For the past few weeks there has been a lot going on. From certain "PEOPLE" blaming me for my late Fiancee's death, which is horrible enough as it is. It's not only horrible but painful to have those "People" blame me.
I want to ask you guys a serious question. Have you ever lost someone in your life that you LOVED dearly? Like your mom, dad, sister, your baby, and the love of your life??? Have you?? Well if you have, you know how painful it is, but imagine going through that will the ENTIRE WORLD watching and bashing you and being so unfair. All I ever did was love Casey to the fullest. My intentions were to NOT bash ANYONE. I understand that when families lose a loved one, they feel deep guilt and emotional sorrow. So I understand it sort of relieves their sorrow a bit to blame someone else.... Unfortunately, they have all picked on ME as the one to blame. *sigh*
So with that said, I have TONS of documents, proof and all types of things that I can put out for the world to see, however I did a lot of thinking and decided that I will just let GOD handle all of those people "BLAMING ME" for my Wife's death. I'm going to take the high road and let them bash me. I have decided that GOD knows the truth and the closure I have learned and found through this experience is that as long as GOD, Casey, and I know the truth, the truth about our love for one another, I no longer need to keep defending myself to the press, and the "MEAN PEOPLE" who feel that they need to find someone to blame. Like I said, I have TONS of proof through documents, emails, text messages, voice messages and many many more things that I was going to post up to show the world that I am NOT the one to blame as I loved my Wifey more than anyone.
With that said, I am tired, drained, heartbroken, and I no longer want to fight with these "PEOPLE" and try to defend myself for their unkind treatment towards me. I will NOT point out all of the things that prove this because it is pointless. I have decided that I will NO LONGER SPEAK of this topic as I am ready to move on with my life "PUBLICLY" and keep Casey in my heart forever and Mourn her in my own private world.
This blog entry is to pretty much tell everyone that this is the end of this Chapter. All of the media bashing me, the family bashing me, etc.... I don't want to fight anymore. As long as in my heart I KNOW my intentions were and still is always good, and GOD also knows this, then I am safe.
I have had NUMEROUS people come to me to do MORE INTERVIEWS ON TV about this whole battle with Casey and her family and her friends. However I swear on my life, I have declined all of those interviews. I don't want to keep dragging this out. GOd knows the truth and that is all that matters to me now.
I am ready to move on with my life and keep my personal feelings to myself and not let it out for the media to exploit my genuine feelings about her and turn it into some type of media circus frenzy.
With that said, the Johnsons and the Hiltons can rest easy now. I know how they treated me was very cruel but I don't want to keep fighting them. I am tired, drained, and I miss the old Tila. I have a lot of new amazing projects coming up and I just want to smile again and that is what I will be focusing on from now on. I'm tired.
So I just want to thank everyone who has been supportive of me this whole time, and for those people out there who bashed on me during a time where I lost someone I loved dearly, I just hope you remember how it felt for you when you too, also had a loved one close to you that died and how that felt. It's not ok to be mean to others while they just lost the love of their life. Everyone grieves in different ways. God says that you cannot judge others. It is a sin. Also with that says, God tells me to forgive those that hurt me and that is why I am writing this.
As much as "THOSE PEOPLE" have hurt me, I want to forgive them. I never wanted money, i never wanted anything. All I wanted was to be able to go to her funeral to say goodbye to her, and since they didn't allow me to go, well then that is just something I will have to deal with the pain in my own time in private. Aside from that, I never wanted money or to fight. All I wanted, and I told them this myself, I called and texted them and told them that all I wanted was the pictures of Casey and I and a few other things that Casey gave me just for sentimental reasons. That was all I ever wanted. Seeing now that I will never get those things back, I guess I will just have to hold on to little things that I have from her to remember her by, such as our dinner date receipts, our airline tickets, the few blankets that she left over here, a clock, and most importantly, all of the beautiful cards and love letters she wrote me.
That is all I have left of her and I would just die if I lost them, so I have opened up a safety deposit box at a bank to store those little sentimental items of hers that I have left so that I will never lose them.
With that said. This is the END of this tragic chapter. I am ready to move on to my next chapter of my life and am looking forward to taking you all on this incredible journey with me because trust me, 2010 has A LOT more in store for MRS .....I mean MS. Tila Nguyen.
Stay tuned........
Much Love,
Ms. Tila Nguyen
PS- Aside from all the drama, I have had stalkers trying to terrorize my life during this tragic time that I had to hire some bodyguards to protect me. I have never done that before but it is so mean to go and terrorize a person who has done nothing to harm you. I am only doing this to protect the unborn baby that I am carrying. The baby is what is keeping me strong and not giving up on my hopes and dreams. When one person dies, a baby is born.....