***     i took her to the dr cause i thought she had an ear infection, maybe strep ? ... he immediately after noticing all of her bruises wanted labs. She was definately anemic ... those came back and we were sent to childrens hospital in Pittsburgh ... Me being told not to be alarmed, he just didnt feel that our local hospital was equipped to deal with her blood results and childrens would be ... it didnt take long at all for them to tell us her diagnosis, but at that time them not being able to do the spinal tap due to her numbers being low to know which type of lukemia it was...   all they were telling us at that time was that one kind required a longer treatment period than the other but had good prognosis in the end and that the other was a shorter treatment with not so good results ... shed explain more when we had a type ...   that was thursday ........ monday we got the good news of a better prognosis ..........   im going to say that those 4 days were the worst most longest of them yet ... now we know shes gonna be ok, she just has a long road ahead of her ... i didnt know if she was going to have a long road at all for 4 days ....        my heart cries for every mother who has ever lost a child to anything ... i didnt kow anything could hurt as bad as my fears did ...

          *****  So with diagbosis begins treatment immediately ...   chemo in her iv ... shots in her legs ...   she went through 4 ivs that week, having to get pricked for a new one every time ...   she had to have a "medi port "/ "power port" placed into her chest, that process being sedated surgery ... ive never had so much information thrown at me so quickly , so intensely ... being told again and again that its really intense at first but will slow down, i will get used to it , she will as well ... it wont be this cofusing forever ......   platelette counts, anc's, aspirates, spinal fluid, bone marrows ... our first night home after they promised me all her meds were labeled written out ready to go day by day instructions for the first 28 days ... i get home and one of them isnt mixed ... im already calling the hospital cause i dont know what to do ... weve got anti biotics she has to take for 2 years, steroids as part of induction treatment ... pepcid cause the steroids rip up her stomach ...  but they told me to call anytime ... and they were there when i did ... she isnt allowed outside sometimes, sometimes shes required to wear a mask at all times... a fever isnt a fever anymore its life threatening ... any kind of cold can be dangerous ...   any cuts or boo boos can bleed excessively ... all of the above depending on what her numbers are today ........she did get to go to chuck e cheese  YAY !!!   .......       

          *****     So we made it home ...... above is how rattled my brain was the first month ...   but it is all starting to get easier... not as confusing and not as intense ...   there are good days bad days ... ok days ... shes doing great ... all of your prayers , energies youve been sending , the cards ... donations ... those that sent out bulletins for me when i first found out ...   i love you all for loving her ...     ill write more this week about the first month home ...   it gets confusing again when i try to sit down and write it all out trying to remember everything right ...   but i wanted to start at the beginning for all of you and keep you all caught up on how shes doing , and  this is the quickest way i can without alot of time to send updates to you all individually ... Ill post some pictures by next week too its amazing the transformation this lil girl has gone through some sad but some just healthy and she just  hasnt been for some time now .........   but it all makes sense her not being able to kick a cold this past winter now ...

            ok it all keeps spinning and i start rambling so ill stop here with a huge hug for all of you for everything youve done and sent through this time ............. with a promise of updates soon and regularly ......... :) *****

Im Still Here .... We made it to the new place pretty much completely ... anything of importance with me... sorting through three generations of packrats , deciding what to keep what not to keep ... Going from a bedroom farmHouse to sharing space and pretty much compacting myself into a studio sized basement ... You truly dont appreciate some things until you lose them ... This Place i grew up in ... this one horse town i couldnt wait to get out of ... The simple little things ... learning one person really can make a difference in the world one little city at a time ... Those thoughts are definately going to be the next write up ... But for now i must continue to work on unpacking ... i dunno which was harder or more fun ..... ill post some pictures of my new creative space soon ......

i had my appendix out and i have no idea how you guys all found out ... BUT thank you all for the get well wishes i was seriously overwhelmed with when i logged on here tonight ... Im ok ..... just wondering WHY ?!?! if it serves no purpose in the human body what so ever do we have an appendix :) *** i got a mini resting vacation HA HA !!!

I head to the dr tomorrow and as soon as he gives me the ok ill be back to hooping crazy and i have kinda started to get my stitch back on ... ive got some new designs imma break out at hookahville then list on the site ......... if i can ill try to get some sneak peek pics up ...

i uploaded some more fashion show shots ....... THANK YOU to Joe Nichter for the awesome photos !!!!!!!!

Im feeling better not just from the surgery but from my long funk of a winter ... the birds are chirping ... some flowers blooming ....... im ready for a fresh start and ready to start all over in every way ........ cause i really kinda need that after the past year of funk.........

you guys rock ... all of you that are still here ........!!! i dont plan on vending a whole ton this year i want to relax and just create and not have any stress !!! but i hope to get to meet more of you in the travels do have !!!!!!!!

HuGs to you all !!!!!!!!!!

     Which one of these things just doesnt belong here? Which one of these things just isnt the same ...   with family friendly festieness on my brain i have that sesame street song swimming around in there .....

        Festival Land..... Vending ..... Children..... and Drugs .....        all of the above you will find at most shows...    ive been to enough myself... with my family... and never had any problems ...   most of them being family friendly...    it is definately my responsibility  to protect my children, and keep them safe, that job belonging to noone but myself .

     But it is your job as the one to be partying to be responsible for your drugs, and not drop them on the ground, and or leave them laying around where a child might be able to find them. It is your job to be respectful with your drug use when thier are children around . at most shows the problem makers are usually back in the woods somewhere and dont often surface...     but a few do from time to time stumble into vendors row , partying it up not watching for kiddos .....

     I am right now doubting that taking my children to shows is a good idea ....   i have done so all summer... my children come because they love the music ...  they love to run around and play in festival land. We Hoop, we Dance, my oldest son has picked up fire spinning... they have met so many beautiful peoples .....    learning all about kyndness, love, respect for thier earth, bartering thier way through life... Simple living.....    If i stop bringing them then we will never be able to make festival land friendly for the lil ones, and the little ones are who count. They are th next generation if we that love this life wish it to keep going. How can we teach them all about it if we are unable to take them because it just isnt safe ....

       The reason behind my latest upset and fear comes from this past weekend ...    Someone very near and dear to me, one of the most responsible humans i know, that has never done any drugs what so ever ...   with no desire to was we think dosed...  Now if he wanted to take a trip he would have done so , Why do you think it was ok for you to decide that he might wanna do this .....  Have you ever seen a grown man cry? like a baby? with a loof of fear in his eyes so deep youd think he had just walked through hell and back, and was stuck there trying to find his way back ? Well i now HAVE !!!   and its not fun, amusing, or even cool . With the help of an angel named Steve that came from nowhere, he helped me help my friend. and others stating that they have seen peoples go around with squirt guns etc dosing others as well at other shows as well ....    

          Little kids like squirt guns.....    oh your bad you left that laying around .....  oh im sorry i meant to squirt that guy not your 2 year old daughter .....   

       That alone got me thinking ...  people do drugs... people touch drugs ... people dont wash thier hands ...  these same people touch money that i touch that my children touch ...    and so on and so on .....

      im truly torn right now ...if i stop taking my kids they win ...   it becomes a children not welcome war zone ...   a part of me says no they cant win ... i will make it safer for kids ...     but no matter where you go you will alwasy have that one idiot that doesnt care or think ... and i dont know if i can take that risk with my children ......and without my children i dont think id really want o go out there anymore myself ...   it defeats the purpose of what i do .... raising my children because theyd always have to stay home .....         

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This weekend i fell in love with my daugher all over again and  i learned to love myself through her eyes :) ***  Amazing how every day you just love your children more and more ***   Her sweet innocence ***   Allows her to Dance like noone is watching, freely laugh and giggle with anyone who makes her laugh ***  Stroll  on by saying hello to all ***  her confidence is high cause she knows shes beautiful and she knows she is loved ***   She knows nothing about this vain world we have created full of standards of how we should look, what we should wear, and how we should speak ***

     No matter where we are if music comes on she shakes her booty and starts to dance ***   She loves music and she likes to move :) ***   She gets that from her mother , but her mother has grown shy and insecure over the years ...   I was able to find a security inside my hoop ***   Katie you dont know what this hoop does for me : :::Wink::: ***   its majik ***   and every day i learn to rock it a little more gracefully :) ***   What do you do though when your out , you have no room for your hoop , and you must dance but you just cant do it ***   I have always been the girl that had to take a friend to the bathroom with me, dance in a group of people or atleast have one other person dancing with me ***   Not with my hoop though *** it gave me confidence *** im dancing by myself now :) ***   So i convinced myself ***   i was dancing with my hoop not by myself **   its majik circle creating my security around me ***    without it im back to shy and scared ***  

         So what now Penni Laine ?!?   You must learn to dance ***   And i did this weekend ***  i closed my eyes, listened to the music and danced ***   i think i forgot where i was for a minute but thats good cause i forgot there were other people around me to worry about :) ***       i did remember and get a little shy but kept dancing anyways and found something inside of me that i need to keep pulling out ***   But i did find that the majik is inside of me and not in the hoop ***   the hoop just gives me the confidence that i need to make the hoop majik ***   And now i need to work on bringing out that majik every day in everything i do not just when hooping ***   i will dance every chanc ei get atleast one song without it from here on out ***  I will share my majik with everyone all the time ***    Well im working on it anyways :) ***

     We all have a security blanket of some kind i suppose , something we hide behind *** something that make sus feel good about our selves in a world that says you must be 95 pounds with a big bust and perfect abs to be beautiful ***    Im sure i have a couple other than my hoop as well *** what is yours ? If i share my majik with all of you will you share yours with me ??? If not me please share it with someone today , a stranger anyone ***   Your majik may help them find thier own inside of them ***

   Thanks for listening ( reading ) ***    im off to hoop now :) ***   not going to hide just going to get my hour of excersize for the day ***   cause when you rock it it really is a great fun, healthy workout ***   !!!

                          Happy Hooping, and i hope all of you have a beautiful majik filled week **********            

 * Wow **   Most of you kow i have obsessive compulsive hooping disorder :) **    So of COURSE im going to do something big for the first world hoop day !!!    Yep they have a day for it now :) ***   7 / 7 / 07 *** 8 / 8 / 08 up till 12 / 12 / 2012 !!!   a 5 year goal to have everyone hooping by then !!!

       So to do our part i went for the kids *** cause kids always get gipped at shows !!!   We took enough pipe , connectors and tape out with us to make up 50 kid hoops to hand out on saturday , no realy plan just gonna give away hoops !!!    Through donations from a few patrons , and mostly all the other vendors there we ended up with enough to make 70 more !!!   it turned out to be a couple more than that and i honestly lost track of how many we did but we handed out approximately 120 kid hoops that day !!!   YaY !!!!!

        All the kids then came back along with quite a few adult volunteers and we had a parade !!!   i dressed all of the adults up in wings and tails and feathe rboas and we marched on down through vendors row with the kids and thier hoops to show them what they donated to and what beauty it brought the kids !!!   we stopped long enough at the stage to allow the kids to hoop there cause they never get stage front !!!   most of the adult there stood back and let them have thier moment **   we then kept marching on through the rest of the vendors and headed back to camp !!!

        Buzz through coffee was one of my neighbors and he in the spirit of things gave all the kdis that made full circle for the parade a free beverage to rehydrate !!!    Thank you !!!!

          I also MUST give kudos to the sound wagon too !!!   for thos eof you that have never seen it this ma and pa with thier son in tow bring out thier red rider wagins covered pioneer style and its a mini walking dj stand !!!   they came over and led the parade of kids completely out of the kyndness of thier heart !!!! 

 I still am in awe about how we put it all together but we did and it couldnt have been better had i planned it not thrown it all together in 3 days !!!   thanks to each and everyone of you that helped out in whatever way that you did !!!  Next year we are gonna do it again at the sunshine daydream farm for jerry's birthday bash !!!!   

       I have pics of it all too posted underneath my world hoop day folder in my pics if you wanna see the beautyy up close and personal !!!!!!!!!

And P.S *** Between leftover Funds and Donations that came in after fact we donated those monies to One of the foundations out there **  initially my intention was the foundation for Evan's daughter BuT there was also a REX foundation and i thought both were the same so im not 100% sure of which i gave funds to BUT we were also able to raise some monies for a good cause as well !!!

     Blog 1 of ???   Its gonna take me a couple blogs to recap this amaing week so im gonna break it up into parts this one being dedicated to all of the beautiful people that make the world go round :) )

** This week was officially one of the most beautiful in my life thus far **  The setting was amazing , the water, the sand between my toes **   the people i met so many beautiful people this week !!!  i WISH i could go through and say how all of you touched my life this week but people would los einterest cause i could write a book !!!    So ill try to recap it short and sweetly as i can !!! and its all in no particular order just recapping as i met everyone this weekend , and or ran into old friends :) ***

KJ and brooke ** we make one hell of a team in the store and with the family ** Brooke i won all but once this weekend and ill win again i love you guys !!!

Wookie ** You are awesome thank you for EVERYTHING !!! Your always welcome in our space and home, and the boys wanna know when your going swimming again !!! :) ***

Megan ** Now that i know who you are HA HA !!!   Your beautiful , a wonderful mom, and i cant wait to see you again !!!

Danita !!! *** Wow Mama where do you keep all that love in your heart that you so freely share with everyone around you ???

Steph and Gavin !!!   Thank you for sharing your hoopin love with the kids on saturday !!!   i may have to run off into the mountains with you for a vacation Mama :) ***

Mandy ***   You amazed m again !!!   Keep at it your gonna be a famous dancer one of these days !!!

Nikki !!!   I knew youd make it HA HA !!!!

Andy ***   Shit we lost you !!!!

Bradley ***   You are one of the truest purest sopouls ive come across ***   I didnt get to say goodbye but i hope you make it to the next one caus ei have your shorts :) *** and i hope you can make it back home with KJ and i after fact :) ***  

Tripp *** you give the bestest hugs and renewed some faiths in me that i had become cynical on :) **

Dean ***   always nice :) **  well talk soon **

Brownie ***   HA HA ha HA You know we love you ** and Mona now too !!!

River and all the lil mamas i hung out with you guys are cool !!!   and you helped me out SOOO much thank you !!!!

Trinity *** in the super small world we live in i guess our time wasnt until this weekend , but you were a blessing and one of the highlights of my weekend :) ***

Steph !!!  Give your mom a hug for me !!! Your a trooper in the heat with the baby :) *** Your beautiful and i cant wait to see you again with full family there too :) ***

  Geez  i know im forgetting someone *** not becaus ei dont love you just cause it was such a short week to recall in a chapter *** i promis eitll come back to me and ill carry on this blog in the next couple as i recall :)

   Thank you to EVERYONE who stopped by supported us be it purchasing merchandise, donating supplies, donating time, just hanging out !!!  sometimes all this packing up and heading out can be rough with a family in tow but you guys all reminded me why i do it this week :) ******          Till i see you all again ****

   Is the foundation of my daily routine here ***   Alarm goes off at 6 , and randy heads to work ***   i close my eyes for just a tad longer as he turns on the coffee pot, and the yummy aromatic flavore finds its way through my house to our room, it puts those foldgers comercials to shame !!!   Sitting here each morning checking messages sipping on organic goodness *** i feel guilty not sharing with you all :) *** Blends from all over the world my favorites thus far are good old columbian, and the Kafa Forrest blend ***   So if your looking for the best coffee ive  found yet, completely organic, no animals tested in the making of this priduct, and would like to support other indie artists, cause coffee jill makes some pretty cute clothes too :) ***   you can copy and paste the link below to visit her ebay store ***        mmmm   mmmm   Good !!!!!

        May you all have mornings full of sunshine and organic goodness ******

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******    i went to Jo Ann's today ***   Sometimes i do buy cotton and not just HeMp ***    :) ***    the store was looking pretty empty ***   The Super Walmart that they opened couple years ago ran yet another grocery store out of town so i thought maybe they were liquidating to open up a super Jo Anns and moving next door to the empty space that used to sell groceries *** While asking bout it the girl at the cutting counter tells me No we just cut back on stuff cause we had too much waste ***     Ok well Kudos to them for that ***               But All kudos taken back when she says ya we threw away $3000 of fabric just last month ??? Threw it away ???   Like in the garbage in a landfill somewhere *****     Yes she says ****

             Ok i HaVe a serious problem with that and will have a hard time shopping at this store now ***   Leaving me only online to purchase my fabrics ***    Not only are they producing this fabric and spraying it with chemicals like stay and such that already have a not so great effect on our atmosphere BUT they then just throw it in a landfill somewhere to rot away and take up more of our land with garbage *****

               There are Women's Shelters that can use that fabric im sure somewhere *****     Give it to the boyscounts and other orginizations that sew little bears for the local emergency room at the hospital for the little kids that come in *** they are always freecycling for fabric scraps to make these bears *** i have given it to them many many times bags from my leftover scrap bins ***   Start some kind of program teaching people to sew, and or start your own charitible program *** there HAS to be something that can be done with this fabric ******        Donate it to your local church or firehall let them have a rummage sale with it *****   SoMEThing *****         AND  It would be a tax write off ******      

            This seriously Disturbs the heck out of me and something has to be done about it ***    i am going to write a letter to my local jo anns , my regional jo anns, and all the way up to corporate *****     I Urge all of you to do the same ****        it makes you wonder too how many of your other stores do the same thing ***     its something i never thought of ****     all your local clothing chains ***    what do they do with thier clothing end of season that doesnt clearance out ****  these clothes are already being made in some foreign country taking money away from our citizens, and being made by children and women living in deplorable conditions , and paying them not even enough to feed thier families ***    Do they throw away the sweat and tears these people put into the clothing as well ???    cause those for sure could be given to local shelters for women, children and the homeless ******

                UGH im so disgusted right now ************     thanks to all of you that support my work, and all the other talented MaMa's on here by doing that all of the above is what you are protesting and not supporting *****     

   *** Yes Danielle Again ***     Quick History for those of you that havent been around ***     I Reside and purchased my Grandmother's Home the one i grew up in ** 100 some year old FarmHouse ***   I left for four years long enough to get married and divorced , but found my way back "HoMe" when i left *** We took the second Floor of the home that consisted of 4 bedrooms  originally and gutted it from plaster and lath down to bare walls *** added insulation drywall, knocked down a couple of walls , and turned it into my own "living space" *** Two bedrooms, living room, half kitchen and bathroom of our own ***        it was a three year project cause single mommy of three then with three jobs had no money and or time to do it all ***     There is Still a piece of trim missing from every room somewhere *** :) ****

         Well My raging pregnant *( with Miss me )* hormones got this bright idea to gut the downstairs *** Let's do this while im not working ***    What A MESS !!!!!   We had to move gramma out cause she couldnt be around all of the dust ** and what started out as a nesting induced summer project is still unfinished two years later **** Those of you that remodel houses know what i mean when i say EVERYTHING is crooked, and nothing is as easy as it looks ***    Gas lines in the house still from the old gas lights ***   My mohter actually used an outhouse when she was a child because there was no in house plumbing when they bought it in its original state ****        

      Wel My randy * was my best friend at the time *** Now my Fiance :) ** was staying here to help me with the boys and let gramma stay at his house. through this progression , we fell in love decided to get married ** gramma loved it at his house so we kinda just traded ***    cause with all these kids we needed the bigger house anyways *****      r u still with me ?????

     So after doing dishes in the bathtub for over a year !!!!!   we last fall finished up the half kitchen upstairs **nothing fancy , but appliances ***   no more running up and down the stairs from the stove to the bathtub ***   Ya it was pretty ghetto ***     not much room but i have a sink and a DISHWASHER !!!!   and his name aint dakota no more ...lol ***

         We've been waiting on getting the electrical work done ***its all ran but with noone to run it into the breaker box in the basement **    well ive crossed that bridge and were ready to finish hanging the drywall *** cause it had to be put on hold cause no electrician is gonan come in here and run wires in the box without seeing the wires **    UGH **    lots of dust and dirt from these old rafters **      SO MUCH wasted SPACE ***

         So my studio has been in EVERY room of the house at some point in time ***      i had stuck up some temporary drywall in the old "kitchen " and was actually comfortable in my new set up and LoVing the SPACE i had ***    But now it all must be moved again *** sigh **which really wont take that awful long it just takes me forever to organize it all like i like it ***    not that it matters its all gonna get messed up anyways when i start pulling fabric from the shelves and cutting it up on the floor cause imma lose my cutting table ***

              So exciting to be moving on the house again BUT i swear to you ALL ***    im not moving this room one more time until its to its final resting place * Ultimately being my full unfinished attic ** project for this winter to finish it ***

 So im off to scrub the carpet for the new room **being the first room you walk into and the place i made for putting coats and etc ***   it definately needs done after the loooong winter ***      thanks for listening ***    Katie ***  im kinda addicted to this blogging thing now ***   its almost like im talking to someone :) **** Like i have Time ?!?!? to be blogging !!!!!!! 

     Is never fun HuH ???        

 Ive been hiding, and working my rear off for my first two shows we vended *** uncle Bucks being a last minute decision, 420 planned all winter ***   its alot of hype ***   you stitch like a bitch ...   getting excited, stressed, ready ***   counting down wishing you had more time *** while you just can't wait to get there at the same time *****then you get there , set up...which is actual work too **    a moving department store of sorts *** tents , racks, set up displays clothing ***   throw in living arrangements for a weekend ...   you momma's out there know what doing that with 4 kiddos can be like ***    bout half way through the weekend your ready to relax :) ****     so you do that for a night *** in between cooking for the family outdoors......   just to pack it all back up and come home to the mess you left prepping to leave :) ****    catch up on the laundry put everything away *** its time to hit the road again ***

       we bought a cargo trailer this year to hopefully make that whole transition easier ...   being able to leave stock and most supplies packed in between shows ***    but nothing is fool proof and perfect ***   i do think it will make things easier though ****

       Raving PMS seems to hit me every vending adventure as well ***   whats up with that id liek to know ***    but through it all we had a good weekend ***    even though i wasnt able to chase her due to personal feminine problems i really enjoyed watching madison run around ***   Thank YOU Randy *** you are the greatest you know that ???    Not like other Dad's ...   you took care of her and did all you could to make me comfortable ****     i take just for granted how lucky i am sometimes *****    

      Some of you know this some of you don't. but i almost opened up a store last year ...    but i ran into too many road blocks that made me put it on hold. I didnt take it as a sign that i shouldnt do it * Just decided that they were there to slow me down cause i wasn't quite ready for it yet . And after winter i can see that i wasnt * So good things come to those that wait right ???   im still waiting, but i want to focus on that more again. im more settled now, more organized. Not completely blind jumping in * Im sure ive got a couple few more roadblocks to go to Make that dream a reality, BUT its becoming a vision and a plan more than a dream * its something i can actually grasp now not just wish for ***        a little more hard work, and planning, patience, frustration and love  ****

         But First i have to finish up the Tweaking to get the website up and running again , Because ultimately i will most likely be dependant upon it to help me fiscally open up this store ***   So *fingers crossed * We will be back up and running again this weekend with LoTs of New Items from everyone !!!!!  ***

        I Guess it's time to unpack and start over again *** :) ***     coming down is never fun ***     going back up though always makes it worth it ***     Next Stop Spring HooKaHVille***     still thinking about Cabin Fever Too !!!!! *****