Buncha different people.
GUESSWHO.

1. We've been hanging out more again. And I'm glad. I love the fuck outta you. Even if you do bite. I'm not looking forward to August. I have no idea how I'm gonna live without you being there for me. :/ I think we need to make the most of these 8 or so months we have left together.

2. I'm glad you're coming back after all. I hope that things are still insanely fun now that you're moving back and not just visiting. And I'm beyond stoked to make some fucking music with your bitch ass. <333

3. You've changed lately, for the worst. I'm really upset to see you taking advantage of your situation the way you are. I thought you were way smarter than this... Don't get me wrong, I still love you and all, but damn, it's really hard to watch you go down this path. You're not any better than any of those other people we always talk shit about, and it's just as likely to happen to you.

4. We've been hanging out a lot lately, and it's really fun. I'm glad we're friends outside of school now. It's really cool talking to you about everything.

5. You're my nigga, fo sho. I'm glad we've been hanging out lately and I'm glad you've been there to talk to and everything, even if we got tired of eachother for a while.

6. We got super close out of nowhere, but now things are super bi-polar out of nowhere. When I'm around you or talking to you, I don't really like it as much as I used to, but when I'm not with you, I don't like it any more.

7. You're my little leprochaun buddy. You gave me a Thanksgiving when I didn't have one and you really helped me get started with what I want to do with my life. So I owe you big time. And it's been cool getting closer to you lately, Poken00b.

8. Even if you don't have a home, you'll always have one in my heart, my little Asian lovemuffin. We've really gotten closer since summer started, and I like chillin' wiff you, nigga.

9. You've dumbed yourself down so much... You're way better than all that shit. I miss the fuck out of you, but I guess drugs are more important than friends.

10. I talked to you the other day for the first time in a while, and I really miss you. But you've changed a lot too. It makes me sad... At least before you still made an effort to pretend you weren't completely absorbed in all that shit.

11. I hated you for a while, but you've been cool lately.

12. You and your boyfriend make the dumbest couple ever. I hope you realize that there's not a single person who thinks you two being together is anything close to a good idea. Dumb bitch.

13. I wanna get to know you better. You seem really cool. Hopefully that opporunity will present itself soon.

14. You're one of the few people I know that's changed for the better, and I'm really glad you did. But you don't be stealin' my baby boyyy now.

15. I've been talking to you lately, and I feel like we're gonna get to be friends, or at least jam buddies. It's cool to find someone who knows their shit musically. There aren't many of those people here.

16. You're actually fun to talk to. I can see us becoming good friends :)

a relationship.  Someone who I can laugh with.  Someone who makes me feel like it's enough to just be with them, not like we constantly have to be doing something.  Someone who is intelligent, but laid back, who can talk about dumb things and serious stuff with me.  Someone who'll go to concerts with me. 
Something real...

Lately I feel like I'm fading away, like my being here doesn't provide anything but a ride to people without a car.  I just want someone to change that, that can make me feel like I'm worth something again.

You're probably on here if I we hang out.
GUESSWHO!

1.  You're my best friend and there's nothing that I can say that I haven't said here the last two times. But I'll do it again anyways. I love you, and I'm glad you decided to get your stuff straightened out. It doesn't matter how little we talk or hang out, how much you piss me of, or what kind of stupid shit you do, you're my best friend. End of story. I really hope we'll get to hang out during the school year.

2. I miss hanging out with you. I'm sure that once school starts again, we'll hang out more because you won't always be with your girlfriend and everything. We never did try to stay in your pool for 24 hours straight though, bitch.

3. Why did you have to move? If you don't come back, I'm going to be fucking heartbroken. You're like my other half, and you're the only person who I really have long conversations with on the phone anymore. Whether we're talking about how much we hate idiots or about music, there's never a shortage of things to say. Out of all the goals I had during my sophmore year and the following summer, the only one that's basically remained is to play a show with you behind me on drums. I don't care we're playing acoustic or deathcore, or anywhere in between. I'll see you around your birthday, motherfucker :)

4. I love you, nigga. Over the summer we've gotten a lot closer. From pissing off drunk rednecks with stolen guns to just chilling and listening to Sigur Ros, I've had a blast. I'm glad you didn't end up moving back in January or at the beginning of this month. And I'm really glad to see you getting your life together instead of sitting around Starbucks smoking all day. xDEMENTORx is gonna fuckin' kill.

5. I'm stoked to be making music with you again. I can tell that once I get the new stuff down, this is gonna be a lot of fun. I love you and your leprachaun looking self.

6. We need to hang out again, sometime soon. I love you souldmate :)

7. Could these past few weeks have been any more fun? Everything hillarious when I'm with you, and I'm really glad we're hanging out more. But it's really awkward being with you. Yeah... Not really.

8. We kind of got off to a bad start for stupid reasons, but I'm glad everything's good with us now. It's hard to not have a good time when we're hanging out, no matter how much pain you put me in by punching my sunburn. Not even pulling your dick. And you got me into one of my favorite bands, so thank you :)

9. You're cool to hang out with. We've been through the whole talking shit thing, and I don't really have anything left to say. I think we just spent wayyy too much time together.

10. You're cool to hang out with. We haven't really talked much recently :/ I like being around you though.

11. I miss getting krinkly with you. I really hope we have classes together this year...

12. I'm glad you didn't die in jail! We need to hang out again soon. We can drive around and do nothing :)

13. I always thought I was a good friend to you, but lately, I've felt like I barely know you. But whatever.

14. Quit copying other people. It's really lame that you can't stand for something unless everyone around you does. You let people push you around too easily, though. Even I act like a total dick to you sometimes, and I'm sorry about that, because you have your moments of being cool.

15. Same as 14, except for the last 2 sentences. REP YOUR SHIT.

16. You're just annoying. I wasn't mad at you or anything, I was asleep. But whatever. You stopped bugging me, so I'm cool with it.

I'm now offering intermediate/beginner guitar lessons and guitar/bass refurbishing.

For lessons, I'll be teaching in hour blocks any day of the week in the following time slots:
Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday from 5:00-10:00
Wednesday from 6:00-10:00
Saturday & Sunday from 4:00-10:00

If you're interested, message me and we'll work out a schedule.  Thursdays and Wednesdays may sometimes switch around, it's all dependent upon Chemistry Lab.

But I'll teach electric or acoustic, any style of rock that you'd like.  From blues to brutal/technical death metal, I can pretty much play most style of rock.
It'll be $10 for the first lesson, and if you like it, we'll do $15 an hour.


For refurbishments, just message me, and we'll discuss what you want me to do, but what I offer is complete disassembling of the guitar to fine-tune and clean it, neck treatment for better sounds and feel, adjustment of the bridge, and restringing.  Over the summer, I may also offer repainting/custom paint jobs, but that's a big project and will cost more.
I can have your guitar back to you by the next day (assuming that I get it on Monday-Saturday), and it'll look, feel, and sound better than before.  I'll do this for electrics, acoustics, and basses.
Sorry, but I can't install pickups but I may be able to install a new nut or bridge.  Again, these are costly and time-consuming procedures so it will be more expensive and take more time.

So for the basic treatment of polishing, fine-tuning, neck treatment, adjusting, and restringing, it'll be $10 plus the cost of strings.


Here's an example of my work:
Before




After





I really am serious about this, so if you want to learn guitar or get an old one fixed up, please message me.

Thanks,
Evan

I'm really proud of these.  Probably my longest set of lyrics yet.  I really think they do a good job of describing my position.  Let me know what you think =]
Also, any suggestions for a title would be awesome =D


This pain knows no bounds
Nor does the creature which brought it
Was it you?
Was it my own mind?

These hypocritical crusades
To end that which causes my suffering:
Greed, lies, and egotism,
Know no means to accomplish
But through
Manipulation, selfishness, and guilt.
O, the irony,
It bleeds through my every word

The self loathing has risen,
The force of attraction
To that which I despise
Has turned me into the very same

Why can I not see
That the thing I desire most
Is to wind up here
In romanticized loneliness?

I've let you in, you've won,
I still sit miles from your true self,
Helplessly hoping for some sort of redemption
Some sort of approval.

Oh, isn't this position familar?
Staring at the ceiling, knotted stomach,
Clinched fist, poised to destroy what left me here,
Though I see not
That it is I, not you
Who hath left this burden upon my heart.

I could have
Turned back so long ago,
Spared myself
This misery, this pain.
But taking the easy way out
Is not my path,
Regardless of how little reason
Lay in taking this road.

Take me, use me, make me beg for more
O, I fucking love the taste of my own tears,
And this has left me with no shortage,
Except that of reason.

I beg for a savior, an end to this pain
But the real way out is in my reach,
But the beauty, the universitality of this situation
Calls me, ushers me on.
I've fucking bled myself, 
Never wanted to say I didn't try
I've fucking bled myself, 
Couldn't have put any more in
I've fucking bled myself,
Amazed I didn't die
I've fucking bled myself, 
It's time to see the crimson tears in your eyes

I've attempted to change since school started.  I've tried to branch out and talk to more people.  To quit being a dick.  To get more friends.  I think I've done a pretty good job of it, but lately I've felt like a lot of people are fed up with me, like I have friends, but not many that want to actually hang out or talk to me.  Let me rephrase that, I have lots of people to hang out with, but a few of the ones that I really want to get to know or just get closer to seem to push away.  It sucks.  I really want to be friends, and I guess I did something that annoyed them or made them not want to associate with me.  Sometimes I know it's just them being busy.  But I wish instead of just ignoring me, people would just be open and tell me what's bothering them.  I mean, why would you do that to someone instead of letting them know what's wrong?  I guess it just doesn't make sense to me to ignore a problem rather than just talking through it with someone...

So I guess I'm just asking you to let me know what I can do differently...  I may not, but I'd like to know what it is about me that seems to be annoying people or bothering them.  I really don't care what it is, I'd rather it be out in the open than you holding it against me and not telling me.

Dustin always has the coolest things on his blogs.

Anyone care enough to fill this out for me?

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. What do you think of me?
5. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
6. How long do you think we will be friends?
7. Do you love me?
8. Do you have a crush on me?
9. Would you kiss me?
10. Would you hug me?
11. Do you wish I was closer to you?
12. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
13. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
14. Am I lovable?
15. How long have you known me?
16. Describe me in one word.
17. What was your first impression?
18. Do you still think that way about me now?
19. What do you think my weakness is?
20. Do you think I'll get married?
21. What makes me happy?
22. What makes me sad?
23. What reminds you of me?
24. If you could give me anything what would it be?
25. How well do you know me?
26. When's the last time you saw me?
27. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
28. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
29. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
30. Are you going to put this on your Myspace and see what I say about you?

 

I doubt anyone will actually take the time, but whatever...

Washed away in a tide,
A tide of longing, stronger than I can bear.
You disseminate pain with your every breath
And engulf me in self-hatred
The thought of you repulses,
But attracts like no other.

This will end tonight.
No more false accusations,
No more manipulation.
You won't inflict suffering
Another god damned second.

Your breath like a gust of delusion,
What won't you do
To get what you want?
Begging and hopeless you left me,
But too blind to see
How fucked up you really were.
The damage you caused
Does not bring you sorrow.
The only thing you still regret
Is letting me escape whole...

Left with only memories,
I've had my share of misgivings
And you've shown me
The evil that men do.

Searching, we long for
Some warm familiarity,
A lie that proves to ourselves
This self-deception is justified

But these memories
Are no longer lucid,
Instead a clouded outline,
A blurred notion of what once was
These languid moments
Gathered through endless sacrifice
Have been erased, and I'm left
With the bitersweet kiss of freedom

The longing, once so strong
Exists and motivates me no longer
What is there left to strive for
When there was nothing from the start?

Take me out of this haze,
I can't tollerate this dream world any longer,
Bring me back to reality, such a long stride
Connect me, give me hope, give me a reason to live.

So, for those of you who don't know, my best friend/musical soulmate/drummer Nik is moving to Oklahoma.  It's the only thing I can imagine that would make me cry one something that's otherwise the best day I've had in ages...

He's coming back one weekend to pick up his stuff, and I may be gone to a marching contest.  So right now, I want to let him know how much he means to me.




Nik, we've known eachother since July of last year, but I feel like you've been with me my whole fucking life.  I don't know what it is, but when you're behind the drum set and I have my guitar, I'm high.  It's the most amazing thing in the world, and you have no idea how much you helped me sort out my life by giving me someone to pour out my emotions to.  From our Alice Cooper jams that we walk away from feeling amazing to those awkward practices where niether of us feels we are performing at level that suits the other, I always come out of it with a great feeling. 

Not only are you an amazing musician, you are the best fucking friend I could have asked for recently.  This summer, I could call you and at a moment's notice, we'd be hanging out.  The day you messaged me and told me that I'd inspired you to get clean was the first time I've felt like I made a difference in anyone's life.  You made me feel like I was actually someone, and that I wasn't just another pissed off kid.  You've been like a brother, and I'll never forget the times we've spent together.


I sincerely love you Nik.  We had our downs before you got cleaned up, but after you did, I think that you were the other half of me musically. 

If I do get to see you, we're gonna have one more jam before you leave, and I promise, neither of us will ever forget it.

I just felt like I needed to let that out, and let you know that you made a difference in my life too.  And regardless how many hundreds of miles away you are, I'll always be here for you, dude.