LoL - get this. I crawl into bed, in quite a good mood considering how much my mouth hurts (got a wisdom tooth pulled Thursday...my whole mouth just HURTS!!), and about two minutes after setting up my music, inspiration hits.

I wait a while for it to fade of - for surely it must - but it gets better. This whole plot is in my mind! And so I get up, go grab my computer, open up Word and...

...it's gone. Like that. POOF. The PERFECT line for my new character that I just canNOT seem to flesh out.

Dammit.

LoL, is ok. I need sleep anyway (like, desperately) LoL.

Sweet dreams!!
~S

K, if you haven't seen twilight yet...I don't recommend reading this. ;)

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!

So *freaking* amazing!! I loved it, my BFF has still not decided. She really hates the cast and said it was B acting - I disagree. Jacob's actor even made me like his character just a little bit - Lil tiny bit.

What did I like the best? Carlisle. OMG, soooo hot. He's truly beautiful, I mean, vampiric beautiful. Where I was still wanting Milo Ventimiglia to be Edward (sad), Carlisle TOTALLY made up for it. And I was thinking in the previews that Kristen Stewart sounded very fake in a lot of the scenes, which pisses me off, but, nopers - loved her. She is very convincing - she puts that tremor in her voice, and it stays for the right amount of time.

It's a bit quick in comparison to the book. Which is to be expected - but they hate each other and BAM she's confessing how much she refuses to stay away, how she wants to be with him.

Edward. Ah, Edward. Robby was a little too cold hearted for my liking (MiloMiloMILO!!),  but, if you think about it, he was VERY Edward. He did that well. And...and...and...the smile. *swoon* I think Carlisle trained him, though *double-swoon*

They brought in the other vampys a little quick, BUT, they made it work.

Charlie was PERFECT!!!! LoL, loved him. Didn't see enough of Renee.

'The one who looks like he's in pain is Jasper.' *rotflmao* Loved that comment, because it's true, and I'm not sure Steph Meyer made it too obvious in the book - either that or I was just too psyched and read too fast (every single time) and missed that he was like that. I loved Rosalie! She was...hoo...scary. LoL - Alice was great. LoL - they came in from the window (her & Jasper), and she's all dancer-like, and he just kinda trailed after her. 'Twas adorable.

THE KISS!!! OMFG!! Sooooooooo hott! That was an incredible scene...WOW.

I got to go to the Grand here in Lincoln, and the crowd was mostly women (duh), but I was surprised at how many guys there were. But it was perfect - collective gasps, collective 'wows,' and little giggles like 'ee'. When he picked her up in Port Angeles and sped away in the shiny silver volvo (*LoL, I can now see the frustration of it being a damn hatchback, but no big*) there was applause! :D

I be happy. I be wanting to see again and again and again and again. :D

~S

I'm 21 years old, I should not be quite so excited about going on a date. But, considering it's been more than two years since I've been on a sort-of date, even - I think I have a right, don't you??

So, Friday night - no one call me... :D

Bye guys! LoL

Love, Kisses, Espresso Beans,
~S

Today's one of the bad days - one where you constantly get those looks like 'why are *you* here?' or 'stop talking.' or even 'you don't matter.'

It's quite disconcerting to constantly get those looks. And the two girls that hang with me at school aren't here - they started their spring breaks early. So I'm on my own. And I feel like shit right now.

I'm on a plateau - or I was a couple days ago, but I can't weigh because dad is still sleeping when I have to get up & leave.

I'm just...it's not a good day.

~Sarah

Hey, guys!! Guess what I got Saturday night! My acceptance onto the ISV program!!! I'm going to Thailand! Well, possibly not Thailand, but that's the country I'm hoping for.

I'm so excited about this, you guys have no idea. I love to travel, and I've been looking for something I can volunteer for for a while - this is like a dream come true!! :D I'm too too too excited!

I really have no more news than that - if you're reading this, I've probably told you more than enough about what possibilities this trip could have for me.

EEEE!

Hugs, Kisses, Coffee Beans
~Sarah

Let's Play a Game... Here's how it goes: Type your name in my blog comments. Once you do that, this is what I'll do for you...

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. (if possible. if not, I'll say something that only makes sense to me.)
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. If you play, you MUST post this on your blog.

Well, I'm trying. Work wasn't bad tonight, in fact it was pretty good. It's still so weird to not have an employer that expects the *very* best out of you, so I'm going through trying to get *every* detail right, and, suddenly, EVERYONE'S READY TO GO!!

I'm like, eep, gotta go!

So, go team USA, Nastia Liukin won Gold, and Shawn Johnson Silver for Gymnastics!  I'm excited!

Well, I've no idea how long this good mood will last, I gtg!! :D

~Sarah

Okay, I'm pathetic, but what can I say? I miss it.

That's right, I miss Florida. Everything about it. I was watching the Travel Channel a few minutes ago, it was a special on Waterparks, and Blizzard Beach was on there - along with THREE of my fellow College Programmers!! Josh actually talked a lot on there, too - it made me laugh.

It is just so irritating. It started out great being back home, but I feel very claustrophobic all of a sudden, and the walls keep closing in on me. My dad is treating me like a child - he only speaks to me when he need or wants something. He keeps saying 'push me to quit smoking,' but when I do, he gets pissy or some such crap.

All of this culminates in ME being a bad person. Sarah & I went to Omaha to figure out her school stuff, and she wanted to shop, so we shopped. It took longer than I expected, so I called home and told them to go ahead and have dinner without me. Last night, I had bought pie (11 dollars!) and we cut it up. I was going to have another piece for dessert to find out it was GONE. I have no problem with them eating the pie, none, just it would've been nice if I'd been left a piece. Mom thought I overreacted. This is ANOTHER thing. ANY emotion I show is an overreaction.

So...I feel like I'm just getting completely shoved off. Like I don't matter.

To add onto all of this, I'm *really* lonely. And homesick. And fat.

And I just want to wallow in self pity, but I'm not allowed. And when I am in a shitty mood, no one understands, so I feel like I'm in a shitty mood all the time.

Please, please - HELP me. I feel like I'm slowly dying and I just don't know what to do.

~Sarah 

Whelp, guys, I'm no longer jobless and bored. LoL, not that I minded all that much. ;)

The great part is, the job I ended up with is the one I've wanted for a while! I am now a seller at Barnes & Noble in the music section! Totally Awesome!!

Sad to say, but I'm excited about the Loop *bum-bum-buuuum*. The Loop is the music you hear when you walk in. Yeah, I have somethin' to do with that now. :D And what it's most recently been is Mamma Mia! And it can stay that was for three months. :D

But, no, seriously, I'm SO excited. What better job for me? Working in a bookstore, in the music and movies section. EEP!

What happened? I went in, asked the lady in music if they were hiring and she said yes repeatedly, LoL. So I went home, filled out my application (that I had on hand, LoL), and returned in nicer clothing to turn it in. About four hours later, my phone beeps (I missed ANOTHER call >.<"), and it's Scott, saying he got my resume and wants to set up an interview. LoL, EEP again. So it's set up, Thursday comes, I go, and the interview has a few silent moments. *crickets chirping* which always makes me worry. So, Saturday, I get a call from Paula (my interviewer), and she says she would like me to speak to her music manager. *double EEP!!*. So we set up the time. I went in today, and basically, the info needed was 'how many hours do you want?' and 'you do realize it's slower back here?' and the always curious 'what will your availability be like when school starts?' (forget the fact that I included the actual SCHEDULE in there. LoL)

Shari (music manager) calls Paula up, she discusses a few things, and leaves. I browse a bit and when Paula comes back, she's like 'well, we'd like to give you an offer at the 6.75 rate we discussed...' "Awesome, that's great." 'Do you need time to think it over?' *profuse shaking of the head* "Nope, I want it!" LoL

In a nutshell.

I hope I get to surprise my brother with this. :D

Anywho. Sleepytime. Orientation TOMORROW!!

~Sarah

OMG, I am so vain. I'm selfish and cowardly and just horrid.

Why? Well, I joined OKCupid, and I've come to realize I am a *very* picky little girl. Here are my prerequisites (in guys I date): Taller than me, Stronger than me, and someone I'm attracted to.

I like pictures of guys - gimme one of a shirtless Antonia Banderas, and I'm happy, but I just can*not* seem to be attracted to a guy on a frickin computer screen!! I feel like I'm living two and a half years in the past - and that relationship was *not* pleasant.

I'm so fricking vain.  And I always fall for the wrong guys. *sigh*

~~

Done with that rant.

I found the mic I want for my birthday!! It's only 99.99 at BestBuy.com and comes with the software I need! Hooks straight up to my computer and everything!!

So, if anyone knows a good source of music I can use to record random stuff - including (but not limited to) musical stuff - Chicago, Mamma Mia!, Little Mermaid, Joseph, Wicked, etc etc...let me know!!

~~~

Half past twelve
And I'm watching the late show in my flat all alone
How I hate to spend the evening on my own
Autumn winds
Blowing outside my window as I look around the room
And it makes me so depressed to see the gloom
There's not a soul out there
No one to hear my prayer

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Won't somebody help me chase the shadows away
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day

Movie stars
Find the end of the rainbow, with a fortune to win
It's so different from the world I'm living in
Tired of T.V.
I open the window and I gaze into the night
But there's nothing there to see, no one in sight
There's not a soul out there
No one to hear my prayer

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Won't somebody help me chase the shadows away
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight...

There's not a soul out there
No one to hear my prayer

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Won't somebody help me chase the shadows away
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day