run anything right, especially something so complex as health care. And of course, they can’t do it as well as Blue Cross, Blue Shield or ..Aetna... 


But think about it …......


This morning I was awoken by my alarm clock powered by electricity generated by the public power monopoly regulated by the U.S. Department of Energy.

I then took a shower in the clean water provided by a municipal water utility.

After that, I turned on the TV to one of the FCC-regulated channels to see what the National Weather Service of the National Oceanographic and Atmospheric Administration determined the weather was going to be like, using satellites designed, built, and launched by the National Aeronautics and Space Administration.

I watched this while eating my breakfast of U.S. Department of Agriculture-inspected food and taking the drugs which have been determined as safe by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration.

At the appropriate time, as regulated by the U.S. Congress and kept accurate by the National Institute of Standards and Technology and the U.S. Naval Observatory, I get into my National Highway Traffic Safety Administration-approved automobile and set out to work on the roads build by the local, state, and federal Departments of Transportation, possibly stopping to purchase additional fuel of a quality level determined by the Environmental Protection Agency, using legal tender issued by the Federal Reserve Bank.

On the way out the door I deposit any mail I have to be sent out via the U.S. Postal Service and drop the kids off at the public school.

After spending another day not being maimed or killed at work thanks to the workplace regulations imposed by the Department of Labor and the Occupational Safety and Health administration, enjoying another two meals which again do not kill me because of the USDA, I drive my NHTSA car back home on the DOT roads, to my house which has not burned down in my absence because of the state and local building codes and Fire Marshal's inspection, and which has not been plundered of all its valuables thanks to the local police department.

And then I log on to the internet -- which was developed by the Defense Advanced Research Projects Administration -- and post on 
Freerepublic.com and Fox News forums about how SOCIALISM in medicine is BAD because the government can't do anything right.
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.. ..


Michael Mooney....

www.michaelmooney.net

Wednesday, July 22, 2009 

Current mood:  thoughtful
Category: Life
Friends,

I am a pretty adamant supporter of free speech. 

First amendment rights are important to me. I want to be able to express my own beliefs ... and I know that it's important I help make room for beliefs and opinions that run counter to my own.

At the same time, those who oppose gay marriage --- and gay unions in general, the public acknowledgment of our relationships and lives, a basic respect for our dignity and lives --- offer their message over and over from the pulpit, in email blasts to supporters, etc., now being taken door-to-door in California and other states with gay ballot measures in play, and it sinks in. (We are sadly facing the same issue with anti-immigrant and some anti-Muslim bias as well, now .... again.)

I'm probably not giving new info to anyone reading this when I point out the high rates of depression and anxiety and chem dep in the LGBT community. Our teens kill themselves. Our adult gay brothers and sisters face challenges forming lasting relationships living the shadow of shame and being despised that still hangs over us.

And then I open my email this morning and have been sent this picture of a friend of a friend who was treated to a "lesson" by a few good ol' boys recently:



The point is, while we must defer to the rights and speech and beliefs of those around us, some of that speech is truly toxic and can have devastating impact over time. I feel we must learn to tread a fine line where we make room for dissent, but draw the line at speech or action that in any way degrades or diminishes others, or suggests that they are in any way less worthy of the love of God or other humans.

Can we agree to watch for this in our own behavior and try to be peaceful warriors when we hear/see potentially incindiary things coming from the mouths/pens/emails of others? It's a real challenge! I'm open to input/help on this one. I'm sending this as an email to a small handful of friends and family, and posting it as a blog for others. I'll be interested to read what y'all's thoughts are.

I'm also including a little gem to tug at your heartstrings in a different way --- it's a video my friend Chris Rushton recently posted. With no comment intended at all on Catholic Youth videos or other advocacy stuff that's being generated, THIS is the kind of video made my young people that impresses me:



Love you all -- though this blog is sorta political, LOVE is the real message.

Currently listening:
Across the Universe
Release date: 2007-09-14
Friday, July 17, 2009 

Current mood:  thoughtful
Category: Writing and Poetry
I've been thinking about this for a few weeks:

It was the morning Apple released their new iPhone 3.0 software. They decided to distribute it free to iPhone users and make it available for $4.99 for iPod touch owners who wanted to upgrade as well.

I was on Twitter, looking at the stream of tweets about the software, the vagaries of downloading and installing it and various users' speculation about its features. The tweets were a mix of delight and gripes, with many of the complaints exemplified by one particular tweet. We'll call the user "Eric". I paraphrase --

@Eric So the douchebags at Apple want $4.99 from me for an update after I spent $200 to buy the thing in the first place? Greedy bastards. Fuck them!

I stared at this a while and thought to myself, "I shouldn't reply." (It's a real challenge for me to sit on my hands when inclined to give someone a piece of my mind.) On this occasion, I succumbed, banging out several sharp tweets of response. (I also don't do well at containing my thoughts in 140 characters. Perhaps I should study haiku to learn the art of brevity and acerbity, begin to speak and write gnomically and ... oops, see?)

Again, I paraphrase my own words this time, but --

@benpatrick90069 So let me get this straight: You entered into a contract with Apple. You agreed on a deal where you gave them X amount of money and they gave you Y device and software in exchange, correct?

@benpatrick90069 Then Apple went back to work, and spent their own money to develop new, better software (that's the business they're in.) If iPhone users want the new ware, the purchase price is essentially absorbed in their monthly phone fees ...

@benpatrick90069 ... and when you (iPod touch owner) want that pretty new thing Apple has made, and they won't just give it to you for free, you throw a hissy and call THEM douchebags. 

@benpatrick90069 Is 'douchebag' what you called your Mommy as a kid when she didn't give you the sugary treat you decided you wanted? Did you scream at her?

@benpatrick90069 Your sense of entitlement is so broad that it's blinded you to your own grandiosity. It must suck to be you, feeling constantly cheated out of all the things the world "should" be heaping at your feet.

Okay, I was miffed. And when I'm miffed I'm not at my most effective. What I probably   should have said (and so will say here) is that Eric is far from alone. There is some Eric in all of us. It comes out at moments of frustration when the world is not going our way.

But Buddha (and Christ) will tell us that our attachments not only won't fulfill us, but if we cling to them too tightly, will make us miserable. You may recall it's mentioned in all four Gospels. Luke 18:25 reads “For it is easier for a camel to go through a needle’s eye, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God."

The point is that when we are weighed with attachments and "stuff", we begin to define ourselves by our possessions rather than the content of our character. Then, the ego's sense of competition and poverty take over and we can become almost monstrous in our pursuit of MORE. Our sense compassion  -- the most essential element of Christianity, Judaism and Islam -- is removed from its primary place and replaced by the sort of idolatry and materialism that Jesus and Buddha warned us of.

Our sense of entitlement is both a cause and a result of this. It's no good. But it's something we can learn to see not just in others (and tweet at them crabbily) but in ourselves. It's something we can work to root out and replace with generosity, humility and appreciation.

Imagine --

@Eric Thank you everyone at Apple for the cool new update. Just $4.99? Now I can do all kinds of new stuff. You've taken something that already made me happy ... and made it DELIGHT me.

We're still talking about "stuff" ... but in a whole new way. Now it's something to make life easier instead of us being emotional slaves to our possessions.

I'm no better than anybody at this. I just bring it up so we can all have a look at it and maybe learn something. 



Currently listening:
Greed EP
By Pure
Release date: 1992-06-30
Wednesday, July 08, 2009 

Current mood:  nostalgic
Category: Writing and Poetry

My eyes are closed.

The Michael Jackson memorial plays on the television in the other room. It echoes in to where I sit on the living room sofa. Connie, my housekeeper, has put the kitchen TV on. She mutters from time to time. I am not sure if she’s gossiping with someone on her cell phone or if she’s talking back at the television mourners. Whichever it is, she seems a little bemused.

I should mention that Connie gave up on God a number of years ago.

I must also confess that I haven’t been able to muster much enthusiasm for the MJ hoopla. Maybe it’s because his music doesn’t serve as an emotional touchstone for me in the way it seems to for so many people.  For reasons easily explained by a study of brain anatomy, our catalog of smells is a powerful emotional and memory trigger when we re-encounter those smells. So then why does music also take us back so powerfully, wrapping the past in an nostalgic haze?

I breathe in. I breathe out.

It’s early summer 1986, a hot cloudless afternoon.

I am at the Mississippi river docks beside the University of Minnesota with my friend Patricia. We’ve both found the loophole in a new public education law that allows us to legally ditch high school, take a couple of classes at the University, and spend the rest of our time smoking, drinking coffee, and longing for things we can’t exactly define.

We descend a long flight of wooden steps that zig-zag down the riverbank from the University buildings to the docks. I have a stereo cassette player – not a Walkman by brand, as I don’t have the spending cash for name brand – and Patricia and I wear pairs of foam headphones joined by a Y-splitter plug so we can listen to music together. As we bounce down the stairs, the tape player shakes and makes Jody Watley warble like Katherine Hepburn through Looking for a New Love.

I can’t remember if it’s Patricia or I who points this out, but we both laugh. A lot. When we reach the docks, Patricia lights a cigarette and we lay on our backs on the wide planks, not concerned that the sap, softened by sun, might blacken our clothes in spots. It does. I rewind the tape and we listen to Looking for a New Love again, this time shaking the tape player on purpose. After Jody Watley, we subject Janet Jackson to the Kate Hepburn treatment. Nasty isn’t nearly as imperative when Janet flutters through it like an old-timer. (Her command, “Gimme a beat!” comes off like a labored last request.)

We know we are young, Patricia and I. We are full of angst, but also expectation. She is going to be an opera singer at the Met and I am going to be a leading media figure like Ted Turner … or Ted Koppel. There’s no question about it in either of our cases.

I cough and shift on the sofa. I am forty years old.

My meditation has drifted, once again, from focus on my breath. A singer at the Michael Jackson memorial hits a high note. My housekeeper Connie laughs loudly, a little explosion she hurries to stifle. It trails into Salvadoran invective.

She must be on the phone. With or without God to please, just out of common decency she wouldn’t be laughing like that at somebody singing for a dead man.

I realize that Janet Jackson must me at the memorial. Of course—it’s her brother.

I smile.

Currently listening:
Looking For A New Love 45 RPM Promo Single
By Jody Watley