A person's life is based on what they do and how they interact with what's around them. We find some things interesting and some things dull. We fight for stupid reasons and debate over knowledge. In many aspects of life we try to fit into what is above where we naturally fit, because we feel insecure about ourselves. We feel that we aren't good enough or that we're too good for those who are around us. 

Personally, I love to be around people, but find it difficult to be interested in them completely. I have never wanted the extreme close relationships because I feel that I have nothing really to give. Sure, I'm unique and have many qualities that would help people, but does that really effect the relationships?  Some people just don't want their memories to die when they die. They want their friends and family to tell about their lives to their children and even to their grandchildren, so they do amazing things to be noticed and remembered for what they have done.

I live to get by. I get bored easily and change what I'm doing to entertain myself. But I never try to change me unless what I'm doing is wrong. I love who I am, in mind, body, and soul. Sure, sometimes I dislike how I look, but that is common. We have a voice in our head that tells us that we should change to fit our ideals or the ideals of others. But why don't we just ignore the voice, be ourselves and be who we are. We're not clay to be molded by society, but we are us. Sometimes proud. Sometimes afraid. But still us.

Let yourself be free. Let your inner man out. If your friends or family don't accept you, let them get over it. It will grow on them because it is who you really are.

Emotional or non-emotional? I think I have a slight problem. I don't know. You see, I am uncertain of if I have too many things running through my brain to process any feelings or emoiton.

I have this constant nagging in my brain saying I should feel this way or that, but yet there is nothing. No sadness. No great utter amount of fascination either. It's rather annoying. Most of my expressive emotions consist of anger, anxiety, or sickness. I have no pausible reason as to why though. It really sucks.

Sorry for the sad, mellow side coming out, I just needed somewhere to vent. 

I have a story to tell. It starts with pain and ends with pain. To believe in such acts are horrible.

One friend thinks their in love, the other is just an observer.

One gives up something valuable, the other disapproves.

One feels pain, deep pain, from loss and mistrust.

The other stands by and watches, disturbed by the actions of the other.

One is lost, confused, pain evident of deception.

The other is peeved, atrociously angry at the one.

One is pained by the other.

The other ignores one for cruel reasons, denying one exists.

One doesn't know why the other seemingly hates one.

The other refuses to forget ones mistake, refusing to forgive.

One bears the pain of an outcast confused as to why the other treats one as such, lost in pain of treachery, Pained because of insult.

Why do people refuse to accept change? Why do they make themselves hate what they don't like? Why do they make people like one feel out casted, unloved, and forgotten? We were created to help others not destroy them. Forget your own and help those who need it, even if you are against it.   

I don't know.

What's the point.

So what if I feel this way or that

Don't scream at me 

Or interrogate me

To alleviate yourself

From your pain

Malice

Or grief

I'm not your source of release

Or your insolent anxiety shift

Leave me out of it

Let me go

I can't take it

I don't want it

I don't Know 

I am a person who holds more above the heads of people than they themselves hold above their own. My compassion is heavy on their hearts and my words light on their egos. I have many ways that breakdown their barriers to allow me entrance into their most troubling thoughts. I have many secrets that could not and must not be told. I have come face to face with the lies and truths of the most haggard of people. But I have not begun to tell of the truths that lie amongst us right now. For I may speak in riddles of character and lies, but I have not spoken of the beings beyond our character, what we really are, and the truths of this generation.

We are a generation filled with hate and shapelessness, we rely on the stronger people around us instead of becoming stronger ourselves. We take for granted the things which have been given to us, not even thanking God the one who originally predestined us to survive and succeed. We let a small cut tear into the visions we have of becoming better than we can be; we let our hope become sand in the desert instead of becoming pearls on a necklace. My dear comrades why have you given up hope, why have you believed that you have failed when you have only just begun. Your life has no limits, no end to it's meaning. You can make yourself whatever you want yourself to be, victory is yours and victory is our if you succeed. You can only be as great as you allow yourself to be, over exceed your lines of ability. Breakdown the barriers that surround you, become the King of your own court and expand to the fullest capacity.

Life can be the greatest gift or the greatest curse, only you can determine the outcome of it.

Hello, I am Jess, a.k.a. Tina, yesterday my friend and I were talking about her wide expanse of blogs and the number of views she had compared to mine, among this topic we analyzed how my blogs are more for a advice column, and hers were more of a despiction of how she feels and who she is, so I decided to let you in for a closer look at me and how I am.
To start, I am deeply complicated not even knowing my own feelings half the time, I could tell you something and counter it later without knowing. The reason is because I don't really know exactly who I am yet. So, for a shorter explantion, I'm winging it half the time.
Also, I love giving advice and helping people, everyone keeps telling me I should be a psychitrist(<---Misspelled), I've thought about it and I'm going to take it as a second option in college. So if I do become one, visit me.
Right now, I am trying to write either a short story or a novel, it's a fictional piece nothing very interesting, but my teacher found great interest in it. Well anyway, on an emotional note, I am feeling quite well, nothing too depressing to bog me down or anything to cheerful to make me worry. Mostly I'm calm. I've gotten a lot of comments over the past few years saying that I'm eerily calm, and of most recent from a particualr friend that I'm too understanding. (I don't know, it's weird)
My lovelife is completely non- existent, I'm not shy in any way, I just have morals about certain things. I also have only had three major likes, which none of them can be exclosed due to it being highly personal infomation, and I don't share personal information that could lead to harming me or my respectable name.
I love school, reading, writing, music, puzzles, games of logic, and talking. I love to be with people, but not always. I like my space. I have many pet peeves and dislikes, but if you are doing any of them I won't tell you, unless you ask me to give an honest opinion.(It may not be too honest because what's the point of people feeling uncomfortable around you.) I am a very closed person, I'll tell you something that you think is very personal, but it really isn't. It's just something about myself that you have already figured out, but I reworded it to distract you. (ex. If I contrated a deadly disease, I would only tell you that I was sick and that I would get better soon.) [People that I've told that I was sick, don't worry, I'm not dieing]   
I have a medium low self- esteem, nothing too alaming, most people do.  

I'm finished with the first installment of my autobiography.(Finally) I will complete it another day. If you have any questions, I always need topics, so message/comment me. 

Sorry for the length, also it may be poorly edited and my vocabulary sometimes sucks.  

Also in the title, history has nothing to do with it, I just didn't know what to put.

Adios.

When bored, do something. I call this something "Boredom Ethics". It makes no possible sense, but all it means is to randomly act of your own will until something better happens. My techniques mostly include singing random unintelligible sylabols in operatic songs, or else drawing something that popped into my head. But if someone is there with you when the dreadded boredom hits play a game, do something completely out of character and stupid. No one really cares what you do just as long as they ae entertained, just don't kill yourself doing it.

Good luck on boredom ethics, ( this may be poorly written due to being my boredom ethic at such a boring state in my day)

To be able to begin to fall in love two things must be accomplished: one, the guy should woo(spoil, protect, etc.) the girl; and two, the girl should allow herself to be wooed.

To the guys: Most girls, if not all, want to be loved. They want someone to protect and support them; someone they could trust and care for. But to be able to accomplish this infatuation, you being the guy/head of the partnership, should woo the girl. To begin, before you ask her out get to know her, talk to her and be acquainted with herself and her friends. You talk to her to get to know her views and to allow her to see who you really are; likewise, you have to be acquainted with her friends because they are the main influencers in the relationship you wish to have with their friend. (Also as a little tip: the closer the friend the more influence the friend will have over the final decision.) After the stage of getting to know her, you should become more outgoing with her, tell about you, let her feel what you feel, see what you see. This step allows her to begin to understand why you do the things you do. Also let her see you as you are with your friends, invite her to the movies and to dinner with a group of friends. Usually the larger the better, because even if you know it or not, if she finds you appealing or attractive in anyway she will be watching how you interact with others and how well you respond to different situations. Once you have acquired the bond on friends and the closeness and respect of a admireer, you can now begin to court her, or persuade her to be your girlfriend. You do this by being chivalrous, opening the car door for her, speaking to her and her parents with a respectful tone, giving her things to remind her of you and how much you want her to be yours, taking her on small outings or dates with just you and her to where you could become closer and more intimate, and always, most importantly, compliment her. Don't let her be worried about her apearance or manners in front of you. You have to let her feel like she can be herelf in front of you. After you have achieved as close of a relationship as possible for this stage you can ask her to become your girlfriend, but don't forget that you must ask her father, or whoever may be the head of the household. This is important, because although you are tring to be closer to be daughter, the father is the one who allows you to be with her. Never do anything to decieve or trouble the father, always show respect to him, his wife, and especially the daughter.Also if their are brothers or close male cousins or friends, becareful because they are very protective and will hurt you if you hurt the girl in anyway, whether it be mentally, physically, or emotionally. Once you have been dating for however the two of you feel you have been dating long enough and you want to finalize the bond between you two, propose to her, but be original, put her and your commonalities into your proposal. For example, if you both love puzzles and mindgames, do a mixture of "Will You Marry Me" along with other letters that could make the puzzle harder, then once she has figured it out, let be another puzzle on the back to tell a time and place of were to meet you to tell you her answer.(Key note: make the place somewhere she has always wanted to go, or somewhere special of the past.) After the proposal and the answer, plan the wedding and all the extra important matters(such as honeymoon, future residence for living, bills and documents, etc.). Always tell her you love her, and treat her as a queen and loving companion. Ask her views and treat her as if the world were to be nothing without her in your life.

To the girls: Treat the guy with respect, listen to his views, let them speak their mind, and get things off of their chest. You are there to support them and love them anyway possible. Always treat them like kings and tells them you love and adore them every chance you get. The happiness of your future family and of your closest companion is on you. Your husband must know that he is loved and he must know that you respect him and will support him and be there in times of need. Be his right hand man. Don't let something small create a big problem between you. Let him buy you things, and support you. Let him know that he can cry on your shoulder and speak to you in confidence.

For both: Love each other infallibly, be respectful, don't do something just to hurt or condemn your spouse. Tell each other that you love one another every chance you get. Share memories, tell stories, fall into each others arms and share a long quiet embrace just to let you know that the other is safe in your arms. If you fight, tell each other that your sorry and that you love them and would never hurt them. Never keep secrets from one another, it just leads to deceit and distrust.

P.s. Girls don't play hard to get, let them woo you.

My heart is not a bottomless pit, there's more possibilities in it. So take my hand and lead me off of the crimson board of devastation I must rot. My soul contains the anthems on my life. If I try to supress them I will die, for these words that flow from within take me farther than I've ever been.

You lead me to a place of simplicity that takes my grace, Your hand in mine, warm and gentle, revives my flightless heart. When you kiss me I can't contain the resistance that stops my lips from crashing into yours.

Love is the ultimate of life. When you find it you will see, how everything within its grasp is so much better. 

(Bits and pieces of a mix- matched song)