alrightttt.

5.6.08 gigantourrr.

was absolutely amazing.

we first got there at i'd say at about....11 in the morning. and doors didn't open until 4 something, and it was 80 degrees outside. i swear to god, Bodom and In Flames are two of the only bands i'd wait in fucking horrible hot weather for a million hours for.

we were like the 15th-ish people i line, haha, so i was happy. i met this cool guy who was the first one i line, he'd been there since like 10 he said. but we left the line, because Tom kept my spot, and his friend kept his spot, and we walked under the bridge [in the shade] with two other guys. i was expecting all the Bodom "fans" to be gay poser fags, but these guys knew what they were talking about. we talked about the amazing epic-ness that is Hatebreeder for about 20 minutes, i swear to god i'm a dork. and the one guy is freakishly obsessed with mr. Laiho, i'm not the only one. :]

and while we were standing there, we saw Henkka and Roope walk by down the street going to this restaurant. i didn't talk to them then though. :/ i kept waiting for them to come back but i never saw them. haha.

and then while we were still under the bridge we saw all the In Flames guys on the corner of the street. Bjorn had a bright pink victoria secret shopping bag. haha. and Anders put his hair into a ponytail, took it down, put it back up at least 50 times. they left after that, but throughout the day we saw Jesper wandering around quite a few times. he was wearing a fucking hoodie and a beanie in 80 degree weather. haha.

ughhh. other than that, the many hours in line were very uneventful.

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well, skipping ahead to the show, High on Fire is lame.

Job for a Gayboy is gay. that's the second time i've seen them and they still suck.

during the set change from Job for a Cowboy to Children of Bodom was insane. i felt like i was going to have a heart attack. i had never been so excited for anything in my entire life. we were right in fucking front, against the rail. i felt like i was gonna die. i kept screaming Alexiiiii, i was so loud i swear to god he must have heard me. and holy shit. finally, they come on stage and start playing Sixpounder and fuckkkk i felt AMAZING. like....they are not exactly my "favorite" band. but there is something so absolutely special about them. they mean more to me than anyone could ever understand, and there is just this special connection i have with them that i have never had with anything else in my life.

he was right in front of me. Alexi Laiho. it almost seemed like it wasn't even real. it was honestly just purely fucking amazing. i swear to god i screamed every word, to every song as loud as i could.

i can definitely tell you that hearing them play Downfall was the best thing i'd ever heard. it's pretty much my favorite song of all time, and hearing them play it...wow.

oh, and i've noticed Alexi likes to lick his guitar quite a bit. it's really sexy. i know that sounds lame. but haha, the way he does it....it's all sexual. i swear to god it is.

the first two bands nobody did shit, but during Bodom people were going crazy as fuck. holy shit, i think it was the craziest during both In Your Face and Bloodrunk. although during Hate Me i got pushed so damn hard against the rail my insides hurt for the rest of the night. haha.

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after Bodom i swear to fucking god i was gonna pass out, i've never felt like that at a show, but i was dizzy as fuck. so i ended up having to leave the front to get water, but i managed to get back up pretty close for In Flames.

holy fuck. Anders Friden is the most amazing singer in the world, i've always thought that. but hearing him live he is 10x better. i was waiting and waiting for them to go on stage and then finally you hear that keyboard intro to Cloud Connected and everyone goes crazy. they are simply the most amazing live band. ever. Anders seriously amazed the fuck out of me. My throat was hurting so bad, but i was able to scream out every word to every song. but by the time they played My Sweet Shadow my voice hurt pretty bad. haha. and what was even more amazing, is when everyone held their lighters up during Come Clarity. just fucking amazing. eveyone got really crazy during Take This Life. holy shit. the ONLY disappointment was that they didn't play Clayman.

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we actually left right after In Flames to go outside. we kind of walked down the street, and around to corner toward Bodom's bus. Janne was sitting out there talking to some of the roadies. I was nervous as fuck but i just went up and started talking to him. he's amazing. haha. he was telling me how fucked up he was and something about walking to Mexico to find McDonalds. haha. we hung out with Janne for about half an hour, and then we headed down the street and around the corner to In Flames' bus.

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Anders was standing out there and i got to talk to him for a few minutes. and then he was with this one girl and he told her to finish her cigarette and come on the bus, i had mine too so i was like "so when i finish my cigarette do i get to go on the bussss" and he laughed and was like "nooo, but you were pretty close" haha. and then he went back inside.

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sooo, we headed around the block back to Bodom's bus. Janne had gone inside for a few minutes but Henkka came out. i swear to god Henkka is reallyyyyy shy, he didn't talk much at all. but i got a hug from him! and shortly after Jaska came out too, i talked to him a little bit and i gave him a hug too! and then this annoying girl came up acting like an idiot and pretty much scared him away, because he went right back inside. haha.

Henkka ended up going back inside too, but Janne came back out. this one girl gave him a hug, and i was like "heyyy wears my hug" and he's like "well, as long as we're giving them out now" and he hugged me too. i swear to god, when i hugged him he smelled like weedddd. haha.

we were talking to Janne for a while, he seems to be the most sociable out of all of them. haha.

he said Alexi probably wasn't coming out, because he was kinda tired.

but the whole time, everytime the door too the bus opened my heart literally stopped and then started beating really fast. i was so hoping it to be him every time, but usually it was one of the roadies going in and out of the bus.

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and i swear to fucking god, the door finally opened and Alexi came outside. he walked over by Janne and lit a cigarette. i didn't want to bother him right away. honestly, my heart had ever beat that fast in my entire life. he was RIGHT THERE. he is the most gorgeous man in the entire world. oh my god. seeing him in person....he is so much more amazing. he was in a really good mood, or just a bit messed up, because he was really smiley and happy. haha.

it was just us, Alexi, Janne and like 3 other dudes.

Alexi kept kinda smiling at me and i finally went over to him.

i was like "can i give you a hug??" and he laughed and smiled and was like "yeah of course" oh my godddd.

i was like "awwww i love you!"

and he laughed and was like "sure, i love you too"

and then i asked him "can i give you a kiss?" and he smiled again and he's like "yeah sure"

ad that was absolutely the amazing moment of my entire life.

holy fucking hell.

afterwords i swear to god i couldn't even believe that just happened.

after that he went inside, but right before he did the guys i was hanging out with in line this morning showed up.

and they asked Alexi if he still smoked lucky strikes, and he's like "yeah"

so they gave him a pack and he's like "awesome! free shit, thanks" haha, and then he went back inside and i was like "byeee alexi!" and he was like "bye"

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afterwords we hung out with Janne for a bit longer, and Jaska came back out.

but i was totally out of it. seriously. i couldn't even believe i actually kissed him. it was my dream come true, i'd always wished for it but i honestly never thought i'd have the chance.

after a while they went back inside, so we went back down the street.

i was telling Tom how the only one i hadn't seen was Roope ad literally just as i said that Roope walked right past us and i talked to him for a second, but he had to get back to the bus. he's the only one i didn't get a hug from. :[

so actually, i spent the whole night after the show chilling with Janne pretty much. because he's cool enough to sit out there all night. haha.