Is really something I should be doing right now...

Considering I have an art trade for Deviant Art to finish... and the simple fact that my updates on that site have become rather scarce...

Its like making tacos is slowly draining my creative spirit... I just want to lay around and watch TV or something...

I suppose making excuses wont get my drawings done.

Ah well, I guess I better get to work. e_e

You know I have been feeling pretty down for the past several days. I've come to learn that people I cared about and have done a lot for were really fucked up all along.... I know, I should have seen it coming... but I am a person that still wants to believe that people are warm hearted and will see the difference between right and wrong... unfortunaltly that is not the case...

People are assholes. The lie to you, they talk shit about you, they use you, and they treat you like you never really mattered in the first place. You may call me an idiot for not wanting to believe this, but it just surprises me that people can actually do all of these things and not feel an ounce of guilt or remorse... Truely we are a fucked up race. It makes me sick to my stomach.

Now I will try to move passed 2 years of friendship and focus on my life with my real friends and family. Its just not worth trying to make someone understand how to see the world through the eyes of an adult. Or through the eyes of a good person.

Thanks to all the people who really do make an effort to show your appreciation to others. Its a rare quality apparently...
 

Well I haven't been able to get on very often but I go to Sara's almost everyday now! ^^ Yay for internet. I work mainly night shift now, so there is time in the day to see each other.

I think I have found a cheap car that can get me back and forth between work. It's an old blue 2-door Chevy Cavalier. I think it might be a standard. It has problems with the breaks and one of the turn signals doesn't work. But once the owner's get it fixed they were looking at selling it under $1,000. We may be able to convince them to let us make payments. If I do get it, I will be getting promoted to manager (which that may be the case either way) and I will be getting a decent raise. (maybe 8.75 or so.) If not, I will be getting a raise any way.

In other news, we think that we are being screwed out of our apartment. We are probably going to say forget it, and go to a real complex. The land-lady is just a bitch and she skips over people and plays favorites. It's not fair, I know. But, we will be happier somewhere else, I bet.

We will be struggling with money for a while... I don't know what to do.I still have cosplay and badges to order for AKon and then we have to pay for our room. In Spetember we were planning on a trip to New York. It's best not to think about how we are going to pull this off. May have to get a second job -.-"

Just keep in touch with us okay? :) We miss everyone! And we hope for things to come together soon.

Oh my god, I cant believe AN CAFE is coming to A-kon this year! Hell freaking yes! I'm so happy that I get to meet them! : D Yay!

But I am sad that Bou is leaving before they come to America... ;_; I probably wont get to see them perform then... but at least I get to MEET them! Whooooo-weeee! I'm gonna make so much stuff for them and get them all presents! <3

I hope everyone else is as happy as I am too! Now for a victory dance...

<(^_^)^ ...  ^(^_^)^ ... ^(^_^)>... Yay!

<333

I'm so pissed at JPop House right now... those bastards are nothing but a bunch of crooks and I refuse to buy any of my JRock or other Japanese products from them as of now!

I ordered 3 Cures from those fuckers and paid with my card. The shipping was supposed to take 3-5 days and I ordered it a few days before Christmas... but now its the end of JANUARY and they still haven't gotten to me! So I emailed them basically asking 'What the fuck is going on?' but in a nicer more formal way of course! ^^ And so far no reply back... I looked up the tracking number they gave me on the receipt I got from them and apparently it never even existed in the UPS database! So in other words.. they never sent it!

So, I was talking to Shou one day online and I told him about the problem I had with them... and guess what? He orded a Miyavi lip ring from them and paid for it... but he never fucking got it... so he emailed... but also like me... he got no fucking feedback! God, I swear if I see Harry at Akon this year... I'm kicking him in the balls and demanding my $40 back! ><

So long story short, If you value your money what-so-ever... DO NOT BUY FROM JPOP HOUSE THEY WILL FUCKING SCREW YOU OVER SOOOO BAD THOSE GOD-DAMNED CON ARTISTS!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah... ^_^

Well... I'm looking for a way to earn some extra cash for this comming year... so... If anyone likes artwork, I have a proposition...

I'll draw anything you want for money... You name it, I can draw it... no matter what it is... well... except anything unecessary like [strange and unusual porn or something of that nature! I'm an artist not a pervert!]

Anyway, yeah... whatever you want... I can draw it and its yours for a reasonable fee... [depending on how difficult the assignment is of course]

But yeah... I just thought I'd throw that out there... ^__^ Anyway...

PLEASE HELP THE STARVING ARTIST!!!!! <3 lol... yeah

*Sigh* I hate my job... I hate the people in this town... or in this world for that matter... except for the people I love! [you know who you are... >_>] Anyway... yeah... working over 9 hours a day, 40 hours a week and still not making enough to support yourself really, really sucks! ^^

Okay, the real reason I'm posting is to apologize to everyone if it seems like I'm ignoring them... I don't mean for it to seem that way... I'm just always working now... and plus the only time I get online is when I walk to the library after work... ^^ [dont have a car, for those of you who don't know...] But anyway, I've really just been kinda busy working and being tired... I don't know if anyone realizes it or not... I'm sure they do... but fast food work is not easy... Its physical, its stressful, its complete fucking hell... It makes you hate everyone you see... It makes you hate food... It makes you break out... It makes you sweaty and gross feeling... It tires your body and mind... Its just really shitty... I can't wait until I get a car so I can get the fuck out of that 6.50 an hour bullshit and kiss Taco Hell goodbye for good! ^_^

Well this became a bit random... and I'm sorry for that too! Anyway I'll try to talk to everyone more! Peace out and keep going!

<3

OMFG... Ha ha... I can't believe it... they really did it... Dir en Grey kicked all of the other band's asses and won the best rock video award in 2006 for SAKU! Man, I bet everyone was pissed off royaly! XD Too freakin' bad! They should have listend to me when I said that my band sooo totally rocked harder than any shitty-ass American crap that is played today! No body believed me though... until NOW! In your face you bastarts! Dir en Grey has totally PWNED your sissy ass metal bands! FUCK YEAAAAAH! XDDDDD

Holy freaking god... I can't believe she pulled this shit off! I have finally witnessed Kurama's hair being realistically interpreted in a wig... and this wig is not too different from the one I shall receive in a short while!

O_____O I can't wait for this to come to me... I will be the sexiest Kurama cosplayer alive be-yoches! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! XDDDD

Yeah...

Yeep. Its a brand new year we've just rolled into ppl... and I have an optimistic outlook on things because I can get a fresh start on everything I've been meaning to get to... Anyway though... this blog is really about my Christmas and New Year's experiences...

First off... on Christmas day before noon, I went to my parents house for dinner... yeah talk about awkward... I haven't been home in over a year and to go back there was a wierd feeling... but it had to be done... a person can't remain estranged from their family forever now can they??? ^^' Anyway.... then after all that jazz, I went back home and Sara came over to spend Christmas with me! YAY! I was glad to see her because I don't get to see her very often... and it makes me sad... but mainly we just hung out and watched movies and played video games... I had a lot of fun with her as always! <3

Then, New Year's eve I went to Wally World to spend my gift card I got for Christmas! I got a bad-ass digital camera with it and that my friends is most likely why you see all-freakin-new pics on my sheezzy! XD [Damn I've been hanging around Branden too long... ^^'''' *smacks self*] So, in turn that was my Christmas present this year! On the other hand, I think the best present was Sara spending New Year's eve with me and us drinking a bit! ^^

New Year's Day, Sara and I took our friend D out to dinner at the Sesame Grill [Chinese all-you-can-eat buffet!] It was her Christmas present to come see us since she doesn't live in the same area we do and we only get to see her about once ever several months... and in turn my Christmas present to her was a massive quantity of Chinese food that she could help her self to! ^^ I also liked that present as well... I really wish I could have seen more of my friends that I don't see very often for Christmas... its really all I wanted from everyone was to be together and laugh and talk about anything and everything... I think this Christmas was one of the best ones I've had in a long time!

Thanks to all of the above for participating! ^^ I love you guys! <3