I cannot sleep tonight
thinking about these things you've said

was this a graceful move on our behalf?
what was it again that you were avoiding?

It's in these very secrets we divulge
vibrating through the air we breathe
It's in these secrets I have told
transcending what used to be

I still think about it now
through these diluted conversations we speak

here's a taste
of love's embrace
we've held on long enough
maybe things will fall in place
I know that you'll be happy there

cheers to you
i hope summer lasts
and you still have things to hold on to

i wont restate what you already know
I wont replace what you already love

cheers to what you're dreaming of
but it's only you that i am thinking of

it seems I cannot escape this feeling
its as if I am losing soul
the purest of my feelings
were for you

we took a walk to the park
you lit my cigarette
and said it was okay
I didnt think things would end this way

drowned in the smoke from our cigarettes
called out from my mistakes
I made long ago
a mixed up language
I cannot understand
please don't reach out
for my weak shaking hands

anxiety is killing me
bleeding out my soul
forgive me of my mistakes
I made so long ago

I am not the same man

we aren't anything
without you here
we can't do anything alone
with still so much to become

we aren't anything without you near
we are all down in self created fear
with so much to become
so much heart
but no one to give it to
you will slowly fall apart

we aimed for the promised land
but got what we deserved
we will always want more
than we are willing to work for
not to be taken lightly
we want you here
you're hiding from nothing
but self created fear

we aren't anything
without you here
we can't do anything alone
with still so much to become

we aren't anything without you near
we are all down in self created fear
with so much to become
so much heart
but no one to give it to
you will slowly fall apart

believing your lies with full confidence
you just left us here
teetering on soul responsibility
of life and hell
concede to your heart
we don't want you here

blacked out
the poison
a perpetual frozen life
the air
you breathe
you'll find
is intoxicated with your lies