I'll be dreaming of you tonight

about that arguement, about that fight

You kissed my eye with darkness,

You blushed my nose bright red,

redecorated my home,

and left painful memories on my head.

I hate the fact I love you

but I love you nonetheless

which is why when out of nowhere I'm crying

to my friends I blame it all on stress

I keep thinking of how I'll leave you

sneak off in the dead of night

but i find it so hard to leave

when you say you love me after every fight

You say that if i leave you

many things I'll soon forget

because the day I leave

will be the day I will regret

My friends tell me I'm crazy

there's no way I could love this man

I always tell them I do love him

which is why i wear his ring upon my hand

I know my friends are right about him

and that's what hurts the most

I'm going to get my self together

before one day soon I end up ghost.

I write because sometimes I need to let out how I feel so with most problems in my mind I just don't have to deal /Situations in my life I'm sometimes unable to share with another mind, body, and soul, I console to a notebook or a mere piece of paper/ My soul sometimes grows weary and my heart is just in pieces so instead of taking it out on these people I write/ I write when there's something on my chest that I'm trying to express, but speaking it won't get it out quite how I planned /When that man broke my heart and I was falling apart he never knew, because instead of taking it out on hiss jaw that night.... another reason I write/ I had this one teacher, talking as though he were my preacher while he talked on and on about things I already knew I wrote and I write because I prefer to be a humble person but you see I don't always think humble thoughts /but I dont fight nor have i fought because before I can swing a fist or attempt to break a wrist my thoughts are already on this paper /not even realizing my swollen eyes from crying until this verse is done that everytime I write it's another battle won but the chapter is never done /no because you may think this is merely a pen and pad I hold in my hand but I percieve it differently /you see you see this pen has now become my body and the ink is now my blood that I spill upon this pad soon to become your ears in hopes to get through to anyone yes anyone who'll listen to the simple words I'm trying to tell you/ now my body is tense so let me commense in tellin you this /dont listen to my poems because of how loud I may speak it nor how soft Just know that when I write you might not believe it but better than any orgasm I get off/ when I write I can loose my temper and those aroung me will never know because I never let it show/ my life at times is in shambles but by looking at me can you tell, can you tell by the way I might look or smell/ no /but until you know why i write how can you understand what I write /so now just for you my humble listeners heres a poem letting you know why i write.

This is no ordinary love/it's more of an extraordinary love/ hard to explain just how i feel for you /killing me softly with you every word as every syllable of you saying i love you drops from a leaf after the summer rain /passionate love making taking me to that place, that place that place of me and ou intertwined never to be unwined again , as I taste your wine and you taste mine/but where is the love that we used to have for one another/ when I embraced your siblings like they were my sisters and brothers/. I thought it was all about the little things yes the little things and the joy they bring but now I see that it meant nothing when you gave me this ring/ so in my heart I feel it's over now over now /even though I find myself drifting back down memory lane /sometimes picking up the phone dialing your number to call but hanging up realizing it's just emotions taking me over /not sure if the pain of this love lost will ever subside but deep down inside  i know im a survivor im not gone give up no matter what odds are put against me /but know that in my heart I'll always love you but in my mind I just have to let you go.