OK..it's time to be honest. I have been asked by many people if I think masterbating is wrong or weird or nasty or any number of things. I say the same thing every time. Masterbating is normal. When asked if I do it I say hell yeah. At least 5 times a day, which is not so good seeing that I use to do it 8 or more times. I am a cronic masterbater! I have been masterbating since I was 7, which is normal for very few girls! I started by grinding against things. My pillow, bed, blanket, the arm of the couch or chair..i would rock in my seat at school. Then i started using my hand. I still grinded against stuff tho! I would masterbate anywhere. In church, during confession, in school, while having mass..it didn't matter. For a long time I thought it was wrong. It did not stop me. My mom caught me 1 time and made me go to confession. I did it the whole time!!! I have gotten so good that I don't even have to touch myself to get off!! I know, crazy huh? I don't think so!! I think more ppl should do it and get in touch with yourself. You should not be shy about your own body or knowing how to please yourself!  Just my thought. Now i gotta go so I can masterbate!

Can I enter your mind for just a little while? Can I tell you all the things I wish to know? Can you listen to me for just a while without saying a word?

I want to know the deepest erotic most sexual and passionate thing you want to do to me. I want to know every nasty dirty hurtful thing you would do to me in one night of erotic fantasy come true. Would you tie me up or use handcuffs? Blindfold me? Would you make it completely dark except for one candle with which you would use to drip wax on my naked body? Would you bite me and tease me, grab me ruffly? Lick and kiss every inch of me? Pinch my nipples and force your way into my wetness? Would you rub my clit just long enough for me to moan then stop to kiss my body again? Would you try something new and have a strap-on or would you just use your body? If you had a strap-on would you tease me first? Entering and pulling out...going in only a little then leaving it there with no movement? Would you fuck me hard untill I screamed but stopped right before I could cum? Would you slowly enter me then slowly pull out? Would you fuck me for hours making me cum over and over till I begged you to stop but have my begging fall upon ears that would not hear my cry?Turning me all kinds of ways? If you used only your body would you enter me with gentleness or take me savagely? Could you find that one spot that drives me wild? Would you linger there till I soaked the sheets? Would you spank me or have me crawl on my knees and pleasure you over and over till I was about to cry for you to set my need free? Would you start to please me then stop and leave me this way for hours only to come back and do it all over again then come back and make me release like I have never done before? In one night of all out fantasy come true....what would you do to me?

Is my unwillingness to let you inside my heart cold? My untrusting of others wrong? When you have been hurt so deep by the ones who should have loved you most you tend to be that way. Am I unworthy of love because I won't love completely? Am I wrong for saying that love fuckin hurts? And it doesnt have to be love of a partner that hurts. Parents can hurt more than anyone ever can. For me not letting my emotions lead me is the best thing to me. Maybe I am cold. I think not. I think I may say what some are afraid to say. Letting someone get to close can be the worst thing ever, keeping them at a safe distance can be the best. Not to love would be weird but to love to much is asking for heartache. Love just enough to feel content but not enough so if you break up your life will not stop.