which is better than both the internet and radio.  tomorrow, february 10th 2009 at something like 3pm i'll be joining jack shit on his program, which he assures me is "shitty."  I think they save the show on the site too. listen here:

www.9thfloorradio.com

and you can click on "jack shit" in the sidebar.

also, I'm in a new band. More on that a little later.

love, andy

I have opinions about things. At some point in my childhood, someone asked me what I thought about a certain subject and I looked like an asshole because I didn't think anything. I had to go home and cultivate some personal viewpoints on various issues. As a kid these ideas basically came straight from whoever I was reading or talking to at the moment; as time passed i latched onto some and ditched others and possibly made up a few of my own, which is an incredibly proud moment for any human. Now I have enough practice so that if someone asks me about something I've never heard of, I can pretty much come up with an opinion about it on the spot. Setting my subjective experience on automatic frees up time so I can write stuff like this.

Everyone has to have an opinion. You could arguably have one without knowing it, but the best part of having one is being aware that you have one. It's what separates us from the animals. Animals have, at best, preferences.

I want you to know.

So I released Cotton Cannibals yesterday. It all went really well and was a spectacular spectacle, and I want to thank maus haus, 60 watt kid and everyone who came, especially joe, jason sean and aaron who rocked out with me while displaying grace and fortitude. While I'm thanking people I thought I'd do a "special thanks" thing for the album since I couldn't fit any such graciousness in the liner notes. So here it goes, in no particular order...

Thank you to bess, richie, alicia, ammo, dannie, sofia, alyson, brian, maraya, ben, lauren, deborah, lawrence, anna, lily I, karin, jen, sheana, marty A, nick S, daniel R, Max ML, Justin, Cory B, roseanna, will, 60-watt kid, maus haus, lovely public, battlehooch, songs for moms, daddy crimbo, squeeky rice, pope of yes, polka dot dot dot

and you. unless you're one of the people above.

love andy

hey everyone!!!! i love the internet. here are lyrics to the upcoming album, plus lyrics for the past two releases, just if anyone ever wanted to know. Enjoy if you must. By the way my new album comes out on Saturday afternoon at El Rio, in what can only be described as a total fucking shitstorm. Here are all the words on that album:

COTTON CANNIBALS

I BUILT A SHRINE

I drove too fast, begging for a crash
had an idea bout the life that I could lead.
but then it broke, tumbled offf the good road
over and over, put the fear back into me
Sheriff, he said, Son, stop pretending
I could just stand here
and I'd probably lose my mind.
what do you mean?
when you say sorry
I was just dreaming till he looked me in the Eye.

I see it now
we're underneath a dark cloud
covered in houses,
but you can't go if you don't win
trees line this road
my ego is on overload
stop me before I do something....

Give back the night------- just
before you realize

I'm betting on you
you tangle like the mice do, down in the cellar
Who would ever go in there?
i built a shrine, it took down what's beautiful
taught me to stop singing
I'm not building anymore.



MACHINE

you control the machine.
it'll never stop grinding till we wash our hands clean
A bird flew down from the top
he will never stop dreaming of your flock
you're so mean
You cannot stop watching the killing onscreen
so get ready for the season
get born with a reason this time.
Who will be our dinner now?
get that smile down! you're in the same boat
Oh dig your beak into the ground.
I kept a broken piece of night
you were better then, you've got the eagle's frown
devour the bones of your own Might

Bare your skin to the crowd
it might find a Healer to pull the arrow out
he shoves his hands in your wound
it Might save your life but you'll crawl back to sick soon
get your weird looking Glass eye you traitor
you SPy yoou liar you brute
you hollllered don't shoot
and I knew you could never turn down
this chance to prey on me now....
what will happen to my mind?
It gets silent and I lose my red sight
you found a reason to survive.
oh This buzzing will not tire,
you're so used to it, can't stand the dead quiet
I live in your belly's fire.



NOTHING TO BE DONE.

I'm so small I can hold the time left in your heartbeat
slow slow slow, made my mouth to eat up
All your baddreams
here's a clue this isn't
what you came for, your true life's wrapped in sheets.
I Awoooke, four faces bent down to me
sentries spoke, gentlemen were droooling. saw the honey
time was seen raw, there's nothing to be done
Nothing to be done.



I BECOME THE BOTTOM

don't pick it up off the ground
Dig a hole, tunnel town
And the bee stings at your Senses
till the lie is loose!
he's running off the gutter in yoour shooes.
learn to swim. try to dive
close your ears sew your eyes I
when raven call comes I
become the bottom
your firefly's lit up.
grew ground, moved down surround
fire build high
save a life, grow your own
make your sound in your throne you're
DEEP Fried on the out siiiiide
you need to spin around, around, Around--
don't get down. in your mind!
keep it locked, leave it lying.
pour yourself into this air
it's not tto00 late to find you there, but lost
the sun, And became the bottom
tall as your head grew up grew
ground moved, down. Surround fire
build High.
you're a blood-built Big rain, from the bottom
to the top, with a night you stretch across
your eyes, oh, and never talk
Straight to the souls you're saving up
It will drip right down to the dime
the bottom line



SECRET

oh, the time you waste
when you move to the country to find the truth
Caught a light, after all night
but it's too ancient to use
In all this there's a thin layer of dust and air
all I know's I'll never go back to that secret there.
If it's true we'll never do more than
what we're made to, why can't we happily be silent
As trees, a crater in the red face
common sense hey, we can make the story
long there's still no available cure
for easy endings.
One day soon he'll get a new medium metal brain
used. It's all right, you can come fight
whenever it works for you.
bury me.
in the long hot sands of Everyday
bury me in an old white face with mom and dad.
bury me till I rise...
Yoooou been caught undressin', better look
your best when what is gonna happen
Happens and you're caught alive
Pick yourself up by the handle that's inside you
petrify your mighty bite and try to step in line
Millions now are waking
there is no escape from what you know you know
your heart's a secret to your Mind



WAR

I am not this skeleton who babbles out his lines
I've tried with everything I have to pull me out my eyes you
Can only hide from Your Own life so far
there's a war insiide that makes it just as hard
watch what you say! this is a
backwards country, you, and your
Cross Eyed faith you know you know your strength
stay alive stay alive move
your face to line your features to a life.
WHat's this thing that keeps molding
my head to the shape of a noose
in my bed?? I can't Think of what bad
deed I did…….
OH my ghost it will howl
it will scream when it leaves
WHAT i thought was a dream.
goodbye, goodbye, good

if you can't find anything to use
take a big sip of the burden that's dripped down on you
sleep on the COTTON that filled up the rag doll of you

did you tumble? when you saw
you could never save what you fought
you can't cut it cut it off you
will have to slowly tear yourself apart
in this battle there's no wrong
if you're a weapon you've got a job
All this time, I been rowing down-stream
to the place that I heard
filled with perfect machines
they don't KNOW of your god and
his ire. GIVE it time, what's under
feet will force your troops to retreat
it's time.



THE SIMPLE LIFE

My church is on fire, my daily knots have been tied
I'm stuck to the floor, watching a miniature war
Bugs, bugs fill the gaps
there's nowhere to sit and relax
the minutes are slow, the wrinkles crawl down to my
toes, try counting up the things that you know
with your simple life
turn up the heat turn on the lights
swinging and missing, I'''m involved with politics--
give Give me a break, I didn't ask to be
awake, this Meat's got no skin,
What's it in?
to see the silver scythes don't wish for easy times
draw my Arms and color dancing hollow dry
don't be Afraid to live a lie, a simple life
there's Always time to sit and eat,
the days are much too long. I'm!
sick! of the flies. I hear their little jokes
I've got my priiiide.
Oh, no. I'm moving like swarms in light
I'm born there every night
I need a modern way to fight
your simple life, pull up your
roots and start to die



RED STAR

there was a time, you never listen
I had a key, you were the star that one day would land
crushed all our feet, covered our backs
you are the cause I turned out like that.
figured as time passed, there would be a
word that covered the rocks, look at that star
this is where all they went + they're gone,
and that's the old
pocket we belong to..

well we brushed off our knees, and looked at the sky
where could it be? surely not sleeping
in my backyard; penniless trees opened their arms.
begging + pleading to get their clothes on.
Just when he died, he opened the door
that let out the clocks, you laid out your days, didn't you?
Didn't you get your chronology on?
and you would grow old like anything

Well, we brushed out our hair, and looked at the sky
Where is it from? Maybe suicide man
a long way to get on, get a move on--
you are that star and don't pretend it can't see you but
there is a feast when we get to that part.



HABIT

You know the difference between right and wrong
well don't you?you fight your battle on a string
that's shaking with all that's happened to you
since you were a child, forget it
get it out of your system it's a Habit
Yoou are the spitttting image of your future son.
He failed you out in the desert
(where it used to be a city of lead) Oh
your testimony's dubious, you're twitching
Itching. You'd like to save him but he's
living the life you regret.

you are the 2nd coming of a perfect rain.
You're soaking to the
bonifide angels Are laughing jealously
Right in the middle of a clever thought you
panic
oh your architecture takes the shape of
your delusion all
of your souvenirs from military,
they make me weary of some blind light
you've seen in some Strange country.
they line the windowsill of your
blood-drenched brain, it's frightening
base all your poems on a Horrrrror
that should never ever ever



HUMAN BEINGS

What does it mean to be
taller than the eye can see?
we're in the blood stream
every day could be a quick scheme..
I'm on a mean streak.
I found a way to tell! you oh that you're crazy
I'm very powerful in dreaming
you've got me right here--
ready to create your space world.
I'm not mad but I sure am bored,
I'll have to cut me off but
no, it can't kill, it's the real
thing Where's it from? The shocking
mind that's taken control of you
where's it from,
the shocking Mind that's taken
control of you it makes my branches bloom

train your wild self to talk,
quit living in the trees.
they've laughed at you enough,
why sell it all for free?
I'd follow You for miles
the mountains bend to see…
yoouu scurrry up their sides!
you'll leave the human beings
humans.

You're hiding out!
it's the best place that You've found.
speak to me, in that language buried
in the ground
I aalwaays knew you didn't need these pounds
but i live on heaviness and I fall right thru your cloud, right
through your cloud
right cloud

CHEAT! ep

CHEAT!

I don't need nobody. I got golden fortune laid out for me.
Oh, my mind is sharpened. Oh, the secret weapon can't be seen.
But if you're smooth.........................
luck was out to get me, sank his grizzly fangs into my neck
I lashed back and screamed 'I FAKED MY BIRTH
NOW I CAN CHEAT MY DEATH'
eye to eye.......................................

My spine told me rip 'em apart, said rip 'em apart, told me
'rip 'em apart.'
My crimes are coming on the backs of ghosts
who eat and breathe lies
eat and eat and breath lies
Put your trust completely into me!
I'm innocent. They gave their simple lives
I shaved my skin. I'm innocent.
They gave their simple lives and saved my skin.
I'm a cheat cheat cheat cheat cheat................................
Everybody's happy. all their hate's put in my soul
but I can see inside you, every path you chooose
gets miserable.
And you're watching the flies. and it's supper time.

it's all i have and I can't win. you get that?
save me the father. rolling up my bloody rags
we're not yet home pack your bags we're not yet home.
Cold at the bottom, holding up the sagging sores of angels beat
shooting stars and off their feet
froze. give good cheer
face is all you have to give.
sold and slaughtered and every inch takes years.


HOUSE OF LOADED GUNS

we're in a house of loaded guns. I've got a plan for everyone. I've got a life to give for you. give me your hands I'll show you proof. My hands are torn and dry.

You're keeping the time to give life a spine it can't but it might.
I kept the tiniest speck i could find and told you:
I've got a place for you to see, it's in a tower on the hill
It's filled with shapes I've only dreamed and there's a part of me there still.
you will be whole, stick your head into the light.
oh, the tar. it's on your breath it's in the car. I'm on the coast, you're in a box.
give me a crush or give me the throne. oh no. all alone
drawn to death, squashed and blown to drier days zero tone.

NOW when I'm in trouble I will turn into a bird
spirit's behind me, fire's all I see
once I was a baby chewing on plastic figurines.
they toiled inside me, I'll show you everything.
buy buy a ticket. you grow tired. find a new face for your father's coming home.


YOU'RE JUST A FLY

Ride down the waterfall, become the thing that lurks beneath their military boots and eyes.
you look just like a rock from here, your camouflage is getting to your head
please don't disappear. six hundred bombs a day
we drew a circle round our homes, Past this line I am king, we screamed
the saucers carried us away. Calm down, you're getting very hot, your magic trick is not what I thought
you could cut our strings down, I don't need more mirrors in my life

it's the last place in the world, it's got huddled mountaintops
beyond them there's a fortress but you need to sleep.
sorrow's not a state of mind, you know
how the tastes of life come rushing backwards high tops
can you see the earth pulling away away? one state.

it's suicidal man you'd change the color of the land

Two gods wish they were made of stone, trapped in a bottle alone
they're made of black and white with eyes, if they get their way
the sun won't rise. this air is crushing me. It's heavier than you can see.
Your hot balloon will never fly, you won't be leaving here tonight......
Cause it's the last place in the world
the tide comes rushing backward
pushing out our little raft back to the sea
Oh, this trial is in your mind. Fix all the rips
You said we'd be there be there soon
How did this place I've never seen get in my head?

You're just a fly, oh fly.
I thought you spoke, my my
I woke up in this room
I only do what humans do.

I WANT YOUR BRAIN

YOU ARE INSIDE OUT

let's flip our frowns. it will freak you out. I'll expose my codes if you show me: got a broken heart, yr an angel bomb with realistic parts.
we are what we love we charge in the sun
hook into the spot the people don't know I used to be bad. then I shed my skin
then I remembered just what I pushed into your wires have a broken
heart. you're an angel with sexy plastic parts.
you are weak! gimme your hands oh they're filled
with leaks and bones. SHUT your mouth open your heart it is the last pain you will know
and it will freak you out. you can live like sound. vibrate this town.


BIG SHOT

you left me a message, 'ooo i love myself to death, ooo i'm sure you smell the glory on my breath.' so don't dissapoint me, i'll be there shortly. i fell on the needles from those dirty games you play. found my way out of this prison, but my clothes were missin', and before i knew it the dogs came after me again. i need to be careful i can't leave my self myself alonealone i'll get into a wreck they'll tow away my heart. will someone help me go looking for my parts?
there is nothing left to fear now, took out my own stitches, hiding on the cool ground, kept myself from falling, nothing left to fear now. i'll take it to the big house. where are all your friends now? when they saw me coming they tried to run away but love is on my side, and i am not afraid. you took my freedom away. who's the big shot now?


UNDERGROUND

it's gotten late at night, tunnels reek of old moonlight, laughing swarms of humans haunt the view. the
air has gone away. it beats having words to say. muddy waters draw me in & you. the liars liars hit the groundtheliarsliars hit the groundthe fires make it hard to do drown
we got food, and we got water. we got mediocre so come on. it's not right but it's not wrong, it's not far away, so come on so comeon. leave your town, see even they can't save you anymore. we got food, and we got water. we don't need the power.
sewers get to dark to show
where rotten rivers flow!
my dreams have fallen thru cracks where locomotives grew higher hgher higher higher higher.
she said to see seesee city is now a piece of me and country tells me i'm the only liar.
but i am not their's to tell they'd have to find me down this well they'd have to track my dirty trail to hell. and i just look away.


TRAINS

then when we pass the sky the darkness grows but there are moments there's a light. seee when the trains stop in the station moves and I can't tell which one to ride.
but don't stop to think or you'll miss it again
under the water over the land.
I'm trying not to worry when the last car comes and I'm the only one.
when do all these people go back home?
are they safe? and tucked in tightly?
and am I the only one who only falls asleep when moving at a great great speed?
trains follow me back to bed they ride my head.
did these people always live right next to me?
and then when the midnight comes you'll fall asleep
and wake up where you want to be.
we're going all the way
late, when I close my eyes
and I see the rooftops but I'm not surprised.

WHEN YR THINKING OF DYING

child, when you're thinking of dying, shoulda thought of the aftermath. shoulda known where your old friends are. will they come running? can they see what the doctors see? trying to keep you breathin
and don't you worry about the con men. it's just a story that yr told. try not to think about your hunger or the cold.
big boy, there's nowhere to play! cuz every garden's got a grave beneath. everybody's got their special leash. it goes longer than the eye can see! now you're free! and old, and weak like my father. he wakes up everyday, he's not worried bout the future now. he's got paperbacks and half a house. my love don't be scared i'm not like i used to be, my skin has thickened and i don't let things bother me. o child is it crazy to say that the world has got the best of me? never take it on in the first place. baby i let you down. i'm not the kind that you depended on. please don't wonder if there's nothing out there. and dontcha worry bout the killers, it's just a story that yr told try not to think about your hunger or your soul.

POOR NANNY

there's nothing free why should i eat like so many so many? and my mother's enraged 'cause she can't love me like poor nanny poor nanny saw her body the first time face down in the mud and the blood was beyond me but i was outside let me in
it's windy, it's chilly, you are out of reach. your lips are so like mine big purple and sweet. the critters in the garden all wanna be me. it's nothing it's nothing i want it to be, in the winter there's a lady, she's old and can't see. she's like my old mama mad in the factory.
you look like you are beautiful and safe.

THE TRUNKS OF TREES ARE HOLLOW

haveyou been out?? there's trash on the ground!
they dropped it from the skyscrapers. i am more like the animal now, we are trying to find the right words. is this home? i find it hard to swallow. doors are locked and the trunks of trees are hollow
i tore the walls! on both sides of the street. little kids with sticks for arms and legs begging me to let them stay in bed. little eyes are pointed towards tomorrow. show me something
i'm lost in the fog again! this is not where i live.
i need to get back get back get an electrical grip.
left my home where the furniture is hollow, if you're in the lake try not to swallow, build me up so's i can get what's coming, the future will be mine.


LITTLE LORETTA

are you feelin' lucky? do you even feel. did you bet a fortune on what is or isn't real? did you hear them laughing? it was all of their expense. what's the matter darling? your red muscles look so tense. little loretta your skin has stopped to heal. started up the engine, i was trapped under the wheel. the law says you don't own me but you and god know better. started up a diary with just pictures of loretta. it's only time goin by. i'd love you if you never cried.
honey, i been looking at myself from under the bed thru veils of colors. darlin, i'm not happy anymore, i bet you thought i was but i am guessing. but baby you are far away from hard concrete. save me! i love you! i been dreaming of your house and daily life! ha! goodness! you are tired and red and now there's empty in the bed and no one no one no one i been waiting undercovers bleeding colors. gorgeous! my feelings are seventy-two degrees oh
sweetums oh sweetums oh
my tears are the water falling from your brow. i never wanted you, so sorry. none of it is real, none of you is me, all of it is bloody bloody bloody.
now the sun is shining time to go inside. can't remember sleeping, frozen with white eyes wide. blue down here, true dear. little loretta, i'm enjoying my last meal. opened wide but you fell silent when i tried to make a deal. the law says i am nothing because you are always better. thinking of my diary, all that's left of myself.



DOG ATTACK DREAM

my poor puppy got away last night cuz i forgot to shut the doggy door. i fell asleep and he fell outta sight. the pound police soon got him in their truck. he dreamed he bit my hand and would never let go.
i kicked, screamed and tried to rip him off but his rotten fangs sunk in deeper. i guess my dog was finally driven insane cuz my blood was rollin thru his eyes so milky. and when i finally got him off the holes in my hand grew bigger and bigger, but by that time i was on a freight train away from him.
and the detective tried to track me down but i killed all his leads. he put all my toys in the lost and found, and they said 'you can't make him happy.'
i hid inside a boxcar filled with the littered remains of party favors. tired hobos fell asleep and wondered if they should ever get up, so they're bums still restin here next to me. forty miles in the dark and i'm free at last, nothing out here knows a past, just be or be gone. found a place where the grass grows on my hands. i haven't had a plan since the last time i died


LOWLY

i believe in what you say. got no time to learn it. and my lowly livin is fallin out the window as we speak. it's trying to get some rest.
well i don't need myself to be your doll. you and you can just stay layin low. cuz you are so refined at winning. please don't sell my silly soul. i'm searching but i can't find a theme mighty black towers in the sky want me alive to bottle up my fear. i'm working to get out of the trash i work in. and all i want is money. all i need is a paid vacation but these soft feet won't make it. you and i got a long discussion about my freedom. just wish i had a mouth. but i don't need my health so go and poison me, and i have lost my glamour. they've taken all they can't take from me, now they won't dare to fuck with me.
i got no information.

It's wednesday! With the album release coming up I've put another track up, Machine, which was recorded in December in the middle of some personal insanity caused by coldness and insanity. So enjoy that. I also uploaded a mock up of the album cover, which in real life is made by spraypainting through stencils. I've been in the process spraypainting a few hundred of these, with three colors each. Paint is all up in my shit at the moment.

This is what that looks like:



I hope everyone is doing well. If you want a copy of the album, contact me or come to this show and it'll all be alright. Goodbye blog-world

Hey boys and girls and etc, I wanna announce that my new album is coming out on July 19th, exactly one month from this writing. It's called "Cotton Cannibals" and it has 10 songs, which are these:

1. I Built a Shrine
2. Machine
3. Nothing to be Done
4. I Become the Bottom
5. Secret
6. War
7. The Simple Life
8. Red Star
9. Habit
10. Human Beings

For the release I'm playing a big funky show with Maus Haus and 60-Watt Kid at El Rio. Stay tuned for details about that show but needless to say you should be a part of it. I'll post more info and album art soon, I'm finishing up the mixing and mastering as we blog. If you want to hear a preview there will be songs from the album going up and down from my profile, check it out.

andy

So I've finished recording the new album and now will undertake an extensive artwork program while I finish the mixing and mastering.  It's going to come out in July and have ten songs.  On each song there are at least a few instruments I don't know how to play, which are usually played by me, unless it's cello, in which case it's played by sofia bell except for some cello I decided to play by myself before I even met sofia.  At the end of that story the cello ends up cracking in half and sofia turns out to be a lot better than me at not sucking.  I'll stick to playing trumpet and recorder.  I like to play those things during sections in which it doesn't really matter what notes are played, which is surprisingly often.  Stay tuned for further updates.

 

By the way I'm playing at the stud on sunday june 15th for a fundraiser for a movie.  Things are being willed into existence, awesome things like movies and records instead of the usual bastard children and vomit.  I mean, that's a step up, right?  Depends on the movie, I guess, but even a bad movie is only an hour and a half.  An unwanted child lasts noticeably longer.

Hello everybody.  I haven't written any blogs yet but I think it's high time to expose my thoughts and feelings to the harsh void of cyberspace.

First of all, does anybody think it's weird that a black man and a woman are running for President?  It's like, everybody wants to be in the future really badly and we're just jumping right into these hypothetical futuristic scenarios.  It's the same way with those phones that wrap around your ear that no one can see.  The eventual goal is to be able to yell "computer!!" before we make a demand and the computer will manifest our any desire.  But then it'll be weird when you're at the dinner table and you ask your wife or whatever to pass the leeks and you accidentally call her "computer."

So, I'm recording a new album and it'll be out very soon.  It's gonna have 10 or 11 songs and possess the soul of a bobcat, moreso than the last album.  Anyone who has an idea for the title please email me.  Other than that, I hope everyone has a really nice day, sincerely