grandma, daddy and ariana.

They are all having a great time!

mama, ariana and daddy

the sun is in my eyes

i'll hold her for you- Ariana

what is this- a party?!  not for me?!  never again!! those jerks:) 

I got to eat my food- so it was ok!

So cute!

Friday we took off in hopes to go to Tampa for Kevin's code test, but instead it was canceled.   So we decided to go to Key West and look for some place to get married.  HA... that went over not at all!  All the hotels were booked so that was out too, flipping fast running people who take up all the bridge...  yup i was a little mad.  We still wanted to look for a place to get married because the monster was at my mothers.  Kevin said lets button this place up and i sang on the raod again.  What is wrong with us. So we took of over alligator alley. I only slept for a few minutes!

Ended up at Delnor Wiggins Park... enough said there.  

The Hampton Inn was freaking ausome Kevin!!!  The bestest, newest, nicest smelling place I've stayed at ever Dinner before the pool was relaxing. Mama has a big baby belly.  Free breakfast made me feel guilty because she acted like i didnt need to take as much food as i wanted.  fuck that i was hungry!!  And they shouldn't have made it free. 

Then we went to Lovers Key, almost getting lost in the parking lot, we got out and waited for the tram.  lazy fuckers.  The voulnteer was not the nicest old man, i think he purposly made the sand go in my eye. And we ended at a gazebo- like kevin said, just out of his dream.  i dont alot of input from him- and that was a plus!!  Really the whole place was beautiful: the breeze, the sand, the sun... ahhh it was just perfect

Then we played at Safari Golf- I swear I tried my hardest, and i kicked his ass!!  I got like 45 and he only got 34.  haha, something tells me that a lower score is better, but im still saying i beat him  I was really red afterwards but i managed to take my nap, only for a few minutes... again! 

Now Im really excited to get married, like i wasnt before, but now that i have a picture in my mind I can see it all in front of me!  So now we are back home, i have to do dishes, and then go fail my math final- wish me luck!!   

Baby kelina just kicked me, she said hi too! 

OK- after like 5 months, I finally blog…

I have been doing great!  My boyfriend, Kevin proposed to meJ and recently we found out we are pregnant!  I’m so happy because Ariana is mean to him, and I think she needs someone to boss around.  I went to the Dr. and checked online- I think the due date is sometime around June 20. 

Heather is going to be deployed to Iraq in 6 days!! Poor thing, she can’t even take her cell.  And Brandi, oh god- is she a handful.  But I love them both!  We went to Lowe’s and bought a 6-7 ft Christmas tree.  It is so beautiful- I’ll post a picture!  We all chipped in to decorate even ari… she shows everyone her my little pony ornament.

Thanksgiving was the best ever- everyone came to my house.  I made turkey (26 pounds of it) and I told my mom, dad, sister, and Kevin’s mom to bring their own dish.  It was so good, 20 minutes after I ate, I went to lie down and fell asleep! 

Other than that most everything is normal.  I’m failing my Health and Zoology classes. Uhg, o well. There’s always next time.  I can’t wait until I can feel the baby… the best Christmas gift yetJ

how is it, when i find something i want, it just slips out of my fingers. looking back on what has occured, i realize i did all the wrong things. and when do i get to fix this.

i want another chance. i gave away what i wanted in a 5 minute conversation to my friend. i didnt even relize that id be left in the dark. i want what i cant have and get what is avaliable to me. 

 i hate to feel this. enough, im trying to get over it, but ive come to the conclusion i cant relax. So here i am faking the whole thing, like nothing is ever bothering me. i didnt even notice myself.