Been a few weeks since I pissed n' moaned last!!  It has been a good few weeks!!  Got back to work....they changed my schedule, which is fine as I work all 3 shifts, still get 40 hours, and only have to deal with so-and-so once a week!!!  On my meds now, seems to help as well as the support system I have of my Dad, friends like Meghan and Fuzz, and even "so-and-so" seems to have chilled!!  I STILL WOULDN'T TRUST HIM AS FAR AS I CAN THROW HIM!  We have a new deputy who is a Minnesota Vikings fan, being that I am a huge fan of the GREEN BAY PACKERS, we rib each other daily!  I've been talking with my friend/shrink/pastor Floyd regularly, that helps tremendously....I've known Floyd for 11 years now, he was my counselor when I was locked up as a juvenile!!!  He was also the man that married me and the ex back in 1999!! 

I had a lot of demons I needed to get out and talking with him has done such.....things such as my Mom's death, feelings towards my bio-father who died in 2004 {he sucked, adios asshole!}, feelings of being alone, something that happened in 1995 which up until last week only one person knew about {My MOM!}.....once I find out more concerning this issue I may let others know but very few, issues with crap during my divorce, and work!!  The meds seem to take the edge off of the anxiety and make me in a better mood all around!

Dove head first back into my writing....hooked up with one of my favorite guitarists, Buzzy James formerly of Laidlaw, wrote a artist bio for him, waiting on his thumbs up!!  Some good news for my pal uNKLEDUNk @  http://www.darrellmillar.com   seems a big ole record label is drooling for his band Automan.CA !!  'Bout fucking time, they kick major ass! 

Just thought I'd say thanks to everyone who has wrote or messaged me seeing WTF is down in Crash-Land!  Talk at cha later & let's hope it stays on the positive trend it has been lately!

Cheers,

Justin

Fire It Up

Fire it up, let the engines roll
It's time to burn it down
Keep bleeding on, 'til the day you die
Forever love it loud, yeah

Hellfire, doom, watch the hatred spin
Beyond the speed of sound
Fire it up, let the engines roll
It's time to burn it down, yeah

Keep moving on,
Keep moving on,
Keep moving on.

Keep moving on,
Keep moving on,
Keep moving on.

Face your fear
Accept your war
It is what it is.

Face your fear
accept your war
Oh yeah

by Bret Michaels

Now look at you all standing proud
Dressed to kill, talking loud, guitar in your hand
You see sex and violence, love and rage
Still survive in this day and age, and you’re sick about that
Go ahead, life’s gonna take it so break these chains
Come alive, the worlds your stage

Love and pain and sacrifice,
Flesh and blood all the songs of life
You said I will not go quietly in the night

Now look at you out on the streets
Your mom and dad think you’re a freak
Don’t understand you
You wear your heart on your sleeve
Seems all the people that you meet they criticize you too
But just stand tall and face the pain
You will not fall for the masquerade.

Love and pain and sacrifice
Flesh and blood all the songs of life
You said I will not go quietly in the night

The losing clowns that try to drag you down but stand there yeah
Your life is getting stranger you know you can’t change it
Destiny’s a callin’ you, nothing you can do

Now look at you all actin’ strange
I wonder what the winds of change have done to you
Is it what you did or what you seen or all the things you could not fix
That effected you…

Love and pain and sacrifice,
flesh and blood all the songs of life
You said I will not go quietly in the night

Love and pain and sacrifice,
Flesh and blood all the songs of life
You said I will not go quietly in the night
You got to stand and fight

LIFE LOVES A TRAGEDY

Of all the words that I've spoken
And lies that I've told
Of all the hearts left broken
Begged for, bought, and sold

Lord I'm feeling lonely
Feel like I can't go on
The streets have all grown cold now
The mysteries all gone

She's all gone
She's all gone, gone, gone
All gone now
She's all...

Well I ain't getting any younger
Can't you see it in my eyes
She sweet has turned to sour
I think it's time for me to fly

Well my vices have turned to habits
And my habits have turned to stone
The lies chipped away at my smile now baby
While the truth ate me down to the bone

One more step and I swear
I'll be over the edge
I've gotta stop living at a pace that kills
Before I wake up dead

Chorus:
Good times, bad times
How life loves a tragedy
Heartbreaks, heartaches
How life loves a tragedy

The nights I spent in danger
With strangers I thought were friends
Only to wake in anger
For some pleasure they swore they'd send

I think it's time I move on
Like a rolling stone
Cause I got all the broken dreams I can buy
It's time to sell the ones I stole

Chorus

Well I paid the price
For every thrill I got
Those thrills are all long gone baby
But I'm still paying for them like it or not

Solo

I think it's time I move on like a rolling stone
Cause I got all the broken dreams I can buy
It's time to sell the ones I stole

Chorus

TILL NEXT TIME..............................................................................

CHEERS,

JUSTIN

Where do I begin, ok, I'll start on Tuesday from the time of my wakeup call!  Don't remember what time it was due to consumption of Rum n' cokes & Jager during the early morning hours but my pal Meghan called to rise my sorry butt outta bed after a few hours sleep and a 6am call from my 'lil-sis' Micah to see if I had been drinking!  Hell, I had my bags packed and at the door waiting Fuzz' arrival!!  Fuzz showed up and we threw our shit in the van, picked up some stuff for Meghan from her Mom, and hit the road crankin' some Anthrax along the way.  Into Hays we arrived for lunch @ Arby's, than off to get tattooed.....I got my Misfits ghost tattoo and soon my bestest breastest pal Kassy will have a matching one....we figured it was best to do something we both love for a bonding deal rather than each others names so down the road our future ex's won't get pissed when they see someone of the opposite sex's name on our respective bodies!  Fuzz' got a badass tribal star, check John The Fuzz page for a pic!  After my tattoo was complete and Fuzz' was secured into the chair and comfortable, I headed off to pick up Meghan and drop off her picture dealio!  Fuzz made it through with flying colors!  Fuzz, Meghan, and I than went to Wal-Mart, dinner, walked the mall, and to see the Dukes Of Hazzard!  We dropped our pal Meghan off at home since she had class in the a.m. for the trek to WaKeeney where we went to see Kassy......than off to the bar!! 

We hooked up with some pals and after downing a ton of beer, shooting pool, and getting frisky with some hot married chick, we went to breakfast than back to Kassy's for some zzzzz!  Wednesday morning Fuzz took me to Wichita to get my car, I FINALLY HAVE WHEELS AND WHAT IS COOLER IS THEY BELONGED TO MY MOM!  MY MOM & I USED TO GO CRUISIN' AROUND CRANKIN' OLDIES IN THAT CAR!  Back to Ashland late Wednesday night after a pit-stop in Pratt! 

IT WAS A FUCKIN' BLAST GETTING AWAY FROM HERE WITH FUZZ, GETTING INKED, SEEING MY PALS MEGHAN, KASSY, and CHRIS, DRINKING SOME BUDWEISER, and hitting the old stomping grounds!

Cheers,

Justin

WOW!  I can't believe that for two weeks in a row, I will get outta here.....last week I went to WaKeeney on my days off and this week Fuzz & I will head up to Hays/WaKeeney for some ink n' drink!!  Last week, my friend Meghan {from Ashland but lives in Hays} came over.....first time we got to really hang out!!  I intro'd her to a bunch of my friends, went to dinner, watched a movie, and hung out w/ friends some more!!  It was fun!!!  Wednesday I ran over to Hays to take Meghan to lunch but since I ran late she had to head to class so I went over to Fantasy Graphics Tattoo Studio and did some catching up with my favorite tattoo artists in the world, Art & Lee, plus I helped out around the studio for a bit!!!  After a pit stop @ Hastings, I went back to Kassy's and chilled out all evening waiting for Kassy to come home!!  We hung out and talked about some stuff,  Anyways, there are a few pics from last week in my profile....check them out & I will put part two of this crazy adventure up by Sept. 9th!!

Cheers,

Justin

Ahhhhh.....Just got back from spending 3 days with my friends up north, and what a fuckin' blast I had!!  Monday, SaraBeara rolled down to Ashland to drag our alcoholic asses over to Coffeyville to see Dierks Bentley & Cross Canadian Ragweed in concert!!  The trip to the show was spent jammin' some fine assed country music while catching up on various going-on's!!!  We hit the local Super 8 for a room, than I walked over to Wendy's for some grub all the while dodging traffic....soon afterwards SaraBeara's pals Carissa & Abby showed up from Manhattan, we all piled into Carissa's car for the drive to the show.  SaraBeara, Abby, and I had the pleasure of meeting Dierks in the midst of the Ragweed show.  Dierks was a cool guy, just wished I could say the same for his handlers {not Kai, he was nice!}.....one bitch grabbed SaraBeara and shoved her back in line in the midst of showing some old fuck how to work her camera....I didn't see it as I was too busy talking to some hot blonde as usual!! 

C.C.R.  opened for Dierks but only after we were subjected to some ditzy blonde who just happened to be tone deaf.....now as much as I dig Dierks {he is my current fav besides Shooter Jennings, nobody can beat Waylon but these guys kick ass!}, Dierks should have opened for Cross Canadian Ragweed hands down.....CCR is a full on country-rock band full of piss n' vinegar whereas Dierks is more traditional country so it kind of killed the groove but was a phenomonal show nonetheless!!  At the end of Dierks show CCR jumped up on stage for a killer rendition of Johnny Cash's "Folsom Prison Blues"!  Back to the hotel for some zzzzzzzz!!

A few days before SaraBeara came down, Kassy called asking if I'd come home to WaKeeney to accompany her to the Rooks County Fair to see Jason Boland & The Stragglers with Kevin Fowler!  And as most know, I'd never turn Kassy down!!  So, at the asscrack of 8am SaraBeara & I set out for the trip home....a few wrong turns due to my crappy navigational skills and 5 hours later we were home!!  Now the joy of rising Kassy's ass out of bed to let me in!!  That girl would sleep through a nuclear detonation!

Tuesday evening we went to her Dad's for her brothers 21st Birthday dinner.....I never felt more comfortable meeting someone's family....what a cool bunch of folks!  We left Hays back to WaKeeney....and of course I made the mistake of asking kassy if she'd like to roll to the bar for a beer!!  So, we grab my pal Chris to join us @ FastLane!  Ahhhh, Home Sweet Home, I love that place.....I always feel like Norm from Cheers when I go in there!!  Drinks flowed freely!!  Of course I got to play "cooler" between some drunks, once them tittie babies settled down it was back to beerville.  After a few hours we left for breakfast at the truckstop, and for once I didn't feel like eating, I should have known that was a problem.  Kassy and I headed back to her apt., on the way up the drive, I felt the urge to let loose and for the first time ever I puked after drinking....I felt like such a lame ass!!  But Kassy was there to comfort me while I puked, and to help me into bed.....I love snuggling with her, but as usual I just lay there and watch her sleep, but feeling like prison ass with Cross Canadian Ragweed's "The Boys From Oklahoma" tune rolling through my hungover head!  So, to let her sleep I got up to watch the BTK sentencing much to Kassy's disgust! 

Wednesday, Kassy & I went to Hays to develop our pics, I attended her real estate meeting for a kewl lil' venture she is looking into, accompanied her to the barber shop {beauty salon as she reminded me!}, and back to WaKeeney where I met SaraBeara's kick-ass Momma for the first time....  We helped SaraBeara & Kassy clean their respective cribs than it was time to give SaraBeara her birthday presents.....oh the look on her face was priceless......I am sure she is still "humming" along!!  LOVE YA SARABEARA!! 

That night we hit Pizza Hut than off to the Boland/Fowler concerts with a 30 pack of beer, yeah, we were definitely "Booze Cruisin" along!  The shows were killer as usual.....nice to see some real country being played not some glossed up pop shit with an accent!!  On the way back Kassy got popped speeding.....we were tripping that we were all going to jail for "Booze Cruisin" but the trooper must enjoyed them gals cleavage that was on display because we were let go with a warning and we still had our beer!!  How he could not have smelt that booze reeking from the car is beyond me!!  We dropped SaraBeara off, got me some hugs from her, than packed up my shit & Kassy n' I headed south here to Assland.....after letting the AC's cool down my en-of-sin we crashed for a few hours before she had to make the trek back north to work!!  It sucked seeing her go but who knows what the future holds!!  I may be seeing more of SaraBeara & Kassy soon................

Cheers,

Justin

p.s.

check out http://www.wakingupdeadmovie.com or http://www.myspace.com/wakingupdead

Yesterday, 7-10-05, my dear friends Kassy & Danielle informed me they'd be making the 150 mile trek south to visit me here in Ashland!!  Being that I hardly know a soul in Ashland, mainly due to working sooooo damn much and my phobia of meeting new people, believe it or not I am shy about meeting new people.....mainly because people misjudge me right off the bat!!  Mainly due to appearance, sense of humor, and who knows what else!! 

Last night we stayed up till past 4am, I had to be at work at 7am for a 12 hour shift, we caught up on goings-on in WaKeeney, made asses of ourselves to some Hip-Hop {not my choice of tunes but fun nonetheless}, and enjoy the romantic stylings of the movie, HOUSE OF A 1,000 CORPSES......you haven't felt pain till two women dig up your arms and legs in fear of Capt. Spaulding!! 

Today, they came up to my work and my ever-cool Sheriff allowed me to give them the tour of our jail.....but for some reason he wouldn't allow me to handcuff them or lock them in cells....he said save the handcuffs and frisking for home....ok!  They hung for a bit, entertaining us {Sheriff, Undersheriff, and myself}, which was greatly aprreciated with all that has happened here in the last month aka chaos! 

At 7pm, they will pick me and our friend Undersheriff John The Fuzz up.....we will go out to dinner.....than they will depart back to WaKeeney and I will be stuck looking at John The Fuzz' ugly ass {j/k bro!??!} for god knows how long until the next visitors or when I get a day off and can get the hell outta Dodge! 

Today.....I couldn't be happier between them being here and a kooky-fun conversation I had this a.m. with Kristie from OC!!  Kristie, if you are reading this....I am stuck in the hard drive and it hurts like an SOB! 

Hope everyone had a grandiose day!

Cheers,

Justin

I am super fuckin' stoked this movie will be out soon!!  No, unfortunately, I have yet to see it but I look forward to the day I can!  I have been a fan of PHIL VARONE since he was in Saigon Kick....huge fan of the Prunella Scales record he did...than was insanely jazzed when he hooked up with SKID ROW!!  Back at the end of 2003 I had the chance to catch Skid Row with Poison @ Lake Afton in Wichita, Ks.  Not only that but I had the honor of meeting the Skid Row guys and hanging with them....I still have the 8x10 they signed to me as well as their pics, unfortunately some asshole decided he wanted to fight me during Poison's set so I lost the pair of sticks Phil gave me but that asshole lost the fight and got ejected from the venue while I got to finish the show!  That picture/pics is framed and displayed in my front room! 

Fast forward to 2005 and Phil is no longer with Skid Row but that is OK....he is alive & that is the main thing!  WAKING UP DEAD will fill in all the details!  Everyone needs to head over to http://www.wakingupdeadmovie.com and check out the trailor!!  If anyone has the chance to catch this flick at any of the film fests....do it & come back here and leave your review on my blog!

Cheers,

Justin

http://www.wakingupdeadmovie.com

EVERYONE KNOWS I AM A HUGE RICHIE KOTZEN FAN!  CHECK HIM OUT, ONLINE!

Richie will be in the biggest radio station in Argentina, where the best artist of music have been.

It's called ROCK & POP www.fmrockandpop.com this is the site.

Richie will be (Argentina time) on tuesday 14th 11.00 o'clock live, to the world on the net, there's an interview and a mini show then, in the number 1 radio show in Argentina, hosted by Mario Pergolini.

You can listen online.

And then at 21.00hs, Richie will be performing an acoustic show for all Argentina (and the world online) in a place by the sea, with glasses and mirrors, really beautiful that's also gonna be broadcasted by the radio, from 21.00 to 22.00 (Argentina time)

The ROCK & POP site is in spanish only, but there's a link on the right upper side of the site where you can click to listen online, you also can send an email to Richie to both shows to:

myd@fmrockandpop.com (Cual Es? ....it's the morning show..)
apagalatele@fmrockandpop.com (Apaga la tele...the afternoon show...)

Voila, this is it for now!!! Stay tuned, more to come... Courtesy to Ariel Vigo.

We're all going to be able to enjoy this tour this time!!!!
Make sure to let everybody you know know about this so they don't miss it!!!

Peace and Blessings to all fine people!