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Lori Brown


Last Updated: 12/25/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 74
Sign: Leo

City: Hollywood
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 1/7/2006

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December 27, 2009 - Sunday 
so i turned on the tv and the disney channel was on...oh first...yeah last night i did go out. mike r. msgd me and was like, what are you doing? so i was like, nothing. so he came over and picked me up. he suggested "pig pen" in allentown, and we stopped at his friends house...um..oh what is his name again??? i dont remember now!! well, we picked his friend up, who was loud and outgoing in a funny way...ha...and we went to their friend jodi (i remember ((Whoa aim interrupted me))...i remember cuz its a girls name but its a guy..))anyways, we went to him and his wifes house, (nice house, he is a professional body builder and had trophies everywhere...and another guy from their gym stopped by. we were having beers and drinking shots in the basement...and um, his wife..i dont remember names right now...all i am thinking of is "Leslie" from bridge to terabithia - just watched that movie...anyways, she kept giving out shots to her husband...and the other guy...aah! then her two cute friends came over, who was dressed up all nice with nice makeup. i NEVER dress up. i remember in LA when i would go out with girls, i always felt so plain and stuff while they all looked hot with perfect hair makeup outfit and accesories...i was wearing sneakers and my hair sucks! anyways...i cant afford all the nice things...and when i was in LA i couldnt wear nice things because i was struggling since moss said i had to move out there so soon.. whatever! he just messaged me and was like, "do you know i love you?" sorry! yeah yeah, ugh!!! im not asking for him to do nice things for me! i feel like one of these days im just going to be like, i dont know!!????!!! seriously, anyways..hmm..he also uses the new 'hip' term, xmas...dude, its called Christmas! you and your liberal ways! ha!!!

sorry...just spouting of steam! im entitled too!!!

hmm...so like, i guess he introduced me as mikes girlfriend. i didnt say anything but it was kind of weird. you know?? i like having a boyfriend who is loud and has guy friends and like....i dont know? ha! mike is ok but hes not my type! he doesnt say anything, he doesnt drink, which i commend him for...but i like a more outgoing type eh whatever...i just think about glenn alot, not that i miss him, but i think he was like the most um....closest boyfriend i had i guess??? eh who knows!>???! i havent had a boyfriend in so long i dont even remember!??!!

what was i writing about? hmm....oh yeah, they wanted to go to "bar with no name" i havent been there in years. its one of those cheesy holiday inn bars...but not as bad as jitterbugs! JITTERBUGS is full of middle aged, 'contempo casual' types....(im not in my 20s anymore...but you know what i mean!! besides i still say im 25! HA! anyways)

so we go to bar with no name....lots of like...cougars! they all went on the dance floor except mike and i. i was like, great! i tried to joke around with mike but he was perfectly content sitting and watching the people on the dance floor so i got another beer, (they didnt include me with the round of drinks!! its just called courtesy! im kidding tho, but not really)...also, when i went to riverside with jimmy...he didnt even get me a beer..i dont know about you, but i think its courtesy. now, i dont mind buying someone a drink myself, but its just a matter of couth, like when i was searching through my purse for my card, he could of said, let me get that....i guess it was for "other things" ((sorry this is where i spout out like, steam)) im full of issues, aint i? hmm....im watching this show true life and they are on diets....just eat good healthy food fools! i mean, anyways....those are issues! i read somewhere that some actresses and stuff are "programmed" with anorexic or bulimia issues....thats sad tho

hmm...back on track.....i was kind of bored, but i was watching the peoples dance in that old, funny way. usually i imitate them for fun, but i had no one to really joke around with. mike was just like, quiet. his friend was fun tho...it wasnt that big deal of a night tho, just felt the need to explain it..not sure why??? the little girl, (that reminded me of tila tequila) was giving out dances...haha! like she gave one to mike...lapdance kind of...it was funny tho...anyways....when it closed mike dropped us off...not sure what the others did but it was ok....i came home and im like, looking for food. i had some potato chips and bacon sandwich (gross!) why did i make that???

so, today...i turned on the tv...and the disney channel was on. it was a show about mickeys clubhouse for little kids. it kind of interested me in that same way that dora and blues clues used to, even tho i wasnt a kid...but still, so i was watching it. i was thinking, aw they aint gonna be any kind of signs here...(this girl is acting like a pig more excited about FOOD than seeing her boyfriend! ha!) mm she had lobster tail!! why does he love that ungrateful food issues slob? sorry but its fine to eat but when you get all dumb about it? anyways

back to the show, surely it wouldnt show any kind of signs...well, it did! uh deep breath! i kind of want to watch this instead of remembering this kids show...

they were obviously in some sort of seperate like...well, they needed to pull the silly sign off...(huh?) because the dog thought it was a cat, and cow, mooing and meowing (obviously split minds) everything was awry, daisy said, "oh they are seeds everywhere" as flowers were growing out of the ground..."the silly sign. seeds??" come on now! and them in some sort of different state of mind...while some sort of trauma is going on? and then, they were THROWN out by a sliding board that pulled them out. they had to get back into the clubhouse....so they had to do a code

3...5...8  (dont know too much about numerology wonder if that is significant?)

the door opened, but there was another one (of course! symbolic of all the trap rooms in ones mind)

of course there was zebra striped (commonly used for confusion, black white duality), spirals (also used for confusion etc), AND [freemasonic] checkerboard!

i know it sounds silly, and i thought it would be normal, but now i always see signs....ha!!! hey im bored ok?

oh we watched bridge to terabithia with sage and lisa...well, i did....(im not going to say that is symbolic even tho im sure there is a site out there that is going is going to say so...yes that girl had a butterfly while she was singing) um but come on! the movie is just about imagination....i was like that when i was a kid! i had a big imagination! it turned out sad thO! what the heck??

so...in conclusion....im going to get something to EAAAAAAT!!!




8:13 PM 
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December 26, 2009 - Saturday 
Wow, i thought it was like, thursday!!???!! hmm...ha! im stupid! how was everyones christmas?? mine was nice...well, i just want to move out so that when i DO visit my family for the holidays it will be more special, you know what i mean? but sage had a great day! she woke up yelling REINDEER REINDEER!!! ha! i guess she saw hooves in the snow...hooveprints. so we opened our gifts oh i wrote about all that...

i didnt write about us visiting our cousins....we went to aunt sook and uncle bobs and kim was there and sarah and her husband mark and little oliver. it was nice! mark works for operation smile, so we watched a video of him and his team doing a race in brazil....wow! that is so amazing! mark and sarah are like, they are doing alot! humanitarians! i have always wanted to do stuff like that....what am i doing wasting away? it was so cool watching them do a race in brazil, peru, um...i forget!?! lake titicaca (that is really a lake!) he supplies the supplies for cleft lip children...you know, i always wanted to do missionary work in africa and like, other countries. like i said, i plan on volunteering to help out in thailand and such...maybe i can find someone who wants to go with me? we go in a group of people...i can find the site....i plan on travelling and helping out and such...little oliver is cute...we also played some "speed scrabble"
ha! the only thing is, i sometimes dont feel proud of myself...because i feel like a big idiot...still living at home with no accomplishments or anything! oh well! and lisa is always like....in her way, oh yeah sarah was like, has anyone ever went bungee jumping? (mostly asking lisa), and she was like, "well i know lori has" right?? however, lisa NOT bungee jumping was more intereting!

Lisa, "no, i havent! Im not sure I ever could do that"

sarah,"I know, right??"

me-im the one who did it and STILL lisa is more interesting! i just feel kind of like, im a cool interesting person but no one seems to think i am...

oh well! im also like, dumb too! so that is reasonable!

i just need to move and just...do what i want to do! i dont want to give up on anything. see, this is the reason why nj sucks...i have been home for a year and its like ....well, i just have more to offer and its not fair that i am not doing anything.

i really just want my own place, my own business, i really want to lose weight! maybe a haircut once my natural hair color grows in a little more....so...who knows?

i just dont want to feel like unmakeup'd using words awfully, dressing like a slob Lori anymore!
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December 25, 2009 - Friday 
this doesnt sound real, like a joke..but my parents told me that there is a titanic 2???

i am trying to find this preview they found...hold on!

i dont know if this is real but my parents said so!


10:22 PM 
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December 25, 2009 - Friday 
Watching The Christmas Story now....haha! We opened our gifts earlier. Sage got alot . I got some clothes that I wouldn't wear. Not to sound ungrateful, but just because I'm older doesnt mean I want to wear Liz Clairborne jeans! Its ok tho, I appreciate it....I also got a few other things, an Ipod (well, not an ipod, another kind....we never get real Ipods here! except for sage, who got 3 last year and never used any!!! )....hmm....

i forget what i wanted to write??? darnet! i dont remember! hmm.....yeah, i dont remember!!!! i cant wait to move out. the holidays are kind of depressing...i mean, oh nevermind!

oh i had a dream, about this store that had lit up items! lit up candlesticks, lit up crystal balls, snowglobes, and even a lit up chess set. i googled it and they have that!!!

THESE are the kind of gifts I like!!!

http://pebblez.com/lighted-chess-tables-1.html

what did you get for Christmas?
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December 24, 2009 - Thursday 
so today is sages b-day! she woke me up. they arent here now, lisa brought her to sweet deans...(haha) anyways...we went to eat for lunch at china buffet and came back and she opened some gifts and cake. no one got her a toy but i got her a bratz doll.

hmm....now im hungry again!!

oh this comment strikes me..(about brittany murphys husband)

"There's the ol' "pat on the back" technique I heard about back in the mid-80's. The target is patted on the back and within days, becomes violently ill. Often dies within days or months.

I predict that Monjack will have an "unfortunate" death soon. I saw a recent photo of him and he looks like death warmed over now. He sounds like a loose cannon and a low life con man. If he was selling Brittany out for sex to pay for his toys, he will perish by the hands of another power broker who has more cred.

I'm sure if this happens, it will be called "a suicide" due to the depression of losing Brittany.

Let the bullshit begin."

((move along folks nothing to see here))

anyways....tomorrow!!! cant wait to just start out the new years on a good fresh start! im excited about this new business venture i am doing too!

helping people get carpet cleaning jobs! (of course i get a nice big check everytime somone signs up! ) more info later....

YEAH? LEAVE ME ALONE!
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December 24, 2009 - Thursday 
Hey! so im reading about different "controlled" like..i dont know? controlled you know??? like, spice girls...i used to listen to spice girls at a time in my life when i was young and cute and i felt a vibrance for life! i was like, ok so im 31 ok??? i was like 18 and 19 and i was in the army etc....(i tell people im 25 tho so what!?! i still look it!)...im going to post up some videos

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ro0FW9Qt-4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1qGT9b3Z_M

Ha these songs remind me of things my life back then when i felt like...its just different now!

so i read (ok spice girls is stupid but hey i did listen to them)

i was reading about "mind controlled" no doubt...i like them! they say her style is duality, her black and white stripes she liked...

anyways this video was like 3 years ago, well 2 maybe ,but even then i felt young and ready to do great things in my life....it was around the time anand jon got arrested but i was out in beverly hills and i wanted to really do sometihng for myself, (i didnt need or want anand jon to help me)



(that video is freemasonic so is another spice girls video called holler but i dont feel like putting the link up)

i will put more no doubt videos that inspired me, well the video didnt but i like the song












Ha!!! well anyways, is it wrong of me to want to feel alive again??? LUXURIOUS??? you know? HOT? SEXY?? FLIRTACIOUS! (im an idiot yeah but...i miss feeling like that!) now i just feel, so....blah! i feel bored and depressed with life.

its also because i had to come back to plain boring NJ and living back in my parents house for a year....but i did finish school.

and my hair is finally growing out....by summer im going to cut all that fried dried crap out and move the heck out!
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December 24, 2009 - Thursday 
I know its not Christmas yet, but I need to write my resolutions to make me feel more motivated.

1. Stop drinking (or at least try too)
2. Exercise, eat healthy, work out
3. MOVE OUT!!! (this is crucial to my well being!)
4. Get my license back

anyways...the AVN awards are coming up. to be honest i really dont care about going. its a celebration within the family of porn and to tell the truth, i always feel awkward and stuff running around with moss....i bet hes gonna wear that faded cow jacket he always wears, and like, sure i would have fun going, but i always feel so awkward. plus i dont have anything to wear!!!

im going to stand out like an idiot. and i dont want to be around all those porn people and those girls and stuff, im not like that....oh!!! whatever!!!

oh well!!! anyways, i cant wait to get my own place and start working! recruiting jobs for carpet cleaning! also i want to be able to sit privately and write my stories and stuff....and be happy with myself!






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December 23, 2009 - Wednesday 

Thursday, 24 July 2008

Facebook


You've probably already seen this, really just wanted to post one of the all seeing eye images I can't get enough of, which I found on the BBC illustrating it's mind control purposes somewhat (in a symbolic way). I will not list the issues I have with facebook (infinite really), it'll poke your damn eye out and split your face/mind no doubts about it ^^. Pretty good (mainstream) article here too. A spokesman for the CIA said: "Facebook is a very good peer-to-peer marketing tool," from this link.




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December 23, 2009 - Wednesday 
first i  want to say, for some reason...i feel hopeful....i dont know!?! almost every day i find out more and more info and i do enjoy researching the things that i do....

right now i am reading about "targetted indivuals"

http://www.targetedindividuals.com/

i dont know much about this....so.....if you have any info feel free to post!

i'll be back...(probably with more links)
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December 22, 2009 - Tuesday 
i have been feeling real depressed all day. its kind of hard to explain....so im not going too....just disappointed in myself...i need to get my license back, start eating healthy, cut down on drinking....detox and make sure to take my medication every day, which i havent been doing....and working. i actually have a great job opportunity which i am going to start SOON! im excited!!! its a recruiter for a carpet cleaning company. i will post more info and bulletins in a few days. do you need a job? let me know! this will work for you...

anyways, so that is what i am going to be doing....and i really need to dedicate in it because i am ready to start making money. once i move out and have my own car it will be much easier for me to recruit. like i said, im going to post bulletins and such soon...and make my own myspace page on info on how you can be carpet cleaner and work on your own etc...

i dont want to feel depressed anymore....i want to feel happy! productive! healthy!

:)
4:20 AM 
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