Hey everyone!

Alas!  I'm back on myspace!  If you haven't heard, I'm also a facebook fan so if you have facebook, find me and add me as a friend.  :)

Anyway, a lot has happened since I've been on myspace... I don't even know where to begin (?)

Okay, so, work situation... let's see.  I'm a substitute teacher for various school districts in Rhode Island.  Meanwhile, I am a freelance writer for various magazines in Rhode Island, and also for the local newspapers.  I am a part-time employee at On the Run Mobile, as well as working construction when I'm not working one of the 3 jobs have.  I've been busy with work, but not as busy as what it seems...  I am not complaining, because I am not one to complain - believe it or not - I love my job(s), I just only wish I was making more money, not too much so I'd become really rich, but just enough that I don't have to worry about money anymore.  So, it's frustrating.  I am trying to find another job that makes as much or more as what I'm making now, - but - we all know how that goes.......................... 

Besides that, I've been really enjoying life.  Really.  That sounds stupid to say because don't we all "enjoy" life.  I guess only some of us do.  :)  Let me explain, it is so easy to get wound up into our daily lives and get "...stuck in a rut" as I always here it said.  Sometimes we just need a little push, a little pulling, to get ourselves up and going again.  So, needless to say, I've been out and about going to different coffee houses, clubs, and just hanging out and as I so fantastically put it.............. "enjoying life."  :)

For all the lovely ladies out there.......... yes, I am single again!!  But I'm really enjoying my life right now!  Not looking for a relationship with anyone, unless.......... God brings the right one to me (if you know what i mean)... lol!!   :)

Must go for now, but be sure to comment and write me!!  I love receiving comments!! 

Love you all...

Ryan

Well, well... and well.  It is about time that I wrote again in my blog and did something with my myspace page.  It has been a long time!  Where to begin... (?)

Well, I finally drove home from Springfield, MO which took me about 23 hours!!  I drove alone, but it was so much fun driving cross-country!!  It is so nice to be back home where everyone knows my name... lol!  The dunkin donuts, and the new england things around here make being back so awesome!! 

Oh yeah, the friends and family... can't forget about them... hah ha!!  Sorry guys!  :) 

Life is great - so much freedom to do whatever I want... hanging out with friends every day... it can't get any better.  :)

Well... I know this is short, but I will stay in touch more now that I am settled back in Rhode Island to keep myself updated on here...

Love you all...

I am finally moving back to Rhode Island... I will be driving out Friday morning so if you have my cell number feel free to call me because i will have one heck of a ride back... hah ha!  If not, keep me in prayer... actually, you can keep me in prayer regardless if you have my cell number or not... lol!!  :) 

God has been showing me so much and I am anxious to "...get back and get my hands dirty" so to speak.  There is just so much that God has been speaking to me about and I am not sure how to get started, or where to even begin... but I know that as I venture out on a new journey God will provide everything and He will be my guide.  :)

Well... I'll write again and keep you posted on my drive back home.  :)  Love you all...

Ever wondered what it was like to drive on the other side of the highway - with on-coming traffic? 

I know I don't... but it would make your heart start pumping for sure!!  Sometimes that's what I feel like I'm doing; like someone else is in the drivers seat saying TRUST ME and all I see is my car dodging all the others!! 

How can you trust someone when they are deliberately putting your life in danger?  It is difficult to trust but I guess that's where faith comes in.  Trusting in something when you don't see results, after all, the person I am putting my trust in is worth trusting. 

Jesus take the wheel by Carrie Underwood is a song I really enjoy listening too a lot  because when I feel like I'm losing control, when I feel like I don't know what direction to go anymore - Jesus take the wheel - need I say more?  Jesus is the one that has the wheel of my life and with that I am content and satisfied.   

It doesn't matter what trials I face in life and where my life is taking me - because I know that wherever I go, Jesus is with me guiding me every step of the way.  Put your trust in Jesus even if it feels like you're going down the wrong road because although you don't see results - Jesus does - and who better knows where your life goes but God. 

Anyway, hope this was encouraging to you - the illustration came to me as I was half a sleep last night listening to music.  Hope it all made sense... (?)

Why does life have so many complications?  I hate a complicated life, but what makes a complicated life worth living is being with the one you love forever. 

Without complications, life would be boring; and a boring life sucks.  Isn't it better to go through difficult situations with someone you love rather than going through them alone?  I think so. 

Have you ever dated someone and broke up and realized it was the biggest mistake you ever made?  Because every moment you live without this person you realize that you don't want to make a life unless that person is right there living your life with you.  Does that make any sense?  I'm known to ramble on, so if it doesn't make sense I understand. 

Well, must get back to work... let me know what everyone thinks? 

God is so awesome.   I wish that there was another way to describe how truly awesome God is... but to say that it is 6:30am and I'm tired and can't really think right now, I'll just say that God is awesome.  :)

Anyway, last night I fell asleep listening to a Christian radio station and I woke up early listening to inspiring songs.  As I was laying in my bed and couldn't sleep... this idea of a ministry started in my head.  I kept tossing and turning and couldn't get back to sleep.  I then put my little side lamp on the dimmer and took my journal out to jot down a few ideas I had... I knew if I didn't I would never remember what it was when I woke up again. 

Well... here is what I wrote down and I am so excited about it.  I have this ministry about counseling others kind of like a "Focus on the Family" idea, but more like "Focusing on the People."  (if that makes any sense?)  I mean, isn't ministry "focusing on the people?" 

Anyway, in order to start up any kind of buisness organization or ministry you need to have heart.  What is heart?  Heart is passion.  Passion for what?  Passion for people.  

But how can I help people if I feel like my life is going down a broken road... and I felt God's Spirit speak to my heart... that if I was walking down a straight road... where would I put my faith in?  Going down a broken road has made me put my faith and trust in Jesus...  

I may not be perfect, matter-a-fact, I have many imperfections within me... but what I do have is passion.  I can relate to people... and my desire is to see them grow deeper into an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ. 

As I continue to pray for this ministry to take root, and as I start to take action towards this ministry... please pray.  Pray for me to have the wisdom to know what to do, and to keep my focus on God in all that I do.  Pray for the people who will be impacted by this ministry... and pray that they will draw closer and experience a deeper relationship with Jesus. 

Jesus went out of His way to meet people... we must go out of our way to meet people.  "Go into all the world and preach the Gospel..." no matter what the cost may be...

The Lord's Servant,

Ryan

God is awesome.  He is my life, my future and my all.  I don't know how else to explain or what other words to use to describe my love for God... but I truly am in love with Jesus. 

I know that sometimes I am not the best witness, or even the best Christian at times...  sometimes I think that as long as I've been a Christian I shouldn't fail as much as I did before I was a Christian.  Does that make any sense? 

I strive to know God's heart... I strive to let others around me see that my life reflects nothing more but Jesus's righteousness.  Yet, my unfaithfulness in my own personal life fails me time and time again.  I forget to do my devotions at night, or fail to pray, or I'll slip and say something I shouldn't say... etc.  How long will my unfaithfulness continue?

I am so happy because I know that God's faithfulness is everlasting... no matter how many times I am unfaithful, God remains faithful to me.  Even though I may be unfaithful in a lot of areas in my life, the one thing I know that I will never do is turn my back on Jesus. 

There is no person on this earth or anything in this world that will ever take my love for Jesus away... I know that when I do fail, I will constantly come back and ask for God's forgiveness and He will take me back because God is faithful.

I just pray that my life will truly reflect God's presence... in all that I do and say. 

In love with Jesus...

Ryan  

Okay, how do I begin?  Well, I just wrote a book!  That's right... me?  Who'd ever know... that someone like me would write a book... (?)  Who am I anyway to write something that others would want to read... I am nothing... but what I do have is something that people love to read about... and that is passion. 

Okay, to give a recap of my book...  I title the book "Choosing to Love" and it is bascically one of those traditional love stories based in New York City.  He is a young man with manic depression, his life is nothing more than a living hell.  He is talented muscian and plays the piano very well.  His relationship with his girlfriend and parents seem to not be working out.  All his parents do for Jason is admit that he is a mistake. 

Jason is suicidal, although, he wouldn't go as far as actually killing himself, he only hurts himself for attention.  Until one day he gets so drunk that he decides to end his life for good by jumping off a balcony.  He meets this girl, Angelina, (Angel) who talks him out of jumping.  They become really good friends as she points the way to Jesus.  Jason's life is still difficult, but it is slowly turning around.

Okay, okay, that's all I'm going to give for detail.  Maybe I gave too much... (?) I hope not!  Anyway, if you want to read more, myspace me, email me, or if you have my cell phone number call me... and I'll be glad to send you the story... :)

Love you all...

SUICIDE
Ryan J. Woods

What is the purpose of my life?
Where should I go to end my strife?
Is this all the world has to offer me?
Do I end my misery of all that I can see?

Where do I go? What wave should I ride?
I have no friends; no one to stand by my side
If I went to the depths of the grave
Will anyone be there to save?

Why is the world against me, what did I do?
Everyone hates me; and I hate you
I've drifted to far away to turn around and come back
My only friend is fear and even that is what I lack

I'm all alone and that is the road I took
I have read the Bible; and found it is only a book
Just as the world has taken my pride, my life
Through decisions I've made; is leading me to the knife

All I have now is darkness and despair
I shall end in misery and I don't even care
I cheated, I've lied, and my life is a living hell
I sold my life to Jesus; and now, to the devil I sell

I'm to heartbroken and confused to even cry
With one last plea; I ask the question "why?"
Now is the time to take my life, my very own
My life has reaped and this is what I sown

I don't have all the answers to life and all its worth
Because now I am lying in the depths of the earth
Every moment I lived, every decision I made
I found myself all alone and dismayed

What more could I do? What more could I say?
I've slept with the darkness, and deceived many by day
I've became nothing more than a worthless man
From the womb of a mother; to the earth I've become sand