wow, boredome is really something isnt it? it makes you anxious, tired, angry, sad, upset, sometimes happy, and excited all at the same time. i think it is the one thing on earth that can come with the broadest range of emotions.
ahh emotions, another interesting topic. emotions can make our day, or break it, and they can be loved or hated. some people are overly emotional, and others feel no emotion at all... why is this i wonder? are some people just hardened to feelings, and others are just completey open to emotions and the happiness that comes with them...and of course the pain.
here we go again, another topic...pain. once again it has manny different veiws on it... some people, like emo people feel that pain causes them pleasure, and makes up for a different kind of pain, like if a family member died, or a loved one left them...others are terrified of pain, and others dont even notice pain. there are so many kinds of oain, and soo many people feel so differently about all of them.
this leads to another interesting topic, people. there are so many images that people want, like goth or emo, or preppy, or "normal", or anything else, but i hate them all. they are just steriotypes, and mean absolutely nothing. the same with colors, who cares what color you are? there is so much racism around that i have no idea what to do... you cant walk through the halls without hearing words that are offencive to a certain ethnicity of people. quite frankly i could care less if you are black, white, purple, yellow, red, green or blue. if i dont like you i have a personal reason not to, such as the way you treated me as a person. i just dont understand why people have to be like that i suppose.
wow we are moving right along here...lets go to love. love is interesting. in my life i have thought i was in love twice...it turned out to be a fluke both times. dont get me wrong, i still belive in love, and i still want love, but i dont place as much faith in it. people say things like " love at first sight". and to me that is just a bunch of crap. you should love someone for who they are...not what they look like. i think we should revise that saying to..."love at first talk". then at least ur chances are a little higher. either way, love ties all of this together. i mean i have talked about emotions, and pain, and people. all of these are caused by love, all of them...think if you never loved...you would never be hurt, and you wouldnt care about any people, and you would never have any emotions...but there are downsides....you wouls always havw BOREDOM. love is the flavor of life people....dont give it up fpr anything. love when your hurt, love when your happy, love when your sad, and most of all love everything. even with all the torment and pain and suffering that comes with it...you get immence happiness, and joy from it too. i dont care what you look like, or how you act...your true love is out there somewhere...just keep looking, and you will find them someday....and dont get all hung up if it doesnt work out...it just means they werent the one....so move on.
any ways. on to other things. im sorry if i poured to much into this for you, and im even sorryer for you if you dont have the patience to read it all, cause it has some good stuff, and sometimes its all that keeps me going. i suppose this story...like all storys has a moral...and i want you to know it. its your choice if you take this at face value or not, or if you follow any of this "advise", but its all up to you.
moral: live. love. be happy. and never give up on spmething or someone you belive in.
P.S. heres a little something to end it with. a couple of lyrics by me...just to break things up.
FINDING THE TRUTH
take one step, take one step back, and tell me, tell me you dont regret the past, are you haunted by your record of wrongs? take one breath, and breathe in deep, you never, ever, tasted life so sweet, there is healing in your heart break, you have suffered so long.
when everything inside you, is fed up with being lied to, take my hand and we will find the truth, and just like all, the chasing the winds, love calls out of the darkness, seeking the heart of the wanderers, like you...like me.
MAYBE YOU
she says shes just a girl, i think theres something more, she says you changed her world, and the smile on her face is a dead giveaway, and ive just got to know.
so wont you tell me, is there something more to you, maybe you could be the one for me, and turn my life into what i need, maybe you could save my soul, maybe you could be my best friend too, maybe you.
theres something in her eyes, something behind her smile, she says you changed her life. maybe you, or maybe not, all i want is what shes got, ant ive just got to know.
she says no one knows her like you do, she says shes nothing without you, and i know i need her too, but i cant see her without seeing you.
DESPERATE FOR YOU
everything about you is something i hate, but i love you still, everything about you goes against what i am, but i love you still. you dis me like crazy, even call me names, but either way, i love you the same.
i dont know how much i can take, or even how much more you can make, but trust me, my love isnt fake. why do you do this to me, why do you treat me like this, i give love, and you could give a shit.
ill love you forever, no matter what, ill keep on giving, no buts. sometimes thoough i wish, you would just do something nice, even the occasional smile would suffice. but no it will never happen, your to stuck up on yourself to show, if you have any care, any compassion, let me know.
so goodbye for now, ill see you around, untill then ill be jumping OFF a building, with a single bound.
well if you actually read the whole thing and made it this far...let me know...reply yo it...comments are nice. thanks.
~aj~