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Last Updated: 11/28/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 24
Sign: Aquarius

City: Houlton
State: Maine
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/4/2004

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December 3, 2008 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  cheerful
Category: Life
Work is great. I really like the new group home I'm working at. My Co-workers rock! New friends down here are awesome! Mary and I are great! The Cats are adorable! The Family is great! My new relationship is great!!! All is well!!! :-D My art is dragging but I'm trying to pick up the pace. My car is giving me a few troubles but it'll survive! Hanging out with some ppls tonight. Should be fun!
Currently listening:
Good Times, Bad Times ...Ten Years of Godsmack
By Godsmack
Release date: 2007-12-04
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November 16, 2008 - Sunday 

Current mood:  energetic
Category: Life
Hey ppls! Life continues!

My hair is pink again! yay! It's been awhile. I got the Celtic heart on my right hand shaded today. My left will have to wait a few weeks.

We've been pretty bored waiting around for work to start! We have some work tomorrow with our intern jobs at Spiral Arts. YAY! So much fun!!! Other then that we've been sitting around watching movies, drawing, walking around.... bored. Once work starts up and we get back into a routine everything should balance out.

I fear my camera is lost forever. I left it in Bangor at a friends place and he mailed it to me but it never came. :-( The post office were being dicks and "couldn't do anything."

Mare and her boy-toy are good. Cute. Boyz suck though. There was one but he came with way too much baggage and hadn't completely grown up yet so he's pretty much out the door now. Still not sure whats going on there. Mare and I went to Geno's last night!!! It was great!!!! Punk Rock! Met some swanky boyz... nice nice...

Money is everything! Rent, Car, Meds, Pets, Phone!!! AHHH!!! haha. Money sucks!
Currently watching:
Anchorman - The Legend Of Ron Burgundy (Unrated Widescreen Edition)
Release date: 2004-12-28
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November 11, 2008 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  excited
Category: Life
Life is great! The Move was good! The stairs sucked ballz!

Mare and I LOVE southern Maine!!! YAY! It's so great down here! We've tried out some local metal and goth bars.. nice... Met a few new people. It takes time! The area is wonderful! We love Biddeford and Portland. Though we get lost quite a bit haha. There's a tat place across the street with some swanky ppls and a great Chinese place down stairs. The library isn't far and its cute! Portland is 15-20 mins. Portland rocks! We love it!

The kittens are getting bigger! and they are so gay together. The do disturbing things to one another... gay kitten porn! Our new cash flow! haha.

We start work the 17th. Later than we wanted but at least we have jobs we want, in the same field as before. These individuals are higher functioning and we only deal with 4 or five individuals rather then hopping back and forth between 20 people. We're getting 9.50 + dental and little medical. It's better than nothing and not that bad for right out of college. They may even set something up for Mare and I to teach art/art therapy sessions through the organization!

I have my GRE's to take then I'm heading right into Grad School. Rehabilitation therapy!!! :-D

Mare and I are meeting today with some people from "Spiral Arts" an art organization that works with people of all different ages. Should be fun! It's non profit but great experience and it should be allot of fun!

Well Mare and I are on our way to meet with "Spiral Arts" and do some shopping!

LIfe is great! MANIFEST!

peace.

-BEX
Currently listening:
Good Times, Bad Times ...Ten Years of Godsmack
By Godsmack
Release date: 2007-12-04
2:12 AM 
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October 6, 2008 - Monday 

Current mood:  exhausted
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
I love my job! I've been working more with the Deaf. Its amazing. My sign language is getting better and better. I love it. My roommate Mary and I actually went around to Wally-World and BK and just signed to one another. I'm teaching Mary what sign I know and trying to pick up as much sign as possible. Its great!

The negative with this job is the pay, the crazy unset hours, and picking up the slack of fellow co-workers. I'm looking at transferring to a nursing home or a sister agency. I would miss the consumers we work with but not the crap we have to deal with. Mary and myself shouldn't have to do the work of three people while our co-workers sit around and gossip.

Last week I worked 70 hrs, this week I'm working 55.5! crazy! I'll be asking for no more than 50!

But I love working with individuals with MR, Autism, the Deaf, and the elderly. To care for those who cannot care for their selves isn't only rewarding resume wise, but spiritually and character wise. Patience, understanding, and caring are the principles for working with these people. I bathe, dress, toilet, change, feed, entertain, transport, medicate, and communicate with them everyday. You grow attachments and a deep care and affection for these individuals. I love this field and these people. I would just love a higher income, better hours, and co-workers who actually do their jobs and not leave it up to everyone else- and an administration who acted upon the laziness and ridiculous actions of our co-workers. To be late every morning, to not show up, to fall asleep, to watch TV and not work, and to sit and gossip while others are doing your job is totally not ok!!! I shouldn't have to stress over my co-workers when I already have to stress over the health and emotions of the people we care for.

Life goes on and all things happen for a reason. Manifest a better path and it will come to you.

☺

-Blessings!
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October 6, 2008 - Monday 

Current mood:  busy
Category: Religion and Philosophy
This "God" word intimidates so many individuals when in reality it is simply a word. One describing the Divine energy source, which created the universe, the Divine energy that resides within all things and all people. We create our own reality therefore we are God. But this word has been used to murder and slaughter thousands since it was in existence. Holy Wars for profit. This word is also associated with patriarchy and masculine power. Where as Goddess is its companion. God= man and woman... the God= neither. God is all things, not just the embodiment of one. So when some hear the word God they think of all the horrors made in the name of god. They may think of masculine energy.

The word God can be replaced with Energy, Spirit, higher being, The Unknown, or The mystery.... But for many others and myself God is the word we were raised with and still universally used and is therefore the most comfortable word for this Divine Energy for me personally. This word for me doesn't only mean Masculine and Feminine, it means both and neither- light and dark, life and death, good and evil. It is nothing and all. God is just a word. One I choose to use. One that chose to be used through me.

"There is nothing that exists outside of God. God is all that is, all that was, and all that will be. There is nothing that is, that is not God... what can occur that God did not cause in the first place? And if God is all-powerful, what can occur that God does not choose to occur? Nothing makes God unhappy. God is not greater than you. How can God be? For God is that which is you, and you are that which is God. Yet you are greater than you think you are. How could it be possible for God's will not to be done if God was God?" -Walsch

All things happen for a reason, all things happen because of God, all things happen because of Humanity. Manifest!

-Earth, Air, Fire, Water, Spirit: all are the elements
-The Sun will rise, The Sun will set, The Moon will cycle:Divine are we, Divine are the heavenly movements.
-Man, Woman, Child: Divine Human Cycle
-Life, Death, Rebirth: Divine Life Cycle
-Energy, Manifestation, Creation, Expression: Free will wasn't the only gift.
-Human, Animal: Animal is human, human is animal.
-Energy is Life, Life is God: We are God, All things are God.

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Currently watching:
Hellboy (Two-Disc Special Edition)
Release date: 2004-06-21
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September 25, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  sleepy
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Excerpts from, "Communion With God," by Neale Donald Walsch

"The purpose of the individual expression is for Me to experience my Self as the whole, through the experiencing of My parts. And while the whole is greater than the summ of the parts, I can only experience this by knowing the sum.
And that is who you are.
You are the Sum of God.
... Yet it does not matter what labels or names you use, it adds up to the same thing.
... Everything that you see, and do not see. All that Ever Was, and All That Ever Will Be is Me. And all that I am, I am now.
I Am That I Am.
There is nothing that I have ever been that I have ceased to be. And there is nothing that I will ever be that I am not now. I cannot become anything that I now am not, nor can I fail to be anything that I once was.
This is as it was in the beginning is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
... knowing Me at last, choosing Me first, and being Me always, all ways.
...Life is another word for God.
... All we have to know is our truth, not someones else's.
... All things lead us to our innermost truth. That is their purpose.
... Life is truth, revealing Itself to Itself. God is Life, revealing Itself to Itself.
... The Highest authority lives within you.
... For God's greatest truth is that there is not one way only but many ways Home. There are a thousand paths to God, and every one will get you there. Indeed, all paths lead to God. This is because there is no other place to go."
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September 22, 2008 - Monday 

Category: Religion and Philosophy
Warning- random rant! Possibly incohesive! ;-)

All things are possible and all things are connected. If God created all things and all things carry the presence of God then only perfection exists. All things happen as they should. "The universe unfolds exactly as it should." If only perfection exists and all things happen for a reason then there are no mistakes in life.

"God has no religion." Religion places restrictions, spirituality opens doors. Laws and rules should not exist when pertaining to an individual's faith. Religious and spiritual tools and ritual can also be restrictions. This herb is used for this, this stone is used for that, or you must stand in this direction to call this element… All tools and ritual are unnecessary, as well as deities. Worship this deity to gain this or to honor that.

Or….. you can simply go straight to the source. If you are searching for love or wealth…. Instead of honoring or preying to a deity of a certain culture with unique attributes associated with that culture- all to gain love or wealth, why not just manifest love or wealth or go to the source and communicate with the energy that connects us all. Why light candles and meditate with stones that others say attract love or wealth. Where do these attributes come from? Who first said that this stone means this or that? If we are divine and perfect then why do we need all these things and all these ceremonies? When we can simply manifest the divine within us?

Why worship multiple deities? Why worship deities, aspects of one source? Why not go to THE source?

All you need is yourself! Others, community, is wonderful for dialogue, but unnecessary. Some need to belong, some need others to feel they are on the right track.

We are all on the right track. All things happen for a reason. All things come to pass given time.

I have been a solitary, I have been part of a community, and I am now a solitary once again. Though my transition towards becoming solitary was gradual and then ended quite abrupt. Though I have no regrets and stand by my choices. I feel at peace now, searching for my own path, my own way. I hadn't enjoyed group ritual or group practices for a while. Feeling no power or energy for a long time. My leaving was written in the sky, my leaving was my manifestation. It happened for a reason, as all things do.

We create our own reality, we create life, life is god, we are god. Create your love, create your wealth, create your happiness, create life, live life- Manifest your reality, create your reality.

-Blessings.

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September 18, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  accomplished
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
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I love my job! its so rewarding! And so much fun. We care for those who are unable to care for themselves and help them to have a stable, caring and awarding life.

I've taken them swimming in a rehab pool, painted and colored with them, played games, and helped with physical therapy. These people are great! I've been working with the Day program allot but I'm still a primary at a particular group home, with my girls!

I have been Certified as a Residential Medication Aid, CRMA. Which means I can administer medications o our residents.Fun Fun...

These people are wonderful and I never considered working with these individuals in this field before. I've always looked at private practice or Rehabilitation Therapy. Now I'm not sure. I may choose to continue with the mentally retarded and autistic. We work all ages over 18 and all types, paraplegics and elderly.. all kinds. And I love it and may just stay in this field after grad school!

PEACE,LOVE,and all that good stuff!!

-BEX

Currently listening:
Division
By 10 Years
Release date: 2008-05-13
10:53 PM 
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September 10, 2008 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  confident
Category: Art and Photography
"The Holy Trinity" Sun, Moon, Great Spirit (man, woman, god) 19x24 ink on bristol.

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Currently listening:
One X
By Three Days Grace
Release date: 2006-06-13
2:16 AM 
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August 18, 2008 - Monday 

Current mood:  giddy
Category: Life
Life is good! The apartment is great! We'll be getting a new roommate soon. Maybe a friend from work! Work is wonderful! I still love my job. I'll be going through Med training soon and DSP training. My roomy and a friend are still thinking of moving to Portland next summer. For grad school and job transfer. It's fun to think about. But next summer is far away. Who knows what might happen. Mary and I are still great. Everyone thinks we're a lesbian couple haha. Icky is healthy and adorable. More of a cuddle-bug than ever! I feel great! Being healthy is always good. I've never felt physically and emotionally stable as much as I do now. I feel great, happy. And stress free at the moment haha. And a few pounds lighter which is an always welcome change! haha. My temple class is wonderful! I love those ladies! We rock! I hardly ever get online! We still don't have internet access! haha we're lame like that. Still single and loving it. There have been a few hopefuls in the past few months but no one who fit. But life goes on and there are always more wolves in the forest. Going out dancing, drinking, to the movies, and hanging out with "art-days" on my days off. Fun times! Going dancing again this week with Jo-Jasper, Mary, Jess, and maybe liz aka orange! haha. "art-day" should be fun! Painting and drawing all day with artsy ppls! Justin, Mary, and maybe a few others..? Anyway! life is good!


"All space is here, all time is now!"


"In this time and in this hour, Grant to me the ancient power!"


LIVE!


LAUGH!


LOVE!


-BEX

Currently listening:
Absolute Garbage
By Garbage
Release date: 2007-07-24
9:06 AM 
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