You make me think of a future.
You make me think of a family
You make me want to change for you.
You make me want to work harder..
And learn...

Cause of you
i want to go to school
i want to do something i love
I want to wake up to you everyday
in our house...
with our family

Cause of you
I actually care about my life
I actually care how it ends
I actually care.

Just cause of you.

Didnt get the reaction out of myself that i thought i would get.
I have the Shakes and the nerves and the Sickness.
but i dont feel the weakness.
I dont feel the pain..The pain i wanted to feel
to discover why im the person i am.
I did get some feelings.
Not of Guilt
Not of Sadness
Not Of Anger.
But of Happiness.
Happiness for you.
But not for me.
I need to figure out what is eating me.
Im Lost in a whirl pool and I keep spinning around
but i have a feeling that my feet will never touch the ground.
I cant call for help...Or even make a sound...

So now im stuck trying to find another reason that makes me me.