It sucks. I constantly peer at my phone when I'm just laying there every night, hoping that you might call. And we'll have one of those long, retarded, random conversations like we used to.
But, no...it won't happen. It can't....

This situation is unfathomable. It's stupid and selfish.
As each day goes on, I get more nervous and more terrified that you're gonna just drop it, and rip me out of your life. Because that would be such an easy thing to do for a guy...Let's just hope that you're not like the rest of them.
It's like I told you before, I slipped up and let you in. And as queer and silly this may sound....I've given my heart to you. I don't intend on giving it to anyobody else....
I know for a fact that I won't ever have That Feeling for somebody other than you. You already know how I feel about that, because of the talk...

Don't think for a second that I've forgotten you. 95% of the time, all I think about IS you. (You know how selfish I can be, gotta keep the other 5 percent to myself :)  
I'm feeling confident enough to say that things will get better. It's all up to you though.....

I'll be right here, like how I've always been.

I'm sorry.

 My apologies for:

-not being the best person in your life.

the smartest girl you have ever met.

>The prettiest, most original, or even the snazziest.

I'm sorry that my decisions are irrational. >stupid< Idiotic.

I'm sorry that I can't make you proud of me.

My apologies for making you feel like your words aren't valuable to me.

I dug this deep hole, I'm aware of that.

I'm sorry that I'm not the best contender to fall in lust with.

My flaws are retarded, yes.

I didn't mean to sadden you.... or embarass you.

I'm a crazy, chaotic, outrageous, hectic girl.

My apologies for disappointing you with these traits of mine.

So, there it is. Mikaela Moreno is sorry for the things that make you look at me differently.

This questionable behavior of mine is pushing you away, I'm assuming accuratly?

Sorry.