well i'm feeling pretty lost these days. i'm starting to wonder if being a step-mother is right for me. i love my life i really do. but i'm not so sure anymore that my love can out weigh the total disrespect i get here. my soon to be step-son dislikes me alot, or i should say hates me. i've tried since i've been with joe to get him to bond with me. and the only time he has anything to really do with me is when hes getting something out of it..like a toy or what he wants.otherwise he has really nothing to do with me. that is until last week, he was talkin to me,  helping me around the house, all kinds of very nice things. it was really nice it felt like we were actually a family. then monday comes and its all back to normal, the dirty looks, not listening, not wanting to eat dinner. i just don't get it i've never seen a kid with so much disrespect in them. my children are very respective towards all they meet. and i just don't know how to deal with it. so i'm starting to wonder if i should just give up and let him and his dad be together to find someone that is right for them, or stay and keep trying. i'm just so tired and wore out. i love joe more then i've loved anyone, but there is so much stress all the time we don't get to enjoy our love together much. i just want to run away..