All right well i dont what the hell is going on. I'm in this damn city which is limited in the amount of attractive people and intellectuals. The people that are some what attractive are either sluts, taken, or have no clue what terms like onomatopoeia mean. Also, why is it that the people who I show interest in, and they show some interest in me end up just wanting to do nothing. I'm not referring to sex just referring to something more maybe a date, maybe just watching a movie I dont know what. Anyway so I think I'm just gonna give up on boys here in Corpus and just wait for when I move to Denton. Maybe I'll meet someone there. IDK.

Following the same format as my friends on here about getting tagged here we go:

I was tagged by Katie, Esteban, and Steph . Here are six facts that you might not know about me. If I tag you you are to put six things the world may not know about you.

1. The last girl I have been with and messed around with was Junior year in HS. (2003-2004)

2. My biggest fear is becoming fat.

3. I deteste beer, but love liquor.

4. I have a low self-esteem

5. My favorite subject is math

6. I thought about becoming a stripper.

The next 6 People i have tagged are:

Joshua                      Summer

Sherman                   Samantha

Channel                    Lindsey

I just got my acceptance letter to the University of North Texas!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yay!!!!!!

Chris

With every puff i inhale feeling my lungs react. Feeling them tighten as the asthma can't handle it. Wanting each breath to be my last. Feeling every breath becoming more difficult to handle and bringing oxygen to my body. Feeling the bronchioles react to the smoke. Wishing it was all over knowing that nothing good can possibly come from this. Just make it all end. I just want to go somewhere where I have no ties to anyone. Where I can forget everyone. I can know no one. I can start a new. Forget everyone I have ever met. Online. Offline. Phone. Just forget everyone. No one would care.

I'm just sitting here and what does it matter? who cares,

I'm bored just bored and who cares?

God this is hard to have so much to write about and nothing comes to this paper.

Have you ever wanted just to be able to feel nothing

to be the horse running in the race with the blinders on

unable to view the surroundings

to only finish line

but what does it matter, who cares?

Ok well tomorrow is  my Ballet Austin Summer Intensive audition. <> So please keep positive energy flowing towards me. I would greatly appreciate it.

Chris

All is going well here, school is going good, same with ballet. Just wanted to post something on here.

Chris

If you want me out of your life just tell me. I wont be in it. I want you to be in mine but if you dont feel the same its cool. I dont want you to regret anything but you do so i will leave you alone. You no longer have to worry about me bugging you anymore. You are so freakin awesome I dont want you to feel bad ever, the funny thing is i want to protect you from pain, but how do i stop the pain if i am causing it. Maybe i just need to be out of your life, so that way you dont hurt anymore.

I have seen the face of perfection, and he wants me too. How can I still talk to him even though i wont be here in six months, I dont want to get too attactched cause that makes everything more difficult to get out of this cursed city. Everyone tells me to give him a shot and i would i want to i do, but i also fear not being able to love. I am too cold. He is perfect, you have no idea. He remembers everything what i say, and he listens to me. HE IS PERFECT!!!! Why does he want me??? I don't deserve someone like that. He deserves someone better than me.What do I do? If he told me tomorrow that he doesnt want to talk to me anymore that he hurts too much i would stay away, if he told me someone hurt him tomorrow at work or school i would kick that persons ass. I dont want to feel anypain, and yet i am being greedy, i dont want to feel anypain. I just want to be happy and when i am with him i am happy, he is PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!!! He is everything I want.

Right now i wish i could just go into the ocean and drown.

Ok, so ladies and gentle ladies here is the new resolution.

TO BE LESS PATHETIC AND HELPLESS!!!!

Ok, I am gonna be better at everything, petty crap is going to mean just as it says crap, no more drama i will not hear it. No more jealousy no more anything. I am gonna quit being someone who gets walked on and used. Shit there i go being pathetic again. So wish me luck.