What's crackin people, i'm sittin here, stairin at the clock, 4.10am, can never seem to sleep until around this time because my thoughts don't quit until i'm completely tired from them driving me insane all night. it's like they have to have there own little say every night... weird innit... think its time i spill my thoughts into my blog for the night and see if i can sleep after this haha.... yeh.... probably not....
ever since i've stopped smoking (been clean for almost 9 months now.. i think it might be some sort of withdraw... but hey, i cant say how much happier with life i am now that i'm not smoking) i'm performing better on stage and in the studio and i've defeated alot of my mental issues, which i later found out was the main trigger to set off my anxiety issues all the time.... been trying to keep my self busy with music like always. Also working on a side project band
www.myspace.com/kcavemen -- we will be rocking out shows in 2010 after our album drops in March.
Other then that -- Just tonight i've been flicking through this blog of mine -- like all the old old old old posts,, past 2006, to 2007, to 2008, 2009... and just looking at the progress and all the shit i posted, i was just like FUCK.......... I just can't wait to finally get my ass up and out of this place and start rocking shows over in america... i feel completely legless at the moment - in chains - i wanna do something but i can't.
I'm just killing time, watching the time tick life away.WELL on my schedual at the moment, kCaveMen are dropping an album in March (Gondwanaland - which sounds fucking brutal so far) and we are supposed to be touring in June/July around Australia, UK and Europe - and ill also be opening as KidCrusher. -- but none of this is certain yet -- still in talks with promoters and biz biz biz.... oh yeh if you didn't know, I am the lead vocalist and producer of kCaveMen.
I've also got the drummer from
The Berzerker working on the project and three other close friends of mine.
Again, I am hoping to do more shows as KidCrusher in 2010 everywhere I can (sorry to say AMERICA -- you still wont see me until 2012 aka The end of the World as we know it)
but trust me, it's building up like a tidal wave and i'll come crashin down around the USA in 2012 with as many shows as i can pull out of my pocket.
I am actually considering applying for citizenship or at least a decent visa were i can stay for long periods of time and go back and forward from there to Australia. as business could be a lot better up there, i just wanna get on the road and rock.
As for KIDCRUSHER albums,
I know I promised you
a sequel to the Metal Murder MixtapeIt's already in the works, but it's been on the back burner and probably wont drop
until April/May 2010 -- maybe sooner maybe later - depends on LIFE really ey?
Looking back again like, i found this blog i wrote a while back
Subject: 2008 THE YEAR THAT TRIED TO KILL ME
that was posted before my world tour of nothing - plane flight around the world,
that all added to the pile at the end of the year 2008.
Now i see it like this
2009 - THE YEAR I TRIED TO MOVE ONeverything upon this year has been full of stress, really hard
moving houses like crazy - still friends fucking me around
BEST friends stabbing me in the back, to the point where
I grabbed those who were closest to me and turned my back on everybody else
didnt even think about making any albums all year,
needed time to relax, rejuvenate, get my house in to shape
PAY OFF THE WORLD TOUR OF NOTHING (6 GRAND CREDIT CARD DEBT)
which only just the other day i have finally paid off.
and actually feel positive about my everyday life again before i could work.
I started doing shows flat out all year towards the end of 2009
and found die hard fans all around Australia, even down ass Juggalo's!
Which was fresh to get so much love in my own country
specially after the world tour of nothing, all i needed was some
JUGGALO LOVE!!
Doing shows put me in the best of moods, I could do them every weekend.
at this point i would like to give a special shout out to my homies in SYDNEY, WHOOP! WHOOP!!
Been back to Sydney like 5 times i think, in the last couple of months.
Anyways, so me and my girlfriend Sandra have been together for almost 2 years now
been through a tidal wave of bull shit from friends and so called best friends and personal bull shit - living situations - but now we are all settled in with our own place and she's got her own career on the roll -- i can see we are just a Powerfull couple because we stood together though it all, regardless of what anybody thought about it. Love is stronger then anything, I've searched for it for my whole life and only just now i feel complete.
Life = Good, Love = Dope, Fans = Love, Music = Life.
Back In The Studio, i go.............
Black Circle Magic 2009 Remaster dropped on the 27th November, like two/3 days ago now i think
I sold 22 copies so far. Main reason i redone this album is because when i meet/greet a fan i always ask (Whats your favorite song/album of mine) and this or cannibal clown was always the #1 ------------- I always thought i could top that album if i done it again, but i didnt wanna ruin the original -- so i shined up the original and added some extra flavor to the ending with 5 brand new songs and shit.............. its some creepy shit.
like i was trying to fill a deep character for this album, i was researching into alot of Demonology related movies and websites... and i started to scare my self doing it haha, thinking i was provoking demons and shit -- i was actually happy to finish the 5 songs so i could quit the topic haha. I used alot of refferences to the recent movie release PARANORMAL ACTIVITY (which is a fucking frrrressh movie) also HELLRAISER, EVIL DEAD, THE GATE & CHUCKY.
anything that can basically possess and fuck shit up haha. yeh... i hope for those who were looking forward to it, actually dig it -- i spent about 4 months working on just the Instrumentals for those tracks --- THAT'S RIGHT,, 90% of the album is all MY BEATS!!!
and i was really happy with the turn out on my end, i HOPE YA'LL DIG IT!!!!
Anyways --- off that topic.........
i wanna end by saying, SHIT GETS ROUGH, and when its ROUGH it gets RUFFER!!!
to the point were you CANT STAND IT and just say FUCK IT ALL...
Just take a break..... dont quit.
theres always ups and downs in life and you always get back up and onto something.
no matter how fucking bad shit gets - it can always get a hell of alot better.
2008 and 2009 were really rough for me, but i am looking forward to 2010 by far.
for a few reasons.
KCAVEMEN -
www.myspace.com/kcavemenAlbum, HD Music Video, AU/UK/FRANCE TOUR
KIDCRUSHER - ON TOUR, ANYWHERE, BOOK ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
obviously i cant do the untied states tho :(
But i am looking forward to jumping back on stage and choppin some bodies up!!
METAL MURDER MIXTAPE VOLUME TWO
will be fun to get back into some metal.
it will be a quite simulair layout to the original
but trust me, it sounds FAT so far.
i've just been working on the Instrumental side of things.
ohh yehhhh i forgot to say --- i am shooting a video for one of the new singles
from BLACK CIRCLE MAGIC next week, on a HD Handy Cam
for the track "I'm Not Alone" --- the single will be up with the clip in 2 weeks, I HOPE!!
LOOK OUT FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHOW US SOME LOVE --- DROP A KUDO - COMMENT
SHOW ME YOUR STILL SHOWIN SUPPORT FOR THE CANNIBAL CLOWN????
WITH MY EARLY SIGN OUT/SALUTE TO 2009
MUCH MUCH MUCH LOVE GOES OUT TO:::::
SANDRA <3
MY FAMILY <3 - MUM/JULIE/NATHAN/CHARLIE
MY DAD <3 - R.I.P - I KNOW YOUR HELPIN ME THRU THIS!!!!!!!
SYDNEY JUGGALOS -- WE THE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!
JOY & MY STREET TEAM ---- YOU THE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL MY FANS ON MYSPACE/FACEBOOK - THE ONES WHO SEND ME LOVE EVERYDAY
SORRY IF I DONT GET BACK TO YOU - BUT SOME MESSAGES I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY :(
IF YOU GOT SOMETHING TO ASK - I WILL ANSWER IT !!!!!!!
EVERYBODY WHO BUYS MY MERCH -- YOU'VE HELPED ME OUT ALOT THIS YEAR
WITH BILLS & FOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!! WHEN I REALLY NEEDED IT. I LOVE YOU!!!
PSYCHOPATHIC RECORDS --
NATHAN EXTRA / ICP / MIKE CLARK / TWIZTID / ABK / BOONDOX / LOTUS!!
YOU GUYS ARE THE SHIT, FOREVER AND ALWAYS
A TRUE FAMILY THAT CAN REALLY STICK TOGETHER!
THANKS A MILLLLLLLLLLLLION FOR GIVING ME A LIGHT TO LOOK UP TO!
VAMPIROCORE / 13TH DEGREE --- YOU THE SHIT!!!!
PROFESSOR FRESH / ILL E. GAL --- SEE YOU IN THE FUTURE!!!!!!!
SHY ONE --- MAD CUNT!!!!!!!!!
AND ALL THE TUNNEL RUNNERS, KEEP IT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANYBODY ELSE I FORGOT, I STILL LOVE YOU
I'M JUST TIRED AND DIZZY AT THIS POINT haha ya kno????
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