I am now networking...for those that dont know or didnt take time to read my page i am a songwriter/singer...notice the placement of those two words...one comes before the other. I posted a video of me singing a song by india arie...those are NOT my words...but coming up shortly i will be posting another video of me singing one of the songs i wrote. I dont know who i'm networking to but tons of people have gotten discovered in crazy ways. not only that if someone wanted to hear one of my songs or hear me sing i could simply give them my url and tell them to watch the vids on my page! with that said i would hope that some of my "friends" would take the time to watch the vids when i start doing them regularly and comment on them too. I have to start doing something because sitting back and letting nothing happen is just not an option..

Now on to venting...the devil is in attack mode against the world,the resession is real,the bad economy is very real, and life is getting harder and harder to live...so for all the procastinaters out there WAKE THE HELL UP put your talents to good use,stop making excuses as to why you cant do something.....the world doesnt stop for you....the shit that might have been good enough your whole life will simply not be good enough in the coming months,shits bad out here and if you dont stand up and make something of yourself despite the problems you might have then you will continue to sink below level and you will drown with the rest of the slackers....and its gonna come a time where other people are gonna get tired of carrying you. I have a few things that i'm working on as of right now because i'm desperate to be my own boss...to have my own money,to be secure in life....i cant make people be as driven as me and i'm learning that lately with one of my projects,i just cant make you want to be better you have to want that yourself,being lazy might be conveniant for a little while but one day you'll wake up and see everyone succeeding and doing well and you'll wish you hadda got your lazy excuse having ass up and did something with your life...God said that if you dont use it he will take it away (talent wise) God has given me a few talents and i am gonnna do as much as possible to make them visible and if later in life nothing happens i can say that i tried and God is proud of me for it........what will you be able to say???

How can i have feelings so strong,love so strong for something that isnt human,something that in the end,might not love me back,can't say it,but could possibly show it?? How can something so meaningless to others,be so important to me,impact my life in a way that if i ever lost it i dont know what i would do....It didnt birth me like my mother,or contribute like my father,but it has given me peace,it has made me feel happy,sad,mad and has even improved me as a person,I couldnt even imagine doing anything else in my life..I dont understand why others dont love it like i do,dont realize its impact like i do,but then i realize that maybe its not for them to understand some may think i'm different because i dont listen to just hip-hop and r&b,but pop,rock,gospel,alternative and any other thing that i like,well for those that feel that way...you have to understand that its not just the beat, or maybe the lyrics,its the artistry.

Music is my life

And without it i am numb

So this is the thing.....i feel like venting today..and maybe i'll be talking to myself but hey,....has anybody ever been in a place in their life and wondered how they got there,knowing that your intentions were never meant to go there,like the goals you had did a total 360 on your ass......well thats how i'm feeling right now,i'm tired of sitting on my gift as a writer and singer and not getting my material out there,at first i thought college then getting a job was the best plan but now i'm realizing that this shit isnt for me,i hate school always have,i only went to be social and to get a diploma,but now i see that my gifts are seriously going to waste,so from now on i'm sticking with the vision and goal thats been with me my whole life....and that is writing i might piss some people off.....i might even put myself in a situation where it will take years to accomplish but know this....I WILL BE RICH...AND YOU WILL SEE MY NAME IN LIGHTS!!!!!! hate it or love it.i'm tired of being the person everybody else can depend on to get their shit done but when it comes to my goals their put on hold  FUCK THAT i aint got no kids and no obligations to anyone but God.....so if your feeling like me right now i say go what you gotta do and get paid regardless to what others think always please yourself first because niggaz these days will take full advantage of you.....if you got any kind words,advice,or just some venting you wanna do on this subject then don't be afraid to comment....

UNTIL NEXT TIME MY NIGGAZ.

ya'll niggas aint barely ever online.....and you all SUCK lol now lets see who actually reads my blog and has something to say about that aye.

i'm mad,on black planet u have a way to figure out who visits your page,but on here u don't and it annoys me how i see that people have viewed my page,and i wanna know who.i'm just curious ya know,u don't know if u got stalkers or what,it bothers me,does anyone else feel that way or is it just me

just tryna see how this whole thing works