I have pictures.

I'm having some trouble deciding what style I should start drawing Necavi in. :< So I tried out some different styles! Here are some quick sketches, though I'm not sure I like any of them...

"Good morning to you too!"
http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f14/Necavi/scan0002.jpg
There's a sub story that Necavi is in, where the main character of "Reck" (his name is Reck), a comic that I'm helping my friend (the author/artist) illustrate, is sneaking about a military camp looking for the commander's tent, but accidently lands himself inside of Neca's. Where she promptly picks up her weapon with the intent to kill. Of course, this is a cameo appearance, and she fails to maim him. Instead they snog then she steals his pants. What I like about this style is that its fun to draw, but at the same time it is kind of stiff, and something seems off about the face. =/

"Say what?"
http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f14/Necavi/scan0001-2.jpg
I'm in love with the original Witchblade and Tomb Raider series-- Michael Turner (God rest his soul) is an inspiration to me as an artist, and I'm in love with his style. The full lips, gorgeous eyes and incredible bodies that he's able to bring to life... Ah, there's no way to adequetly express my love for that man. So of course, I tried, and I butchered his style. I don't think I'll attempt it again.


"Er, hi."
http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f14/Necavi/scan0003.jpg
The same scene as the first pictue, redrawn in a different, more cartoon-y style. Except, like, I dunno, after they go at it and she's like, "well damn, daggers wont work." I liked drawing the body, but the face bothers me. > <



Decisions decisions decisions.
Oh, yeah. Found an old Dag picture. XD
http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f14/Necavi/n527521301_487347_6263.jpg
I kind of wish I was still blonde. :<





-Neca

Uhm... I thought that we had worked it out... But... Apparently he hasn't felt anything for me... In like... The past few weeks...
And now everything I've done, and everything I've tried has been for nothing.
Then yesterday he tells me that 'perhaps' we weren't meant for eachother? I'm sorry, but if this is his way of trying to get me to break up with him, so that he doesn't feel bad if we split, he has another thing coming.
He needs to string up a sack and learn how to be a man, instead of finding new ways to make me cry in the middle of class.
But no! He says now that his feelings are returning, that my efforts have helped "bring the flame back."
What the hell? I tell him that I'll love him unconditionally, then he lets me know that his 'love' is able to be removed then coaxed back. That... Isn't love. And it hurts... So badly, as I would swallow the sun, and I'd pull down the moon... I've killed all of my dreams to make him happy. And he knows this.

But thank you Nikki, thank you, Eldrin.
Nikki, thank you so much for sticking by my side, even when I've done the most stupid of actions. You have helped me like no other.

And Eldrin, well... Once agayne, my gratitude is yours. I'm quite suprised that you took the time of day to write to this abject girl. But, you did, and it helped knowing that even a stranger cared enough to talk to me.

Thank you guys... Love y'all.

`La Belle Sauvage

My amazing friend May drew Necavi for me! *Whoo hoo!* Good, aye? *grins* I love it.

And, to add to that, Rindi drew me.


She needed the practice. ;p

And now, I need to return the favour for -both- of them.
Wish me luck.



-Mai

My mind is in three different places at the same time.

One wants to be anywhere but here.

One wants to stick around for certain people.

The last wants to put a bullet in my brain.

The first part has been listening to the radio at work.

The second listens to Apoptygma Berzerk.

The final bit has been listening to those tiny little echoes on the wind that I hear whenever nobody is talking.

I like Apoptygma Berzerk.

I'm gonna stick around. Partly because I can't really go anywhere else. And partly because I can't get access to ammunition.




-Mai

-Edit-

I decided to clean up the spelling and such of the ilk...

-End Edit-



"Home Away From Home" written by the amazingly incredible David!

I smile... Just for a bit, watching the tides sinking my feet into the sand, as the waves pass me by. This old house, it reminds me of my youth, smiling, in this cabin. With all the things you do, I'm waiting inside of it for someone to come home, to be sheltered and not alone.
:Chorus:
This is where I grew up, and I smile. These waves pass me by while I'm grinning, all the while this old cabin may be nothing to you, but it's all my memories and I can do.
I get up, and look around my cabin, memories just seem to pass me by while waves crash on the shore while I look inside. And I remember all the times I cried, looking at these old pictures reminds me of what everyone would do to me. But as long as I can breathe in this happy place my heart will be full of grace.
:Chorus Repeats:
So let me smile while watching the waves go by asking myself and wondering why I left this beautiful house and home to be left broken and alone. But now I'm here laughing at nothing, smiling to the ocean as my friend again, and looking in my house for the one bit of happiness I can let out.
:chorus repeats twice.:
This house may be a broken down shack an empty wooden crack but to me it holds all the memories I will never forget of you and me.



And here's the first song he wrote for me, "Mai's Gift To Me"... It's incredible, and so special... =] I love it!



I waited just looking out the window, solemn, not gracefull, this is hell, this is my home, just feeling empty inside and tired of all the lies that await me inside myself.
:Chorus:
But you came in smiling, waving happily, my face drowned in hate made me shine today, wont let this dagger peirce through my heart, I can feel alive again, when you look at me without your sin.
So once again alone in my silent hell of a home, I take the knife away, put away the memories long forgotten today, I wont stay away, you can fight this place, you just need to hide in your shell like your somebody else... But once again you smile, I'm capivated everything inside me of hate is obliterated .
:chorus repats:
So look at me, a former superstar, now alone, sitting and living inside of my car, you're the one who's popular, I'm the one who's hated and spitted upon, dont you think for a second that I envy you, this knife inside of my heart you will always undo.
:chorus repeats twice:
So thank you Mai for all that you've given, lifted is my heart once again forgiven, and I can finally feel the warmth I've longed for once more, I can walk out.



Fantastic, isnt it? And he wrote it in a span of five minutes.

I feel so... Happy now.



-Mai-

Angelus Nullus (4:02:32 AM): My tummy protests to the lack of food content occupying it! Therefore, I shall be back once I've completed my quest of raiding the fridge of it's goods.
"Chrisss" (4:02:47 AM): PLUNDER THE FRIDGE!

Angelus Nullus (4:23:48 AM): Gah
Angelus Nullus (4:23:54 AM): It's official
Angelus Nullus (4:24:01 AM): I'm a geek/nerd/gamer/whatever
"Chrisss" (4:24:11 AM): You're you
Angelus Nullus (4:24:11 AM): I burned my tongue on my rice
Angelus Nullus (4:24:28 AM): And I immediately started looking for my potions
"Chrisss" (4:24:34 AM): o.O
"Chrisss" (4:24:38 AM): XD



Erm.
Yeah.
Chris is kick-ass.

Annnnddddd.

Nikki = Amazing.
O_.
In general. Although he refuses to accept it.
Darn him.



-Mai

You know how you get that feeling where you know you're letting the emotion get in the way, and you're being completely irrational, and you're not even sure if you believe in it yourself, but you know you're right? When that one little tick is the only thing that matters and you so desperately need to hang onto it otherwise you wont know what to do? That sickening feeling when you realize that you're throwing everything away, only for a moment? The realization of knowing your existance wont matter after you're gone? Whenever you realize you're absolutely hopeless, and there's nothing you can do about it...? The fact that all things are replacable, and that means you too... Could one really be so insignifigant that people will forget and patch the empty space with another puppet, until that gets worn? There is no worse feeling than knowing that Despair has got you in her hands, and that there's no one beside you.

I feel so empty when they do this. Why do I bother?
Am I really so vile? Should I not be trusted? Of course not. No one knows the hearts of others. Not even themselves... So why should I be hurt? Yet I am...


Ah, fuck it all. I'm done with this.


Everyone, say goodbye to the Mai you knew.

-Mai

Alrighty, so, today is my father's birthday, and my little brother's birthday, and it's veterns day!
So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! And veterns day.
Which is funny, because daddy is in Iraq, so, he's a vetern.
... Odd.
But I really miss James. I was supposed to go to the swim meet, but I couldn't, because I had to check up on Grandfather Finney. Not that I'm complaining, but I really wanted to see James in spandex. Is that too much to ask for?
...
And I've spent another three hours leveling up Vaan and the others.

Anyway, I have no desire to post anymore.

-Mai