So Me and Rex are getting an apartment together!  I signed the lease today and we're moving in tomorrow. I'm excited, kinda scared tho i guess...  there's been so much stuff that's happened in the last few months, i don't know where to begin...  Brandon's been in the hospital, he had RSV, and Neumonia, Mikayla's been sick, she's fell down the steps at my moms twice, i've been sick, Rex has started a new job, I moved back to my moms for a few weeks because a bunch of stupid shit went down at shannons, so im just like WTF dude?  All this krazy ass bad shit keeps happening to me and my kids and stuff, i keep askin God when it's gonna stop.  Hopefully us getting this apartment will change things for the better... who knows. I just want a new life.  I wish i could win the lottery or something lol. No freal tho.  That'd be awesome, that would just fix everything.  Fuckin Daycare is out of this world... Frank ( mikayla's father) isn't no where around, or even trying to help, which really pisses me off.  He still doesn't even try to make an effort to come see her or be in her life, so why should I try to be so nice and send him pics of her?  so I quit.  rex is her daddy, not him. ANYWAYS.  New subject.  I can't believe im gonna be living on my own, it's gonna be krazy... hectic as hell too... aint nuthin but Mexicans over there... and u know how they be liking fat white chicks... hahahahahahaa no freal... oh well... im done.... later.

So it's been like 2 months since I've wrote on here... a lot of shit has happened since then... Finally got a damn job, imma substitute teacher... who would have EVER thought that I would do that... krazy... But I love it... You just fall in love with all of the kids... I don't really dislike anybody I work with, so it's cool, plus I can take mikayla there and peek in on her class when I feel a "mommy urge".  Mikayla's got a viral infection called Roseola, so she's like covered in a rash from head to toe, scares me to death, doctor said to give her lukewarm baths and keep her cool, and it should go away... it seems to be doin better, she's had it for a few days now, on top of a runny nose, but she's doin good.  I'm now 5 months preggo, I find out what I'm having on the 29th at 10:30, then ended up gettin the papers in the mail to go do the DNA test for Mikayla's dad the same day at 8:30 in the morning... and I can't even wait just to rub in his face that she's his... then maybe he'll start helpin out with her. I'm just bitchin... oh well, i'm allowed too damnit! lmao  No but seriously... Rex and I are doin pretty good... we have our ups and downs, but it's better than usual... hope it stays that way. Well I guess that's all I got to say for now... so... yea. I'll holla atchall and update u on what I'm having... HOPEFULLY it'll be a BOY!

You know what... I'm sick of this shit.  Tired of people tellin me lies. Especially FRANK. Found out he DOES still have a job... liein sack of shit. He wanted a baby so bad, well you know what, now you got one and you can't even help take care of it.  HE aint even seen her since she was 2 months old, and tell me why she's gonna be a year old in May? He aint helped with Diapers, formula, clothes, nuthin. I take that back, he got her a few outfits for christmas, but most of them was BOY clothes... it's really not that hard to tell the difference between BLUE and PINK. And boo hoo, Amber called his g/f fat... who hasn't.  People do it.. that's just how society is these days. I mean, I'm sorry it happened, but I didn't have nothing to do with it. SO... get over it and quit cryin about it.  So anyways, I'm in a bitchy mood if ya'll can't tell, and i really don't care neither. So, thats my thought for right now, so Frank if you read this and I hope you do, i hope you're happy, and you can eat a dick.