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I SEEK A VISION OF CHAOS

TO RISE ABOVE THE OREDERED PLANE

TO EASE THE PAIN THAT OFFENDS ME

TO RELAX MY PAIN

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TOXINS INTO MY BODY

DISTORTING MY PRECPTION

SEEING PAST DECPEITONS AND CREATING NEW EXPECTIONS

RISEING ABOVE THE NOISE

BASKING IN THE LIGHT

LIKE AN RAVEN IN THE MOONLIGHT

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FALLING SWEET FALLING

INTO THE HANDS OF CHAOS

SEEK NOT THE UNRIGHOUTS WAY

BUT SEEK WHAT SEEMS TRUE

TO YOU

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LOST AMONGST THE RUINS

OF MY SHATTERD GOLDEN DREAM

I  SEARCH THE HORIZION

NOT A STAR TO BE SEEN

I feel their eyes apon me
In the dark and quite night,
Though I shut them out with all my might.
It pains me to know the light.

Its been so long
since Ive belonged
that I perfer to be alone.
Forever away from Home.

I drift among the chaos
and sing my tired song.
Though my soul is strong,
My heart wont last long.

Intake of Perception
has led me to conclued
that you people hold nothing but deception
and tend to be stupid, arrogent and rude.

I walk on down the shadowed path
and whisper back to the darkness
let go of the past
and embrace the chaos.

Listen close My Love,
This song is for you.
A Sad Song Of Hope,
Is all I have for you...

You seek melodies of joy.
and tales of boyish glee
But I am no boy,
Only the Undead Man before thee.

And so I sing this song for you,
To tell you the things I could never say.
Why I do the things i do,
and why I feel this way.

I wear a suit of severed ties.
Green eyes glitter behind glasses glazed green.
I stand on a hill of lies,
broken promises and shattered dreams.

I have seen Death, and I know his face.
I have ridden with Lonliness,
And battled the Fates.
I have forgotton whn I started running this Race.

I have so long longed for a lover
To promise me their soul,
And swear to love no other.
To fill this gapeing hole.

I offer my heart, to anyone who cares
Please hold it for a moment,
Let me know your there.
Dont let it fall again, I havent any thread.

And If the day ever comes,
When my heart grows heavy in your hands,
Then let it fall ,
Fuck it all.
I AM THE UNDEAD MAN.

i love you ...

Inhale the dragon, let it in.
Sweet Smoke's Caress
(Like a Lover)
Burning inside like no other.
To numb the pain of lonlieness.
Release the hit and cacth my breath,
Before I start again.
Feeding my mind to the nothingness.

Ive lived in this cloud for so long,
that I cannot see the ground.
My eyes water and I cough .
I enjoy the sound.
As the world spins and my mind expands,
I see and hear the sorrow, and fear,human hymn

Come and be lost with me.
In this magick cloud.
Crawl around reality with me,
Loose your mind.
Dicover that there is
So much more to find.

The music gets louder..faster..
Like some horror movie theme.
But we cannot shut it out.
Just up the dosage,
And for a little while:
Pretend were still sane.

Rock back and Forth and scream to god.
WHY?
Listen for replies.
Someone let me know,
If they ever get a message from the sky.

Can you hear them?
Just beyond your hearing, you can almost make out the words...
Your sure that your by yourself...aren't you?
But those wispers....you can almost hear them...
So low, but the words make more sence the harder you listen.
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Are they talking about you? It sounds like the wisperers are watching you. Discussing you even?
Your not sure...its so quite.....
Maybe your going crazy old boy. I wouldn't half blame you. You've got about as much right to be as most .
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There. Your sure you heard them. you are sure its more than one voice, they were just talking about what you just did. You know you heard that right. But your alone aren't you? Fuck, your in your house at 4 in the morning and you still hear them. Wispering, Describing, Critiseing, Laughing.
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Yes, you deffantly hear them. More and More often it seems. And it dosent matter if your alone or not anymore. A crowded room at noon, the voices come from all over. 4am walking the dog, they come form diffrent sides. Your sure if someone was watching you you would look like a crazy darting your head back and forth listing for wispers that arent there.
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I dont think i can take much more.  The things i hear, the voices... the horrifying things they say, gods let it not be true, its madness i say.....yess....madnes....there is no other option now.... i can see it now ...the madness. there is no hope now....
leave. leave now...while you still have hope....

I call on Acient Demons,
to whom I sold my soul.
Fullfill your Deadly Bargin, 
Now make me whole.


Take all theses Usless Feelings,
Bury them in a dark hole.
Imbue me with Acient Magick,
Show me wonders untold,
Possablity fearfull to behold.

I call on Acient Demons
To whom I sold my soul.
Awaken my inner power,
 let my fate unfold.

I Walk the Endless path.
Embrace the Chaos,
 that permeates .
Remove these obstacels,
in my way.
Forever run from light of Day.

These are my words;
 my chrildren.
 Heed what I say.
Always look foward,
  To the next day.
Look not behind you,
Thats where Demons lay..

My soul has walked to the corners
Of this world a thousand times
I have seen a hundred ages
I have lived a thousand lives.

So weary of this world
So bored with this reality
I must escape my boundries
Reincarnation is getin old

So long ago i sold my soul,
To know Truth with a capital T.
Usless shit. Cassandra complex;  now i see
There is no Truth with a capital T.
Only what is real to thee.

Bound within this Black Iorn Prison.
Of my own concensis mind.
Magick herb, are you as close to god,
As ill ever get?

A wicked trip to my sences
The only other truth i know.
Altering reality, beins with
Altering your self. The way you
see the world ; reflection of yourself

But ill finish now
as it seems im out of
knowledge
But think on what ive said here
i deserve
a second look.