Well friends, I'm posting a blog in which I respond to ALL my truth box comments

Since I have 2 thruth boxes (don't ask me why, I'm not sure xD) I'll be posting both sets of truths. So if you posted a truth and want to see my reply to it, then read this blog. If you haven't posted a truth, then read this blog for the fun of it, and then go post one, mk?
Truths will be posted in order of oldest to newest.

Truth 1 - 1 year ago
"I think you are one of the most wonderful people I know and you"
...and I what?? Well, thank you!!!! I wish I knew who posted this, but I'm sure you're a great person too =]
<3

Truth 2 - 1 year ago
"You are so beautiful and one day we shall go to a rave together and dance out hearts out."
I already know who posted this. I can't wait to go to a rave and dance with you =]

Truth 3 - 1 year ago
"how do I know this will really be anonymous?"
Uhm... trust??

Truth 4 - 1 year ago
"i think you're a great friend a just great all around."
Thank you so much! I try really hard to be a good friend, and I'm glad you noticed.

Truth 5 - 5 months ago
"hi dude"
Hey man!

Truth 6 - 4 months ago
"Amazing, funny and amazing"
Aw, you're sweet. Thanks a bundle.

Truth 7 - 2 months ago
"she's sweet"
Short and to the point. I like it, thanks =]

Truth 1 on truth box 2 - 2 months ago
"You are so silly, every time I see you it makes me smile like =]]]]]]]]]]]"
Haha, glad I can make you smile. I believe being silly makes everything better =]

Truth 8 - 1 month ago
"growing up too fast"
Haha, you say it like it's my fault. Maybe I am, but I'm making it work. I didn't enjoy childhood as much as many other people did, but all in all, I lived well, had some fun, and have no regrets. I hope you can say the same. Thanks for looking out for me, though, that's nice of you.

Well, that's all the truths I have, so I think you all should go post some more, so I can reply to some more, mmk? That would be nice! Kthnxbai
<3

I'm at an odd point in my life. A point where I feel disconnected from everyone in a way so deep I feel nothing but a numb inner sadness. Yet, on the outside it's not apparent at all. Hell, even on the inside it's not so apparent. But deep down, I feel it. When I close my eyes, or take a deep breath. When I sigh heavily, or hug someone tight. Or when the silence on the outside meets the screaming on the inside and leaves this awkward weird hanging thing in the air. This thing that is seemingly consuming and suffocating me. This thing is loneliness. A thing I fear so intensely I waste my life online. Hooked onto the web like it's my lifestream. And now I'm faced with a question so simple, yet so confusing and scary I can't sleep. Dinner? I've reached this strange point in my life. I'm so close to 18 I can't breathe, yet so far away. I'm interested in virtually no one I'm legally able to be with. So, Dinner? If I break the law and say yes, I dive head first into something I can't handle. If I say no, I lose him

About you!

All you have to do is post a comment on here, and I will reply and tell you what I truely think of you.

xoxo

Ps I’m so excited! XD

I'm feeling sentimental... which is weird for me... so I figured I should take andvantage of it and write some stuff down...

To all of you who have cared about me...

To all of you who have cried with me... or held me while I did

To all of you who took the time to get to know me...

To all of you who stayed up until the wee hours of the morning instead of sleeping... just because I said I was bored...

To all of you that never lied...or appologized when you did...

To all of you that lied to protect my feelings...

To all of you that forgave my lies...

To all of you that never cared who I liked...

To all of you that supported my stupid descisions... and didn't laugh at me when it came back to bite me in the ass...

To those of you that talked to me about everything... and nothing...

To those of you that just sat with me and held on tight...

To those of you that didn't ask what's wrong...

To those of you that did...

And to those of you that never needed to...

I LOVE YOU!

To those of you that never brought up the age difference...

To those of you that looked at me like a person... and not a stereotype...

To those of you that understood my family... or at least tried...

To those of you that never compared me to my brothers...

To those of you that knew my weaknesses... and didn't expose them...

To those of you that came to see me at work just to brighten my day... or at least tried...

To all of you that never knew how much I cared...

To all of you that always knew how much I cared

I LOVE YOU!

To all of you that can remember something I once told you about myself...

To all of you that listened to me rant... about nothing in particular... or about something serious and significant...

To those of you who never judged me...

To those of you that know the difference between teasing and hurting...

To those of you that know when to quit...

To those of you that I can be myself with...

To those of you that never questioned my oppinions...

To those of you that always did...

TO THOSE OF YOU THAT MAKE ME THINK!

To those of you that can just be a body every once in a while...

To those of you that can just be a blanket every once in a while

To those of you that can just be a mind every once in a while...

To all of you that looked in my eyes...

To all of you that knew and understood why I couldn't look into yours.

I LOVE YOU!

To all of you that get it...

To all of you that don't...

To all of you that are reading this...

To all of you that realize why I wrote this...

To all of you that don't, but want to...

I LOVE YOU... more than words can express... more than looks can show... more than a dance will ever tell you... more than a song could ever get the point across...

I love you... you mean the world to me... I couldn't have made it this far with out you...

To all of you that are crying... inside or out... right now....

I love you...

And most of all...

To all of you that feel you shouldn't have read this...

that don't fit into these catagories...

that don't know something special about me...

You mean the most...
because you are the ones that have waited...
to be my friend....
To be close to me...
To be able to hold me...
And share with me...

And I haven't paid enough attention to you.... if any... and with out you... I would surely die...

So just know that I do know you're out there... I just don't have enough time to show you that...

I love you all.... and thank you... more than you know...

I felt like writing...

It's amazing...Its 4 30 in the morning.... just days before I go back to school... and I'm still awake.... I can't sleep for some reason...

It's amazing... how much one person can affect you within a matter of days...

Its amazing... how little you realize how much someone means to you until you haven't spoken to them for a couple of hours... and start missing them....

Its amazing...how much you can miss a person... how you can miss the thought of their voice... and their thoughts...

Its amazing... that someone who didn't cry over losing the person they were in love with, can cry over hearing about the day of someone they miss...

Its amazing... that three tears can mean more than a ring...

Its amazing... that you can cry when you aren't sad... or happy...

Its amazing... that reading a persons thoughts before you ever started talking to them... can change how you feel about them... for the better...

Its amazing... that a person can change in a matter of days...

Its amazing... that you never know what you're going to think about someone until you've already thought it...

Its amazing that you can't choose what you think...

Its amazing... that no one knows how much...or little... they mean to someone...

And its amazing... how hard it is to be amazed on a day to day basis...

Because there are so many amazing things... that our eyes scan over every day... and never catch on to.....

Because someone can say something to you, and instantaniously change your life around...

Because love is real...

Because no one sees the perfection in a pink flower on the side of a dirt road...

And because no one see's how you look at them through a computer screen...

Yet some people get it...

Yet some people see the perfection, in ugliness.

Yet some people know what is like to lose and love again...

Yet some people know how amazing they are.

Yet some people... never forget other people....

Looking back I've realized how big of a year this has been for me.
I've loved and hated
Missed people, lost things.
Seen, smelled, touched, and experienced.
I've grown, both physically and mentally.
I smiled, and laughed.
Pouted and cried.
I've been afraid.
I've been brave.
I've danced and sang
I've acted and played
I've learned and I've taught.
Yet there is still so much left to do....
With extreme physical and mental strides made this year I feel as though I am yet once again even more ahead of my class than I should be. The pushing feeling of growing up is once again flaring inside of me.
I've gone through a relationship within this year... a relationship that taught me more than I could ever have expected to learn within a year. From that, a love for new things and different people has spawned. I have since decided that relationships are not what I need now... it can suck too much out of a person. It takes up time, and energy and at my age its a waste of... everything! Unless its the right person!
Along with learning from love I have learned from lust. Its a powerful feeling... a longing that isn't quite deeper than skin...
Lust is certainly nothing less than a horrible trick, that can hurt not the people involved, but everyone else.
My expectations for next year are... not as high as most peoples.... it will be a calm, yet experimental year. I don't expect it to be as big of a year as this one was, but I do hope to be driving by the end of it, and possibly even ungrounded! ^.^ Happy new year everyone... its the end of something big... the start of something fresh....
I've forgiven myself, and can only hope to one day be forgiven by others.

-Jo

I have to admit that I never expected it to go this way... however I am constantly amazed by how closely it followed the story I set to describe our... whatever you would call it... the only difference is that neither of us died. However a part of me did, I will say. A part that I assure you I won't miss one bit. A part that I wish I had rid myself of in the first place...
I suppose I should be thankful for what you did. How you opened my eyes... and the fact that I wasn't as hurt as I thought I would be is a bonus. Not only that, but I didn't have to be the one to bear your children, which is a relief on my part... but does that excuse how wrong it was?
I've realized that thankfully life doesn't go how you planned it, and love, though perfect in every way, is an empty shell if it's one sided.
I've realized that today is the day when dreaming ends... the show must go on.... outside the dawn is breaking on this stage.... and it will go on.
I've learned clearly that at first I was caught up in the dream of love, and living together forever, even though it was forbidden.... but its almost as though I never finished watching the movie before I made it become my life... its almost as though I never saw Satine die on that stage before I took on her role...
Now that I have seen her die on my stage, I feel foolish, but thankful that I never saw it coming....
I still believe very strongly that the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.... however I don't believe that I have felt that way yet, so what do I know?
I don't regret what happened, or how I lived it out... I don't regret anything... I only now realize that regret is the one thing that makes an experience bad.... no I don't regret this.... I learned much from it... and though I must say it's entirely ridiculous, I thank you, deeply...

Anyway, come what may, I won't love you... not again... until my dying day....

Time moves by,
but still i cry.
Wondering why
you left me to die

Killing myself just to kill the pain.
Keeping myself from playing your game.
Over and over thoughts swirl through my head,
leaving me sick, and leaving me dead.

The pieces of me are falling apart,
leaving just my bleeding heart.
my last breath escapes my lung,
as you enter the room, and there i am hung.

So as you move forward you will see
All the pain and hurt that you caused me.
This crime will soon consume your soul,
Leaving nothing but an empty hole.

In your dreams it was me you had seen,
contemplating what life means.
Haunting you, you saw me die,
leaving just your empty lie...

Darksome night and shining moon

Hearken to the Witch's Rune.

East and South, West and North

Hear me now, I call thee forth.

By all the powers of Land and Sea

Bo obedient unto me.

Wand and pentacle, cup and sword

Hearken ye unto my word.

Cord and censor, totem and knife

Waken ye all into life.

By all the powers of the Witch's blade

Come ye now as the charge is made.

Queen of Heaven, Queen of Hell

Send your aid unto my spell.

Horned Hunter of the Night

Work my will by magick rite.

By all the powers of Land and Sea

As I will, so mote it be.

By all the might of moon and sun

As I say, it shall be done.



~Doreen Valiente

so, i hope everyone is having a kick ass new years, because i am not... and it sucks! parents are gone to their little party, i was gonna go to a party, but the person holding it, for some reason said that i couldn't go, and my brother is going to that party... then my other brother, though i love him, and he was being really sweet, and i am glad for him, snuck out and wont be back for a little while... so you all have a good one! some could not be as fortunate!