Yeah I know that it's sudden, but I'm going to make it a habit to write my Point of View blogs while they're still a little fresh and connect it to some of the other ones I've posted. Anyway, like I said in my last blog, I'm over my oldest sister's house (waiting on breakfast, actually—might as well call it brunch since it's close to 2 in the afternoon) so I can try to see my grandma everyday at the hospital. She is in stable condition, but she's going to be healing up for a long time due to bedsores that she had, making her have an infection in her bloodstream. Speaking of healing, I got some to do myself, because of the rashes.

This Point of View blog is going to be where I left off—rock music lyrics and inspiration.

Point of View 6: Inspiration Intertwined with Rock Lyrics

I love listening to music,especially rock music, and sometimes Broadway music, especially if it's from a musical I love or I have to listen to to get a song I'm using for auditions. I love the new bands, such as Jet Black Stare,to bands that are still recording that I thought weren't around anymore, like Barenaked Ladies, and even the oldies, such as ABBA and the legend Billy Idol. I even love rock bands from both England and Australia, like Coldplay and Silverchair. For me, songs from the musical Avenue Q make me sing aloud in the shower, and songs from Bullet for my Valentine make me filled with rage and energy I need to make it through the day. Weird Al make me dance and keep a smile on my face, while Hoobastank, Yellowcard, Everclear, Quietdrive, and other bands would help me cope with what the world has to offer, and help me heal emotionally so I can heal physically. Being point blank here: Rock music offers me inspiration to write and help my mind create stories,poetry, plays, and ideas for other things to add on to novellas and books in the process. Whether it's 5:33am being an insomniac or getting busy with a paper due at 5 in the afternoon about some theatre thing, music really can put me into perspective with life and whatever society challenges me with. Linkin Park, P.O.D., and Queens of the Stone Age remind me to be real to both myself and as an unique African American woman that wants to entertain the world with her words and loves rock,along with a little rap. Don't get me wrong, I like the other music that's out there, I really do,I just love rock more than any other genre.

With that being said,nobody can say music didn't help shape the world to what it is today, or I would have to hit them in the gut, tie that idiot to a chair, and make them listen to Michael Jackson until they admitted to it (yeah, he's been around for years and has helped changed music to what it is today, even if he is a little loony). From the ancient times to now, music has inspired and has been a tool to evolve the entire world. Hell, if there are other forms of life out in space, there would be music to shape their world too! Without music, this world would be empty because everyone would kill themselves eventually from all the silence in it. It's also like if words didn't exist.

Speaking of words and music, here's the primary reason everyone needs to listen to rock music at least one time in their lives: it's in the lyrics. Lyrics are powerful lines to in music that can really make a song either a number one hit or a flop in the music industry. There's quotes that I can draw inspiration from to keep me writing,and even living. Here's some examples: "Broken" by Everclear is a song that prompt us that even if you feel like you've fucked up so much in life, you'll always be loved because "Love is all you need to fix what's broken" . Barenaked Ladies' song "Falling for the First Time" tells us that "Anything plain can be lovely" and anybody that says that they're perfect is lying. Linkin Park's new single with rapper Busta Rhymes, "We Made It", raps about making it and "fighting every rhyme and tightening up every line" with every song and made it "even though we had our backs against the wall", inspiring everyone else to step up, be patient to be accepted and win the fight, and put all your efforts and energy to whatever you have to accomplish. Ok Go's "Invincible" makes me (and probably others that listen to this song) feel just that, even if I feel defeated by an issue or the entire day, while "Get Over It" gets me to simply move on if I've been grudging over something, whether it's emotional,psychological, or physical, that I don't need to think about it too much. Avenue Q's hit, "I Wish I Could Go Back to College" keeps me remembering how much fun it is to be a college student, and will help me remember all the friends and memories I had at Limestone. Chicago's "Saturday in the Park" has me wanting to just hang out with my friends and maybe even go to a park and act like little kids, rolling down a hill of grass, getting dizzy and going back up the same hill to do it again.

Yeah, whether I download the entire album to listen a few songs from it, or get one so I can get it stuck in my head because it's so fun to sing, I know now why I have a very large music collection right now on my laptop, and all I need is a MP3 Player that I won't tear up and can put hundreds of songs on that I can take with me everywhere I go without carrying my laptop or even more retro (as of now) a CD player, in which I keep dropping and force to break little by little. Speaking of breaks, it's now daybreak (around 7am—7pm in Beijing, China, where the 2008 Summer Olympics are hailed for you people living under boulders and in caves without any knowledge of this—WHO WOULDN'T KNOW THIS BY NOW?!) and, so I bid ya'll adieu with a pair of lyrics and quotes from the song "Warning" by Incubus: " Those left standing will make millions writing books on the way it should have been...Don't ever let life pass you by."

Tickle It!

~Pl Heavymetalgirl: Lover,Writer,and Rocker~

I don't know how to start off this version of this latest edition of my Point of View series due to certain events that have been taken place. I'm currently in Gaffney at my oldest sister's house stay w/ her,her husband, my oldest niece, and youngest nephew. The good news is that I'm going to be able to back to Limestone after all. I just hope my financial aid go through. There's more things that I want to tell you about, but I'll write it in Point of View 7,but for now, here's my latest Point of View.

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There's a lot of people I know out there who know that I'm willing to help anyone and everyone that needs it as much as I can however I can, and I give it my all to do so. In this case, this person (whom will be remain nameless) doesn't care about how much a person tries to help them,just as long as the job is done the way they want it,no matter if that person has to almost kill themselves to do so,as long as it's done perfectly. If it's not, that person gets treated like the lowest piece of scum in the universe and more. And now, she's in stable condition at the hospital in Gaffney. If she don't feel better or don't change, she's getting transferred to Mary Black Hospital in Spartanburg.

With that stated, I'll get right into my fifth edition of my blog series,Point of View.

Point of View 5: A lesson about words and perfection

There's a lot of people out there that obsess over stuff: Star Wars, Nascar, food, wrestling (like me), but there's some people that obsess over the one thing that nobody can achieve throughout their lives. That is perfection, trying to have the perfect life for themselves without having to deal with any flaws or mistakes. While some people cannot help it due to having OCD (I totally forgot what it stands for), but for others, it's because they can't have it any other way, no matter what it takes and how many people get hurt in the process. I currently watched an episode from the NBC TV series called Fear Itself. This episode was about a couple that wanted to have a family and raise it in an environment that was safe and had a superb school for their child to attend. It was like watching the movie, The Stepford Wives and seeing the 'robot women' make the new woman in the neighborhood just like them,except it had some twists: anyone that wanted to get away or did something the community didn't like, that person could pay with it with their lives, and everyone caught her in the act thanks to cameras being literally everywhere in the neighborhood (AKA Big Brother). For example, one of the women in the community was cheating on his husband. She was caught by some of the neighbors and cops, tied up in the middle of the community square, wore a pig mask and had to endure rotten stuff and name-calling like it was in medieval times. The husband soon discovers that the community wants everyone to be perfect no matter what,even if it results in death. He tried to call his best friend to see if there's a way to get out of the lease on the house so him and his wife can leave,but they get captured by the neighbors and cops,and are confronted by the mastermind of the whole 'utopia community'--the real estate agent that sold the couple the house. In the end,the wife has a son,and her and the best friend are living perfect lives all the while the husband is without legs in a wheelchair,watching it all in the attic through the eyes of 'Big Brother'.

What I'm trying to say is when someone tries to achieve perfection, it's like counting to infinity;it's impossible to achieve,but you have no choice but to be satisfied with how far you came and accept that nobody else can. It's not worth dying for, and if you know someone that's trying to be perfect or helping someone that's trying to be, then take them aside and tell them that perfection is impossible to achieve and to move on with their lives. If they don't believe you, then let them be and let them find out for themselves how perfection is effortless. But I mean, being close to perfection is not a great feat to even want to try to have in life, because everything will fall apart. Not to be on the religious part on the spectrum here, but the only person that has achieved it has been and always be God. He made us who we are,what we will be,what are buttons are and how to push on them—EVERYTHING simply because he can. Perfection is a word that's overrated and unrealistic if you ask me. While I'm on words, I might as well talk about it.

Words connects just as well as actions do in society, nothing more, nothing less. You can say something bad and have the nicest person in the world or be a total vile person and say something that can change a person's life. Of course, saying a word in particular can put label you just as an appearance will. People can even judge someone by saying a bad word. Take that Imus guy or that guy that played Cosmo Kramer on Seinfeld as great examples. They say something racist, sexist, or even both, and we label them as total assholes in our society. The word "gay" has a whole new meaning now. It means that someone's a homosexual instead of being happy. The "N" word was insulting to have someone to say long ago, and now it can compliment a bad black person or a greeting between black friends. As a writer and as a person, I love to cuss and there's not a fucking thing anyone can do about it. I know when to clean up my language, and know to unleash it when I can fully express my own two cents. It's a lifestyle that people have to fluctuate all the time. It can mean a promotion for a job or losing a good friend. It can devalue morals and build reputations tenfold. I may not like the "N" word all that much as a black person, but I accept it as a part of my culture,race, and another word that people use as a way of life. I'm just trying to be well-rounded, personality wise because it's not what a single action does or a single word can affect you, it's how your personality shapes you overall. I think others can see this perspective of life because judging people by what they say or what they do is not important anymore:both are.

I mean I have friends that think obese people are sexy,that think metal is the best music in the world, that people can eat vegetables and survive without meat, that they can make it as a the best Broadway actor in the world, that have devoted their lives serving God and helping the unfortunate in a third world country. I know people that even though she's handicapped, she can become the best lawyer this country has, a guy that can make slam poetry awesome again, another person who learned that being army strong was the best choice he's ever made, an artist that want to make a name for himself, a girl whose blogs about life while having Asperger's, a guy that wants to be a pro wrestler and is training his heart out on a low income. There's shows that we have on television that let us look into the personality and their real selves while they co-exist with others whether it's in a house,on an island, whether they're famous rappers and rockers, or a person that's finding a better place than the ghetto to live in. We're living in a society that lives in to see others that are way successful survive with families while dodging the paparazzi simultaneously. Add in the words they say to express themselves and about the world, and you have a whole new spectrum.

This is why I love listen to music so much, especially rock music. Not to down any other style of music, but in my view on life, rock helps embraces and shape my life, personality, and feelings while living in society. I'm currently listening to a band called Everclear and has even quoted them on my profile. Even though I've been listening to them to years, this band has always found a way to get my attention with their lyrics, the words in their songs that help me cope through a rough patch, like now.

And that's going to be it for this blog. My next blog will be based off of this one, and will be up quicker than you think.

Hey ya'll!

Sorry about the delay,blogging wise!

I finally feel like writing and I have some time to kill this morning. Still feel sleepy cuz I haven't slept since late yesterday afternoon. I'm currently listening to a band called Everclear to put my mind at ease and make me think about stuff. As far as school goes, I've passed my classes and get to go back next year. I'm gonna make sure I stay on top of things and get everything in order to move off campus by spring semester 2009.

Even though I haven't started getting my financial aid stuff yet, I'm going to try to get a job near the school.

hey ya'll!

It's been a good while since I've been able to put up a blog, so I finally got up the courage to type something (and got good enough time to waste, too! lol) for my 3rd point of view entry!

But first, a HAMLET update! If ya'll been reading my blog, you should know that the glorious Limestone College theatre dept. is getting ready for the production of Hamlet in April.

So, here's the news! I've been casted as Cornelius and a sailor in the cast. Now, if you're planning on going, it's not going to last 4 hours...this version of Hamlet is only 2 and a half hours long. And even though it will be how Shakespeare wrote it, It will NOT bore you to death or into tears!!!

It'll be April 3rd-5th at Fullerton Auditorium, with it being each night at 7:30pm. So, make sure you squirrel away at least 10 bucks so you can go (Limestone Students and kids under 12 get in FREE!!)...I'll see some of ya'll there!!

Now that's out of the way, I can get to today's topic for my latest point of view entry...

POINT OF VIEW ENTRY 3: A NEW MONEY SCAM AND OLD LAPTOPS

Ya'll know that there's all sorts of money scams out there, right? WELL, THERE'S A NEW ONE, FOLKS! I saw this ad in the USA Today called $100K in 100 days, and I saw that all you had to do is answer a few phone calls a week and you'll get cash...sounds easy enough, right? So I called the number in the ad, did what the ad lady on the phone said, and waited till they call me back so they can get me started. I finally got a call back and they referred me to another phone number so I can get all the details of what I was getting into. After wasting 30 minutes and about 7 seconds of my time and writing notes on what the program was going to do, I hung up my phone and threw away my notes. Why, you ask? Well, the guy on the phone explaining the program said that in order for me to make money, I need to make a "money pledge"....EVIL SCAMS OF THE APOCALYPSE!!!!

OMG...This is INSANE!!!! When will this evil cycle end?! I don't want to give some moron money (they were asking for $500 and up to $2,000 a "pledge") so he can make money off me, I JUST WANT THE MONEY!!!! Is that so hard to ask?! I maybe super broke right now, but not broke enough to get up $500 to give to some idiot! Even though "I need to get a job", I want a job that's reliable, that I can do online, easy and fast, and that doesn't ask FOR CASH!!

Whoever came up w/ this whole scam should be killed-- Texas execution style because it's so prosperous! I should be kicked in my head for even falling for it, but alas, I was desperate to make some easy cash in a few days. Nonetheless, I will never fall for this ever again, nor will I any other scam! THAT IS A PROMISE AND A GUARAN-DAMN-TEE FROM ME, PEOPLE!!!

I warn you all now, if you see any ad that you think it's "worth a shot", DON'T DO IT!!!

Speaking of things that you shouldn't do, DON'T BUY/RECEIVE ANY OLD LAPTOPS!!! Over the X-MAS break, my brother promised me to give me an old laptop that he's had for a while...good enough deal, right? I get the laptop sometime later, and as of now, it's been 3 weeks since it's been in the computer shop!

Okay, when I was trying to connect it to the internet, I may have triggered a security glitch that totally locked itself, but this is ridiculous! The operating system is Windows 2000 Professional....NOT Windows XP!! That's how old this laptop is...to have that as its operation system kinda sucks, and I can't even Upgrade it to XP, which makes matters even worse! I don't know how I got so damn gullible and get so duped by these evil scams and old laptops, but when I get some good ol' cash in my pockets, everything will be back to normal...

Oh, well, that's a Limestone College student for ya! Looking for cash and any freebee I can get!

As for me and Seth, well, we are still exes, but we're helping each other figure out what we need to do in order to get through life, even if we're both broke as jokers... (THANK YOU BUSH AND US GOVERNMENT!!!) We still have our dreams, and that's all that matters...

While I'm trying to get a good head start on grades and Hamlet lines, Seth is trying to make ends meet while trying to move on in life...

In my opinion, I'm ready for a steady relationship w/ him, it's just him and his feelings that are hanging in the balance right now. You think that I'm jealous due to the fact that he's talking to other girls and moving on relationship wise, but I'm not...seriously....

I feel a strong and loving bond that I can't turn away from and even now, I wish I could be with him b/c I love Seth...I really do.

Well, I can't type for much longer now because it's ECW time....

I'll try to write more blogs in the near future and put a poem or two here...Wish me luck on solving my money problems and figuring school out...and remember this quote from Incubus's song "Warning"~~Don't let LIFE pass you by...

TICKLE IT AND KICK SOME SOCIETY ASS!!

~P1 Heavymetalgirl: The Everlonging Dreamer

hey ya'll!

I haven't updated as of lately, so I'm going to...right now...

I'm officially home sorta enjoying X-MAS BREAK and dreading going to do schoolwork come Jan. 9th (Jan. 7th is when I'm heading back to campus) since I been letting my grades dip a little and I want to get them back up to standards due to classes I can't stand...Now that I finally adjusted my schedule like I want it to be and classes will hopefully be better and won't make my life a living hell...

I've also asked Santa (or the Powers that Be or whoever can get me what I want) for a laptop (been asking since I started Limestone and I can't take the one I have here at home, a Pay as You Go cell Phone w/ a year of unlimited talking and messasging from Cingular (since my cell will be cut off very soon and I wanted to switch to Cingular b/c of their good plans anyway),a 1GB or better mp3 player, some sneakers, jeans, and WWE T-Shirts, and finally...an online job so I can make some money and hopefully become independent by fall of 2008...

Speaking of hope, I can't wait to do Limestone's production of HAMLET in which I play the part of Cornelius, one of Hamlet's servants...Even though I don't have many lines, I'm glad that the play's scenery will be totally awesome and I probably get another small part or two by the time it's all said and done in April!

Also, I'm hoping to write again...I've been in really stressed and depressed all last semester and while I'm memerizing the play and my line in Hamlet,listening to rock, setting up for Xmas around the house, and getting ready for the holidays, I'll be trying to write up some poetry, rewrite some written work that I have, write up a short story or some poems for the Candlebra (Limestone's Literary "Magazine") next year,  and maybe continue my novel and try to finish it b4 I turn 50 and have no idea how to end it at all...

Anyway, just thought I let ya know...oh!

I totally forgot...I updated my profile and got rid of my Youtube vids that I had, so people can actually look at my page w/o the fear of downloading problems!

I better go...my mom's on my beckoning call...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL!!!

TTYL....LOVE YA!!!

TICKLE IT,

P1 HEAVYMETALGIRL~THE EVERLONGING DREAMER

hey ya'll great news!!!!

the cell phone is back on...for now anyway

and also, I have updated my profile, so enjoy!!!

thanks to all that hoped for it to come back on....

Now all that is left to do is paitently wait for Friday and Happy Fun Halloween Time!!!

TTYL, ya'll and TICKLE IT!!!

~P1 Heavymetalgirl

**by the way, if there's a comment from me wanting u to have like a free stuff, THAT WASN'T ME!!! It was someone else that's evil and gotten my old password (I've changed it), so if you gotten one of these ads, DELETE THEM (unless you're interested in them, then go ahead and keep them) for I don't sponsor SHIT like that!!! THANX!