I've always had that fantasy - to be the bad teacher who all young bad boys in the class hate and want to slam her flat on the desk and f*ck her brains out.

I kind of atchieved that.

Unfortunatelly I didn't took part in a gang bang :( (gotta watch my language).
I become a teacher for a day. it's true it was my 3rd time doing so, but this time I got to teach my 2 favorite subjects from the days I were a school girl - Biology and English.

My teacher's day began with a cup of coffee, a croisant and a try for a large piece on PS. And so the hands of the clock met at 12 and it was time for me to leave for school. I packed my text book and left. On the way to the city my school is located at I managed to prapare my Biology lesson - Introduction of Locomotive System for 15-16yos.

Once at school I had to meet my formar Biology teacher who I much love. That woman set me on the right way ^^. We both entered the classroom, and I were left sitting alone on the teacher's desk. How nice =p

I should mention that it's the end of the term here and I had to examine few student - 6 people got the blessing to get a small spelling test and few tricky questions such as "is bone living or dead matter and why". Out of the 6 people examined there was only one A (though not complete).

And so the class ended and I had to leave that class and move on to the next - 8th graders (14-15yo). [Insert perv thoughts here]

So i had to become a teacher in English - how wonderful I'd say. The theme of the module was "Lifestyle" and what better way of taking this unit than talking about one's lifestyle, hobbies and activities. That class was fun - maybe one of the best experiences I had in school and I'm really thinking about becoming a teacher one day (not only for the sex abuse part).

Also I got complimented for my English. I was flattered - a LOT. It's true that those guys and gals were only 1st year in the school and had just began their English studies, but it'd alwayd feel good to be told you've been mistaken for an English. Once told that I was like "Umm... WTF!? My pronouncination is so Bulgarian, how could I be...".

But it definitely was one good a day. I'll surely try to do that again maybe next year.

It's known which my favarite song is: Vermillion ( by Slipknot, and it doesn't really matter which Part it is, in this case Pt2), and today on the way 'home' I was thinking over and over myself, my actions, words, acts and feelings. Usually such moments end up in one and the same way - shed tears and that song.
Today that very same song echoed in my head a bit differently than usual:

"All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me.

I'd do anything to have him to myself,
Just to have him for myself.

Now I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do
When he makes me sad.

He is everything to me,
The unrequited dream,
The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
He's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason."


I re-realised something that bothers me for nearly half a year and so, and I feel that my heart is about to bleed... it has turned into a fragile jewell it had never been before. And I can see cracks on it. Cracks which I, myself, left. Cracks soaked with fears, uncertanties and lack of courage - chocking feelings and a dormant emotion, which I alone cannot set free.

I desire for answers, hope and a charming smile.

Since I got into uni I decided to take up a sport - something new for me, because I got tired of all high-school basketball and volley ball.

And so I signed for the hockey team. Field hockey that is.

Haven't played before, but I don't give a damn ^^ - and actually I like it that way. If I ' accidentally' hit someone I pretend to be really sorry, but actually it's a great way to release the preasure =p.

The team is quite fun - chicks and dudes - some fuckable ones as well ^^ or actually 'want to fuck' ones if I have to be exact.

Practices are fun as well because after them there is a night in the pub coming - booze over a game of pool and some funny faces from the guys.

But what I like the most are the socials.

Just a quote from an e-mail from our soc. capitain:
"Hello guys

hope everyone has enjoyed their day of hangover hell like i have. i feel like death but am writing this email to announce that we do not usually get kicked out of pubs on our social nights so if you got that idea and did not like then dont get that idea."

We got kicked cuz of some standing on the furniture - so lame.

Anyways, i'm trying to get doing as much as I can - even today, at the UC freshers I signed for Ice hockey and karate =p

My dear,

Last winter someone must have hit me with a wet towel, because now, 9 months later, I'm round about here! And in this case "Here" is Anglia Ruskin University ( I'm a show-off, sue me for that=p ). For those who feel lazy to google it, ARU ( for short ) is one of the two universities in the city of Cambridge.

ARU

The university is relatively new - 150 years old, and on this curent campus we are about 2500 students, 500 of which - international ones.

Now to make all English's hearts tremble of fear - 21 of those 500 are Bulgarians. Yeah, did I mention that my race is dangerous? Anyhow, we are the greatest international group this year, followed by Romania with 20, and China with 17 reps.

So back to the main story - my story =p ( it's now time for Ahlto to start emphasysing on me using "my" too much ).

So on 8th September, Monday, Meh arrived on the island and headed straight to the uni. My room was waiting for me as the Sleeping Beauty her Prince - meaning, my room didn't even care that I was gonna live in it... such a mean thing...

And so to punish it I settled down in no time ^^

1/2

2 days and few coffees with the house mates later the academic year began... with a party... or parties - I forgot the right number already. Yet I clearly remember the very first one - the quiz.

Few teams and 7 "Crazy Chickens", 50 questions and 43 points ( we got 3rd ), and we-the chickens started to chicken in the face of another challange. But this time I had to stand aside because it was the enternal sex battle ahead.

Team 1 vs.  Team 2

Guess who won =p



Well, it wasn't my team, but the gals ( yey ):(.

I'm sure you all know what comes next after a defeat...

That

Unfortunately the booze here is blah. Really guys, you need to taste some East European drinks and spirits, and I mean some pure ones. However I'm imune to the lack of alcohol here - brought my own 5 bottles of rakia ( 53% ). Too bad only 2 are left :(

But enough with the complains from me for now. I, after all, need time to find something else to complain about and stuff. I also have to sit on that ass of mine and start beating my head in the textbooks.

Lots of huggles and kicks,

You lil BG kitty,
Felis

Get your Winamp running. Turn up the speakers to the max. Press the play button and let the music pour into you with a new power, power stronger than ever.

Listener, let .Execute. get under your skin so that you can feel your nerves get ready for 72 minutes pure pleasure. You are listening to "All Hope Is Gone".

The masked 9 is back with a new record that has a bit for anyone who likes the thrilling guitar solos, the crazy percussions and vocals echoing deep within you.

After 4-year-long pause the band returns with something different, and in this case different is definitely better.

"The Time of The Nine has begun" - That's right.
After the intro, a "so TYPICAL / APOCALYPTICAL" track begins that any who has been listening to Slipknot can relax, because that is what anyone is looking for - a killing song. "Gematria" is powerful and fast, and represents the band's thoughts of America.

 

The insanity continiue in "Sulfur", which has a dark feeling in its intro. Overall a really good song that would appeal to almost anyone.

 

And after those 3 pieces we are already psychosocialized and facing the prereliased single is not surprising. I can admit it to the band that the track order is perfect.  So let's get to the next one, which calms down the maddening tempo of Slipknot and makes us feel like we listen to Stone Sour instead. The "Dead Memories" impress with its difference from the previous Slip's songs.

 

"ARE YOU READY FOR THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE!!"

"Vendetta" marks the beginning of the columinations. The soft sounds of the previous song are gone - we are back to old school Slipknot with that one, which is not bad at all - interesting song for those who want to understand it.

 

The next one is pretty up to how I feel right now - the patience is over and it's time to say Good-Bye to all who cannot stand the band or aim at its downfall. Slipnot simply leads the listener to something new in expressing themselves.

 

As for the 8th song - all who like "Vermillion" will understand me when I tell you - this songs rocks. Heavy! Lustful! In my opinion - masterpiece. Nothing more can be said - the song has to be experienced, felt...

 

And after the gothic-like sound of "Gehenna" we move to something that screams SLIPKNOT. Think of "Spit It Out", "People=Shit", "Heretic Anthem" and mix them all together in a pure metal song that curdles your blood and turns you into "war machines". That insanity of that track cannot be stopped - it is overhelming. Now I crave even more to go and see them perform - that song will feel great on stage.

 

"Kill your Fathers - Destroy another Life
Question everything we clung to for years
Live Forever - Design a Better Death
Confuse a liar with a savior from fear
Create a Myth and Separate the Chosen Ones " - Does this remind you of something? Slipknot's best, maybe? if yes, well, you got it. "Wherein Lies Continue" is another great heavy song with kick-ass lyrics and tunes. "THE ANSWER IS CLEAR… ANNIHILATION" of everything weak. That song is stronger and better than you could have expected it.

 

As for "Snuff"... I have no words to describe that song. It is simply beautiful and my favourite of that album. Maybe because it reminds me of the "Vermillions" a lot, or maybe because I loved... You just need to hear it.

 

I guess now anyone is asured that All Hope understanding and predicting the band's moves is Gone. thus after the insanity, the mixing, the feelings, Slipknot say it straight: "All Hope Is Gone". Nothing more to be said!

 

Yet more could be said about the bonus tracks.

 

"Child Of Burning" is similar to "Dead Memories" in terms of Stone Sour's sound. Still it has it Slipknot's feel ( "Until this war is over I won't ever lose my rage" ). I recomend it to anyone who thinks Slip's something too odd for their taste.

 

The 2nd bonus is simply entrancing. "Till We Die" is something deffinitely different, something influential, something good. That song and Slipknot will never be forgotten. At least by me!

 

We reached the end now. Yet something else begins to play. And guess what it is. A remix of "Vermillion". Now I really will not say anyhting more, because I have only one word to say: "Perfection". After all, I'm the vermillion girl.

 

As a conclusion, that, in my opinion, is the best record Slipknot have produced. I love every bit of it. I hope there are more like me, who have liked it, like it or will like it after they listen to it. Overall - really GOOD job.

Name: Yana

Nick: Felis, YF, YFelis

BD: 20 May 1989

Sign: Caw

Many things about me cannot be explained rationally, so if anone if trying to do so better give up now, at the beginning of it all. My messy character is ruled by what I call 'hair'. That thing goes 40" downwards my frame and pulls any wise thoughts to the ground making me quite earthly person.

See, now since I'm a shorty, I tend to grow my hair and nails very long and I'm proud of that ^^. Let's say I'm a hell of a pain in the neck, so don't make me come to you and bite, stratch and beat you ^^

Yes, i'm aggressive, yet can get my aggressiong to work for me in many different ways. Yet, that doesn't mean I use it too much for doing good deeds. I'm a bad person after all - little dark secret of lust.

 

Hah,  I got that al messy... again ;)

 

So... yeah... LeterZ