So as you can see I dont blog alot...really dont have alot of time to be messin aroung on the computor. but someday people may be reading my blog/why I couldnt say I hope your life isnt that boreing/so I figured Id give somthing to read and maybe comment on. I really enjoy f eed back on my thoughts. At the moment Im abit mad...you see at work Ive begged for months to go to days...Im working 4pm to 12 30 am....monday (may 22) I when to days but the new night guy didnt work monday  tuesday thursday or friday so being the trooper I am I worked doubles monday and tuesday then closed thurday and friday. All of this is no big deal BUT! I play in a band saturday and a camp grounds and get free camping.Im in the middle of a divorce and get to see my sons on the weekends. this will be there first camp outing which im very exsited about but we are going to miss aday of camping because of work. it just doesnt seem fair to my sons or me ...everything happens for a reason...Gods plans are for what we need not want... its just hard to understand sometimes and damn it Im pissed.Thanks for readin me bitch about it.We all make our own reality and  believe we have control of our lifes but into everyones life a lit chaos will and does fall....bad things happen to good people sometimes and it doesnt seem fair....just remember to be mad about things sometime just dont let it control you.God never gives a challege you can't conquer...wow I made myself feel better...thanks God....Im still pissed though just less pissed...ttfn Matthew

hellow my name is Matthew .....this rain hasnt been to fun lately to work in....there....
hows that for a start to a blog?   what is a blog anyways...my guess...its a collection of thoughts or kind of like a diary. I guess this is just for me really to let things out.I am at a very hard time in my life right now but i feel hopeful and at peace...I guess im just sure everything is going to be alright and happen just as it should. I dont have all the answers thats for sure, and have made more then my share of mistakes...but every once in a while a great wisdom or two just pop out of my brain so stay tuned in and dont miss it.Love to every one....5/19/06