hello again, sorry it has been such a long time.
did I ever tell you about my aunt that has down syndrome, and now she has Alzheimer's?
well, she isn't doing too well.
her health is fading fast, she doesn't even talk anymore. you might be able to get her to say like a few words, but that is just about all she will say, the whole day. she acts like she doesn't hear you. she will just sit there and fiddle with her clothes, she won't even watch tv anymore, and now she doesn't hear the music either.
she used to love to dance, and I would take her everywhere with me. we would go see hockey games, and go to concerts, and just go dancing. And now she is just a vegetable.
no emotion. no personality, no nothing.
there is absolutely nothing I can do for her, except watch her fade away.
every time I think of her, I start to cry. yet at the same time, I am perfectly content with her I leaving, I actually wish that she would go. that way she would be up in heaven with her family, and far away from all the people here on earth that are so impatient with her.
she can't do anything for herself anymore. and now she has to wear diapers. one of my relatives contstantly is after bonnie to get a brush, to brush her hair, hell she doesn't even know what a hair brush is, how can she go leave one room and go into another to find one. she can't even feed herself anymore. by that I mean, she used to cook, and get in the fridge and fix food all the time.
now you have to literally put the food right in front of her face, or even in her hands. she can still eat with utensils, but for how much longer??
she just turned 51 the other day, and she has no clue, that it was even her birthday. when before, every year she would say, I am going to be "45", or "46", or even "48" years old on my birthday, she was the only person I ever knew that was so excited to get a year older.
and now she doesn't even talk. no emotions, no nothing.
I just wish I knew what her final mission, or purpose on earth is. Is it for her? is it for us? one of my cousins said it was to teach us patience.
I know for a fact that is not the reason, i would explain more on that subject, but I don't want those impatient people to read this.
my friend said that maybe it is because there is something that she is still supposed to learn here. how can that be??
she doesn't even know who she is!!!!! let alone anyone else.
bonnie used to be so intelligent, I used to say that she could do every thing but read, write, and drive a car. she lived with my grandparents her whole life, had many different jobs. was in the special Olympics I don't know how many times in her life.
she wasn't supposed to live to be more then 3 years old, and look at her now, she just turned 51 !!!!!
she is my best friend!!
I love her so much, and it hurts me to watch her dying so slowly.
I just wish that the lord would take her, and not let her suffer anymore.
I wish he would let her hear the music again....
let her dance again...
let her be happy again. because right now, she is far from happy.
the dancing queen is sitting the last few dances out...
I love you bonnie!!!!!!!!
LISTENING TO: JACK RUSSELL " I DON'T KNOW WHY" from the cd "For You"
----------Jack Russell, who is the singer for Great White has a song that he wrote for his father who died of Alzheimer's, the song is called "I DONâT' KNOW WHY" it is on his cd "For You". Here are the lyrics:
I remember something, then it fades to nothing, and as I sit and smile, the days roll on and on. What's been taken from me, is everything I could be, all I ever was, and everything I am.
The simple things in life, are getting hard to find. day after day, lost within your mind.
I don't know where I'm headed to my friend. I don't know why I stand up, just to sit back down again. I try. to remember who I am, I don't know why, I don't where, I don't know when.
People, once dear to me, now just strangers I see. Shadows of a life, that used to be so clear.
All the memories are gone, some how life still goes on, while I sit and smile, staring at the floor.
Erasing all your life, a sentence without crime.
Days after days, starting to unwind. I don't know where I'm headed to my friend.
I don't know why I stand up just to sit right back down again, I try to remember who I am. I don't know why, I don't know where, I don't know when.
The simple things in life, are getting hard to find. Days after days, starting to unwind.
I don't know where I'm headed to my friend. I don't know why I get up, to just fall back down again.
I try to remember all I've been. but I don't know why, I don't know where, I don't know when.