Ever sit and think about where you have been and the encounters you have faced and overcome or failed at? You reach a point in life where the fork is on that has too many options and or choices....
It is a decision that takes much time to decipher the best split to take.....cuz multiple can be a great choice but the consequences are unforseen.....
I have reached a point where I actually don't know what to do next....I have dreams and plans that I want to make happen but at the same time I don't feel right about them.....
I am a religious person but it seems at times that God and I aren't speaking the same language or atleast it seems that way.....I either can't hear him or interpret what he is trying to say by events in my life.....
He has done amazing things in my life but (theres that but) when it seems everything is coming together it just in the end falls apart....so what's the point anymore.....
My life seems like it is in slow motion.....anybody want to trade me.....I can literally sit back and watch everything good just Walk away.......
I know that I am definately not in control...I understand this....there is a greater power.....which totally controdicts my personality type....because as I feel the loss of control in my life I grab for anything and everything.....and it has a rippling effect in everything else.....Things come to ruin......
I just can't wait for this roller coaster that I am on to come to a stop so I can buy another ticket for a smoother ride.....I am definately getting motion sick......