Love. Dreams. Future. All variables.

Fear, needing to be overcome.

Doubt, dragging me down.

Slowing my ascent.

Struggling to move forward.

Swimming against the flow of the stream.

As if there is no hope of moving forward.

Stand tall forever, never stop moving.

Progress made an inch at a time.

Stand still and be drug under.

Slip backwards in the stream of life.

Get stuck in a deep rooted rut.

You cannot have peace till you've had suffering.

"Life is an incessant series of problems,

All difficult, with brutally limited choices,

. . . . And a time limit."

Time's up.



(C) Off the Wall, Inc., 2007

Including an excerpt from Trigun(R)

I was thinking about this today. After my last entry, I began to think about the things that have happened to me and others. I remember there being a month dedicated to National Child Abuse. I remember people wanting to raise awareness on the matter. What doesn't make sense to me is, If you wanna make more people aware of this, you want to find a way to prevent this, why is it so tradgic when one of us speaks of the things we have been thru?

I spoke out about what had happened to myself the other day, without going into dramatic details for my own sake, and was critizied for it and accused of wanting pity. I don't feel bad for myself!

I took it in stride. I got knocked around and fucked up and you know what I did? I got the fuck up, brushed myself off and continued moving forward. I refused to let it get me. I chose my own path, rather than let others do it for me. Rather than let the shit I had seen and been subjected to hold me back and make me a statistic. I moved on, stronger than when I fell. I learned that drugs and alcohol weren't the answer. I learned that violence wasn't the answer. I learned the things I had seen in my life weren't right. I knew from the first time I watched my father lay his hand on my mother, that I would NEVER strike a woman. I knew it wasn't right, but it still fucked up my head.

So, why is it, that we want raised awareness and want a way to prevent this by learning the signs, but you don't wanna hear what happened to those that have been thru it? You don't wanna know what WE did to cope? You don't want to know how WE survived and moved forward? You only wanna criticize us and say we are looking to be pitied?

I say, fuck you and fuck your pity!

It all depends on how you read it.

 

 

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