I was sitting here and I know I should be doing homework but I'm tired of it right now. Either way, I can never seem to catch up anyways. I feel a little down and I am mad at myself. I study my ass off and I can't do it.

Fear of letting my parents is what keeps me in the library every night. Had it not been for Diana, I would have done the same last night.

I am mad stressed right now. I wanna run away and never come back to school but I think about the fact that i have to finish school even if I finish when I am 50 y.o.  I have to get an education so in the future I don't struggle.

Anyways,

I have doing so much and it seems like its not enough. I hate it. 

Thanks for all the cheering up from my friends. Without you I would be crazy right now... Well more than I already am.

I locked my keys in my car and I lost total concentration on my exam. I think I blew it. Aside from the fact that in my essays I wrote the wrong information, I think I blew the rest too.

I need to pass school

I need sleep

I need to find my path

I need to relax

HELP!!!!! 

*Reflection*Reflection*Reflection*Reflection*Reflection*Reflection*Reflection*Reflection*

Tonight I take this time to reflect, destress, relax, think about stuff and heal mentally, physically and spiritually. I think that most of the time I am pretty happy but there comes a time I start to reflect and I get kind of depressed. I think that all my blogs have been pretty sad and quiet. This is yet another one. I just need to get some stuff out of my chest cuz I can't breathe! There's things that I start to think about and I can never find any answers to them.

There's no point in mentioning them but I just think I should just let people know that:

     If at any point I have been a jerk to you, mean, a bitch.... I'm really sorry. I hate to be like that cuz in the end I feel like crap. I hate when people play with my feelings and I hate playing with people's feelings too. If it feels I'm playing around I probably don't mean to. I fall easily and the hardest lesson for me is realizing that I've hit. It sucks. Maybe this is just stupid shit to you and if it is... .... ... ... ... I promise it gets better.

The following Quotes are different things I've saved over the last few months from friends, coworkers that have sent me stuff. Some things are really cute and others... I value cuz they are from important people in my life. Thank you for all making me feel great.

To get what you really want, you have to swallow your pride and ask for help.

Examine what you believe to be impossible, then change your belief.-Wayne Dyer

Waste no tears over the griefs of yesterday-Euripides

Wow you guys rocked today... Congrats I am so proud of you guys. I think we have finally found a good team there, Keep it up!!- JR Flores

May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.

The page at the start of each day is blank and you get to write the story; choose to make it one with a happy ending!

Written with love and sealed with a kiss. I love the one who's reading this, of all the girls in el paso I met... You're the one I won't forget. Your love is like gold... hard to get and hard to hold. If I go to heaven and you aren't there... I'll write your name on the golden stairs. If you aren't there on judgement day... I'll know you went the other way. I'll give the angels back their wings and other things and just to prove my love is true... I'll go to hell just for you!

La mirada mas bella es la que comparto contigo.

Love that brings deep sorrow is only that of true love which many of us have yet to see...

Love exceeds all expectations but it never amounts to the depth of sorrow that comes from the broken heart.

PASO A PASO :: LUIS FONSI
Ayer me sonreias,
pero a mi amas nuestra vida tan normal,
de golpe el cielo cambia,
se nubla el sol,y nada sigue igual,

Pero aún ,tengo fé
Me muerdo el dolor y bajo la almohada,escondo el temor
Tu le haras frente paso a paso,
mirando hacia adelante,
paso a paso,
Todo se cura con amor,
de noche pasara y paso a paso,aprenderas a ser mas fuerte,y yo ire contigo.

Tantas decisiones,que jamas duran porque el mañana es hoy,
voy nadando entre emociones,
con un solo nombre y una sola piel,

pero aún tengo fé,podemos vencer,
podemos torcer la suerte lo sé,

Tu le haras frente paso a paso,
mirando hacia adelante,
paso a paso,
Todo se cura con amor,
de noche pasara y paso a paso,aprenderas a ser mas fuerte.
y aunque se caiga el mundo,
aguanta un poco más,
estamos juntos,hasta el final

ohh.,paso a paso,se cura con amor..
de noche pasara y paso a paso aprenderas a ser mas fuerte,
y yo iré contigo.
paso a paso...