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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 25
Sign: Leo

City: CORVALLIS
State: Oregon
Country: US
Signup Date: 12/5/2005

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Wednesday, November 29, 2006 

I wish I knew what the hell made me think I could graduate from college after I barley passed high school. What ever it was I wish I still had it.

 

I go to 99% of my classes, I don't party during the week, I turn in all my homework on time. I have pulled more all-nighters this month then I care to recall, and they are not all because I'm trying to get ready for an exam, most of them were working on homework that most people completed in an hour or so, and its not that I get any better of a grade on it I just am to stupid and slow to figure it out, I'm always studying for something. But yet this entire term has been one F after another. There isn't a single class that I'm taking that I'm not worried about flunking. I believe that if you go to all the classes and do all the homework that you should at least pass. I almost think that I should just go out and party and be crazy, because at least then I would have a reason for getting such awful grades other then I'm just retarded.

 

Perhaps I'm not cut out to be an engineer? I know it's what I really want to do and the classes are really interesting but I just can't remember anything. I accepted along time ago that I will never be a very smart person but, especially after this term, I feel like I am quite possibly the dumbest person on the face of the planet.

 

I must admit that I am quite worn out and lonely down here in Corvallis. Most of my friends have either moved away or graduated. And even I can admit that I am not the most social suave individual so for me making really good friends like the ones that I lost is really difficult. I'm not alone down here, I still have some friends here but it's still nothing like it was before. Corvallis used to feel like my home, like I belonged here. But more recently it has started to feel like a prison. A place I can't escape from. I kind of wish I could move back to Portland, I'm not sure what that would accomplish but at least I would be away from here. Or perhaps I could go see what the world is like? Although the college and me not working has seriously hampered the budget for such an adventure.

 

Perhaps if anyone actually reads this blog they will think. "Oh Aaron is just a little depressed" but I don't think so cause according to Webster's, depression is defined as "a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason." And I think that flunking everything I try is a just warrant for the way I'm feeling. And I know that some people will read this and will tell me "things will get better", "things are always darkest before the dawn" or some other cliché, and to those statements all I can say is I know things will eventually get better in the future. The only problem with that is I don't live in the future. I live in the now and today.

Monday, June 26, 2006 

As many of you know, two of my roommates are moving out. They are not just moving out, they are moving to Denver (which seems to be a very popular place lately). Even though I have only known sara and Taylor for about a year, they have quickly became two of my closest friends. When I randomly found Saras post on beaver chat stating they had a room for rent. I had no idea what would transpire over the course of the following year. Because of them I became acquainted with a group of people known as the E.O. group.

 

A lot of people know I am a pretty quite guy when I first meet new people. And even though they didnt know me very well, Sara, Taylor, and the E.O. group took me out for my 21st birthday. And yea I know it was also the day of a wedding so most of the people at the bar werent there for me. I still had a blast guzzling down vodka redbulls (which to this day are very hard to drink) and meeting new people. It was that night that I knew that this year would be unlike any I have ever had before.

I would like to take this moment to say good bye to each roommate.

 

First Sara, at first I couldnt believe that you were unable to smell. I thought everyone was just trying to trick the new guy. However arrantly its true and although I tease you about it a lot I hope you know that its all in good fun. I had a blast over the last year being forced to go to different fast food places because we would become known one as a regular. Spontaneously going to Applebees to get the usual. I will always remember the drunken stumbles home from cantina (although I dont always remember all the details it was still fun). You are so chill and easy going that it was often frustrating trying to decide on what to do or where to go eat because we both didnt care. Also thanks for introducing me to yes dear its a great show (way better then golden girls).

 

Now Taylor, even though we often were bickering about something at any given moment. You are a great friend and Im very happy to know you. And even though I know you were/are very extremely frustrated with me at times, I hope you know it was mostly all in jest. Its not going to be the same next year without you. Who am I going to get into pointless discussions about nothing with now? Even though you would often just stop talking because the topic would become so obscure, it was always a lot of fun. Ill even miss the long hung-over morning spent laying on the couch watching entire seasons of TV shows. I will never forget after an extremely heavy night of drinking, you were dedicated to getting a bloody-mary at Tommys but since you had lost your id the night before you had to go get a new one from the dmv. And yes Taylor chemical engineering is an engineering major.

 

Now to both of you, put together you two formed quite the alliance. As Taylor would verbally assault me in regards to my lack of memory and/or laziness and/or my spelling abilities. (There are a lot more but Im to lazy to type J ) and Sara just sat back agreeing and occasionally interjecting her own assault. Although Im pretty sure it was all in good humor (I hope). I hope you both know that you are both more then welcome to come back and visit anytime. In fact you both better come back for some football games. Cause they wont be the same without you two. (Even though Taylor didnt make it through most of them haha)

 

I know you will both thrive in Denver. Since I wont be there to be the coolest person in Denver I guess you two will have to take up the honor and responsibility of being the cool ones. Even though you two are going to do great in your new home, I hope you dont forget your friends back here in Oregon.

Thursday, January 12, 2006 

W.O.W. this sucks. I have been back in Corvallis for nearly a week and the day I got back to town my computer fried. Meaning I cant use it at all. And as a few of you know im what some (my roommates) would call a HUGE DORK (quote Taylor), because I play world of warcraft. And for the past week I have been unable to play which is driving me CRAZY!!! I have nothing to do at night. Its to early in the term to be consumed by homework (mainly because I cant afford the books). And I dont read.. the only book I have was 120 pages long and about a 7th grade reading level and I finished it in one night. So what else is there to do? Some would say TV but there is only so much reality tv someone could watch. And all the good shows like nip/tuck are re-runs right now and are only about an hour long once a week. So that leaves the other million hours in the night with nothing to do I would drink but because of my lack of a job I have the same problem as I do with my books I cant afford it. And once I finally thought I would have my W.O.W. working again my dreams are shot down once again. (Damned by the computer gods). Its also a race against the clock in respect to the fact that soon my schedule will be full of assignments that are due  and projects that must be finished. And to make things worse the labs are only open till midnight for the first week witch means I have to go home and sit there for another hour or so till I can finally go to bed around 1 or 2 am. My gaming trouble doesnt only effect me but it effect people around me as well. With so much time on my hands I become bored and mischievous. and I bother my roommates with tenacious persistence. Saying stupid crap that comes to my mind or trying to show them my new bow-staff skills. Im pretty sure one of them is plotting to kill me. (hahah not really. I hope) so all I ask of you the reader is say a little prayer to the computer gods asking them to let the hard working technicians who are working on my computer figure it out, and if you want to be nice you can pray for me to win the lottery, that would be nice.

Thursday, December 08, 2005 

Although I love living at my new place. and couldn’t have asked for better roommates. there is one thing that always pisses me off.

THE INTERNET

it is always craping out. Causing someone to have to go to the basement and reset the router. Causing many of hours of gaming time lost.

the equation

*it takes roughly 10 min from time of internet loss till gaming is resumed.

*the internet dies at least once a day

*that’s 70 min a week

*280 min (4.6 hours) a month

*3360min (56 hours) a year

that’s over two days running up and down stairs trying to reconnect the internet. this is totally unacceptable.

This is my blog, deal with it

 

Wednesday, December 07, 2005 

whats up, this is my blog. check back later and ill put some interesting thoughts that i have through out the day. and if your one of my roomates and reading this, you already know the type of things ill put on here. and you can just come to my room and tell me im retarted.