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hey folks!

Happy New Year!  yes its been a bit of a strethc but heck I've been all over the place mentally and physically.  Just got back from a stint in the DR and then a week in NYC. My vacation is well and truly over and all thats left is the desire to drop everything and repeat the last few weeks (sans snow of course).

The last week gave  me back a semblance of my old self and for that I am eternally gratefully. I was turning into a rather spiteful angry person but luckily I've come to realize  that this is merely a passing phase and that I dont really have to be where I am for long.  I just need to buckle down and give it my all so I can come out of this experience with something to show for my efforts. 

On that note, good night doves.  Here's wishing you peace and prospoerity in the New Year!

much <3

p.s. Baby I love you...thank you for brightening up my life. <3 your BP

Yes  I may be a little under the weather but after listening to "our" song I am suddenly feeling far fairer.

thanks baby for making me a sappy goofball on sunday and helping to bring it forth later in the week.

love you

Hey folks!

How is everyone's pre turkey prep?  All good over here.  Got a few x-mas presents out of the way, need the cousins and immediate family (they are always the hardest to shop for).  Raph too!

Plane tickets are purchased and  I'll be on my way to somewhere warm and sunny in just a few short weeks.  bumming on a beach with Grams and the munchins sounds like something that i need right now.

I've got my priorities righted and over the next few weeks will be making my move towards a freedom that entail enjoying my life, liberty and allows me to pursue happiness with a certain someone.  though he is right, I have never been this miserable before due to work and I am loathe to commit myself further to this misery by partaking of classes on their tab.  I dont' want to owe these people anything.    After much screwing over and overall pigeonholing by my management team I have decided that I'm better off cutting my losses and pursuing advancement in a more realistic setting. 

who knows maybe I'll go back into medicine, I am a control freak, it might suit me perfectly.

Other than the obvious Life progresses lightly. I love my dance class and am excited about starting the tribal class next year.  I'm going to start Hooping and if i can locate one a poi class as well.  Until then there is always pilates.  I located another studio which looks promising.

We've been straying towards home dates of late.  I complain but I love them/need them.  I am far too tired to enjoy days of outings without rest.  I really hate that this 12 hr business is seeping into my personal time, I never expected this to be ongoing but at current that is the situation.

Raph is his loving supportive self and if it weren't for him and various key players I would have abandoned  ship and gone nuts.

Anyhow goodnight doves!

much <3

hey folks!

How is everyone's week coming along?  Mine is progressing at a nice steady clip.  Its really been an interesting week shipwrecked mentaly disabled orangatans aside. Yup folks I am talking about the CNN holograms!! beam me up Wolfy! So yes I did watch the decision 2008 coverage on CNN and I am currently chuckling at the Daily Show.... just a few more minutes until bedtime anyway.  I know this is gibberish but I am tired and wired and am waiting until my laptop decides enough is enough and shuts its self off.

Good night doves.

Talk to you later, hopefully when I'm more alert.

much <3

Hey folks

Long time no blog...i know but life no longer revolves around my computer. In fact being an a"dult" has curtailed much of my normal activities.  12 shifts do not promote a hectic social life...you are just too fucking tired and the only thing that sounds good after that kind of day is passing the hell out in bed.  Its the one stable relationship you have, short though it may be.

But on the up and up I have run about in the past few weeks.  Went to the Paramore concert this past weekend with Raph.  I signed up for Bellydancing lessons in Newton.  I have some awesome new co-workers.  I am getting trained on lots of ( time  consuming draining) stuff. and I have managed to reign in my finances.  I am strictly adhereing to my fun/ saving/ adult fund.  I feel old just saying that.  Though seriously I look at the upcoming anniverasary of my  birth much the way I do my paycheck after taxes...with much dismay and a definate sense of doom.  WTF does a 24 yr old do? Thanks but no thanks, I feel shitty enough as it is most days without adding to the equation. 

::sigh::

On a better note, my one and only is moving to the area next month ::insert happy butt wiggle here::  thats a plus I cant wait to pester him at all hours.

Now for some relatively unimportant but fun facts:

-got green contacts...wicked hott
-Am gettin my belly button pierced for the new year.
-got an award at work
-mitsu is paid off
-Christmas is in the Caribbean this year.
-I am not alone in the auntie pool...Pania and Becks are new inducties
-got a very nice blue and white something from Raph last month (Love it! almost as much as I love you)

well thats that. I have run dry in terms of subject matter.  Life is fleeting and I am always on the hunt.

much <3

Hey folks!

How goes it for everyone on this fine sunny thursday?  Its beautiful out today.  I savored it and went for a walk with Stinker afterI ran some errands.  I miss being out in weather like this.  I hope it holds for tomorrow's company outing, I want to get my tan on and get paid while doing it.

Life seems to be falling into some semblance of order lately.  Work has evened out its demands. I've accepted most of the trappings of adult life and am making more decisions on my own without consultation with the parents. I've got plans  and they involve getting the hell out of dodge.  I just found out soem of my youger cousins are living on their own in Boston...now damn.  If those pip squeaks can do it why cant I?  I make a healthy sum, my car is paid off and my only pressing concern is paying off my student loans ASAP. 

I've had a taste of freedom and all I can say is that is a potent drug, and once you've tasted of its sweet nectar there is no going back without a fight.  I'm looking into Bristol Meyers and P.A. school.  I know I won't be happy doing what I am doing 10 yrs from now despite the monetary compensation. 

On the bright side I work with great people and my senior techs are more than willing to train me on new assays, if only I had the time.  Well now that the hellish expereince of PQ is over I think I might make me some time.

There are other forces at work behind the scenes but I refuse to tempt the fates that govern such bounty. Anyhow back to the salt mines...aka finishing drying my hair.  God what I would give for a decent bob cut...sigh.

much <3

..TR>..TR> ..TR>

So I was watchin a movie on tv this morning and I absolutely loved it.  I though I was going to loathe it too but in the end it was a worthwhile adventure.  It even made a hardened cynic such as myself cry.  anyhow in the end the character of Maggie reads a poem to her sister  (after watching you come to realize why thats so special) and yeah I was a mess of waterworks. anyhow here it is...

..TR> i carry your heart with me by E. E. Cummings i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) ..DIV>..P> 4:08 AM  1 Comments (Add Comment) | 2 Kudos Translate Powered by English Albanian Arabic Bulgarian Catalan Chinese Croatian Czech Danish Dutch Estonian Filipino Finnish French Galician German Greek Hebrew Hindi Hungarian Indonesian Italian Japanese Korean Latvian Lithuanian Maltese Norwegian Polish Portuguese Romanian Russian Serbian Slovak Slovenian Spanish Swedish Thai Turkish Ukrainian Vietnamese