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THE BITCH IS BACK ON HER SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Delia Cruz


Last Updated: 12/25/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 19
Sign: Gemini

City: bronx
State: New York
Country: US
Signup Date: 1/23/2006

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December 12, 2009 - Saturday 
DAM YO WAT A YEAR I CANT BELIVE ITS ALMOST OVER I REMEBER WHEN THIS YEAR STARTED I WAS WITH THE LOVE OF MA LIFE AND I WAS THE MOST HAPPIEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD THEN HAS THE YEAR WENT BY I WAS STILL HAPPY WITH DA LOVE OF MA LIFE AND MA GOOD FRIENDS BUT THEN THE SUMMBER CAME AROUND AND I MOVED TO OHIO EVERYTHING WAS GOIN GOOD I WAS GOIN TO SCKOOL AND WAS WAITIN FOR DA LOVE OF MA LIFE TO LIVE THERE WITH ME BUT THEN ONE DAY I GOT A MESSAGE SYA THAT MA BESTII WAS GOIN OUT WITH MA MAN AND IT WAS TRUE CUZ HE SAID THE SAME THING AFTER THAT I WAS PISSED NOT ONLY DID I LOSE THE LOVE OF MA LIFE BUT I LOST MA TWO BEST FRIENDS AT THE SAME TIME I JUST FELT LIKE I WAS GOIN TO DIE BUT THEM I TALKED TO HIM AND WE BECAME FRIENDS AND TO THIS DAY WE STILL FRIENDS BUT AFTER THAT HAPPENED I STILL STAYED IN SCKOOL AND DID I WAT I NEEDED TO DO, AND AFTER THAT I CAME TO NEW YORK TO SEE EVERYONE AND THAT WHEN I THOUGHT WHY GO BACK WHEN EVERYTHING THAT MAKES ME ME IS HERE IN NEW YORK SO NOW IM HERE AND IM GOIN TO SCKOOL TRYIN TO FINISH STILL GOT MA BESTII I MEAN WE ANIT THAT CLOSE BUT I HOPE THAT WE COULD BE FRIENDS LIKE WHEN WE FIRST SEEN EACH OTHER EVEN IF WE DONT WORK OUT WITH EACH OTHER HE STILL GOIN TO BE THE LOVE OF MA LIFE BUT THERES ONLY A FEW MORE DAYS UNTILL THE YEAR IS REALLY OVER AND 2010 AND ALMOST HERE AND IMMA LIVE MA LIFE BUT IMMA TRY TO LIVE IT WITH THE MAN THAT I LOVE IF NOT THEN IMMA LIVE IT BY MA SELF BUT WITH HIM HAS MA BESTII WELL THATS HOW MA YEAR WAS AND I HOPE THAT 2010 IS BETTER FOR ME ANYWYAS THIS CHICK IS OUT PPL
November 4, 2009 - Wednesday 
There are times in the day,
when i will think then I will say,
our friendship is lost and gone,
and has fallen like dawn.
noone to look too,
when im feeling blue,
why you wonder?
well that's a question to pounder.
have you really left me?
is our friendship not meant to be?
are you not being true?
or doing things your not suppose to do?
i notice that we hardly talk,
and you always avoid me when you walk.
feelings are left unsaid,
and the hatred begins to spread.
is it true that our friendship is fading away?
please if yes, can we make up today?
cause you are my friend and i really care,
about the time we used to share.
but now this time is gone,
and has fallen like dawn.
i wish we could be close again...or at least try,
cause for the time we have lost i've had time to cry.
cause our friendship was honest and true,
and my biggest loss was being friends with you.
for the time we've spent apart,
have caused me to have a broken heart.
time apart from you has made me see,
how important our friendship is to me.
i don't know about you but i'm sure about me,
i miss the way our friendship used to be.
so is it true? are you my friend?
or is the friendship that i loved...come to an end?
November 4, 2009 - Wednesday 
For the first time in a long time,
I felt so happy, so rejoiced
You came to me when I was in dire need of a shoulder.
You showed me there was hope after tragedy.
You became my bestfriend.

The times we laughed and the times we shared
Were priceless beyond anything I could imagine
We never knew the meaning of uncertainty and difficulty
I showed you what it was like to be a fool, a good fool
And in return, you taught me new ways of life

The more we connected, the more we grew as people, friends and partners
You made me feel like I could trust and love again
Words uttered out of your mouth that made me feel safe and wanted
"Love is not a strong enough word to describe how I feel. I adore you really"
I was caught.

My problems were yours as yours were mine
Blooming into something so deep, something so special
We were blinded by nothing but each other
The hours turned to days and days turned to months
Promises were never broken and feelings seem to flourish
This was real. So I thought...

Just as everything was going so well
The distance began to win our battle of being together
Drifting apart, we dedicated ourselves to making this work
We tried and tried. And just as everything was returning to they way they were
Love, devotion, and adorement
You vanished into thin air as if you were just a dream

To this day, my mind wonders how could something so strong be defeated so easily
No words could express the confusion, the doubt, the feeling of foolishness
That runs through me as time goes by with an answer of Why?
The last question left unanswered:
Were you real or were you just one of my needs?

That is something that needs to be answered
One day, one lifetime
Very soon
I promise!
October 8, 2009 - Thursday 

Current mood:  sad
Category: Life
Your love is my warmth
Like the sun against my skin

Your touch is my drug
Speeding my heart with pleasurable sin

But all things in this world
Must come to an end

As mine did whe I became
Just a friend

Now a life is
Endless pain

Everywhere I see you
Whispers of your name

I spend my nights
Alone in tears

Watching as your love
For me simply disappears

The warmth has vanished
From my skin

Your touch no longer
A pleasurable sin

I am hollow to everything
Except my heart's own pain
October 5, 2009 - Monday 

Current mood:  loved
Category: Life


Loving you always be the sweetest
Thing I have ever done, Cause
I love you since I met you,
Since the first time I saw you
Without you, my life will be empty
I know, I will be lost without you
My love, I always love you….
You always help me, baby
With my all my troubles
And I’d the same for you
If I said, no one care about me
You always say, you do…
I’ve fallen in love with you
And I never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just have to let you know
My feelings for you never change
Just remember one thing
Every day passes by
I hope you won’t go
As long as I shall live
I’ll always keep you dear
Anytime you need me
I’ll be there, with open arms
To set you free, I told you so
I’ll always love you through the years
There is another secret
That is killing my heart
One that make me realize
You make me a whole
And no matter how hard I fall
Or how bad I felt on my knees
I’ll still get up to hold you
Loving you for all eternity
And smiling through all my tears
Because my heart will be empty without you
And I know, I will be lost without you
My love, I always love you!!!
October 4, 2009 - Sunday 

Current mood:  sad
Category: Life
My heart hurts with chest  curdling pain of no doors..
My thoughts silently scream for these tears in me to stop with their pours...
My fingertips stuck to the keys that spell out your name...
My eyes uncomfortably sown closed allowing no light, not even a grain...
My hopes been entirely beclouded by chartless wonders...
My whole world rumbling with heartaching thunder..
<< Lost in all of this,
while chasing a dream,
that will never beam, nor ever be seen..
Before me is a screen named the same as you,
wallpapered sky blue,
but missing something so special so true,
yet what can i do?
I'm broken in two: (

I love you truly
September 24, 2009 - Thursday 

Current mood:  sad
Want you,
want you, you, you,
Doesn't matter that you're not here,
I forgive all the silences.

I want you,
I don't care,
I know you'll disappoint,
I'm a willing captive,
Why fight?
There's no point.

I want you,
Need to hold you in my arms,
Need to smell your sweat, inhale your breath,
Need you inside of me,
That's where you belong,
That's where you were meant to be.

I want you, bald, fat and ugly,
I really don't care,
I just want you to be there.

I want to open your door,
Because I have my own key,
I want to come in,
Because you too, now want me.

I want you to need me,
I want to stare in your eyes,
I want your promises,
I don't care if they are lies.

I want your body,
Warm in my bed,
I want you near me,
I want you so bad.
September 24, 2009 - Thursday 

Current mood:  sad
 THIS GOES OUT TO THE ONE PERSON I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART AND U KNO WHO U ARE AND IF U DONT KNO ITS YOU THADIUS
 
 
 
THERES ALWAYS ONE PERSON THAT IS GOIN TO MEAN THE WORLD TO U,THAT ONE PERSON THAT U R ALWAYS WANTIN TO BE WITH, SOMETHIMES YOU FEEL LIKE IF U MOVE AWAY UR GOIN TO LOSE THAT PERSON, WELL IT HAPPENES AND U FEEL LIKE YOU DONT WAT TO DO BUT CRY, YOU ALWAYS ASK YOUR SELF WHY DID THIS HAPPEN? WHY DID HE REALLY LEAVE? U ALSO SAY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I CANT EVEN THINK RIGHT OR I LOVE HIM AND WITH OUT HIM I CANT LIVE.
 
YOU MIGHT BE ASKIN YOURSELF WHY AM I WRITEIN THIS FOR WELL IT HAPPENED TO ME TO I MOVED AWAY THINKIN EVERYTHING WAS GOIN TO BE GOOD WITH US BUT NEXT THING I KNO WE NOT TOGTHER ANYMORE AND TO TELL U THE TRUTH ITS KILLIN ME INSIDE BECUZ I LOVE HIM SO MUCH ITS LIKE THE ONLY THING I WANT TO DO IS DIE. IVE GOTTEN MA STUFF TOGETHER IM IN SCKOOL NOW AND IM LOOKIN FOR A JOB BUT HES THE MISSIN PEACE TO MA LIFE WITH OUT HIM IM NOT MA FULL SELF
 
WAT IM TRYIN TO SAY AND IF U READ THIS(WITCH I HOPE U DO) I REALLY LOVE YOU AND UR THE PEACE THAT IS REALLY MISSIN IN MA LIFE. MA LIFE WONT BE TOGTHER WITH OUT U IN IT.ALL U HAVE TO DO IS THINK ABOUT IT DO U REALLY WANT TO LOSE EVERYTHING THAT WE BEEN THROW ALL  THE GOOD THINGS AND THE BAD.YES WE BEEN THROW A LOT OF BAD TIMES BUT WE GOT THROW THEM IF U STILL LOVE ME ( WITCH I KNO U STILL DO) U WOULD THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING I HOPE U FEEL THE SAME WAY AS ME CUZ I CANT DO THIS WITH OUT U I LOVE YOU
September 24, 2009 - Thursday 

Current mood:  sad
Category: Life
THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT U IS CRAZY,I THINK ABOUT YOU DAY N NIGHT,IF I TRY TO FORGET YOU I CANT,YOU ARE THE BEST PART OF ME. REMEBERING THE GOOD TIMES WE HAD MAKES ME CRY.SOMETIMES I JUST WISH I CAN GO BACK IN TIME AND REALLY STOP YOU FROM LEAVEING YOUR THE ONLY PERSON THAT KNOWS THE REAL ME,THE ONLY PERSON THAT CAN TURN MY DAY FROM SAD TO HAPPY, WITH OUT U I WOULD HAVE FALLIN IN TO A DEAP WHOLE. I JUST LOVE YOU FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU DID FOR ME. I JUST WISH THAT MAYBE YOU CAN THINK ABOUT THE GOOD TIMES AND NOT HTE BAD TIMES WE HAD AND MAYBE WE CAN BE AGAIN. THADIUS MCDONALD I LOVE YOU SO FUCKEN MUCH



wrote this 2 weeks ago
April 20, 2009 - Monday 

Current mood:  strong
life is hard n its going to be forever theres no way that u live on earth n ur life is easy but wat im tryin to say is life is always going to be hard but u cant give up theres always a way by things u might not see it at that right time but once u start doing wat u got to do n u also have the ppl that really care about u there its going to get easy..somethimes life can get really hard even if u dont want it to when we lil kids we had it so easy cuz we didnt have to wrry about anything but now its hard all we have to do is know that we have it in us that we can move on cuz at the end of all this ur going to say shit all the pain n hard work that i had to do is worth it....well im just writin this cuz theres 4 ppl that r going thro mad shit n its hard n i just wanted to let ya know that im here for ya n im not goin anywhere love ya all