The Vigil
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The events just passed have gotten my mind numb.
For three years, and more, I have followed him. He told many of us things that we found impossible to believe, and even more impossible to deny. He wrought miracles, and we believed him to be the Son of God!
Oh, the misery. For three years, I followed him. Listening as he taught in the Temple, in the square, and even by the water. I saw him turn water into wine at the wedding feast! I saw him give sight to a blind man, and even raise Lazarus from the dead. He was my teacher, and my friend.
And, now he is dead. The Christ! He is dead. They pummeled him, and broke his body. They cursed him. Even through my tears, I saw them hang him from a tree. They scourged him, and put stripes upon his back. I could not stand in his place--the Centurions would not permit it. I walked beside hm down the Via Dalarosa just yesterday! How can it be?
My mind is in torment. What shall become of me? Of us? We are hiding now, as the Romans are searching for his followers. They have sent out an order to round us up, and kill us! And, the religious leaders are no help. This man, who came to save them has become their victim, as a lamb led to the slaughter.
I have tried to console Mary, his Mother. She is beyond grief. The others, the Disciples as they are called, are scattered throughout Jerusalem, hiding like rats in the darkness. This, the Feast of the Passover! Ha! We were not passed over in this time! Only hours, nearly a day ago, his broken dead body was taken down from that cross, even as the Earth trembled. I am told that the temple curtain was torn in half from the shocks! Thunder, and lightening, and all manner of storm. It was as if God Himself were crying!
But, I believed! Don't you understand?
I called him LORD! Master! Saviour! The Christ!
What a fool I am! I have given all my possessions to his cause.Not only that, but now there is a price on my head! Oh, to be a simple fisherman again. Rumors are rampant in the city. Some have said that Judas Iscariot was found hanging from a tree! It wasn't supposed to BE like this! Why, only two days ago, he was being hailed as Messiah!The Curator let Barabbas go! That murdering, lying thief is set free while my Lord is crucified! How shall I relieve myself of this pain in my soul?
We were supposed to bring freedom, and peace to the world. Jesus was to be our KING! And now, he is dead. We are lost. The hope of salvation is a lie. What shall become of me? And, what of his followers who. like me, are wanted for a ransom?
Can we hide forever? We have been warned not to be seen in public, and under no conditions are we to gather together, or lose our lives! Oh, we had plans! We had dreams! And, on a piece of wood, they died with him. Well, at least in death they recognized him as our King! They even made a placard, and hung it over his head that said "King of the Jews!
What am I to do? What shall I do?
what shall I do now? For what purpose am I to live? How can this be?
What shall I do?
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If you cannot bring yourself to feel this man's anguish, then you do not yet understand the cost of these events. If you can, then perhaps you can sit and ponder just as he is doing. Put yourself in his place, and let his turmoiled mind, and his betrayed heart become yours.
If you can do that, then you are prepared for what I consider to be the longest day of the entire year Vigil Saturday. You should feel his pain, and ask his questions. You should search your heart for the meaning of this day. The Crucifixion is hours old. Jesus has been wrapped in a burial cloth, and laid in a borrowed grave. Soldiers, both Roman and Jew, guard the entrance. They have heard these strange prophesies, and they are sure to prevent theft from THIS grave.
They have wagered over his clothes, and now they must stand guard over a grave! And, stand they will. To fail, or to fall asleep on guard duty automatically means death!
No one is allowed to approach the tomb, until after sunrise tomorrow, as a matter of Jewish law. Then, his body will be annointed with special oils, and prayers will be said. And then, the entire ugly event will be over. The law must be observed, after all. We are, if nothing else, good Jews.
And, like our imaginary disciple, you too will have to figure out just what it means to have a world with no hope. In a world without a Saviour, life takes on an entirely new meaning. What shall he do?
And, slowly perhaps, you will come to understand that the Roman Government did not kill Jesus. The Sanhedrin do not have his blood on their hands. You do. And, I do, too. And that should make us pause, and reflect. For this day is the distance between death, and Eternal Life.
But, today, there is only the death of a man from Nazareth. A carpenter who, because of his words, was slaughtered in the most painful, humiliating way ever devised by any sick mind before or since.
I signed his Death Warrant. So did you. We should think about that.
What will I do without a Christ?
What will you do?
Soli Deo Gloria!
Bud Fields